Magnus POV
This morning I awoke in my bed with Alec by my side. Just watching as his chest rose and fell brought a smile to my tired face. I let him get his rest as I got up and planned for what was to come. I couldn't wait a day longer and I would make it as perfect as I could.
I was distracted with invites when Alec groggily walked into the room. I looked up to see a sleepy smile on his face; my favorite of his smiles. He looked over at me and spoke, "Good morning."
"Good morning it is. A good morning indeed." I said as I walked over to him and pecked him on the lips. When we separated I handed Alec one of the things I was working on.
"What's this?" Asked, Alec, as he took the piece of paper and read it aloud, "You are cordially invited to the wedding of Alexander Gideon Lightwood and Magnus Bane. Tonight?"
"Why wait even a day longer? After everything we've been through, who knows what crisis will befall us tomorrow. Waiting could mean another bump in the road might put things off track. Besides why wait when I finally have the man I love back in my arms?" I said as I gave him my loving eyes he couldn't resist.
"I don't know. I was hoping that maybe we could plan." Said Alec
"When your wedding planner is a warlock, all you need is a little magic and exquisite taste. Ah, all right. First up, location. How about the Taj Mahal? Or Machu Picchu, hmm, in the Temple of the Sun?" I gloated
Alec came up beside me and placed a hand on my shoulder. "Or how about the Institute? If we decorated with your exquisite taste I think we could really make it something."
"Right. Because when I think romantic, I think of the New York Institute. How about Ladera in St. Lucia? Overlooking the tropical sea. Portals will shuttle in guests, and we…" I began again as Alec turned me around so we were looking at one another
"Magnus, just think. The Clave would have to honor and celebrate a relationship between a warlock and a Shadowhunter. Under their own roof. I mean, think about the message that would send to others like us." Said Alec
I thought about it for a moment and realized it could be beautiful. The Institute honoring a wedding like ours would be a step in the right direction for equality. I nodded with a smile. "All right. The Institute it is, then. I'll send out invitations and begin preparations. Tuxedos?"
"I do like you in a tux." Said, Alec, with his sexy eyes. The eyes that made my knees weak and I just smiled even harder.
"Mmm. Why mess with success?" I said as I wrapped my hands around his neck.
"All these hundreds of years, I can't believe you've never been married." Said Alec
"Well, I've never met anyone like you." I said as I leaned up and gave him a kiss.
Carly POV
After our walk yesterday, the queen and Jonathan went into her quarters alone. I on the other hand was situated in the room beside them, with walls as thin as paper. They were going at it like dogs and my sleep was minimal. Luckily, this gave me time to plan my attack.
If I attacked too early then he would retaliate and end me before I had the chance to end him. If I attacked too late then I would die just as much as villain as he. The best option would be to wait until we meet with Clary and her friends. They will distract him long enough for me to get the blow as long as none of them get my way.
As I was thinking over my plan I heard the Queen and Jonathan wake up. I could see blurry shapes through the wall, but I could hear them quite clearly. I moved closer to the wall and eavesdropped.
"You are a powerful one, aren't you?" Asked, Seelie Queen, as she traced the veins in his arm. "You know, if we had a child together, our progeny could very easily be the most formidable creature the world has ever known. Imagine that."
"I'd rather not." Mumbled, Jonathan, as he got up from the bed and slid on his shirt.
"Where are you going?" Asked Seelie Queen
Jonathan got into his pants and buttoned them as he turned back to look at the queen. "I'm going to collect Carly and we are going to leave. We have business to attend to and sitting here is wasteful of my time."
