Christian.
"I love you, Christian Grey"
The girl of my dreams is in front of me telling me they love me and I am just standing here looking like an ass. I should speak I think I forgot how. shit, She probably thinks I don't love her anymore I need to get my brain in mouth on the same page before she thinks the worst.
"I'm Sorry I shouldn't have just shown up I should have called first you probably have plans I didn't want to ruin them I just wanted you to know I was sorry and I am hopelessly in love with you Just completely out of my Mind thinking you would be happy to see me after I put you through . I am going to go tell Bri to call me."
"Are you done? "
"Yes"
'Anastasia Rose Steele. You are my lifeline I love you more then words can begin to express I am so happy you're here we need to talk really talk but I love you, baby and I'm, here and we will talk but right now I just want to hold you."
Ana:
He still loves me thank god I thought I made an ass out of myself for coming all the way down here for him to tell me how much he hated me but I am afraid of what is going to happen once we actually talk and I tell him everything I did. EVERYTHING UGH he is going to hate me find me disgusting think I am A slut.
'Baby I can hear you thinking, relax we will talk and everything will be okay I promise"
"how do you know you don't know what I did"
"Whatever it is will get through it"
'Okay, I broke up with you because I was afraid of how I felt I have always known you were the one I wanted forever I was so sure and I have always been sure. but we are so young and only been with each other. I thought how do we know it's going to last" how do we know we are it for the other? we are head over heels in love now and you have always been my best friend, Christian I just kept thinking if we don't work how will we face it. are families are pretty much one and id have to sit through holiday's with you and watch you love your new girl and eventually your wife and kids and I'd be on the sidelines thinking it should be me I should be your wife not her I should be the one you hold and cuddle not her, I hated her and she was just a figment of my Imagination I couldn't Imagine if that was real and then Kate and Brian and pretty much everyone in our family Kept saying we wouldn't work you needed to see the world and have other girls and experience college and I didn't want to ruin that for you I loved you too much to deny you a college experience so I lied to you and broke up with you and made you believe I was okay with it when I wasn't I promise but that doesn't mean I didn't do things I probably shouldn't' have"
Christian:
"I get it, Ana, I do but our families are not us other people are not us no one knows us better then we do and the only experience I want is with you without you I am miserable I waited for you everyone knew I loved you but you so I waited hoping you'd figure it out of course you never did so I finally confessed it to you. I know we have both made mistakes and I know I have had sex with other woman but I have always only ever wanted you I thought of you always I've missed you I want us together but no more Breaking up over insecurities or Jealousy I will keep my temper in check and I will love you always do you hear me just you just me just us always"
"Why are you crying?"
'I had oral sex with someone else Kind of he ate me out and finger fucked me in the janitors closet at school and last night we planned to have sex I ended up in his car and we were headed to his place he started talking and then I got this feeling not a bad one just like I wasn't supposed to be there with him he isn't the one I want he was a total Gentleman, he just let me talk to him about you and how I was feeling and never Interrupted me and when I was done he suggested I tell you he drove me to the airport to come to you"
"Another guy got to touch you and kiss you and taste you "
"YES I am so sorry I was trying to forget you"
"I see well did it work?"
"Obviously not I am here aren't I"
"I love you, Anastasia Steele, I am not angry with you. You are mine and I am yours we will talk our problems out and we will make time every night and text every day. And next year you will be here with me and I look forward to talking to it I can't wait to call you my wife because that is happening soon babies can wait.
We still need to grow up and you need to trust me and not let insecurities get the best of you."
Ana: Thanksgiving was great with Bri and Christian I ended up Cooking an entire Meal and they had all their friends come over I even met the twins Christian almost slept with they seemed surprised to see me hoping they'd get another chance with him. but they soon collected themselves when Christian made it known I am the only one for him. I still have insecurities but I am working through them. Today I am Packing as I need to go back to Seattle.
Christian:
Ana is going back to Seattle today she has classes. I hate when she goes back. I miss her when she is gone. I really do love her but we are young so it is scary to not experience life without her and her without me but when I found out about Davis I wanted to kill him. I can only imagine how she felt when she found out about me. I guess will see what happens. I hope we can make this work but I need to keep my Anger issues in check and not go crazy everytime another fucker is around her when I can't be. Christmas is right around the corner and our families are always together so I know I will see her in a few weeks but waiting is going to fucking kill me.
A/N
Sorry about the long wait for an update I lost my Laptop for a little while and I work in Pediatrics and by the time I get home I am exhausted. but this story is my baby and I really want to take the time to really outline it and work on it so it won't be updated until the new year. but I Have another story that I started before this one that I love And need to read it over and figure out where to take it next lol. but Happy holidays Merry Christmas Happy New year. I hope you all enjoy your holiday season I know I will definitely try But being an adult kind of sucks lol. My 31st Birthday is coming so I am planning that and Christmas and my Fiance and I are hoping to have our own little Peanut this year pray for us. but I am done rambling now I will see you in 2019!