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Edward's grip tightened as he dug me into the cold damp ground. I could still feel his unease and was a bit freaked out myself.
"What was that?" Edward snapped, the hint of a growl in his tone.
The past few minuets flashed through my head again. My eyes, they were glowing, even my red eye turned that bright blue and shone in the night. What did that mean?
I saw Alice mutter something to Carlisle and him looked dazed. He then breezed over to hover above us.
"Edward." Carlisle commanded, "Let her go."
It was a moment before Edward released me. I didn't get up right away.
"Gwen, get up." Carlisle said.
I did as I was told but I couldn't look him in the face. The more I think about what just happened to more I realized I wasn't in control. I would've killed him if they hadn't distracted me. Even though I though I was doing it, I feel like another part of me was in charge at the moment. What was happening to me?
"Go home with Esme."
He didn't say anything else; he didn't even look at me. Edward on the other hand was still staring daggers at me that I ignored. I could feel every pair of eyes on me; it was unnerving.
Esme was at my side in the next instant, holding me like I was about to pass out cold and had lost ability to walk on my own. She quickly walked me back over to the others.
"I'm coming with you." Rose spoke up as we walked by.
Esme nodded and we took off back to the house. We were silent the whole run back, not that I was complaining.
When we reached the house Esme and Rose went straight to the unused dining room table to wait for the others to arrive. I on the other hand went straight to the couch and plopped down in front of the TV and stared at the black screen. The remote sat next to me but I didn't have the patient for it right now.
I could hear Rose and Esme muttering in the distance and decided I needed some alone time. I couldn't seem to get to my room fast enough; I even left a dent in the wall from trying to push myself faster.
I almost killed him…
"Don't think about it." I told myself
Once in my room I went straight to my iPod and let Locksley pull me away from my train of thought, very much wanting to act like a normal teenager for once.
I danced my way to my closet, slipping the clothes I had on off and into the trash. I sang along with my iPod and sashayed to the bathroom.
My eyes…
"Don't think about it."
I turned the shower on the hottest setting and plugged my music into the big complicated ihome, turning the volume all the way up and hopping into the hot water.
What was happening to me?
"Don't think about it." I said with more volume, cause maybe then I'd listen to myself.
"Whoa oh-oh, oh oh oh, oh-oh oh-oh" I began to sing along.
The mud and grim fell off in waves down my body before disappearing down the drain.
"Can't think about it". I thought
"Well it's 'cos I love you. And I love those crazy things you make me do. I don't mind if you want me to. I do, well baby 'cos I love you." The music sang.
"It didn't happen." I lied.
After I deemed myself clean I stepped out and almost slapped myself. I forgot a towel. Guess there's still some human left in me.
"Well this is my room…. Yolo" I thought.
"Whoa oh-oh, oh oh oh, oh-oh oh-oh. I love you," I sang.
I pulled my hair up into a wet ponytail and danced back out to my room desperately trying not to think about the upcoming events. I needed this moment of normalcy even if it was a complete lie.
"It never happened."
I put on the first things my fingers touched, an old pair of dark red jeans and a dark black sweatshirt that was so big it barely hung on my slight shoulders.
When I stepped in front of the mirror I didn't recognize myself. The two recent scars from Jasper and Felix stood out on my otherwise smooth neck. My lips where pale and purple, something that just came with the whole 'dead' thing. As were the deep bruises under my eyes. My eyes. They were back to normal I guess. One blue the other a burnt orange color from my new diet but both held just the hint of hunger.
I looked older even though I haven't aged a day in a few months.
Suddenly flash backs of the clearing came rushing into my head, no longer complying with my efforts.
I had looked crazed, terrifying even. All the thoughts that burst through in that one moment were all that of concern for Edward's safely or fear of me. In that one moment I was a monster. No control no thought, just instinct.
A hand came to rest on my shoulder just as a sob ripped through me. I buried my face in Jasper's shirt as I tearlessly cried in his arms.
"It's ok." He coaxed. "Everything's going to be fine Gwen."
But I could feel it. He was lying.
"Let's go down stairs. The others are waiting." He said, "Then after we can go for a walk to clear your head."
To this I nodded. A walk was just the thing I needed.
I let Jasper guide me down to the dinning room and by that time I had calmed down. The Cullen's all sat around the large wooden table, Carlisle at the head, like a family about to enjoy a meal together. A wild image of a human on the table with the hungry mouths of vampires latched onto its flesh while it thrashed and screamed ran through my head.
Edward gave me a look of concern. It was an innocent enough through.
"It would seem," Carlisle began. Pulling me away from my wild imagination.
"That Gwen's gift is starting to get out of hand." He came to take me away from Jasper and guide me to a seat. "I have already taken into great thought what may become of you, Gwen, but-"
His hand became very gentle and forgiving like that of a father.
