Why Me

Ch. 9 Determined Decision

Kagome sat on the ground deep in thought over Amaterasu-sama had just told her she knew whatever choice she made would have repercussions not necessarily bad but there would be some no the less. Come to think of it she didn't even know where she was or how much time had passed since her spirit had been drawn to this place by the goddess who she knew was still there awaiting her answer. "Amaterasu-sama?" she questioned

"Yes dear child?"

"Where exactly am I?" she gestured to the place around them that oddly had balls of energy floating around in it that looked like Sesshomaru's youkai cloud.

"We are in the place were all power in your world comes from and all power in your world eventually returns to in the end one way or the other."

"Oh" was all she said before she went back into her deep thoughts if she were to return back to her own time she would miss Inuyasha, Touga, Izayoi, Inukimi, and most of all Shippo and Sesshomaru. But at the same time she knew if she left Touga would take care of her kit and raise him well and of course make sure that they all survived to see her again in her time.

It's funny but of the short time she had lived at the western palace she had come to see the palace and it's rulers as her home and family. Touga sort of filled the void that had been left by her own father's death and Inukimi and Izayoi were very sweet although lady Inukimi had much more practice at being a mother. Sesshomaru although arrogant was loyal, intelligent, and caring in his own way although few could actually tell he had emotions even now. Not to mention he had to the single most gorgeous male she had ever seen in her life even back when they were enemies she had admitted he was handsome.

But future Inuyasha although she had a feeling that he wouldn't turn out like he did last time had done a lot of damage to her heart and made her unable to trust someone with it in the romantic sense. She knew it was silly in her mind but her heart said otherwise and sometimes the heart and the mind conflicted much like a youkai and their inner beast.

It had been a day already and his mate had yet to wake up, but for some reason that he couldn't fathom his inner beast was as calm as could be like it knew something he didn't and when he asked the damn overgrown dog had just stared at him with unwavering red eyes. It irked him that his beast was just sitting there calmly in his mind while their mate could quite possibly be in danger which earned him a snort form his other half. "Like we would let anything happen to our mate" "Oh then why is she unconscious and unresponsive oh wise one?"

"She is coming to a decision." Was all it said in reply before vanishing back in to the recesses of his mind a refusing to talk to him. What his beast had said put him on edge though and he was certain that he was not going to like what his mate had to say when she did wake up. Which brought up his mates famous temper to the forefront of his mind she even scared him when the one time someone had provoked her into becoming truly livid though it also made him want her all the more. She had a fire about her that few females could compare to and sharp wit that at times left him either breathless or baffled and one time even left him a little bit of both.

He had seen many a demoness that was devastatingly beautiful but demonesses were all the same they only wanted him for his power and his title not for him, she on the other hand cared nothing for his title. She didn't care if you were a commoner or a noble she treated you the same regardless of status, power, physical strength or beauty, even species did not seem to deter her in the least. She treated you basted on actions not on words because words were often cheap and worth very little actions spoke far louder than words ever could which is another thing that attracted him to her. He was a youkai of few words and preferred to let his actions speak for him rather than speak meaningless chatter unless there was no other way to get his point across but to speak.

Her physical beauty also attracted him as well she was not earthreally beautiful like youkai women often were, but instead had a quiet beauty about her that called to his baser instincts in a way no female ever had. Her hair was a black as a ravens wing with tints of dark blue when the light fell on it in a certain way and fell down to her tiny waist. She was rather diminutive compared to him only coming up to barely his breastbone, buy she held strength within her that was not to be denied. And those piercing sapphire eyes that seemed to bore right into his very soul and burned with a fire he could have sworn was living if he didn't know any better. All in all she was the perfect female for him and if she mated him she would gain his life span and be able to see her family and friends again. Also any pups they had would be extremely powerful the females would likely have their mother's purification powers while the males would likely be immune to any form of purification. Though he wasn't sure if their children would be half or full youkai that was something he would have to ask her of Bosenkno.

Even if they were only half youkai he would still love them after all he had gotten over his hatred of hanyou thanks to her and his little brother even if he hadn't he loved her too much to let her slip through his fingers because of simple prejudice. That thought brought a deep rumble from his beast in agreement and content that his counterpart loved their little miko as much as it did. Now all that was left was for her to wake up and he could tell her what he had decided and ask to court her formally hopefully he would be a mated and expectant father by the end of the year if not sooner.

Kagome after much deliberation had come to a decision instead of going 700 years into the future she would go a mere 200 years into the future so she could meet Sango and Miroku at approximately the same time as she had before. Hopefully because the Inu No Taisho was still alive and Ryukotsusei was now a good guy once more there would be no maniacal kumo-hanyou to ruin their peaceful lives this time around. She would hopefully get to meet Kikyou as she was before and she and Inuyasha would meet and fall in love once more and this time mate without fear. Though there was this tiny corner of her mind that told her that that might not happen because of Kikyou's prejudices, but she could always hope especially since she now had her sights set on someone other than Inuyasha as a love interest.