"Why? I thought you were quite comfortable here." Questioned Seelie Queen
"You gave me a moment of pleasure, sure. But you offer me no comfort." Said Jonathan
"Do I have to remind you it was I who nursed you back to health? Who taught you how to properly use your powers? If it weren't for me you and your sister would have been killed. Whether it be shadowhunters or other rabid dogs. I am the reason you are as powerful as you are now!" Yelled Seelie Queen
"Everything you do is for yourself. You fear me, as you should. You want to become an ally, so you don't die like everybody else. You're smart." Said Jonathan
"You misunderstand, Jonathan. I have feelings for you. I want you to be my king. Together, we will destroy the Shadowhunters and rule the earthly realm side by side." Said, Seelie Queen, as she walked forward and placed a hand on his shoulder. "I love you, Jonathan. We could rule this land and make the peasants fear our names."
"I prefer to rule with my sister. Not some seelie who thinks she's a queen." Said, Jonathan, as he threw her hand aside and raised his own.
She knew this meant death so the queen transformed herself into a child and begged Jonathan to spare her. "Please, Jonathan. Please. You wouldn't dare hurt a child. Have mercy."
"Mercy is for humans. And I'm no longer human." Said, Jonathan, as he squeezed his hand into a fist.
The queen began screaming as her skin turned black. She begged Jonathan to stop, but he just watched as she turned to ash. He looked down at the pile with a look of empty as he walked around the room and came into mine.
"What's the plan?" I asked
"I have all the power I could ask for. It's time to fight the hunters who took everything from us. Want to wreck some havoc?" Asked, Jonathan, reaching his hand toward me.
I placed my hand in his and he helped me off the bed. "Sounds fun."
With my conscience gone I didn't really care how many died as long as it ended with Jonathan and I leaving this world. The hunters took a lot from me so if a few died along the way I wouldn't be too upset. Besides fighting it would only make things worse.
Jace POV
Everything was going to shit. Panic was spreading and Alec tried to deal with damage control. Rumors spread that someone was killing hunters and sadly that rumor was true.
"We've just been informed that a string of demonic attacks have taken place at 13 Institutes worldwide with massive casualties, both mundane and Shadowhunter. Whoever or whatever is carrying out these attacks is not stopping. And there are several Institutes currently unaccounted for." Explained Alec
"What about Los Angeles? Have you heard from them?" I asked
"Nothing yet." Said, Alec, with a sad look in his eyes.
"I'm going there right now." Said, Isabelle, as she headed for the door. When she got close to the door the monitor in the main room began ringing.
Everyone circled around the monitor to see it was a call coming from the Los Angeles Institute. Alec made everyone quiet down as he answered. The screen lit up with Max and Alec's dad Robert looking worse for wear.
"Hello? Can you hear me?" Asked Robert
"Dad, yes. What happened?" Asked Alec
"Jonathan and Carly Morgenstern attacked the LA Institute a few minutes ago. They had no mercy for anyone inside. They killed everyone except for Max and I." Said Robert
"Carly, would never do that." Said Clary
Robert looked down at his feet and then back at the camera. "I'm sorry Clary, but she did. She killed just as many hunters as he did."
"By the Angel." Said Isabelle
"We were only spared because Carly convinced Jonathan that we could leave a message." Said Max
"What's the message?" I asked
"Jonathan wants Clary to know…" Began, Robert, as we all looked toward Clary. "He's taking down every Institute in the world, and he's saving New York for last."
"Why?" I asked
"Because he wants Clary to watch the world die, knowing that it's all her fault." Said Max
"Did they say anything else?" Asked Alec
Robert nodded and pulled a piece of paper from his pocket. "Carly handed this to me right before they left. I can't read Korean. Does this mean anything to you?" He held up the paper that read, "그는 결혼식 도중 공격 할 것이다." and Clary's eyes went wide.
Alec ended the call and everyone got back to business. Isabelle, Alec, Clary, Magnus, Ethan, and I circled around one of the tables and we began planning. Things were not looking good.
"He and Carly are not showing any signs of slowing down. Denver and Chicago have already been hit. Hundreds of Shadowhunters and at least 80 mundanes have already been killed." Said, Alec, as a news broadcast appeared on the screen.
