I AM BACK. Gosh I was so caught up in college that I didn't had time to do any writing at all. But let's safe the rambling for the bottom. Have fun with this new chapter;)

Should I've stayed, where the signs, I ignored?

Can I help you, not to hurt, anymore?

We saw brilliance, when the world, was asleep

There are things that we can have, but can't keep

If they say

Who cares if one more light goes out?

In a sky of a million stars

It flickers, flickers

Who cares when someone's time runs out?

If a moment is all we are

We're quicker, quicker

Who cares if one more light goes out?

Well I do

- Linkin Park, One More Light

She woke up rather early, the sun was just beginning to rise and a soft mist was covering the whole village. Kakashi was long gone, not that she had expected any differently. Still, it left her feeling cold and slightly empty.

Slowly she dragged herself towards her closet and grabbed her chunin issued black pants and sweatshirt. She brushed her hair, wrapped her legs and slipped on her sandals in a daze.

As soon as she left her apartment the cold bit her skin, but she welcomed it. Deep down she knew what she was doing to herself but she had to know. She had lost a week of mourning. Truthfully she didn't even know who they had lost at all. All she knew was that they did have lost a lot of brave and fine shinobi.

She walked over training grounds three, the trees behind her were blurred and looked rather ominous what with all that mist. But she knew her way and soon she could see the cenotaph with all the flowers in front of it.

She took a deep breath and walked the last steps until she could read the names on it.

Hyuuga Neji….Nara Shikaku….Yamanaka Inoichi

Her eyes widened. How could she have missed that they had died during the war!? Tears began streaming down her face and she slumped to the ground. It was so unfair that her friends had to go through the pain of losing their parents, even if it was just one of them. She had lost both during the attack of Pain and distracted herself with staying at Tsunades side. But it did still hurt. She knew that nothing could have saved Inoichi-san or Shikaku-san. The Juubi had aimed exactly for their headquarters. It had been impossible to avoid. But Neji. Neji! She could have saved him! They had a mutual understanding and respect for each other. Why hadn't she been there!?

LINE

He had left as soon as she had been sound asleep. He didn't want to tempt himself. It still troubled him to see her in such pain. And he was sure that there was more to come. At least he had been able to look after her when she had been sorted into his division. But to meet Zabuza and Haku again had rattled them both. Her probably more than him.

His thoughts came to a stop as he saw her kneeling in front of the cenotaph. Her sobs were carried through the mist towards him and he wanted to reach out for her but he could feel another presence and he knew that Sakura needed him more than himself. After all, she did love him.

"Sakura" his soft voice startled her. Shocked, her teary face whipped around and met dark onyx.

"Sasuke-kun?" Her voice sounded so broken that Sasuke felt like flinching. Sakura wasn't supposed to sound like that. Silently he made the last few steps towards her and crouched down next to her. Slowly, as if he wasn't quite sure, he put his arm around her shoulders. Her hauntingly beautiful eyes stared up at him with tears in their corners. He just stared back, waiting for her to explain her sorrow. Her nose scrunched up and she let her head fall against his shoulder.

"They are gone! Ino and Shikamaru's dads, they are dead! And I didn't even know!" She wailed in his arms.

"You couldn't have saved them, Sakura. They were killed by the Juubi."

"I know" she whispered. "But I could have saved Neji."

Sasuke stiffened. Why did she care about Neji? As far as he knew she hadn't even talked with him that regularly. At least that was what Naruto had told him when he had talked about all of the Konoha twelve. And if he was honest, he never liked that Hyuuga boy that much. He was arrogant and too sure of himself.

"I heard he died protecting that useless Hyuuga girl" he pondered softly.

Sakura stiffened and slowly pulled away from him. Her jade eyes burned into his and he knew immediately that he made a mistake.

"Useless Hyuuga girl? Her name is Hinata" she murmured and stood up slowly.

"And Hinata is far, far from useless." She seethed. Slowly Sasuke stood up himself and tried to calm her down by laying his hand on her shoulder.

"Don't touch me!" She snapped and slapped his hand away. Shocked he watched Sakura and realized the hurt in her eyes was because of his words.

"Hinata was not and will never be useless! She always fought for her love! Although he never recognized her feelings and probably never will she never gave up believing in him! She loved him so much that she didn't even care if she died or not and willingly would have given her life for him! That is not useless! And Neji..." her voice broke. "Neji gave his life so that Hinata would have a chance at living and maybe getting the love she so much wanted and deserved! Calling Hinata useless would be the same as calling Nejis sacrifice useless!"

She panted heavily and her fists were clenched rather tightly.

"Sakura-"

"You know Sasuke" she cut him off. "I could have very easily switched places with Hinata. I would have given my life for you. Would you have even cared then? Would I have been still the useless and annoying little girl in your eyes?"

Her voice had become so quiet he had to strain himself to actually hear her. She raised her eyes to his once more and he was shocked to see disgust in those green depths. But deep down underneath that disgust he saw her deep pain. Pain that he had caused.

"Sakura-"

"I can't" she rasped out. They stared at each other for a second and then she began walking away from him.

Kakashi hadn't meant to listen in on their argument. But he couldn't help to feel wary of that Uchiha brat. After all he did try to kill Naruto and Sakura multiple times and even succeeded in nearly killing her. And to say that he was angry at Sasuke for making Sakura hurt more was an understatement. It was clear that his sorrow was reserved for his Uchiha clan. But he shouldn't have talked badly about the Hyuuga girl. And calling Hinata useless had been like calling her useless. On top of it his words had surely triggered her insecurity issues he had caused so many years ago.

