Authors note: I hope you enjoy this chapter. Does anyone even read these? I can probably type whatever I want.
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Marco's POV
I'm not sure how long me and Jackie looked at each other's wrists, it felt like forever. We were just sitting there in silence comparing our cuts. Her wrists were in better shape than mine, but that's not really saying much. It was impossible to tell how long she had been cutting.
Jackie's voice knocked me out of my thoughts, "Marco, can we go in your room and just talk for a while?", she asked.
"S-sure", I said, "You should put your shirt on first, in case my parents come home early."
She nodded and put her shirt back on slowly to avoid feeling pain in her ribs. We walked beside each other awkwardly as we walked to my room. This was by far the most awkward moment between the two of us. What do you say to a person after they've admitted to self harm? This was the question we both had in our minds.
When we got to my room I turned on the light and Jackie immediately lied down on my bed nearly taking up all the space. She breathed heavily and buried her head in my pillows. If I didn't know any better I'd say she's never been in a bed before.
She lifted her head out of the pile of pillows and looked at me and said, "Your bed is very comfortable."
I was silent for a minute before responding with a simple, "I know."
"Lay down next to me", she said making some room for me. I wasn't going to make her ask twice, I immediately lied down next to her and she rested her head on my chest. My heart started pounding a million miles per minute as some of her beautiful hair landed on my face. It smelt like vanilla. Oh god I've never loved the smell of something so much before.
"Do you wanna know why I cut myself?", Jackie asked out of the blue. I nodded, "Of course. I'll tell you mine when your finished."
Jackie took a deep breath and started to explain, "Well, it just makes me feel better, it takes stress away. I know thats a shitty reason, but it's the truth. Another reason is because I hate my appearance. I just hate how unbelievably ugly I am."
"WHAT!?"
I could tell my loud out burst frightened her a little as she lifted her head off of my chest and looked at me like I was insane. "What's your problem?", she asked obviously confused.
I stared at her with my mouth hung open trying to process what she just said, "You think you're ugly?"
She nodded slowly.
"How? How could you possibly think that? I know I said you were pretty earlier but that dosen't do justice to your looks. You are the most beautiful girl I've ever seen. You're the first girl that has ever caught my attention. Seeing your gorgeous face is the only thing I look forward to in my life.", I said looking directly into her eyes.
Jackie's eyes were the size of dinner plates. It surprised me that she's never been told this before. Her face was as red as tomatoe. Her breathing had sped up. I think I could see her sweating a bit.
After what felt like forever, she finally said something, "What are you stupid?"
She snatched her hands away from me and turned her head away from me. I was shocked by what she just said. The only word I could get out was, "What?"
She still wouldn't face me, but she would still talk, "I'm not beautiful Marco, and I'm definitely not gorgeous. I am the most hideous person on earth and to say anything different is retarded."
What she was saying was the most insane thing I've ever heard. How could this beautiful young woman say that she was hideous?
"Jackie, you are so beautiful, I wouldn't say anything different. I guarantee you that there are many boys out there that would kill to even talk to you. Whoever told you that you were ugly were probably just mad that they couldn't have you.", I said trying to bring her to reality.
She finally turned back to me, but she had tears in her eyes. "Will you stop lying to me? I don't need you trying to fool me into thinking I'm pretty when I'm not.", she said getting mad.
I was completely flabbergasted by this point. I had spilled my guts out to her but she still didn't believe me.
"Why do you think your ugly? Where is this coming from?", I asked.
She was silent again. I didn't rush her, I waited patiently for an answer.
"My family.", she finally said. "My family has always told me that I was ugly. I've never been told anything different."
"You come from an abusive home?", I inquired.
"Yes.", she admitted after taking a deep breath, "That's another reason I cut myself, my abusive home. I've been abused ever since I was six. One of the things they do is constantly tell me how horrifying I am to look at. It's been going on for so long that I started to believe it. I can't deny it, whenever I look into a mirror, I see an ugly monster that shouldn't have been born."
I stayed silent and she continued, "They have always told me that they would give me up if they could." Tears started to form in her eyes and her voice got shaky, "Even when I young they always wished I wasn't there."
"Why do they do this to you? You're their flesh and blood. They're supposed to care for you and love..." "WELL THEY DON'T!", she yelled cutting me off, "THEY NEVER LOVED ME AND FRANKLY I DON'T BLAME THEM! I WAS ALWAYS A HINDRANCE! I'M A WASTE OF FUCKING SPACE AND I SHOULD'VE NEVER BEEN BORN!"