"The news is calling it a string of chemical weapons attacks. People are being told to stay indoors." Said Isabelle
"Ethan and I have the warlock community at the ready." Said Magnus
I looked over and saw how quiet Clary had become. After that video she had not said a word and I know something was up. She clearly understood the note and I'm guessing it was important so I asked, "What did the note say?"
The others turned to Clary as she cleared her throat and spoke up, "My mother made Carly and I learn many languages so we could understand others wherever we ended up. Korean was one of Carly's favorites. She said in the note, "geuneun gyeolhonsig dojung gonggyeog hal geosida." which translates to he will attack during the wedding."
"That makes sense. Jonathan wants to kill as many as he can and there will be at least 200 hunters at the wedding. Carly tried to warn us." I chimed in
"I'm not cancelling my wedding." Said, Alec, as we all looked toward him.
"Alec, Jonathan and Carly are going to attack. Postponing the wedding will ensure the safety of the most amount of people. Continuing with the wedding is dangerous." Said Isabelle
Alec looked down at the table as he slammed his fist upon it. "I will not push back this wedding because Jonathan might attack. I am marrying Magnus today and I won't let Jonathan scare me. This is my special day and I won't have it disrupted."
"Then what's the game plan?" I asked
"We continue as planned and be ready if and when they strike." Said, Alec, as he typed on the keyboard. "Magnus can portal a lot of the guests out and the others can fight if they so choose. I won't let this Institute fall like the others have. We are better than that."
"Ethan and I can do that." Agreed, Magnus, as Ethan and Magnus nodded toward each other.
"What are we going to do after we get most of the guests out? How are we going to handle Jonathan and Carly?" Asked Isabelle
"We seperate Clary from Jonathan." Said, Clary, with a serious look. "She will try to kill herself and Jonathan, which cannot happen. Simon can grab Carly to keep her safe and I can take out Jonathan."
"You can't take him out on his own." I whined
"I know a rune that will do the trick as long as I can get close. He won't hesitate to kill any of you, but he won't kill me. If I can get close, I can end this." Said Clary
"And what if you're wrong? What if he just kills you like the other shadowhunters he's killed. It's too much of a gamble." I said
"How many more people have to die? I am the only one who can end this. Let me end it." Said, Clary, looking over at me with pleading eyes.
She wanted to fix this. She wanted to get her sister back and save the day. She pretended to be brave, but I could see right through her. Clary was terrified that she wouldn't be strong enough to win and I felt that exact same fear.
"What happens if you get there and you can't take him out? He's pretty much invincible now." Asked Alec
"Not against me." Said Clary
"Are you sure about this?" I questioned
"I'm sure."
I could tell by the look in her eyes that she wasn't sure. She was worried of failing and causing more people to get hurt. I pulled her in for a hug as she nuzzled against my chest. Today was either going to be the biggest win we've ever had or be our downfall.
Carly POV
Jonathan and I took out Institutes all around the world as his wings caused for fast travel. I felt nothing as I killed the hunters because I knew what tonight would bring. I tried to warn my friends so I just hope they got my message in time. We prepared for crashing Magnus & Alec's wedding when I thought of something.
"Jonathan, do you think I could go out on my own for a bit?" I asked
"Why?" Questioned Jonathan
"I know this warlock who has helped me in the past with odds and ends. He's trustworthy and he might be able to get me some more lethal weaponry. My teeth are good up close, but Clary's friends are smart. I need to make sure this ends with us on top." I explained
"How do I know you will come back?" Questioned Jonathan
"Where else would I go? I defied my friends to be by your side. I killed hundreds of hunters and a few mundanes. Do you really think they would let me back in after that? I'm their enemy now and I plan to act upon it. Give me an hour and I will back within it." I said
Jonathan looked uneasy, but he allowed me to leave. I thanked him and used my speed to get across town. I made my way to an apartment building similar to Magnus'. I took the steps to the penthouse suite and knocked upon the door. I heard rustling behind the door and then he answered.
When he saw me, his smile faded and he tried to slam the door in my face. I shoved my foot in the edge of the door and pushed it open. He was hesitant, but he allowed me passage into his home.
