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"NO, RYAN."

While at sat right back at the A&E and waiting for Ryan to come back from the X-ray I checked the news. And come on! Did Candi- Rose have to film exactly everything.

Just like the video with the one when we though Ryan had purposely jumped right onto that criminal she had filmed it when Ryan came down to the water on Hero's back and reaching for Alex. And then more when Hero hit Ryan in the head and Ryan fell off.

The point when she had stopped filming finally was when the ambulances drove away from the beach.

And the one shouting in that video was Chloe, I hadn't heard her shouting so much from the beach when I was down on the bridge. But she must have because it was filmed. It was even filmed when Chloe tried to roll down her wheelchair on the sand and ended up with it getting stuck- when she tried her hardest with rolling it she ended up with it falling over and her being thrown right out down of it.

Tyler and Jody came to Chloe's aid but there Candi- Rose had lifted her phone and was back where Ryan finally sat up coughing and spitting, but very much breathing and alive while I sat hunched on the bridge in exhaustion.

"Does that girl have to share exactly everything?"

I mumbled to myself right before Ryan's bed was pushed back through the A&E and he came back. He hadn't gotten the chance to even try his phone- maybe it wasn't even working now for being full of water and probably hit by a horse and towards the bridge.

I scrolled down on the page, maybe it hadn't been seen much and I could ask her to take it down before Ryan had even known it had been put up.

It already had thousands of views, taking it down now would do no good. It had probably been shared somewhere else, through the whole town, if not the whole world.

The doctor more or less threw Ryan's x-ray pictures on a lightboard where his ribs showed. Three or four of them had been broken and I barely understood when the doctor explained to me what it meant or what it would mean in the future.

"Ryan's very lucky." The doctor said at last. "This one had moved only a few millimeters over here and it had damaged his heart. Who knows if he ever would have waken up then?"

Something hit my throat rougher than what an actual punch would have and I couldn't breathe. Right next to me sat Charlie and on her side Alex on his bed, having fallen asleep by everything that had happened even though it was only afternoon.

"Mike." I heard next to me as if Charlie had read my mind. "It wasn't your fault. You just did what you had to and thanks to that Ryan is really here and breathing…" I wasn't able to squeeze an answer through my thick throat. "…I'll go down to the cafeteria." Charlie didn't seem to be able to find another thing to say about that and changed the subject. "We both need somewhere to raise our blood sugar levels and I'm pretty sure these boys will get their dinners from the doctors."

"It wasn't your fault."

I could hear and hear again what Charlie had told me. But then louder there was thoughts about the boy who laid right next to me, his whole chest black and blue, so near to have to leave at this point, when things had finally changed to him and his truths.

"Here."

I hadn't even noticed the time passing by when Charlie came back holding a pack of Tesco sandwiches and a fizzy drink right in front of my face…

"I guess, here comes the food for the boys."

Just as she had said that a nurse each had come and put plates on the boys' bedside tables and pushed them closer while waking them up. The nurse that had woken Ryan up and given food stayed by him when he started eating. I hoped she wouldn't want to talk about what was the most realistic thing. But of course…

"Hey, I remember you. You stopped that burglar. That video was all over the internet and you were on TV and in Lord knows how many papers. Then there was that something about you being dressed up as a clown. Gosh, my son wanted to know everything about that and now he wants nothing else than your autograph. Can we give him one if I gave a pen and paper?"

I knew by now that Ryan had accepted to himself and to me even that grabbing that criminal was an accident. And it wasn't that he'd been trying to keeping it a secret during that day at the bus station before my wedding but he hadn't exactly shouted it out either.

If this got the big news that only time would tell what would happen, and right then, if glares could kill from both my own and Ryan's there wouldn't have been much left of that nurse.

"No? No autograph? How can you deny that for a…"

"I think that's enough." I stood up and tenderly pushed away the nurse from him. "Ryan's been through a lot today and that story with the criminal is a whole story in itself that Ryan wouldn't have chosen to get out in the way it did. Now, leave. Or I will have to make you…"

Now I was the one who glared so much there wouldn't have been much left of the nurse. But I was relieved when she turned away and left us.

