After an unexpected move on your part there was a small accident where you had gotten droplets of paint on Yuri's face and neck. Thankfully missing her clothes by some small miracle. After cleaning her off with a towel the two of you found yourselves in a surprisingly intimate moment. It wasn't that you disliked being close to her but it was certainly new and had caught you off guard when she asked for your hand to stay at her face for longer than intended with the warm wash cloth. Once the moment had passed the two of you were able to continue your work and managed to finish with every task.
"I think it came out better than I expected." Yuri said admiring the work you'd both put in. The banner you'd made for the literature club was a lovely color of a day lit sky giving way to night. "I'm really happy with the results." You agreed with her assessment and asked if she had planned on adding the lettering for the banner now. However Yuri had already thought ahead on this. "Ah, not yet... It needs to dry first."
That made sense but the amount of time it would take for all the paint to dry would have been longer than she planned on staying. Considering you'd used the majority of the day putting everything together you brought up this concern with Yuri. "Well... perhaps it would be best to leave it here, then have you bring it in the morning. I can do the lettering in the classroom before the event starts. Is that okay?" You agreed with Yuri's suggestion, having no problem with keeping track of the banner for her until the festival tomorrow. "Wonderful. In that case... I don't think there's anything more for us to do here."
After Yuri's confirmation that everything was finished you let out a large sigh of relief. "Ahaha. You say that like you're glad it's over. Was I wrong to assume that you were at least enjoying yourself a little bit?" You assure her that it had nothing to do with the time you spent together. There was just a weight lifted with managing to complete all your work in time with nothing left over. "I see. I am, too. I was a little concerned about time..." Yuri admits thinking to herself. "I need to start making dinner soon." Hearing that you admit to Yuri a little disappointment knowing she was out of time for you to spend together.
"Well..." Yuri thinks to herself carefully, as if she was weighing many options inside her mind at your words. Finally she came to a decision. "I suppose I don't really get many opportunities to take a day for myself. Maybe I could stay for a while longer?" There wasn't any argument to having Yuri spend the evening with you, happy to have her company. But without a direction or task to complete you felt hesitation as you tried to decide how to entertain your guest. However Yuri was ready to let you know what she was interested in. "If it's alright, can I look around your room some? I haven't been over to another person's home very often." It was a little odd having someone ask if they could snoop through your things but you relented to her request, not wanting Yuri to feel awkward. She seemed happy to get an opportunity to learn more about you and began to pick through your things (though she made sure to ask permission first in case there was anything she shouldn't touch.)
In the end this worked out in both of your favors as it gave a subject for you to discuss together. Yuri eager to discuss all the personal items she found interesting and letting you share various stories about yourself with her. There was a genuine smile on her face as she learned more, taking note of everything that was special to you. Before long this lead to a tour of the house as a whole where you got Yuri acquainted with your home. Eventually making your way downstairs together the two of you ended up in your kitchen where Yuri discovered just how long she'd stayed over at the sight of the clock on your stove.
"Oh no, I've kept you busy all this time." Yuri realized but you let her know it wasn't a problem. In fact you really enjoyed having her over for as long as she did. Without warning Yuri made he way to your fridge and opened it, leaning over to look inside. "Hmm... what did you plan to make for dinner tonight?" She asked and you admitted that you hadn't given it much thought. Since you were both working on the project today dinner was likely going to be something quick and easy. Closing your fridge Yuri then opened your cabinets to get an idea of everything you had, not hesitating now as she searched through your things boldly. "Yes, I think I can work with all of this." Not understanding what she meant Yuri had a pleasant smile on her face.
"Well since I tied you up all day I think it's only fair I treat you to a home cooked meal, don't you think?" Yuri offered which took you by surprise. She'd mentioned previously the need to return home to make dinner herself. But to haver her cook for you felt like you were imposing upon her original plans. Though Yuri saw it differently. "It's not causing me any trouble. The truth is I don't really get to cook like this. I mean... for someone else, like this. Together." Working through her shyness Yuri was summoning her courage. "Unless you'd rather I leave it to you?"