"Hello Adrian, It's been awhile." I said as I looked around at his apartment.
He had similar taste to Magnus. Luxury at its finest with a marble fireplace, persian rugs, and beautiful sculptures. It was almost like a museum.
"Indeed it has." Said, Adrian, as he closed the door and walked around so we were facing each other. "Last time I saw you, you were still human."
Adrian was a warlock friend of my mother's. He used to babysit me a lot when I wasn't allowed to leave the house. I only found out he was a warlock after I became a shadowhunter. I hadn't talked to him since before Valentine had taken Jace and I while looking for the Book of the White. Which felt like ages ago.
"Yeah, well a lot has happened in the last two years." I said
"Carly, why are you here?" Asked, Adrian, crossing his arms over his chest. "I've seen your escapades on the news. You and your brother have caused a lot of damage. Are you here to kill me as well?"
"Adrian, I haven't come to kill you. I am here because I need your help to kill my brother and I." I said as his eyes went wide with surprise.
"You want to kill him and yourself?" Questioned Adrian
"If you haven't heard, I lost my conscience due to Jonathan. The only way to fix it is stealing someone else's and I won't do that to someone. If Jonathan stays alive he will just cause more death and I will most likely give into my urges. I am doing the world a favor. Now can you help me?" I said
"Then why kill beside him?" Asked Adrian
"I needed to gain his trust. I can't let him know what is coming. He is stronger than ever and if he senses my wavering loyalty he might kill me before I have the chance to kill him. Help me, Adrian." I said as I grabbed his hands in mine. "Please."
Adrian looked at me for a long moment before he broke down. He walked into the other room and came back with a ancient pistol. I tried to touch it, but he pushed my hand away then he explained what the gun truly was.
"This pistol was spelled by an advanced warlock a long time ago. I collected it through an auction and have kept it in my possession in case things get dire." Said Adrian
"What does it do?" I asked
"There is a link spell attached to the weapon. Whatever happens to the victim happens to the shooter. Like a bounce mechanism. If you shoot Jonathan then you will also shoot yourself in the same spot." Explained Adrian
"But I'm a vampire. Won't I just heal?" I asked
"Not with this weapon. If you shoot him with this it will kill him and you. The spell makes sure of it. Doesn't matter where you shoot him, he'll die. The spell stops the blood from clotting, so you'll bleed out until death sets in. There is no coming back from it." Explained Adrian
"That's exactly what I want." I said
I tried grabbing for the gun and Adrian pulled the gun away from me, shaking his finger. "I don't give things away for free, especially nothing like this. I need payment before handing it over."
I could tell what Adrian meant by payment. Adrian had an yin fen addiction, which was clearly a problem. He once tried to get Simon to bite him, even attacking him to do so. Luckily Simon escaped before that happened. I needed the gun and if that meant supplying his addiction so be it.
"Where do you want me to bite you Adrian?" I asked
"Glad we're doing business." Said, Adrian, as he used his magic to hide the gun so I couldn't just kill him and run.
Once the gun was safe, he stepped forward and revealed his neck to me. It was scarred from all the other vampires who he did business with. I pulled him in close and sunk my fangs deep into his jugular.
He shivered underneath me as I drank from him. I could hear him silently moaning which made it way more awkward then it had to be. He clung to my sweatshirt as I clung to his. When I had gotten my fill, I pulled away and he fell back onto the couch in bliss.
"Thanks for the pleasure. Here's your gun and I guess this is goodbye." Said, Adrian, as he snapped and the gun appeared in my hand.
"I guess it is." I said as I headed for the door.
"Carly!" Yelled, Adrian, as I took a few steps back so I could see him. "Kill the bastard."
"Don't worry, he isn't leaving that Institute alive." I said as I left Adrian on his couch.
I checked and the gun had only one bullet. Meaning I only had one shot at this and I wasn't going to screw it up. I was going to end this once and for all.