"No you're not.", I said camly, "I am. You on the other hand are a beautiful and intelligent girl that deserves the world. I know that you don't think that, but trust me, I will do anything in my power to help you realize how amazing you are, and I won't rest until I do."
Jackie looked at me like I was a nutcase. Tears were rolling down her face and she looked like she was about to bawl. I looked at Jackie Lynn Thomas and I knew she was a completely different person now. I never would've thought that the girl I admired for nearly my whole life was actually someone with a lot of problems. Someone that was really hurting inside, but she was hiding it from everyone. Jackie Lynn Thomas is like me.
"Marco", Jackie said knocking me out if my thoughts, "Do you honestly think you can convince me that I'm pretty? You can't disprove fact, I'm a fat, hideous, stupid, stinky, loser, and that's all I'll ever be, that's all there is to it."
It broke my heart to hear her talk about herself in such a horrible way. Why can't she see how amazing she is? At that moment I made it my mission to help Jackie Lynn Thomas realize how great she is. I looked at Jackie again, she was a mess, there were tears running down her face, her shirt had been stained with salty tears, and she was sobbing really hard as memories of her parents appeared in her brain.
At that moment I did something I haven't done since I was ten. I opened my arms and walked toward Jackie Lynn Thomas, ready to give her a big hug.
Jackie looked at me weirdly, "What are you do...", I cut her off by wrapping my arms around her tightly.
I could tell that she was stunned at first for she didn't move for a couple of seconds, but she eventually hugged me back even tighter.
We just stood there hugging each other for at least a few minutes before I said something, "If you ever need anything I'll be there for you okay? I'm always gonna be there for you."
Jackie mumbled a quiet "Thank You", and tighten the hug. When I tried to let go she would hold me tighter and beg me not to let go, which I didn't. I was happy to hold her as long as she wanted me to.
"Can I sleep here with you?", she asked quietly, "My parents don't care if I'm home or not."
I was a bit nervous after she asked that question. The thought of my parents coming into my room and finding me and Jackie sleeping in the same bed was a real worry, but then again, it's not every day that a beautiful girl asks if she can sleep with you, let alone a girl as breath taking as Jackie Lynn Thomas. But Star was also a worrying thought, what if she finds us in a weird position and starts asking questions.
And then I realized that I had another big problem, Star is always around me, what if she sees my cuts? What if she had seem them already but didn't know what they were? Maybe she thinks that's something all humans have. I always forget that that she's only been on earth for a short time, she barely knows anything about earth or humans yet.
As I was contemplating the thoughts in my head I noticed that Jackie had fallen asleep in my arms, she was still holding onto me tightly. I smiled as she snore lightly, it was the cutest thing ever. I picked her up and laid her down on my bed and despite my doubts, I lied down next to her. I held her in my arms, kissed her on her forehead and said, "I'm always gonna be there for you my beautiful emerald."
Jackie's POV
I woke up at what seemed like the middle of the night. My eyes looked around my surroundings and I realized that I wasn't in my room, I was in someone else's room. And then I remembered what happened last night, I told Marco my darkest secret. I must've been exausted from my constant crying. I'm extremely disappointed in myself for breaking down in front of him like that. I promised myself a long time ago that I would never cry, no matter how much I wanted to, but nope, I just had to brake down in front of my crush. Well done Jackie, well done.
My heart stopped as I heard a quiet noise coming from behind me. I turned around and nearly had a heart attack as I realized that my head was lying on Marco's chest. I've dreamt of this moment for so long but now, it's actually happening. I'm sleeping in the same bed as much crush, and his arms are wrapped around me. Not to mention what he said about me last night, how he called me beautiful and smart. I guess there is a god after all.
I've had a crush on Marco ever since the first time I saw him. It's hard for me to explain why I'm so taken by this odd boy. Maybe it's because he's super cute. If you ever caught Marco without his hood on, it's an amazing sight. His messy dark brown hair, his beautiful brown eyes, his soft looking lips, and his surprisingly muscular arms, it just makes me lose my mind. Or maybe it was the fact that he was so, and this is gonna sound really corney, mysterious. Marco's inroverted personality is something I've always found interesting, and getging to know him over these last couple of days have been the most interesting my life has heen in years. I want his love more than anything in the world and maybe, just maybe, I finally have a chance to get it. I can die happy now.
"It feels good huh?" I nearly jumped out of my skin as I heard Star's voice come from being me. I turned around and sure enough, there she was looking at me with a big smile.
"Star, what the hell our you doing here?", I whispered as I got up from the bed. "I could be asking you the same question Jackie, or should I say, Marco's future wife?", Star said with a smirk.