You hadn't expected her to offer something as kind as cooking for your tonight. Wondering about her original plans you ask if staying later will be a problem but Yuri assures you it's fine. "There's nothing to be concerned about. If you'll let me take over your kitchen I'll show you what I can do. Natsuki might be the queen of baking but I'm not without some skill with a cooking knife." Since she wanted to do it you tell her it's fine and Yuri nearly giggled in delight. "I'm really looking forward to this opportunity." Pulling out her phone Yuri began tapping away at the screen. You couldn't tell if she was texting someone or looking something up, but decided it would be rude to pry into it. So taking a seat nearby you let her go to work.
She let you know it was okay if you wanted to relax while she cooked, but you informed her you'd rather be here with her. Not minding the company Yuri began to pull out the ingredients she'd need and the utensils to use them. Interestingly Yuri carefully examined your kitchen knife set over all other things, as if she were studying how well you took care of them. Earlier she'd mentioned her knife collection so that probably meant she had a good understanding of what a strong knife was compared to a regular or dull blade. Thankfully your kitchen tools passed her inspection and Yuri began to work. Every so often asking you where things were kept and making small talk while she prepared the food. As she was wrapping up you took it upon yourself to set the dinner table for two and when it was done there was a perfect home made meal on each plate.
"I hope you enjoy it." Yuri said but you already felt confident you would. The smell was enough to tell you she'd gone all out. Once you sunk your teeth into you let Yuri know it was delicious and she was very pleased to hear it. "I'm so happy. It's like I'm a house wife making dinner for you." She admitted and seemed to realize in the moment that it was a bit forward. "Ah! I didn't mean to say something that embarrassing..." You let Yuri know it was alright and there was nothing wrong for enjoying the moment. She was still bashful about her words but took comfort in you assuring her and enjoyed dinner.
When you were finished you took the plates for her into the kitchen and cleaned things up alongside each other. With the two of you working together it didn't take long before everything was put away and found yourselves once again free of all required tasks. Standing awkwardly together you thanked Yuri for making you both dinner and she let you know it was all her pleasure. Neither one of you seemed to want to part ways and trying to find some excuse for an extension you asked Yuri if she wanted to rest a bit before heading home. "Well... I probably shouldn't stay here too long. But I would like to sit for a while before having to depart." Not so secretly thankful for this you offer Yuri to head to the living room and she follows you for a rest on the couch.
"This was really nice." Yuri said, placing her purse on the coffee table while you both relaxed. Its presence was a sad reminder this night couldn't go on forever but you were enjoying every extra minute. "It's pretty rare I ever stay over at someone's house this late." You let her know it was also rare you ever had someone over like this but you were very thankful she decided to do it. Agreeing with you Yuri turned her head downward towards the carpet. "May I ask you for a favor? Tomorrow when we see everyone at the literature club, is it alright if we kept all of tonight to ourselves?" That was easy enough to agree to. Not that you were ashamed of having Yuri over at your house but if any kind of rumors started Yuri probably wouldn't be able to take the scrutiny from the other girls. Once you let her know you'd keep it a secret she seemed to let go of a breath she'd been holding in and smiled. "Thank you."
Moving closer to you on the couch Yuri leaned into you and rested her head on your shoulder. You didn't expect such a bold move from her but didn't mind at all. In fact if you were being honest this was the kind of thing you'd hoped for tonight but didn't believe would happen when Yuri visited. Her arms wrapped around yours as she snuggled into you. "It's warm" Yuri whispered and you put a hand over one of hers, snuggling along with her. The feeling was warm and it was undeniably soft being gripped against her chest. "I can't believe I got it." She said almost to herself and you asked her what it was she got. "The perfect evening." Yuri admitted and leaned herself fulling into you.