"You seem to be a special case."
He nodded to Alice.
Alice, who has been quite distant from me for a while now, stood up to explain.
"I had a vision," She started, "Gwen's gift is going to keep developing like this until it will be too much for her to physically manage." She glanced at me sadly. "That is unless she can learn to handle now, and quickly."
Emmett jumped up at that.
"Then why are you all making a huge deal out of this?" He questioned, "There shouldn't be a problem!" His booming voice filled the house. "Jasper and I have already thought her how to control some of it, how hard could the rest be?"
"That's just it." Alice said. "We don't know! After today's stunt, I can't see her anymore."
The room grew very silent then. Everyone's eyes were on me.
What doses that mean she can't see me?
"Alice." I squeaked, my voice almost cracking. "What does that mean?"
Alice was not the one to answer.
"It means we don't know." Edward said. "It could be a trick of the Volturi or just another aspect of your gift that was triggered." He made sure to look me in the eye. "Either way, it's probably not going to end well."
"Edward!" Rose shot up. "Don't scare the poor child."
Rose came to stand behind me and give me a hug.
"Would you rather we lie to her?" He asked in a cool voice.
Rose just gave him the evils.
"Now," Carlisle said, silencing all other noise. "We can't get caught up in this matter at the moment, not saying it isn't of high priority." He looked at me briefly. "According to Alice, the newborns will attack tomorrow."
If it were even possible, the room grew quieter at Carlisle's words.
"What happened to a few days?" Esme asked.
Carlisle merely shrugged.
"The scent trail has already been laid out and Alice sees no faults in it. We will be waiting in the clearing west of the mountain ridge and Edward will stay with Bella. The wolves will be waiting east of the ridge to ambush the rest of them."
Carlisle sighed and looked at all our faces. Some of us may not be sitting here tomorrow. It seemed like a lot of trouble just for one pathetic and worthless human.
Edward snarled and had me pinned in my chair. I snarled back and could feel the edge of my control slipping.
"Take it back." He roared.
"Edward Anthony." Esme's voice rang with all the authority only a mother owns. "Let. Her. Go."
Edward did as he was told without hesitation.
"We may be fighting our own kind but I refuse to let you turn on each other at a time like this." She said. There was a pause. "Do we understand?"
There was a murmur of 'yes ma'am' around the room. Edward stood off in the back corner of the room.
Jasper cleared his throat.
"Oh yes," Carlisle nodded. "Now back to the matter of Gwen."
"Fuck, they're going to kill me for sure this time!" I thought.
"We're not going to kill you." Edward walked back to the table, "Why would we kill our greatest advantage over the newborns?"
He wasn't singing that tune a minuet ago when he was about to rip my throat out for insulting his blood bag.
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"We had a talk with the wolves and they agreed." Jasper chimed in. Carlisle nodded again.
"Agree with what?" I snapped.
"You'll fight along side us in the battle." Carlisle clarified.
"As long as you can do what you did tonight, I'm positive we'll win." Edward said.
I looked at them with the most confused expression.
"I can't do that." I muttered.
All I could think about was how trapped I felt and how easily I could've killed Edward in that moment.
"Don't worry about that Gwen." Edward said. "We'll fix that."
A wave of calm filled the room a moment too late. I lost it.
"Fix it?" I mocked. "How do you plan to fucking fix it?" I screamed.
"Gwen!" Esme scolded. I ignored.
"If you hadn't noticed, Edward." I said his name like it was a punch line to a bad joke. "I was this close to killing you today." I emphasized by nearly pinching my fingers together. "I had no control over what just happened." I admitted. "And have no desire to ever do that again!"
The others stood up and I noticed that they seemed to back away from me. They were scared… Good.
The wave grew stronger and I began to feel the effects of Jasper's gift.
I sat back down, as did the others. There was a long beat of silence.
"Go," Carlisle said. "We all need to hunt and be well rested for tomorrow."
No one seemed to get out of the house fast enough. Soon it was just Carlisle, Jasper, and I.
Carlisle turned to Jasper after a moment.
"Son, I've taken into consideration your suggestion again and my word is final."
"But Carlisle, they already have the advantage of strength and numbers. Feeding as they do will only even our odds." Jasper reasoned.
"Jasper." His voice held power, " Our goal tomorrow will be to protect the town from the threat not be the problem." The decision was final. "Now go hunt, and-" He paused to look me over again. "Help her."
That was all he said before leaving to hunt as well.
Jasper stood there staring where Carlisle just stood.
"Jasper." I called
He snapped out of it and smiled at me.
"Feel better?" he asked.
I nodded before we too ran out into the night.
His white hair swirled in the air as he tilted his head back to sniff the air. The boy sighed before quickly taking in his surroundings.