Alec POV
Magnus got everything ready and it was time for the ceremony. I was more nervous then I had ever been. My last wedding I did for a title, but this time I was doing it for love and I was scared to death. What if I stuttered or said the wrong thing?
I tried to push those fears down as my father walked me down the aisle. When we reached the end I embraced him and walked up to Brother Zachariah. Then the music started and I looked toward the doors to see Magnus and my mother. They walked toward me as the smile on my face widened.
Just seeing him made my heart beat rapidly. Magnus looked sexy in a suit and today he looked extraordinary. My mother walked him to the front, hugged him, and then he joined me on the stage. I grabbed his hands as he grabbed onto mine.
I was so nervous, but this is something I had always wanted and couldn't wait any longer. I cleared my throat and looked deep into Magnus' eyes, "In times of joy as well as sadness."
"In sickness and in health." Said Magnus
"I will love you as my equal."
"And protect you above all else." Said Magnus
"I will share with you my truest feelings."
"And when you speak, I will listen." Said Magnus
"I will catch you when you fall."
"And when you soar, I will help you reach your greatest heights." Said Magnus
We stared at each other for a long moment and I started crying. Magnus did just the same as we were so happy. Brother Zachariah stepped forward and beckoned us to finish our vows.
"Magnus Bane." I said
"Alexander Gideon Lightwood." Said Magnus
"I am and will always be your loving husband." We said at the exact same time.
"It is my honor to pronounce you one." Said Brother Zachariah
We smiled at one another as we kissed. The whole room filled with cheers as we pulled each other in close. His lips on mine felt like lightning spreading throughout my body. It was like nothing I had ever felt.
Once we pulled away we turned toward the crowd and walked down the aisle. The group broke up and then the after party began. A slow song came up and it was time for the first dance. We walked to the middle of the floor and began slow dancing.
"I'm not stepping on your feet, am I?" I asked
"How could you be? It's like I'm walking on air." Said, Magnus, as he laid his head on my chest.
Everything was so perfect and I knew it wouldn't last. Yet for a little while everything was perfect. Clary and Jace were watching from the crowd and saw how happy we were.
"I've never seen my brother as happy as he is when he's with Magnus." Said Jace
"I know the feeling." Said, Clary, as they looked toward each other.
Once the first dance was over the others got to join in. Clary and Jace danced for awhile until they became tired. They both headed into the other room to slow dance with one another. It was peaceful and a lot quieter than the other room.
"You know, being at this wedding, it's made me think. I was brought up to believe I had to be perfect. The perfect warrior, the perfect soldier, the perfect son. Even when I came to live with the Lightwoods, I believed that if I wasn't perfect, they'd send me away. I didn't think anyone could love me unconditionally, no matter what mistakes I made." Said, Jace, as he pulled back so they were looking at one another. "And then you showed up, and you broke everything I believed into pieces."
"I'm sorry." Said Clary
"Well, don't be. You're the best thing that ever happened to me, Clary Fairchild." Said Jace
"Every single cell in my body loves you. And when those cells die and new ones are born, those cells love you even more. So, Jace, no matter what happens, my love for you will never die." Said, Clary, as she began to cry.
"Are you alright?" Asked Jace
"I'm just worried." Said, Clary, as she tried to smile through the tears. "If tonight doesn't go as planned, Jonathan could kill more innocent people. Carly might end up killing them both and then I lose her too. So many things could go wrong."
Jace placed his hand on my cheek and gave me a quick kiss. "Whatever happens I will be by your side through all of it. You can do this, Clary. We all believe in you and we will fight by your side until the bitter end."
"I love you." Said Clary
"I love you too." Said, Jace, as he pulled her in for another kiss. Which is the last moment they had together before everything went to hell.
Carly POV
I showed the gun to Jonathan, but lied about what it truly did. We prepared and he flew us over to the Institute. We looked at each other one last time before we headed inside.
As we entered Jonathan struck down anyone who tried to come close. I knocked out the hunters that came for me because I wasn't gonna cause anyone else's death. We made it into the main room to find it empty aside from Jace, Clary, Magnus, Ethan, Simon, Isabelle, and Alec.