Sesshomaru was truly a youkai worthy of her love he was a little misguided at times but that was because he was still relatively young by youkai standards though he was mature enough to start looking for a mate. He spoke not with words but with actions instead because he like she knew that often actions spoke louder than words ever could while still appreciating that words had their place too. He was extremely beautiful even if that was a term normally used for females but it was true with those deep golden eyes that were deep with knowledge and experience that he had gained over the centuries. When he was around her though they seemed to melt into pools of molten gold that told of his emotions though his parents saw some of what he hide behind that mask he seemed to show her more than most.

And that silver hair that looked and felt like silk(she had gotten him to let her touch it once) and his tail if she hadn't known form reading about inu-youkai that it was extremely sensitive and only ones mate or a very close pack member was allowed to touch it she would have petted it. She knew exactly what his claws were capable of and had more sense than to get her head chopped off or melted by those deadly claws now thank you she did not want to be a pile of green goo on the floor. (Though she didn't need to really fear him doing that since unbeknownced to her he already considered her his mate and was going to ask to court her)

These facts alone gave her hope that he would return her affections and at least agree to a courting to get to know one another and if it didn't work out then they could still remain as good friends.

Decision made she let the goddess know her decision and abruptly woke up in the real world after the goddess giving telling her that she would have time to say goodbye before she would be taken to the time she had requested. The goddess also informed her that an entire day had passed since she had been in the spirit realm so she would likely need to relieve herself and eat something substantial. And with that she abruptly snapped awake the first thing she noticed was the intense need to pee before she was suddenly enveloped in an enthusiastic hug from her little boy. Though she reflected that he was really no longer a boy anymore because she could no longer hold him as she used to considering he was now up to beneath her breasts.

She patted his head and ran her fingers through his silky red hair in assurance that she was safe before she motioned for him to get up and made a beeline for the trees to do her business before returning to them. Sesshomaru went hunting for them while she sipped at some water from her canteen to both rehydrate her and keep the hunger at bay until the meal was ready for her to eat. After dinner she told her companions that she wanted to return to the shiro immediately and say goodbye to everyone because she had to go now that her task was complete.

They understood it was a rather tearful goodbye on the part of Izayoi and Shippo at least but they all understood that time could not be messed with anymore than it already had on her part. Time was a fickle thing after all and not to be messed with lightly even unknowingly else it could have dangerous side effects.

She let them believe she was returning to her original time so as to truly test Sesshomaru's love for her even though she was sure with him that when he loved he loved with every part of his being. She had seen with Rin and wondered if now that the past had been changed that he would still meet the sweet little orphan girl that saw him as her adopted father. She was sure though if the fates meant them to meet then they still would perhaps just not in the same circumstances as before which was a plus because she still felt partially guilty for the version of Sesshomaru that was in her past getting his arm cut off.

As the sun set her and her in a sense second adopted family continued to talk and Sesshomaru drew her away from the others and when they were completely alone before she could even ask what he wanted he had swooped down and captured her lips in a passionate kiss that left her breathless. Her eyes wide and lips kiss swollen she could only stare up at the young Daiyoukai male is something akin to shock while he leaned down and buried his nose in her neck and hair taking in her scent. "This Sesshomaru thought to inform you before you left that he will wait however long it takes to see you again to properly court you and that he will have no other but you as his mate."

She simply smiled slightly up at him and said "I will think on this Sesshomaru's offer" in a teasing sort of manner. He gave a low chuckle that made her shiver slightly before they rejoined the others of their pack.

Finally after the sun had set fully a blue light surrounded the young time traveling miko that had affected so many lives and she vanished from her adopted family's presence for 700 years or so they thought.

When Kagome landed she expected to be in the bottom of the well and jumped up and out of the well but not before completely cloaking her aura and scent and casting an invisibility spell on herself. After all it wouldn't due to have her adopted family find out she had returned 500 years earlier than she was supposed to because they would demand answers and ones she was not willing to give at the moment. At least she made sure she was wearing miko robes before she set out so when she released the invisibility spell people wouldn't threaten her, and with that she set out to her first destination the slayers village if she were lucky she would run in to her perverted friend Miroku along the way. At the thought of seeing her friend again a bright smile spread across her face and she started humming a merry tune and started walking in the direction she knew the slayers village to be in.

|End Chapter|

A/N: I am so sorry my readers I know you have been waiting for this chapter for a while but I just haven't been in the mood to write recently for some reason. Hopefully I will update again much sooner this time.

What do you think?

How will her pack especially Sesshomaru react to her deception and had Sesshomaru been faithful like he promised to Kagome?

Read to find out!

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