In this embrace it really did make for the perfect evening. You wondered just how many more you could spend with Yuri like this? There was a temptation to ask her but you didn't want to disturb her as she was resting. Instead just letting the moment hang like it was and the quiet surround you. Yuri's fingers laced together with yours and she turned her head to look up at you. Her eyes in a deep gaze like when she was lost in thought reading her books. Those eyes slowly closed and her lips came together. As if caught in her trance you moved in to her silent invitation and kissed her lips. Yuri took in a breath through her nose as you felt her fingers grip yours tighter at the kiss before breaking it and slowly pulling away from each other.
Her eyes blinked a few times as if she was coming out of her daze as she realized what happened. "Wait... did we... did we just...?" You nodded to her and could feel her fingers grip your hand and arm tighter. "Oh my God, I'm an idiot." Yuri said looking away. "I can't believe I just did that without thinking." Her hands started to slip away from yours but you held fast gently and she stayed by your side. Letting Yuri know it wasn't like she was alone in this action as you had kissed her too. Fingers laced with yours again as she stayed but was blushing furiously. "Still that was so dumb of me. I just went and did that without even asking or... I don't know." Head leaning on your shoulder again you patted her hand, not sure what words were the right ones to say but wanting to her to know it was fine. More than fine really, you'd gotten the chance to actually kiss the beautiful girl next to you.
"You don't just feel sorry for me, right?" Yuri asked suddenly which caught you by surprise. "Usually people think I'm pretty strange. That I act weird or that I look weird. So you're not... taking pity on me because you feel bad, are you?" She was struggling with more self doubt than you realized but you assured her that that wasn't the case. Everything had happened today was because you enjoyed being with her. "Okay... sometimes I wonder. I'm not as capable as the other girls. I'm also not as cute as them. Everyone else is really effeminate and pretty and I'm... kind of a big cow." Those last words didn't sound like something Yuri would normally say. You recalled she'd mentioned people had made fun of her for not just her habits but her body in the past. Reassuring her again you let Yuri know not only was she just as cute as any of the girls in the club but her figure made her especially effeminate. After all anyone that made those kind of jokes about her were probably jealous.
"Jealous of me? I can't imagine it." Yuri said but snuggled against your arm. "Still hearing you say those things makes me feel better. Like I don't have to be worried all the time about what others think." She tilted her head up to you again and swallowed a nervous lump in her throat. "If it's okay may we... kiss again?" Instead of speaking you just nod and leaned towards Yuri, lips meeting once more. Now that she was thinking about it you could feel she was stiffer than the previous kiss, as if she was trying to perform for you. Wanting to help her relax you pulled your hand from her fingers and ran it through her long hair against the back of her head. She let out of breath of surprise but it got her into the mood as she leaned into and became focused on her enjoyment over trying to please you. When your lips parted again Yuri was smiling shyly and hugged your arm tight against her chest.
"S-say...I um... I was wondering something. Can you... maybe... turn off the lights?" Yuri asked in a quiet voice. Things would be a lot more intimate together in the dark and you couldn't see any reason to disagree with her request. Standing up from the couch you proceeded through the house, turning off the lights in the living room and the rooms adjacent. Thankfully you knew your way around well enough that there wasn't any fear of bumping into something and making a fool of yourself. Once the lights were out you made your way back to the couch and sat next to Yuri, only able to see her outline. "Wow, I guess it really is late. It's so dark already." She commented with how little light there was to see.
You felt a soft hand reach for yours and met it with your own, Yuri keeping a hold of your arm as she moved closer to you. Though something felt very different this time when she hugged you against her chest. Instead of the soft feeling of being pressed against Yuri's sweater you could feel warm, bare skin. Her head leaned up again and you moved to meet her lips in a kiss, Yuri much more passionate now. Her mouth parted for the kiss to become deeper and feeling brave you let your hand rise up to cup Yuri's breast. A pleased moan breathed into her kiss as your fingers gently caressed.
