Chapter 5

Jaime was sitting in his friend's living room helping himself with a glass of whiskey while David was talking on the phone. Jaime's thoughs were always in his wench and how he could get close to her.

It was his third drink when the bell rang and David opened the door to welcome the girls Jaime's best friend had introduced him in the club where he had kissed Brienne.

"You didn't tell me you were waiting company" Jaime whispered to David after he greeted the girls."

"It was supposed to be a surprise mate. I can't have you weeping for a strange tall girl you kissed a few nights before or do you think that i didn't see that? The whole club saw you. I' m you best friend and i was waiting to talk to me about it but you didn't. You have been closed to yourshelf after that night. I don't know what happened with her but Violet from here looks very eager to help you get over that girl.

" This can't happen David," he told him.

"Jaime don't tell me now that a woman as beautiful as Violet can't help you forget fot a little a woman that looks like..."

Jaime didn't let him finish, he stood up and looked dead serious at his friend.

"Brienne is the most beautiful woman i've met David and i'll never let anyone tell something bad about her when I'm around."

David was looking surprised.

"You've never behaved like this for any woman before. Anyway...sorry mate i didn't intend to insult your woman i'm sure that if you like her so much she is special , i only wanted to say that she was a little different from the girls you've dated till now."

"She is,...she is special."Jaime answered softer now. He knew David was a friend and he would support his choices.

Later that nigh David with Violet's friend told them that they were going to find an open fast food cause they were hungry although Jaime suspected that they would end up in his friend's car having sex.

When they left , Violet sat next to him on the sofa looking i at him with her chocolate eyes. Jaime was too drunk and the girl was firting him . His eyes fell at her black long hair and red perfume was a strong one while her dress let him have a good view of her full breasts.

Well Violet was a woman who could take what she wanted from a man. Suddenly she leaned on him and kissed him. Jaime in his drunk state wasn't able to think and kissed her too. She slowly took her dress off and then her bra and Jaime looked at her breasts and nipples. The girl sat on his lap and kissed him and after she unbuttoned his shirt put his hands on her breast. Then suddenly Jaime's mind went to the night he had first touched Brienne in their other life time. Her soft small breasts, her strong thights and her extremely long legs. But the most astonishing thing upon her was her blue innocent eyes as he was claiming her body, eyes that was nothing like the eyes of this experienced woman who was cunningly looking at him right now.

No, he though this is not right. He stopped immediately the kiss, buttoned quickly his shirt and kindly pushed the girl from his lap. He akwardly stood up and walked hoping he could manage to find the couldn't really drive his car in this state but there were taxis near there. After he managed to find one he sat on the back seat and the taxi driver waited for him to tell him their destination.

Fuck he couldn't even remember his own address.

"Lannister music company," was the only thing he could remember to say.

...

Fortunately Paul the nightwatchman of his company opened the entrance for him and helped him go to his office and lie on his sofa without asking he always knew that a discreet staff was a good window

He slept there until his secretary Mary waked him up with a hot cup of black coffee, a croissant and two painkillers next to a glass of water.

Oh these people were not just staff, he though, they were family. I mustn't forget to increase their salary.

The pills helped him with his headache and the breakfast with his nausea.

He looked through the window. Today the "lost kingdoms" would come for the recording.

I have to talk with Brienne, he though,the wench have to listen to me now that she has ruined me for any other woman.

...

He entered the studio where Christie and the foley artists were watching behind the special window the band's recording.

"How is it going Christie?", asked Jaime

" Very well, hear by youshelf", she told him giving him the headphones.

Well Pod was really an amazing singer with a deep emotional voice painting the song. Balands will be perfect for him,Jaime though.

Near the end of the song all the instruments stopped playing and Brienne performed a solo with her violin. The sound was so sad and painful and the same time so wonderful like it was coming straight from the deepest part of her when brienne raised her head for a moment and looked him in the eyes Jaime felt his heart be torn into thousand pieces.

"Well that was amazing!", he told breathless in Christie while he hadn't believed yet what he had just listened

" It is, isn't it?Brienne composed the solo herself. It is a song about a betrayal of a love that was painted with the blood of an innocent soul."

Jaime didn't talk again. The rest of the songs were more happy and after two hours they had finished with the first five songs of the CD.

He was lost in his thoughs. What had happened when he died? He knew the betrayal was his but whose was the blood that painted his betrayal? Had Brienne died shortly after him and how?

...

He was following her with his car. He couldn't expose himself in front of the other members of the band and ask to talk to her. They would ask questions and he didn't want to make Brienne feel uncomfortable. She left with her black motorcycle which made it really difficult for him to follow her because of the traffic but with a little luck he did it.