I covered her mouth and forced her out the bedroom and into the hallway. As soon as I closed the door I asked again, "Star, what the hell were you doing in there?"
"I woke up alone on the couch and I wanted to join Marco in his bed.", Star explained, "but it seems like you beat me to it."
I blushed darkly, but I couldn't help but smile a bit. Sleeping in bed with Marco did indeed feel great. "I felt awesome", I said.
"I know right? He's the most comfortable pillow on earth!", Star said. I couldn't help but smile at her enthusiasm over something as simple as this. I like that Star is always so energetic and happy, I wish I could be like that.
"What time is it?", I asked.
"Last time I checked it was zero five hundred.", Star said. "I'm just gonna assume that you mean five o'clock. I need to head back home and get some fresh clothes, do me a favor and tell Marco I said thanks, he'll understand."
"You got it, but before you go, can I ask you something?", she asked.
"Sure what is it?" "Why don't all the girls like Marco?", she asked.
At first I thought the question was a joke, but by the look on Star's face I could tell that she was serious. "What do you mean?", I asked.
"Well, me and you obviously like Marco, the other girls we hang out with like Marco, but no other girls seem to like him. Its strange. He's smart, kind, cute, and caring. On Mewni a guy like that is considered a prince. I don't see how he's not surrounded by girls at this very moment.", Star explained.
I guess I can kinda see her logic, but unfortunately, I have to tell her how things are on Earth.
"Unfortunately Star, some nice boys don't get noticed by girls. There's an old saying here on earth "Nice guys finish last." On earth, being nice gets you nowhere.", I said.
Even though it seemed like Star was listening intently to me, she still had a very confused look on her face.
"Why is that Jackie? Surely being nice should get you everything you want.", Star said obviously still confused.
"Earth is a sick place Star. You may have met some nice people so far, but take it from me, there are horrible people in this world. You saw what happened with Jeremy. There are even worse people in this world.", I told her.
"Worse than that idiot?", Star asked in disbelief. I chuckled, "Yep, worse than him. There's no way to avoid evil people in this world. Although you have to associate yourself with the right people. I think you've done a good job of that.", I said giving her a smile.
She smiled back at me but quickly went back to frowning. There was obviously something else on her mind.
"What's wrong Star?", I asked her.
She looked at me and said, "Is there war war in this world?"
That question was a very odd one, but I answered it nonetheless. "Yes Star, there is a bunch of war in this war. There is so much injustice and hate in this world that it would take days for me to explain it all to you.", I said as we started walking downstairs together.
"Why is there so much injustice and hate? Why can't you all just get along? It can't be that hard can it?", she asked.
I sighed, "I wish that was possible Star, but like I said before there are evil, cruel, and sinister people in this world. Although there are probably more good than evil, hate will always rise above the good. That's the best way I can explain it."
Star pulled out her wand, "What if I took the evil people's wand?" I chuckled and said, "We don't have wands here on earth."
"Oh", Star deadpanned, "You guys are screwed then."
"How would taking the evil people's wand even work?", I asked.
"Back at Mewni, every war in my kingdom was caused by people wanting to take my mother's wand because it holds all the power in the universe. Whoever holds it is the most powerful person in the universe. As you can imagine, people good or bad would kill for that kind of endowment. So naturally, kings from other kingdoms would declare war on my parents kingdom just to steal my mother's wand. Innocent soldiers were killed in these pointless wars. They had families that they would never see again, all because some asshole wanted my Mother's wand. Even as a child I hated seeing this happen, so before I ran away from home, I stole my mother's wand so there would be no more wars.", Star explained.
It was quiet bewildering to hear Star talk so seriously, especially when she was usually the happiest person alive, but at the same time it was very interesting. I found her thoughts on war intriguing and her sympathety for the soildiers who lost their lives in war was very admirable.
"Does your mother know you took her wand?", I asked.
She shrugged, "I'm not sure. They don't even know where I am, I hope. If they found out where I was they would probably beg me to come back home. I don't care how much they beg, that's never gonna happen.
William's POV
I was sat in the King and Queen's room while the King tried to look for Star on the Globe. It seemed to be a futile endeavor. He's been trying for twenty hours straight now and nothing has turned up. The old man seems to be losing his mind. He hasn't slept at all.
"Dammit!", the King yelled after what seemed liked days of silence. "I have been at this for hours and I've found no trace of her!"
His yelling caused his wife to come in the room, "What do you mean you can't find her?", the Queen asked, "It's impossible to not find someone with a globe. It's not like she disappeared off the face of the galaxy."