When the kiss parted Yuri leaned up to your ear, her voice quivering with excitement. "I want to... to do something. Something for you." You felt a shaking hand move down over your lap and rub against it. "Something I want to do with this body you like so much. M-m-may I?" She was still nervous even this far along and you gently let her know you'd happily go along with what wished. "Okay... good, I'm glad." Yuri said happily and moved off of the couch, onto the carpet and on her knees. You could hear her opening up her purse to get something and after a few moments there were those soft hands again over the front of your belt trying to remove it. Letting her work you move your body around to allow Yuri to take away your garments until there was nothing left below the waste.
"Wow, this is it." Yuri said in amazement in the dark, fingers touching your erection and exploring it with her hands. "I've read about it a lot before but I've never seen one. W-well I guess I still haven't s-seen it..." Yuri stammered nervously but didn't take her hands away. There was something wet and smooth on her palms that let her hands move swiftly with no resistance. You asked Yuri what it was as she was cutely surprised by the question. "Oh, you noticed? I guess of course you'd notice since I'm touching your... it's some lotion meant to help things... move easier." You imagined if you could see Yuri's face right now it would be very red in the cheeks. Not asking her why she was carrying something like this in her purse you just let her know it felt nice and she was happy to hear that. "I'm going to do something else nice now. I've been wanting to try this for... for a while."
Your legs were spread further apart and Yuri moved closer to you, a soft and warm grip enveloping your erection. You could see Yuri's figure moving in the darkness and feel her breasts grip around your cock as she moved herself up and down. "It fits right between them." Yuri said happily as she continued to stroke you with her breasts, being rather quiet as she worked but moving with enthusiasm. "Does it feel good?" She asked in the dark and you answered honestly telling her it felt amazing. "I'm happy. I wanted to do this for someone that appreciated me. Appreciated how I am as a person... how I looked." Her breath was coming out louder now and you could feel the heat of it hit your stomach as she stroked you. "I wanted to give it to someone that really loved it..."
Even at a slower pace Yuri was bringing you closer and closer and you let her know that you could climax soon. Hearing that Yuri stopped for a moment and in the dark you couldn't see what kind of a face she was making. Asking her if there was anything wrong Yuri took a moment to respond. "No it's... nothing is wrong. I know you would want to... you know... finish. Just, before you do... um..." Her hands stopped gripping her breasts and she leaned up on her knees. Pressing her body against yours and hugging around your torso. "Can we do something else? Something um... m-m-more?" She asked nervously. You weren't sure what that meant but at this moment you were willing to agree to nearly anything she wanted. Accepting her request Yuri leaned up to kiss your lips again. "Okay! Just a minute."
Leaving you again you could hear Yuri rummaging inside of her purse once more. When she returned to you she was kneeling again. "So if we do something... a lot more... you won't think less of me right? Think I'm easy or... or a slut?" Yuri asked nervously and you let her know you'd never think that about her. After considering your words Yuri nodded to herself in the darkness. "Okay then, here it goes." She said and you could hear her rip something open like a paper seal. Then she took your cock in hand and slowly slid a condom over it. "I... got this recently. I didn't think I'd use it tonight but... it's like a knife, right? Better to have it and not need it than the other way around?" The words were said with a nervous laugh. "I read that in a book once..." Petting her hair and kissing the top of her head you let her know she had a point. That also she just proved in this moment that she was certainly very cute.
Letting out a happy sigh Yuri asked you to kneel down on the carpet as well. Going along with her request you got to your knees like she asked so you were on the same level. She put her arms around you in a hug and you hugged her back tightly, noting how nice it felt to have her embraced you like this. She began whispering in your ear. "So I wanted to get... more... intimate. But I still want to um... be a virgin. For marriage. Technically, at least." Yuri confessed. "I guess it sounds silly since we're together like this right now but it's still something I want. So for us to still be intimate there was something I wanted to try. Stay still, okay?"
Releasing her embrace Yuri left you and turned her body around, getting down onto all fours. Her hand reached back and took a hold of your cock, gripping it in her fingers and pulling it up between her legs, against her pussy. Yuri let out a moan as she rubbed herself against it and you fought every desire to push forward and enter her. After a moment of enjoying herself Yuri brought your cock up farther and pushed her hips back as you felt the tip press against her ass. "J-just... just go slow for me? Okay?" It was surprising she wanted to do this but you didn't deny her request. Slowly pushing forward as you felt the tip enter into her.
