Once I'd swallowed the last bit of the sandwich, I laid there with my head on Hoseok's chest for another moment. I closed my eyes and breathed in the scent of his clothes - masculine cologne and fabric softener. In this moment, right now, I was calm and I could breathe for once. Anything was possible; I could be healthy again, I could be with someone I love, I could finally be happy.

I felt Hoseok's body move and could feel the pressure of his gaze on the back of my head. Maybe he could sense my thoughts racing because he put both his arms around me and just held tight - kept me present in this moment.

I never wanted this moment to end, I wanted to sit here with my head against my boyfriend's chest forever and I never wanted to move.

'What are you thinking about?' I heard Hoseok say and my thoughts flurried around my head for a moment before dissipating and leaving me with the forest, and the cool night's air, and Hoseok's warmth around me.

'You want the truth or nah?' I answered while propping myself up on one hand and turning to face him so that I was leaning over his body.

'The truth,' he said.

'The truth is that I'm thinking about you and this moment and us but that's pretty cliche and I guess romantic-'

Then I felt his lips on mine and my stomach turned into the flurry of butterflies. Hoseok's kiss was passionate but gentle, as if he was afraid I might break. I brought my hand that wasn't holding my body up, closer to his face to cup his cheek and pull him closer to my body. I realised my eyes were still open, looking into his face and closed them to enjoy the moment.

We were an us and I was totally okay with that. I wasn't worried about anything or anyone else, only him and his lips on mine.

Slowly, Hoseok pulled away and I could feel myself blush and get all flustered. In an attempt to hold onto my pride, I shoved my face into his chest and held onto him. I felt the pressure of his arm fall onto my back and his chin rest upon my head.

'I love you Yoongi' he whispered into my hair and I smiled into the fabric of his shirt.

'I love you too.'

After about 30 minutes of Hoseok and I snuggling against the tree and sharing each other's warmth, we finally decided to hike back down the mountain. The air had become frigid and quite frankly, cold - so much so that I was shaking in the darkness.

But it was a good night, the kind of night that I wouldn't want to forget in a hurry. I looked up at the moon and watched the stars shine in the darkness. I thought about how each star is a certain amount of light time away from earth and how we're not really seeing the star how it is now. For example, a star that is eight light years away, shines eight year old light onto earth and we're looking eight years into the past when we look at the star. I thought and thought and thought about the stars because when you think about it, stars are kind of fascinating.

I looked away from the night sky and instead turned my attention to Hoseok, whose eyes were glancing between me and the path ahead of us as we forged onwards through the darkness. I felt his hand snake it's way into my own and I smiled at him.

For a few minutes, we walked like that; in silence, holding hands as we walked in this forest. It was a nice moment - we seemed to be having a lot of those throughout the night - and I realised just how strong my feelings for him had become over the past few weeks.

'Have you ever just looked at the stars and just thought?' I asked suddenly.

I guess the question had come as a surprise to Hoseok but it was an even bigger surprise to me. I hadn't been planning to break our silence but it had happened naturally and I wasn't going to complain if it gave me a chance to talk to my lover.

'No, not really…' he said and turned his face towards me, never once faltering in his footsteps.

'Well… they're really fascinating to look at…' I replied and I wasn't really sure where I was going to take the conversation until a question struck me. 'What do you usually think about when you're alone?'

Hoseok focused his head back to the path in front of us and was quiet for a second. 'I guess… I guess I think about you… I think about the future I'm gonna have…'

For a moment, he was silent again until I felt his gaze move back to me and he corrected his last statement. 'The future that we're gonna have.'

I realised then that we'd arrived back at the car and stopped walking. I could see Hoseok trying to read my face and I felt my cheeks heating up, felt them start to go red.

I tried not to let it show and hid my face by looking sheepishly down at the ground. But I was excited at the idea of a future with him. A future with my lover. So I smiled and hugged him, breathing in his scent to ground myself in this place, this moment.