One night…
The moonlight coming in from the window lit up the bedroom as Hayakawa and J were lying side by side in bed, trying to sleep….only J couldn't. A certain question was on his mind, one that he didn't know if he wanted the answer to.
"Hayakawa-san…" J whispers as he sits up, looking at Hayakawa, who had his eyes closed, "Are you asleep?"
Groaning, Hayakawa opens his eyes, which were still groggy with sleep, and sitting up to face J, rubbing his eyes, "Not anymore… J, what is it?"
"Uh….never mind. It's nothing. Go back to sleep," J shyly smiles as he retreats, putting the blanket over his head, trying to hide.
Hayakawa pulled the blanket back, revealing J and sighing, "J…just tell me what's bothering you."
After hesitating for a moment, his eyes looking to the side, "…Why do you…want to protect me? I don't understand it…"
"J…" Hayakawa's eyes soften, looking down at him.
"I don't…want you to get hurt protecting me…, and I especially don't want you to die protecting me… It'll be my fault if you did…" J confesses, feeling like wanting to cry.
Hayakawa gently grabs J's hand, simply holding it as he rubs circles into the back of J's hand, trying to soothe him, "I protect you… because I care about you. I…" he trails off, trying to find the right words.
Looking into his purple eyes, which were slowly darkening, J knows what he's about to say. It was something that he's not at all ready for…yet it was what he longed for too.
'Don't say it. Don't you dare say it!' J pleads with his eyes, but it seems the message was missed, or lost in translation.
"I love you," he finally says, which made J's heart feel funny.
"You…don't mean that…" J mutters as he takes his hand back before gripping the blanket, trying to ground himself in reality as he looks defeated by those words, his heart aching.
"I do, J. I really do," he says as if trying to convince both J and himself that this is real.
J just shakes his head, refusing to believe it as he grips the blanket tighter.
"What can I do to prove it to you?" he asks as he leans in close, close enough to where they're barely touching and can hear each other breathing.
J looks at him, eyes wide and sparkling with light, a slight blush on his cheeks. "Kiss me," he mutters under his breath, but Hayakawa hears him and does just that.
Closing the distance, Hayakawa kisses J on the lips and holds it there, closing his eyes as he feels how soft J's lips are before parting, backing off a little. Then…he saw J blushing red, right up to his ears. 'Cute…' He cups the back of J's neck and pulls him into another kiss.
He licks J's bottom lip, trying to get him to open his mouth, but J is so stubborn, gripping the blanket as tightly as possible…so, he nips J's bottom lip. J gasps in response, allowing Hayakawa the opportunity to slip his tongue in. J closes his eyes as Hayakawa claims every spot and crevice in J's mouth, hearing him softly moan and whimper.
Eventually, they both need air, so they part, both of them panting. Hayakawa was red-faced, his eyes darkened with lust as J flopped back down onto the bed.
One look at J though…
Bathed in moonlight, J's face was bright red, yellow eyes glazed over and dilated, his lips slightly swollen and red, a nice compliment to his white skin. Gulping, Hayakawa could feel himself getting hard, 'He looks lovely in the moonlight.'
Kissing J again, lightly and chastely this time, he pulls back just enough so that their foreheads are touching, looking J right in the eyes, close enough that they can see each other's reflection, "If we go any further than this… I might not be able to control myself," he admits.
J feels something hard rubbing against him, realizes it's Hayakawa's cock, and grinds back against him, causing them both to groan.
"It's OK…I…" J pauses a bit, blushing heavily before mumbling, "want to go further."
Licking his lips, Hayakawa kisses J again, "Mmph!" before taking off his clothes and stripping J of his, leaving only their underwear.
"Ngh…nn…" J moans as his nipples were attacked, pinched and licked.
"How does it feel?" Hayakawa asks as he pinches J's nipples.
"I…don't know. It's my first time…" J replies, his breathing slowly getting heavier.
"Mine too," Hayakawa honestly admits, surprising J.
"Huh?" 'Then, how are you so good at this?!' J wanted to ask but was too embarrassed to.
Chuckling, he says, "Just trust me, OK? I know what I'm doing," before he kisses J, assuring him.
"Mm…"
Getting off his nipples, Hayakawa starts butterfly kissing J's body, sucking and licking occasionally, leaving a trail of red marks in his wake.
J shudders and moans, "N-no marks…I still have…work in a…couple days…"
"They'll fade by then…" Hayakawa says as he kisses, sucks and bites J's neck. 'Maybe,' he thinks to himself as he licks the shell of J's ear before nipping it.
"Ah!" Apparently, that was a sensitive spot. 'Noted.'
Pulling back, Hayakawa sees J covered in hickeys, his nipples swollen, erect…as well as the bulge in his underwear.
He rubs J through the fabric. J groans, his hips moving involuntarily, wanting more friction. His precum making a damp spot in his underwear. He could feel that he was almost there. Just a little more and… But, that hand just had to move away.
"Why~? I was about to come," J whines, pouting.
"I want to be inside you when you come," Hayakawa smiles with eyes full of desire, and his voice deep…and terribly sexy, "Can I?"
Shuddering in excitement at Hayakawa's sex voice, J nods, "Please…"
They kiss again before Hayakawa gets the lube, "I should prepare you first."
Pulling J's underwear off, he says, "Spread your legs," to which J obeys, spreading them wide.