"Oh! Oh it's... nngh!" Yuri panted and you stopped moving. "It's okay... I didn't expect it to feel this intense." Catching her breath Yuri motioned for you to continue and you slowly pressed inside of Yuri as she endured the pressure. Worried you asked her if she was in pain and Yuri took a moment to respond. "It... hurts a little. It's okay though... you don't have to worry. I want it." Yuri admitted and you agreed, gently placing your hands on her hips as you pressed deeper into her. She was moaning louder now with each movement but never asked you to stop. Your cock slowly working in and out of her ass while she endured with pained and pleasured moans.
"Nnngh! Oh that's... better!" Yuri said through a sharp inhale of breath. "It's better now... you can move... you can move..." You assume she meant you could move faster and you slowly pick up the pace as you push into Yuri as she continued to take deep gasps. "Kyaaah! Oh I can feel it! I wanted this!" Through each cry out Yuri seemed to become more entranced with what was happening. All fear and hesitation leaving her as you kept pushing inside of Yuri while the resistance that was there before faded away with each thrust. "It's like I can't think. Nnngah! I can't think and I don't want to!"
Leaning forward you use a hand to brace yourself on the couch and the other to reach around and grab her breast, squeezing it tightly. Yuri moans in delight and arched her back. "I want you to squeeze them! If you love them you can use them how you want." Your fingers found her nipple in the dark and gently pulled at it, noting that Yuri seems to enjoy it more as things became the rougher. "Oh that's it! If you love me... if you love me you can use me how you want!" Holding on hard to the couch and Yuri your hips moved faster and faster until you felt yourself release inside of her. Even with the condom on Yuri gasped feeling your body pump inside of her, shaking as she took it all with delight. "Yes... yes... I wanted it so badly." She said through deep gasps as you slowly pulled yourself out.
Once you were both separated Yuri fell onto her side and collapsed on the carpet, panting hard. You were tired too after your work but feeling wonderful along with her. Removing the condom you placed it aside and moved closer to Yuri who was stuck to her spot on the ground. Leaning forward you kissed her cheek and took her hand in yours. She was still panting for air but gripped your hand hard and held it happily. Your other hand rested on top of hers and gently slid down her arm.
That was when you felt something warm and wet.
It wasn't like the lotion she'd placed on her hands. You could still feel that on her palm and it had a soft and gliding feeling against the skin. This was thicker and didn't seem like sweat. Also it seemed to be concentrated all on her forearm. Yuri seemed to realize what you were doing and whispered. "Wait..." Pulling your hand up from her arm you smelt what was on it and noted it was very different than what you expected. "Wait." Yuri whispered again but you were already standing up and heading for the light switch. "Wait!" Flipping it on you turned back to her again.
Yuri was holding her arm under her body. She wasn't attempting to hide any part of her naked form, instead just keeping that arm out of sight. "No. No no no..." Repeating the word to herself and in the newly lit room you could see the knife Yuri had used earlier to cut the ribbons was on the carpet nearby. "No. Please no. Not this." Looking at your hand you could see the red smears of blood and rushing back over to her side you gently pulled Yuri up to a sitting position. Her cleavage was now smeared as well with the blood coming from her forearm and Yuri had tears in her eyes as she looked at you. "Nooooooo..." She sobbed as your eyes landed upon what she'd been trying to hide from you.
She'd cut herself with the knife. It had to have been while you were having sex, there wasn't any other point where she could have done it. Tears running from her eyes and blood from her arm Yuri looked away ashamed. Holding her arm like it was some sort of object that she was going to be scolded for breaking. Gently taking her hand you asked if she'd come with you to the bathroom and Yuri nodded through her tears, standing up and following you.