"I see you knew we were coming." Said Jonathan
"We knew you were going to attack us last. So we evacuated most of the guests to make sure no one got caught in the crossfire. This is between us and it is going to end between us." Yelled Jace
"So be it." Said Jonathan
We nodded at one another as our eyes went black. Simon and Ethan went for me as the others headed for Jonathan. Ethan and Simon began circling me as I smiled a cooky smile.
"Doesn't this seem repetitive? You both trying to separate me from my brother? It's kind of like a broken record." I said
"Carly, we read your note and we know what you plan to do." Said Simon
"And we aren't going to let it happen." Said Ethan
I looked from one to the other with anger. "I have hurt you both more times than I can count. Why are you trying to stop me? If I can put an end to Jonathan, it's a win."
"Yet we'll lose you, I'll lose you." Said Simon
"Simon, it's the only way. If I stay alive, I'll just go dark again. It's happened too often to just be a coincidence. I can't stay alive knowing that I could kill someone I love because I can't care. I won't." I said
"Well, we're going to have to stop you then." Said Ethan
Ethan swayed his hands around as my arms shot behind my back as if they were in invisible handcuffs. Simon tried to grab me, but I used my strength to break out of the invisible cuffs as I threw him across the room. Ethan tried to shoot a fireball at me, but I dodged and appeared in front of him.
I grabbed Ethan and began to lift him in the air when Simon appeared out of nowhere and tackled me to the ground. As my shoulder hit the tile I looked over and saw the others losing, badly. Isabelle was unconscious and Jace had been stabbed through the shoulder. Magnus was tending to Alec's head injury so Clary was last one.
Jonathan and Clary fought for only a moment when Jonathan knocked her blade from her hand and put her in a chokehold. I saw this and knew I had to stop him. I wouldn't watch Clary die too.
I used all my strength to throw Simon off of me which made him collide with Ethan. They both collapsed onto the ground. I quickly got to my feet as I knew what to do.
I stepped forward so I was in Jonathan's view and pulled the gun from my back pocket, pointing it at him. I wasn't going to let him hurt anyone else. It was time to end it.
"Jonathan, stop!" I yelled pointing the gun at him. Jonathan looked toward me with confusion. He let Clary go as he stepped forward, "I am ending this, Jonathan."
"You're threatening to kill me?" Questioned Jonathan
"I am not going to let anyone else die. I might not be able to care, but I won't go out as a villain." I said as he stopped a few inches from the gun. "You and I, we've always been connected. When you were in Edom, crying out for us, I was dreaming about you."
"You dreamt of me?" Asked Jonathan
"And when I found out that I actually had a brother, I didn't feel so alone anymore. I never met you, but I felt like I actually had a family. Clary was there, but it wasn't the same." I said as I looked over at her and then back at Jonathan. "When I discovered I had a brother with the same demonic blood as I, I was so happy to finally have someone who could understand me."
"Yet you are betraying me now." Said, Jonathan, as he pushed his chest against the barrel of the gun.
"I tried not to. I wanted to believe in you, Jonathan. I did. Ever since I was a little girl, you were my boy in the tower. The boy that I always wanted to save but I never thought I could. I wanted to save you, but I just couldn't. After you made me kill Alvina I realized there was no hope." I said as I placed my finger on the trigger. "Now that my conscience is gone I truly realize what I have caused. If I had saved you from that tower you might be different, but I failed. You are past saving and I am just the same."
"I can't be fixed, Carly." Said Jonathan
"I know that now. You are my twin and my other half. I understand your pain as you understand mine. That is why I have to do this. It's time for us to go Jonathan. We have done enough bad in this world and I can't let it continue." I said
"Carly, don't." Said Simon
Isabelle had woken up and Jace and Alec were healed. Ethan and Simon joined the others as they watched from the side. None of them wanted to see me get hurt, but if they intervened it might just make things worse.