The King turned to his wife with a look of hopelesness, "If I say I can't find her that means I can't find her. I don't know how she's done it, but she's completely hidden herself from the globe. It makes no sense."
"What if she has disguise herself?", I asked.
Both the King looked at me with a confused look on his face, "What do you mean William?", the King asked "Explain yourself?"
I started to get very high-strung at this point, "W-Well, she is magical after all, can't she just cast a spell on herself so no one can detect her."
The Queen backed up my case, "While it is true that you can do that Willam", the Queen began, "There's no way Star could be able to do it. For starters, she's dumb, and secondly, Star is not fluent enough in magic to be able to do that yet. The only way she could be able to do that is if she had a real wand like mine."
She turned to her husband, "Come honey, let's go see if the soildiers have returned from their search." And with that they left me alone in the room.
"Star wouldn't really steal her mother's wand would she?", I thought out loud. I looked toward the King's sized bed and started to approach it, praying that no one would come in and see me. I know that the Queen carries around a fake wand just in case anyone tries to steal it. The only reason I know where she hides her real wand is because Star told me in conversation.
I was instructed to walk Star into town one day so she could visit Tom (she wasn't aloud to go out by herself, even at the age of thirteen) and she went on about how much she just wanted to take the wand from under there and do "great things" with it.
I reached my hands under the bed and surprisingly enough, I felt something and pulled out a small suitcase. My heart raced when I saw that the lock had already been undone. I opened it and sure enough, the wand was missing."Oh crap", I mumbled. I locked the suitcase and put it back under the bed as if nothing happened.
I quickly walked out of the bedroom and closed the door behind me. I started to walk out the palace and head home. I'm not gonna tell them that Star took the wand. That's what they get for calling my friend an idiot.
Marco's POV
For the first time in my life, I actually felt happy to be alive. Everyday I wake up thinking, "I can't handle another day of this", but today I have Jackie Lynn Thomas in my bed with me and I'm holding her in my arms. I haven't opened my eyes yet because I want this moment to last as long as possible.
After a few minutes I felt something on my wrist. It was a pair of lips. Jackie was kissing my wrist. I could feel my face heat up like it was set on fire by an invisible force. Her lips were actually touching me. It's official, I am the luckiest boy on earth. I finally opened my eyes and I was surprised to see that I was wasn't hugging Jackie Lynn Thomas, I was holding Star Butterfly.
I blushed even harder when I realized that she was still kissing my wrist. "S-Star, what are you doing?"
She looked at me with a big smile and said, "I'm kissing your war scars silly."
I was confused until I realized that she was kissing my cuts. "Where were you fighting? I don't know how you get these weird little scars from fighting on a battlefield.", she asked looking at my cuts.
I was at a loss for words, not only was Star kissing me, but she had discovered my cuts. I was trying to think of a good lie but for some reason, I just couldn't think of anything. Probably because I was too busy staring at Star's half naked body. For some reason the princess wasn't wearing her nightgown, she had took it off and she was in her bra and panties. I prayed to God that she wouldn't noticed the bulge in my pants and ask what it was.
"Why aren't you wearing your nightgown?"
"You mean my sleeping dress? I took it off because it's super hot in here. Haven't you noticed I'm covered in sweat?", she said motioning toward her sweat glazed body. "And you still haven't answered my question, where did you fight in the war?"
I sighed, "I never fought in a war Star. I just have these for…reasons." Great lie dumbass.
"What kind of reasons?", she asked. "Bad reasons", I answered, "Just let it go okay?" I tried getting off the bed but Star grabbed my hand. A look of worry appeared on her face, "Marco, did someone hurt you? Who did it!? I will destroy them!"
Her sudden outburst took me by surprise but I quickly recovered, "No one hurt me Star, I was born like this." I should've came up with that fucking lie immediately.
That answer seemed to satisfy Star. She let me go and aloud me to get off the bed. I was about to leave the room but Star stopped me, "Your girlfriend said thank you." I turned back to her and she was smirking. I was doing my best not to stare at her lovely body.
"What do you mean?", I asked.
"Jackie said thank you. She said that you would know what she meant.", Star explained. "Oh.", I said. I opened the door, but before I left I said one more thing, "Jackie is not my girlfriend Star." I'm not that lucky.
Authors Note: Sorry if the ending seems a bit rushed. There is so much stuff Jackie isn't telling Marco, but we'll go into that next chapter along with a bit of information about Marco's past.
Marco and Star do not kiss yet, but it's coming. Please review and have a nice day.