Ryan was barely nibbling on the burger and French fries that was on this day's menu. He held one arm pressed to his ribs at all time and from his eyes pain was shining.

"Should I get the doctor? Maybe he can give you some painkillers?"

"No…" Ryan mumbled and took a bite but I could see how it was growing in his mouth. "I'm good. It's just… well… I was just wondering how Chloe's doing after everything. I suppose… Well, maybe I kind of scared her."

"Kind of… Well, I guess she's fine now. She went home with the others but she wanted to come with the ambulance when we were at the beach and leaving. Would you want her to come here now?"

Ryan hesitated, then shook his head and pushed away the bedside table with the food.

"If that's okay. I'd like to go to the dumping ground after finishing here… I don't want to live there or anywhere… But Richard is going to hate me now for taking off my helmet and ended up here and I think I could do without that for just one single moment."

Ryan stopped, as if he just realized he'd said something he shouldn't. That he had suddenly asked and wished for something despite being as strong as he'd been this far.

"That's okay with all of us Ryan. And I think you know that."

For a second it did seem like Ryan wanted to give me a smile. But even if he wanted to he just hesitated too much before he was interrupted by that nurse coming once again. And I had a bad feeling about her turning up before I saw she had her phone opened.

"Look."

With one word simple she held her phone screen where Ryan could see it. I couldn't but I heard right away it was the video Candi- Rose had taken on the beach and then Chloe shouting several times about how she was frightened for her brother's sake.

When it was finished he leaned back and looked away even though the video started over again. He looked like he wanted to put his hands over his ears and that even before the doctor came in and talked about the broken ribs and how close to death he had really been.

It was like I saw how much things were spinning for Ryan because suddenly I hit my hand in the bed's metal railing and shouted as if I did it for children.

"ENOUGH."

Both the doctors and the three nurses that stood around Ryan all jumped when I stood up and in the corner of my eye I could see Charlie in the corner of my eye when I stood up and both she and Alex had jumped too.

Ryan was the only one who didn't. He sat sort of crouched with his arms around his ribcage and looking down as if he didn't know anyone or anything around him.

"That's enough." I said at last. "Ryan's been through a lot today and he certainly isn't helped by that video, or someone trying to make him eat, or someone else telling him he almost died- even though he did. Can't you wait a twenty four hours or so before you tell anyone someone like that when they're still in shock? Now, I want you all to leave. And unless you want me, or Ryan, or Alex or Charlie something that really cannot wait until in the morning leave us alone. Is that clear?"

The nurses and the doctor mumbled something about other patients and left the curtain behind which Ryan laid behind. And I couldn't help but feel quite proud of myself when I slumped back and thought back to how I had just taken part in making them all leave.

"Hey… Ryan." Alex shouted from his place, Ryan slightly turned his head to see him. "This wouldn't have happened if not for me so… I just thought I'd say I'm sorry."

But even more I was of myself, I was of my kids.

Both Ryan and Alex had been close dying today. Both of them had been dozing on and off since they came here. But as they both turned and closed their eyes. I knew there was no more talking to them for the next twelve hours or so.

"I could call May- Li." I told Charlie almost whispering. "And she could come and pick you up if you don't want to stay at the hospital for the whole night. I doubt you'll be making any sense here actually." I smirked to make it seem like a joke but Charlie did have a way with knowing just what we meant at all times and shook her head. "Well then. Those sandwiches were very small. I'll go to the cafeteria myself and see if there's anything. I'll bring you back something."

The evening passed by and turned into the longest night of my life. With coffee and Tesco sandwiches I had made up my mind to stay awake for the two boys that laid on either side of me.

They might have only been back here for observation. Which meant that they were fine anyway. Every now and again a doctor or a nurse came in, checked pulse, checked breathing, took temperature, woke up for a few seconds, greeting me and the dark- skinned girl who sat sleeping in the chair next to me.

And when morning finally came I was tired, achy and angry at everyone who came through the curtains and was checking on the boys.

"I think you can leave now." The nurse told Charlie and Alex quite soon. "I think I'll take an x-ray of your ribs. Just in case."