"I don't think you have the courage to pull that trigger." Threatened Jonathan
"I have to have the courage because if I don't then I'll die without purpose." I said
"You only have one bullet." Said Jonathan
"I only need one."
I pulled the trigger as the bullet ripped through Jonathan's chest. He flew back onto the floor, gasping in pain. I stayed standing as I reached up to my chest and saw my hand covered in blood. I lost the strength in my legs and collapsed beside him.
Clary and Simon ran to my side as she pulled me onto her lap. She tried to keep pressure on the wound, but I knew it wasn't going to do anything. I grabbed her hand and pulled it away.
"Clary, stop." I said
"Why aren't you healing, Carly? Do you need blood?" Asked, Clary, as she moved her hair to the side to reveal more of her neck.
I looked up at her and shook my head. "Clary, even if I drink your blood it won't help me."
"Why won't it? How did you even get shot? I didn't see the bullet bounce." Asked, Simon, as his face became wet with tears.
"The bullet didn't bounce. The gun is enchanted with a link spell." Said, Magnus, as Simon and Clary turned to look over at him. "Whatever happens to the victim happens to the shooter. The spell keeps the wound from clotting so she will continue to bleed until there is nothing left."
Clary's eyes went wide and she began sobbing even harder. She never wanted me to get hurt and that is exactly what happened. "Carly, don't die on me please. I can't lose you too. I've lost Mom, Dot, and so many friends, please don't make me lose you too."
"I'm sorry, Clary, but it was the only way. If I stayed alive I would just cause more pain and suffering. This is the only way to keep the world safe from Jonathan and I." I said
"We could have found another way." Said, Simon, as he began crying even harder.
Clary allowed Simon to pull me onto his lap as he held me close. Clary stepped back to be embraced by Jace while the others watched from a few feet away. Magnus, Isabelle, Ethan, and even Alec were crying. They all cared which made my dying heart happy.
Simon looked from me to Magnus with teary eyes. "There has to be something you can do to heal her."
"There isn't." Said, Magnus, while shaking his head. "The gun she used was made by a powerful warlock long ago. I might be able to slow down the process, but I can't heal her. I'm sorry."
"No there has to be a way, there has to be." Said, Simon, aloud to himself.
I placed my hand on his face so he would look at me, "Simon, it's okay. This is what I want. I am sick of waiting till I turn evil next. This way I can die knowing I did one last good thing."
"I can't lose you, Carly. You are the one thing in my life that makes sense. I don't want to say goodbye." Said, Simon, as one of his tears hit my cheek.
"I don't want to say goodbye either, but it's my time. I love you, Simon." I cried
"I love you too." Said, Simon, as he bent over me and kissed me.
The pain in my chest was excruciating but the kiss lessened it. His kiss brought me one last moment of joy. As we kissed I could feel myself weakening and I knew that meant death was close. I pushed him away and told him to lay me down.
He was hesitant, but he did as I said and laid me next to Jonathan. Jonathan was gasping for air as his head turned to look at me. I gave him a weak smile as I grabbed his hand and squeezed tight.
"I love you, Jonathan. Always." I cried
"I...love you...too, Carly." Gasped Jonathan
We held our hands tight as I lost all the feeling in my legs. Our hands stayed clasped as we both took our last breath. Leaving this world forever.
The last thing I remember hearing before everything went dark was Clary and Simon crying my name. It wasn't like I wanted to die because personally I would have loved to live forever with Simon by my side. Yet that is not the future cut out for me.
Even if I had figured out a way to kill Jonathan and not myself there would always be the chance of me going dark again. I had no conscience, which meant I would make terrible decisions and most likely hurt those I love. I can't bear to hurt any of them anymore so this was my only option.
I feel bad for leaving Simon and Clary behind, but they would move on and find happiness. I know they would. Maybe one day I'll see them again or maybe this was the last time, I don't know. What I do know is that I'm finally free of my darkness and I'm no longer the broken shadowhunter.