The rational part in him knew that he shouldn't be so angry with the Uchiha and that he just wanted to be there for Sakura. But the other part, the part that had seen him trying to kill his friends so many times and that still felt guilty for teaching him that damned justu and not being able in leading him on the right path felt anger. He was angry that he had never listened, that he had used his jutsu to nearly kill Naruto and Sakura. His jutsu that was meant to protect his precious people. His jutsu that had killed Rin…

He shook those dark thoughts away and watched as the Uchiha brushed his hair away angrily while walking away from the cenotaph.

Finally he could go there and talk to Obito. It was hard to see him during the war again and standing on different sides. But he had felt truly happy when Obito had finally seen the light that Naruto had shown him and fought with them.

"I know you are with Rin now. And I hope that you can finally experience true peace." He stared at Obitos name engraved on the cenotaph. But different form all the other times he didn't feel an unbearable sadness. This time he felt content. Because he had seen his friend one last time. And this time there were no grudges left.

"Oh and tell Rin I am sorry for never reciprocating her feelings. But I guess we all knew that her heart had always belonged to you." He smiled though he knew no one could see it. But it felt as if his teammates were there with him, actually listening to his words.

Is it wrong that my heart seems to belong to a woman who is younger than me?

Shaking his head he turned and left training grounds three. The sun had warmed up the air and the mist had vanished. People were slowly filling the streets and going after their every day deeds. But he didn't have an eye for them. He kept looking for pastel pink hair.

And there she was. Sitting on the stone head of his old sensei, as if she knew he would be looking for her. He concentrated chakra in his feet and made the jump towards her.

She didn't seem surprised at all. He didn't like the determined look about her and the cold eyes that were regarding him.

"Ne, Kakashi… you knew that I was promoted to jonin while I was in a coma?" She began and he had a bad inkling that he knew where this was going. He just nodded and decided to lean against the stone while propping one of his legs up.

"You think I can become an ANBU? After all they have the highest death rate. But if I were to enter their ranks I could diminish their casualties and protect my precious people. I know that Tsunade-shishou will start training Naruto so that he can become Hokage soon. And Sasuke is not to leave the village for three years."

He watched her closely and knew that she had more to say. Finally she stood up and turned to him. Her eyes sparkled with determination and his heart swelled for her. He quashed those feelings and soaked in her appearance.

"I know this might come rather rash but I really thought about it. What if I leave the village for a few years. As an ANBU operative I could work together with ANBU of other villages to get rid of the last nuke-nin and help them strengthen their medicinal forces. And… I could be away from all that hurt for a while" she finished in a whisper.

He knew that she was still hurt when Sasuke and Naruto had left her behind. And Sasukes words had just brought up those feelings. He knew that in reality she wasn't running away. Not really. She needed to proof to them and foremost herself that she could take care of herself and didn't need them as much as they thought she did.

"You already talked with Tsunade-sama about your plans." It wasn't a question, just a conclusion. A sad smirk was answer enough. He nodded once and glanced out at their precious village. "When are you leaving?"

He heard her sigh and to his shock felt how she put her head on his shoulder.

"After tomorrow. Funnily, when I asked Ibiki if I could join ANBU he didn't even let me take the test. He said that after this war I was more than ready to join ANBU. Tomorrow I will talk to him about my plans and get my ANBU outfit. I will drink with Tsunade, so she will be too hangover to put up with an annoyed Naruto." She paused. "You know, though I love Sasuke, I would always look out for Naruto first. It would destroy me if Sasuke would die, sure. But if something happened to Naruto... I couldn't live anymore."

"I know exactly what you're talking about" Kakashi murmured. Silently he wished to know where he stood there. He knew he was one of her precious people but he didn't know where he stood.

"I have to go, Kakashi. I need to talk with the others before I leave. At least tell them how sorry I am about their losses." She smiled up at him and gosh, how he wished she was older so he could kiss her. Shame filled him with those thoughts and he gave her his famous eye crinkle. He would tell her goodbye tomorrow night. After all she was leaving on her eighteenth birthday.

I have to tell you that I personally had no idea where I was going with this chapter. I had no inspiration after the cenotaph scene with Sasuke. But then somehow the characters took care of it and here it is, the third chapter. On that note I have the fourth one finished and you will get it on wednesday because this week I will have absolutely no time to write at all. Gosh, since when have I become so busy? Well, to the next point.

The only reason that there is a new chapter this early ( yeah this is earyl for me. And mind you I am ill and wrote a chapter; just for her/him) is because of fmtwa. She/He send me such a cute review, it made me soo happy. SO thank you so much for it. And gosh you got me hyped. I would love, LOVE to get a review from you for each chapter. BUT I don't want to feel pressured to do it. That being said, the more reviews I get the earlier you will get a new chapter. That's just because I have to do a lot for college and tend to forget time but if I get more reviews it's like a constant notifictaion that I have to do stuff and it gives me a nice feeling.

Which brings me to the next point: Dear hater, I feel really honored that you took your time and read untill chapter two to send me your hateful words. I mean, wow, how much time do you have to sit there and do stuff that you detest? If I don't like stuff I will stop reading or doing it immediatly and look for other stuff that might be more interesting for me. If you didn't catch the subtle meaning: This is a hint for you, dear hater, to stop reading my story and sending hate. Because first: there is already so much hate in the world and do you really want to contribute to it? Probably or you wouldn't have left those words. and second: I really don't like that others feel worried that I might abandon this story because of this. I know that some out there react badly to hate and I hurt for them. But I won't go away with your hate. I will just laugh at you, what I actually did. Because that was rather funny. But don't make my readers feel uncomfortable.

Again thanks to fmtwa, she was really cute and I really appreciated your review probably more than you will ever know:D so enough rambling and have a good time and be safe. Till wednesday;)