Sitting on the edge of your bathtub Yuri held her arm out while you carefully cleaned her cuts and applied bandages over the wounds. She was silent the entire time but didn't fight your efforts, just looking downward at the floor. When everything was finished and the blood smears were washed away you sat next to her on the tub, both still naked but in a drastically different mood from previous. After a few moments you put you arm around Yuri's shoulders and thankfully she leaned against you. Silence filled the room while you stayed close to one another and eventually you managed to ask her if she did this a lot.
"Sometimes." Yuri confessed, seemingly afraid to say more. You let her know that you think her arm will be okay and she just nodded. Looking over her body you could see on her other arm there were faint traces of scars. This clearly wasn't the first time she'd done this to herself. "Do you hate me?" She asked fearfully and you let her know that you did not. You were just confused and worried about her. "That's why I... I didn't know if it was okay. Okay to let you see me. The real me. I just... I was stupid again. I didn't think. I didn't think!" Tears were coming to her anew and you stayed by her side wanting to comfort her but at a loss for the right words. You give her some time to calm and deciding to press on asked her why she did it.
"It feels good." Yuri confessed. "I bet that sounds weird, right? That it feels good to hurt myself? It does though, I like the way it feels when I do." She explained calmly, as if she'd been rehearsing this in her mind. "Before when people made fun of me or just... just were mean to me... I'd do it and it would make me feel better. Like I was cutting out the bad parts of myself. But sometimes I do it when I feel good too, because it just makes me feel even better." She looked up at you with sad eyes. "This probably sounds insane, doesn't it? Weirdo Yuri likes to cut herself to get off. Who wouldn't have seen that coming? I'm sorry that I made you... I should leave!" Standing up quickly Yuri made her way to the bathroom exit, walking back to the living room.
Heading after her you give Yuri a moment to put her clothing back on and decide it would be more proper to do the same yourself. Once she was dressed Yuri put her things away in her purse. "I guess... don't forget the banner for school tomorrow, okay?" She said trying to move past you to the door but you asked her not to leave yet. "I can't... I can't stay anymore. I really should go home. It's late." Yuri said even though that was more of an excuse now after how late she'd already stayed. Deciding you couldn't leave things this way you offered to walk her home, not wanting to let her go out alone in the night anyway. She considered it and appeared as if she was going to deny you, but after looking into your eyes her features softened. "Okay... as long as it doesn't inconvenience you."
Getting your keys and heading out the door along with her you walk through the mostly empty streets to take her home. Yuri was quiet for a long time as were you, not sure what to say to her now. But summoning your courage you let her know that if it's okay with her you'd like to spend time together again. Telling her this Yuri stopped walking. "Why would you say you wanted to see me again? After everything that happened?" You told her it was because you truly wanted to keep spending time together. "But... but you know... what I'm like." You told her you did know now, that it's because you knew understood her more that you wanted to see her again. "I don't understand. You saw it. The thing I'm most ashamed of and you still want to be near me? Why would you want that?"
You let her know that it's because you loved her. Even if she has flaws. Everyone does and even though you didn't exactly understand what was driving her to want to do this that knowing her, flaws and all, you truly wanted to be together still.
Yuri's eyes threatened to tear up again but she held them back. "I can't... promise I'll stop." She said frankly. "Knowing that... knowing that I might not stop... do you still feel that way?" It did worry you to know she was hurting herself purposefully, but that didn't make you care any less about her. So you asked again if it was okay for you to be together?
"It's all I wanted." Yuri confessed and hugged you tightly. "It's really all I ever wanted."
In the dark of the night the two of you kept hold of each other's hands. Things would be different now, for both of you going forward. It was like Yuri said, she couldn't promise that whatever was bothering her would just go away. That she could stop her habits just because you were in her life now. But you wanted to be there for her when she needed comfort and she was happy to be there for you just as much. Tomorrow was the festival and while it was an event for your club it was in a way your first date as a couple too. One where you'd be proud to bring the materials the two of you had put together. Along with a few extra bandages in your bag, just in case.