After coating his fingers in lube, he presses one to J's hole, causing him to flinch. Rubbing his finger in circles, J relaxed a bit before he felt it invade him.
"Ugh…! It's…uncomfortable…" J complains as Hayakawa moves and crooks his finger, slowly stretching him open.
"It'll feel better soon," Hayakawa says as he puts in another finger, thrusting them in and out, all the way to the knuckle, occasionally scissoring them.
"Ngh!…" J grits his teeth before the fingers hit a certain spot, "Ah?" His hips and cock twitch and tremble at the sensation…at the pleasure, he felt.
Raising an eyebrow, Hayakawa hits that spot inside J again, rubbing it with both fingers, "Here?"
"Ah! That…" J moans, feeling himself melt, "Feels good…" He tries to roll his hips, wanting the fingers deeper, "More…"
Hayakawa smiles as he moves his fingers, making sure to keep hitting and rubbing that spot while keeping J's hips from moving with his other hand.
After a while of fingering him, up to three fingers now, Hayakawa pulls them out. J whines in response, feeling empty and missing the fingers, his hole twitching and wet.
Completely taking off his underwear, Hayakawa's member stood straight up, leaking and soaked with precum.
At the size of it, J gapes, "That's…" 'Huge…it won't fit!'
J tries to back away but Hayakawa quickly pins him down, lust in his eyes, "Don't try and run away now…" he says as his grip tightens, "Not when we've come this far."
Whimpering, J nods, giving up on running away. Once Hayakawa confirms it, he lets go, putting a generous amount of lube on his hand before stroking his cock, coating it vigorously.
Then, he spreads J's leg again, positioning himself between them, his cock poking J's hole. Flinching again, J whimpers once more.
"I'll try to be gentle," Hayakawa says as he kisses J before slowly pushing in the tip.
"!" In reaction to the tip penetrating him, J winces, gripping the sheets, "…hurts…it hurts. Take it out!"
"Ah…don't!" J yells as Hayakawa stokes J's cock, trying to both distract and give him pleasure as he pushes in further, "…nn…"
"Does that feel better?" Hayakawa asks, only halfway inside.
J instinctively tears up but nods. It did feel a bit better.
Hayakawa pulls back a bit before thrusting the rest of the way in. "Aah!" J yells, his whole body in shock as the attack came without any warning.
"It's all in…" Hayakawa mutters as he holds J tightly, waiting for J to recover from the shock, and for J to get used to having him inside.
After a few minutes and once J recovered, the tears fell. Sobbing and panting, he wills himself to relax.
"So tight…" he moans, "How does it feel?" he asks as presses a hand on J's stomach.
"Nn…bit painful…but, hot…stuffed…and so full," J moans, fully feeling the hard length inside of him.
They kiss deeply, Hayakawa's tongue ravaging J's mouth. Panting, Hayakawa breaks the kiss, and says, "I'm moving."
"Wa-wait! Ah…!"
Hayakawa slides out before pushing back in, little by little, aiming for that one specific spot inside of J. Gradually, the thrusting got stronger and the strokes deeper, hitting that spot every time.
"Aaa…Haannn…Ahn…"
Each time he was pierced, J let out sweet sounds. He wrapped his legs around Hayakawa's waist, trying to pull him closer while one hand grabbed a shoulder and the other arm wrapped around Hayakawa's neck, clinging to him tightly.
As Hayakawa thrust, wet sounds were spilling out from their connected place. It was so hot that Hayakawa thrust harder and J clung tighter as the bed squeaked from their activity.
"J…call my name," Hayakawa pants as he thrusts.
"Only…if you…call mine…" J manages to say as he's pounded in-between words.
Smiling, "OK…Kouma," as he delivers a hard thrust.
"Ahn…Tsubasa!" J moans as he feels Hayakawa's cock pause, only to grind inside, rubbing right on that spot.
"Mm…" J moans as he sways his hips, wanting…, no…needing more.
"Can I come inside?" he asks, pinning down J's hips as he grinds on that spot a bit more and harder.
"Ah…hah…yes!" J agrees, the pleasure and desire taking over.
Getting approval, Hayakawa starts thrusting again, fast, hard, and deep, J's body jumping with each thrust while hanging on for dear life.
Then, J felt a floating sensation, his head gradually flashing to white, "Tsu…I'm gonna…" he warns.
"Me too Kou…"
"Aah…com…coming…" J whimpers as he's thrust into a few more times before finally coming, his head flashing white.
"Ahn, hah, aahh~!" J's body bent forward, tightly squeezing Hayakawa's member that was inside of his body as he released, spurting onto their stomachs.
'…hot.'
A few seconds later, Hayakawa moans as he also released, pouring a full load of hot semen inside as J's hole convulses, drinking it all up, filling him to the brim.
"Haa…hah…ahh…" J pants as he's dazed from this feeling of fullness, flopping onto the bed with soaked sheets.
Hayakawa kisses him, "Mm…" before collapsing, panting as well as they were both soaked in sweat and the smell of sex.
After five minutes of recovery time, Hayakawa slowly pulled out. "Nn…" J was too tired to move but still felt some semen leak out.
Hayakawa went to get a wet towel, wiping himself and J down. After he tossed the towel somewhere, he opened a window, then got back in bed, where J fell asleep without him. He puts a discarded blanket over them and quickly falls asleep too, holding J in his arms.