Brienne parked her motorcycle outside of an old building with three got out of his car and called her name. Brienne turned to look at him as he came closer.

"What are you doing here?", she asked.

" Brienne i have to talk to you, please. Let me talk to you. I know you are angry but I love you and i feel too much pain for what i did. i regret it every single moment that I breathe. I know that you 're hurt too, i know it because you kissed me back then in the club and cried, because of the song I listened you performing today."

"The song", she repeated still coldly. " Come with me, I have something to show you".

She grabbed his hand with ang and strengther and pulled him with her on the first floor. She then left him to unlock her apartmemt and open the door.

It was a small apartment and he followed her in a small livingroom with a sofa and two armchairs.

Then Brienne did something he didn't expect her to. She turned her back to him and took of her blouse.

When she turned around to face him her face was a mask of pain and then Jaime noticed a dark brown long scar that stavoicefrom bellow her left breast and extended to the right side of her lower abdomen.

"I was born in the current life with this scar, "she told him with a low voice, " It was very small when i was a baby and doctors told my parents it would fade but it didn't. As i was grwoing up it was growing with me becoming larger and larger until it took its full shape. No one knew why this happened but I did. When you left me to go and die with your beloved sister, I was pregnant with your child. I remained in Winterfell and kept the baby though maesters offered me the choice to abort it. But i didn't. I prefered the shame that brought to me than kill my baby...our baby. " She wiped her tears and came more close to him with a threatening stare. "The war wasn't over yet. Your sister learnt about our relationship and the baby. She ordered someone to kidnap me and bring me to Kingslamding. She wanted to get revenge from you for sleeping with me and the baby was a threat for her because she though I'd used it as a heir to take the Casterly Rock. i was nine months pregmamt when she ordered the Mountain to open my belly with his sword, take my son from my womb and kill him infront of me as i was dying from blood loss and pain. And in this life I'm forced to carry this scar to remember"

Then Brienne punched with all her strength a terrified Jaime who couldn't really believe what he had just listened. She was out of control and he tried to stop her but he couldn't .

"And now you are coming here to tell me that you know how I feel.", she said crying and kicking him.

She droped him to the floor and they were fighting each other. Brienne was trying to hit him and Jaime to stop her. He managed for sometime to roll her in her back but she put him again bellow her. She was still a very strong woman and it was difficult to overpower stopped fighting her and then she punched him once more and left him. She sat in a corner on the floor crying wbile Jaime stood up with the world spinning around covered his face with his hands while tears run from his eyes.

What I've done to you Brienne? He though.

...

The first thing that came to his mind was toupandrive his car in a cliff. Suicide would erase this terrible sense of guilt. But then his eyes fell upon the broken Brienne on the floor. This wonderful woman was fighting with her pain all alone and all he could think was himself. No Jaime Lannister you don't deserve the luxury of death. You won't leave again like a coward, abandoning her. You will stay here to help her deal with pain and you will suffer the guilt and her hate. You deserve it. His eye was black and his nose brocken but he knew he deserved much more.

He kneeled next to Brienne who was silent now. Her hands hiding her face , half naked and shaking.

"Brienne", he whispered softly. " You have every right to hate me, i don't deserve your forgiveness. If you want to hit me i won't resist. If you tell me to kill myshelf. I promise i will do it. But first i want to see that you are happy and well." He slowly reached and took her hand hoping it won't result to another round of fight and tears. She didn't respond . He pulled her to stand up and dressed her with her blouse like she was a child. She still was lost in her own world. He took her hand and lead her to her bedroom where he helped her lie on the bed. She wasn't talking ,she just hugged herself as Jaime covered her with a blanket. He took a chair and sat next to her bed holding her hand. She was so fragile and hurt. He caressed her face and kissed her forehead. Then a song came to his mind and with a low deep voice he began singing to her.

High in the halls of the kings who are gone

Jenny would dance with her ghosts.

The ones she had lost and the ones she had found

And the ones who had loved her the most.

The ones who 'd been gone for so very long

She couldn't remember their names.

They spun her around on the dump old stones

Spun away all her sorrow and pain.

And she never wanted to leave, never wanted to leave.

...

He stayed next to her till she woke up in the middle of the night.

She looked him with her lovely sapphire eyes.

"Jaime" she told him softly.

"Yes my love"

"They took our baby", she told him hurt.

" i know Brienne, i won't let anything happen to you again"

"You won't leave?",she asked him.

" No i will stay here as long as you want me."

"Will you lie next to me?"

Tears ran from his eyes.

"Of course my love". They lied looking each other. Then he put his hands protectively around her and caressed her back while she rested her head on his chest. It was the first night they both slept without nightmares.