Ryan didn't show much feeling about it, he was obviously annoyed- as anyone would be. But he didn't make a fuss when a nurse gave him directions and walked ahead of me up the stairs and pointed to the sign on the door that said phones needed to be turned off.

"I'll stay here." Just as I had the day before. "And keep my phone on in case anyone calls about anything."

And I was pretty sure the nurse had sent us up here more to annoy us for not going us what she wanted than because it was actually needed.

Adult people! Ugh!

I wasn't so sure about staying behind, but right after the doors fell closed behind Ryan my phone started buzzing with a call.

"Hey Charlie."

"I'm pretty sure that nurse has told someone from the news about that "Ryanman" is back." She let me know without even greeting and with a stressed and fast tone in her voice. "Because the door where you'll be leaving is crowded with cameras, microphones and people with notebooks."

Oh, come on!

"Thanks for telling me Charlie. Ryan's not with me for the moment, they needed OR wanted another X-ray. So either it is to annoy someone or it is to actually check something… I hope you'll be okay. Do you need me to come to give you a ride?"

"No, we're right on the bus now."

"You lot are great. You make my job so easy sometimes…" I thought back to yesterday. "…yeah… really some times. Call me if you need any help."

For some reason I hung up without even saying goodbye, my mind was just too occupied by everyone who would be meeting us when we got out from the hospital and how on earth it would feel Ryan. How would it have felt for him the last time knowing he actually hadn't done what people were praising him for?

That boy really had gotten into much trouble. Both from others and himself. More the first. And more than anything I just couldn't help to really feel sorry for him.

"Hey."

I hadn't even noticed the time passing by when Ryan came passing the doors. But it must have been half an hour or so and I flew up from the chair they had put right in front of those. Maybe it was for someone like me to wait and be able to have their phones…

"Charlie told me that the media has found out about you saving Alex. And after you stopping that criminal…" Ryan gave me a meaning look. "They still think you meant it.. Well, let's just say that there are some people wishing to talk to you once we're out the doors… I could ask someone if there's some back door or something. You've been through quite enough without this."

"It's fine."

It would have been less worrying for me if Ryan had screamed and kicked or shown more feeling- any of it then this way he just… looked!

"Let's go then."

He was obviously more secure about this than I was myself. Because with quick, long steps he more or less ran before be showing me the way to the doors. All until he suddenly stopped right inside and didn't seem to be able to make one more move.

"How did those x-ray pictures go by the way?"

I think Ryan knew I was pretty much only to make stupid conversation. But I did care, as much for him as for all of my kids- earlier just as the one I had now.

"Everything's like it should so now we only need to wait for it to heal."

I saw right in front of me how that doctor had pointed out how close to the heart a broken rib had been pushed during the heart compressions I had given him.

Whatever would I do if Ryan's answer was any different?

Whatever would, or should I do to let Ryan or Chloe or anyone else about how close I had been of killing him?

I shook my head, tried to tell myself that at least it had ended well for everyone and if Ryan hadn't reacted as soon as he had… Well, we could think about that another day.

"Ready?"

When Ryan looked back it was with real fear, these were the feelings he had tried so hard to hide before- he'd been hiding happiness too. I wasn't so sure if anyone else could see it but I could see fear shining from his eyes.

I got a feeling he was about to say or do something new, and a second before we walked through those doors he gave a nod.

"Ready!"

The whole storyline with Ryan staying back for an x-ray is probably wrong. But it would make sense for them to ask Alex and Charlie to leave so they can get rid off one patient when they have loads to do. And I also needed it for the storyline about Charlie calling Mike and them walking out of the hospital to meet all of those people.

Random fact

I was wondering if people actually gets patient- meals when having come to the A&E. Then I remembered. There is a space when you need first when you come in. In case the doctors wants to keep you under observation or so you can also be put in a ward for the patients to come here- and yes! They do get those meals. How do I know? Because I got food the night I was in hospital after my first seizure. It was salmon and potato and that's good food but it was too dry.

Can you tell I like food? XD

See you next time!