"She was on earth? The goddess herself?", she asks confused and I nod. "Actually, her soul was in someone elses body who recently had just died", I stutter carefully and suddenly her jaw drops. "Charlotte Richards!", she exclaims and I shouldnt be surprised at how fast she had solved this riddle, she is Los Angeles finest after all. "I didnt want to take her back to hell so my father sent Uriel one of my brothers", I say and she listens carefully. "I had to either take mum back to hell or he would kill you", I mutter and all the guilt starts rushing back, choking me.
The detective carefully places her hand on mine and weakly smiles at me. "I thought Amenadiel could handle it but he lost his powers", I continue. "Amenadiel is an angel?", she asks shocked and I nod. "Me and Uriel got into a fight. I knew he was serious and no one could stop him. I... I killed Uriel. I killed my brother", I try to swallow down my emotions but by the look Chloe gives me I can tell that I didnt do such a good job at it. "You know, mum never liked you", I quickly change the topic and chuckle. "Ouch", Chloe replies sarcastically but cant hold back her smile. "She almost blew you up in your car", I add and she gasps. "Wow the goddess herself wanted me dead. I feel flattered", she jokes and her eyes start sparkling again. "But mum wasnt save here on earth and neither was anybody else around her so we sent her to her own world a few months after. I havent seen her since", I tell her. We sit next to each other in silence for a while and I cant imagine how the detective must feel right now.
"Is there something else you want to know?", I ask carefully and Chloe sighs. I can see that there is something on her mind but I don't want to push her. I don't want her to back away again, so instead I wait. "Why did you leave me right after we... I almost died?", she breathes out and I know what she actually wanted to ask. 'Why did you leave before we could start a relationship together?' "I...I am sorry", I stutter and look up to meet her eyes. She looks so sad right now. I never wanted her to feel this way. "After we kissed I found out that my father was making you feel the way you were feeling. Your parents couldn't have a child so my father send Amenadiel down to earth to bless them and soon after you were born", I start and take a huge breath. "This was his plan all along. We are all just a pawn in his fucked up game", the detective opens her mouth but I continue talking. I need her to know everything.
"You then were dying and I had to help you. I killed myself so I could go down to hell and find the doctor to get the antidote. Thankfully I made it back in time and you woke up again. I left afterwards because I wanted to give you a choice. I wanted to make it easier for you because this was not fair", I explain and she shakes her head. "What if it was just me?", she suddenly blurs out and I furrow my brows. "What do you mean?" - "What if I like you because I just do?", she asks and my heart skips a beat. 'Like' as in she still likes me? "But what if not? You are the only person I am mortal around. Surely this is his doing", I argue, not trying to get my hopes up. "But maybe it is something else that makes you vulnerable. It really hurt when you left and even more so when you came back with Candy. I wish you just would have told me", she stutters, voice full of hurt and I can literally feel my heart shatter in my chest.
What have I done to this woman? "I thought that if you hate me, you would at least not like me anymore. I really wanted to stay away for good but... I just couldnt. I had to see you again. I am sorry, I should have never come back", I apologize. "Or you should never have left", she whispers and I freeze. Is she still having some hope for us? We stare into each others eyes which feels like hours, and I am getting lost in her ocean blue ones. "I just like you, Lucifer, my egomaniacal narcissistic partner. Just take it and don't question everything", she suddenly whispers and I open my eyes wide. Maybe Cain was right after all. "I like you too, Chloe. I am so deeply sorry for everything you had to go through because of me", I reply and carefully stroke her cheek. Electrizty immediately rushes theough my veins and I weakly smile.
"I... I should get going", she suddenly announces and I feel a sharp pain in my chest. I pushed her away for good now. She must have seen the worried look on my face because she continues. "I really need this break. I need to think about everything and just be alone for a while. I promise I will drop by Lux as soon as I am back", she assures me but all I want to do is hug her tight and never let her go again. The last few weeks have been hell for me, not knowing how she was feeling, if she was okay. "Goodnight Lucifer", her soft voice brings me back to reality and her arms are wrapped around me before I can process it. "Goodnight detective. Have a save journey and thank you for listening", I whisper into her hair which smells like roses. I let go of her and she walks to the elevator. Right before the doors close behind her she turns around and smiles at me. I really hope that this wasn't the last time I would see this extraordinary woman who turned my whole life upside down.
1 WEEK LATER
Chloe's Pov
I stare at my phone, waiting for it to ring, but it doesn't. Just like it didn't the past few days. Frustration builds up inside me and I try to swallow it down. I asked him for space and he is giving me it, so why am I mad? Deep down inside I know it's because I am afraid he will have moved on by the time I come back. That when I am ready to put my heart into his hands he is going to crush it without thinking twice. I can hear the footsteps of my little girl and I quickly put my phone on the kitchen counter. I smile at her and she immediately frowns. „Is everything alright mommy?", she asks caring and my heart almost breaks. She shouldn't care about me, ask me if I am alright. „Of course monkey", I tell her and pick her up from the floor. „Are you ready for movie night?", I quickly change the topic and her face lights up. The phone on the counter makes a sound and I roll my eyes. „Why don't you check?", Trixie asks curiously. „It is probably Ella trying to talk me into a girls night", I tell her. „So why don't you go?", she asks confused. „There is too much dancing", I say and she giggles. „I like dancing! Maybe I can come with you", she announces and hands me my phone. „Alright monkey, I will ask her", I say and check my phone for messages. My face immediately goes blank when I see who actually texted me. Lucifer. It would be an understatement saying that I thought about our conversation. My mind was consumed by him. All I could smell was whiskey and cherries and everywhere I go something reminded me of him. He even followed me in my dreams and his husky british voice is playing on repeat, like a broken record in my head. As much as him being the devil threw me off tracks, I couldn't help but crave his touch, his lips, him. I take a huge breath and press 'read'. "Hello Chloe. I know you needed some space but I just wanted to check on you and see if you are okay. I hope you are having a good time at your moms house with Trixie. I can't wait to see your beautiful smile again. Love, Lucifer"