From on top the great mountain ridge he could see for miles. The small little town nestled deep in the woods far from any real civilization; an easy enough mark. The large white house he had been watching for weeks now was empty.
The vampire frowned. He had lost track of his target.
"Where did you run off to little chickie?" he muttered under his breath.
He scanned the normal hunting grounds twice, finding all the Cullen's but the one he wanted.
The boy cursed.
"Come out, come out where ever you are." He sang with a psychotic twist.
The wind changed directions and he snapped to attention. The vampire searched the north side of the park and smiled.
"Gotcha."
He vanished into the night.
The wind changed directions bringing with it the smells of the nearby city of Port Angeles.
I took a deep breath of the delicious scent and my body began to move forward. Jasper growled.
"No." He said.
He didn't sound convincing at all. Jasper wanted them as much if not more then I. He sighed
"Just go chew on a deer so we can get on with it." I said.
I was not looking forward to practicing my 'gift' all night with Jasper. I'd rather it be Edward so I wouldn't feel as bad if I killed him.
Jasper snorted at my retort before taking a stance across from me. He shook out his shoulders before speaking.
"Take a deep breath," I did and the fire caught in my throat. "Just focus on me." He said. "I want you to try and hunt."
Easy I thought. I crouched down and was about to take off.
"In my body." He clarified.
I froze.
"Jasper I don't think that's a good idea."
"You need to learn how to control yourself in others. Hunting takes a great deal of control, if you don't think you can do it-" He challenged with a smirk.
"Oh I can do it." I growled softly.
"Good, now make sure you stay away from the ci-"
Before he could finish his sentence I let my mind take his. Jasper's body was very different from Carlisle's, Emmett's, and even Edward's. Every move in his skin was a struggle. The fire in his throat put mine to shame and the ropes almost didn't want to move.
I tested his body out fish by climbing a tree then up rooting it and breaking it in half. The seemingly easy task was extremely difficult. It was as if Jasper was fighting me for space. Half his movements were not ones I made and I could feel myself slipping like when I was in Edward. Better make this quick.
I picked up and set my body up in a tree out of sight.
After leaping down I began my hunt. The intake of air sent Jasper's throat in agony bringing me to my knees. How does he do this! It took a moment before I was up again.
"Find a deer. Go home." I said in Jasper's voice.
I turned away from the city and took off in hunt.
Jasper's body almost moved on it's own through the dense forest. In moments I found a suitable meal that would complete my test. I fought to keep hold of the ropes as Jasper lunged for the animal. His hungry mouth quickly found the wolves neck and drank.
A branch snapped.
Jasper whipped around already in a fighting stance. Get control! I yanked on the ropes and they gave under my command to straighten up.
A streak of white tackled me before taking off in the opposite direction. The ropes took hold of me in that moment and I was trapped.
Jasper's body hurled itself after the attacker.
Stop. I tried to tell Jasper, but I had a feeling neither of us was in charge right now.
Jasper was on the heels of the boy in seconds lost in the hunt. I was vaguely aware to the growing hunger and pain in Jasper's throat.
The attacker suddenly disappeared before my eyes, completely gone. But Jasper kept running still in the hunt.
Stop! I tried again. Not even a hesitation.
The city quickly came into view. We were on a familiar back road. No.
I heard the bus before I saw it and before I knew it the bus was sliding off the road under my feet. I could only watch in horror.
The glass gave way under Jasper's feet and the lovely sounds of moans of human pain filled his ears like music. He picked up the young girl closest to him and smiled. I was suddenly aware of every human's fear and watched through everyone's eyes as Jasper, with his black eyes and sharp teeth bit into the girl's tender flesh. The blood flowed like a river.
I lost all the connections but mine with Jasper's as he moved on slaughter the rest of the buses passengers. His laugh filling the night mixed in with the disappearing screams. The delectable taste of human blood put an end to the fire.
Jasper stepped out of the bus licking the blood from his lips. I could feel the smile grow wider as his red eyes landed on one more meal. She had pulled himself out of the wreckage and was desperately dragging herself away from the bloodsucking monster.
STOP!
Jasper took his time and walking over to the human and lifting her up by her hair. He only laughed when the teenager gave an excruciating scream of pain.
The point of view suddenly switched and I was in the girl's body.
"Jasper you need to stop!" I pleaded but Jasper was no longer there.
He licked the large gash on my forehead and I winced as the venom seeped in closing it shut. Jasper took his time feeling the girl's bare flesh and inhaling her scent. He shuddered in pleasure before burying his teeth in her neck.
All connections where finally lost.
Back in my body I look up into the bright red eyes.
"The nightmares over." The boy whispered. "Sleep tight little chickie."
Jasper's distance scream of torment chased away the static and filled my ear. All I saw was white hair before I was lost in darkness.
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