Chapter 4

Cercei had never shown a sign that she remembered their past life. They used to spend sometime together as children but Jaime kept a distance from her as they were growing up. He didn't actually hate his sister for the things she had done in another life as long as she couldn't remember them. It was like she hadn't commited these crimes. But as Jaime suspected Cercei had the same personality traits that could one day transform her to the monster she had been back then.

There had been times as a child that she reminded him the golden princess he had once loved at his first childhood. She was so beautiful and full of life with her long blonde curls and green eyes. She was the most famous girl at school and a party queen. Despite all these Jaime couldn't bring himself to love her. It wasn't only the repulsion of any incestious relationship with her, it was also that Jaime couldn't love Cercei as a sister or care about her. They were fifteen years old when he realised that he didn't feel any love for her and that he would never feel. That day they were getting ready for the masquerade party of the highschool and Jaime had been dressed as a cowboy with a lovely costume he had bought only for this event in brown colors with an amazing cowboy hat, leather boots and a fake gun. He was checking himshelf in the mirror when he saw the mirror image of Cercei standing behind him dressed in a long red and black royal dress, holding a golden crown which she slowly put on her head with such a grace that could make feel ashamed every queen that ever existed. Her eyes were sparkling as she checked her elegant dress and turned to Jaime smiling.

"How do i look like in my costume brother?", she asked seriously in her royal tone. Jaime felt a chill fill hia whole body as the Mad Black Queen herself was standing infront of him.

" Like you were born to be a queen Cercei", he answered with a shaking voice.

He avoided her the whole night at the party, he couldn't look at her afraid that his fears and regrets would come alive to hunt him. When he returned home he couldn't sleep. That night he wrote a song which he secretely played sometimes in the guitar when he was alone. The lyrics of the song was a requiem about two people in love who couldn't be together because they were enemies forced to kill each other if they ever met in a battlefield, to kill the love of their life. A requiem about a promise that if they ever meet in another life, another world the man would everyday tell her how much he loves her.

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The only time Jaime suspected that she maybe remembers him was some days after the funeral of their father when his will to leave the management of his companies to Jaime. And though Cercei took money and real estate at the same value with the companies she looked really mad that her father didn't think her able to run the group of companies. In her opinion, Jaime who was always busy in his artistic activities, not paying attention to any of their father's bussiness steps and investments was the worst choice.

She was pacing nervously in his office that day.

"Did you know it?", she asked angrily

" No Cercei i never talked about father's will. You are the one who had conversation with him about such things. And anyway why are you complaining he wasn't unfair with you. You touk the same value in money."

"It's not the same, the group of companies is like an empire, you have control in the market, politics and people.

Jaime stood up to leave, really tired of his sister's complains and ambitions. He had buried his father that day and he was really not in a good mood for an argument.

" Our father died Cercei, how can you only think about these things?Can you just leave alone to mourn the loss of a person i love?", he said exhausted from that terrible day while tears were feeling his eyes.

He opened the door to leave when he heard her say the words that was forever haunting him

"You can go for now brother...But you know it... No one walks away for me"

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Cercei was walking through the halls of the Lannister company dressed like the top model she was, a real star and a succesful woman, her expensive perfume all around the places she was walking.

She entered Jaime's office without knck the door followed by Jaime's secretary who was trying to explain her that she has first to announce her arrival.

When Jaime told Mary that it's ok, the girl left leaving them alone.

"Well Cercei what a surprise, we weren't waiting for you!", he tried to sound friendly. Civility was necessary with this woman if you wanted to stand a conversation with her.

" Well i didn't know that I have to ask the permission of you secretary when I want to see my little brother. ",she said with a fake sweet voice.

" Little?, as much as I remember we were born the same day"

"I came first into this world Jaime even if it is for some minutes. How are the things here?"

She asked pretending to be indifferent.

"You came to ask how are my business going Cercei?", he asked her.

" Of course no Jaime, we are brother and sister I came to see if you're well and how are you dealing with all this work.",this fake friendly tone was making him feel nervous.

"Everything is fine.I am fine, business goes fine. Don't you have any photo shoot today?"

"Do you want me to leave Jaime? I though we could try get a little closer you know. We had a good childhood together. Why don't try to spend more time together? We are twins, you are supposed to be my other half, we have shared many things"

No , he though with anger, i am not your other half, I never was and I will never be. Brienne is my other half and now that i found her I'm more sure than ever.

Cercei's sparkling eyes lost their shine as Jaime lowered his face looking her dead serious while with a cold voice told her.

"The only thing I've shared with you Cercei, is a womb"

She didn't answer. She stood up to leave giving him a warning stare that he would pay for this.

You can't harm me more than you have,he though.

As she walked through the door, Mary entered .

"Mr Lannister the violin player Brienne Tarth wants to see you".

Behind her outside the door was standing Brienne watching Cercei leave with fear painting her lovely face that was getting more and more pale.

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Jaime gestured Brienne to sit, worried that she would faint. Her hands were shaking and Jaime rold Mary to bring quickly a glass of water. It was natural to be shocked but he didn't expect that a woman who had been always so brave , who had faced so many things in the past and had helped him escape a gang of thieves would be so scared of Cercei. Of course Brienne knew about the atrocities Cercei had commited in the past life but Jaime had never seen her so scared. Not even when she faced undead walking corpses. What had happened?

Mary brought the glass of water and left. Jaime sat next to Brienne on the sofa giving her the glass which she drank with hesitation. He couldn't stand to see his wench in such a bad state. She looked so fragile. She had only saw her like that once, the day he left her.

Fool, idiot, how could you have been so cruel, so blind?What has she ever done to you except from loving and protecting you?

"Brienne she doesn't remember us, she is still mean but she never gave me a hint that she remembers," he said softly. She was taking a deep breath trying to calm herself and Jaime reached to touch her hand. In his touch Brienne pulled her hand and stood up.

"Don't touch me ,don't dare to touch me never again." she said coldly, her eyes where full of hate and Jaime couldn't stand it.

"I don't care what your sister remembers or not. I came to tell you that your term of the contract is not accepted. I only play in a few songs. This is something i don't do for fun Jaime Lannister. It's my job, i live from this job . I don't know what you have in mind by demanding my presence in every recording but I won't tolerate to use me for satisfying your caprice. Our relationship is just proffessional.

" I could never see you only proffessional Brienne. Please let me talk to you.I know I was a fool let me explain Brienne , let me make up for what I've done to you. I suffer without you.

Brienne broke in a nervous laugh and shook her head with disbelief and repulsion about him.

"You think that you've suffered kingslayer? You think that you have felt pain? You don't know anything about pain. What could a golden boy know about all these anyway?

And with the dignity and proud posture that always characterised her, exited the door leaving a desperate Jaime with a hurt expression.