*RAE'S POV*

I'm standing in my room looking for something to wear as Amy sits on my bed looking at all the posters on my baby blue wall (my mom painted my room that colour thinking I was going to be a boy)

"Can you hurry up already. I'm getting tired of staring at Alex Turner over here."
"Yeah, I just gotta find something to wear."
"For fuck sakes, Rachael. It's a house party not a debutantes ball."
"Fine."
I grab something simple so I can change fast and still look okay. A high waisted pair or ripped jeans and my favourite t-shirt, a short, black and white horizontal stripped tee. Throw my hair into a high pony and grab my favourite leather jacket and we head out.
I can't help but feel really nervous on my way there I haven't been to a party in a long time. I feel so out of my element. Usually I would go to parties with Lip, he'd keep all the creepy dudes away from me and carry me home at the end of the night. Hopefully Ian does come tonight, one familiar face would make me feel 1000% better.
"Do you know anyone else who might be there?"
I really doubt that Amy knows anyone there. But I'm hoping she gives me one name of someone I can at least hang out with.
"Not really no. I think Karen Jackson was invited, your friend is banging her right?"
I feel slightly relieved hearing that. I don't even talk to her but if Karen's there Lip might be and even if we did fight today, if Lip's drunk enough he'll forget all about it.
"Yes, Lip and Karen are 'banging' as you so eloquently put it."
"Well, there you go! Lip might be there! Now you won't have to hang on to me all night!"

Amy looks at me and winks. I know she's joking but sometimes I forget what a real asshole she can be.
We go into Warren's house and before I know it Amy's gone into the crowd, getting a drink and talking to a group of guys. I'm standing awkwardly by the door.

"RAE! RAE! COME HERE!" Amy's calling me over to her little gaggle of boys.
I take a deep breath and head over.
Here I go.
"Rae! these are my new friends, Brian, Mitchel, Ronnie and uh what the fuck's your name again?!"

Amy breaks into uncontrollable laughter with the three boys with names. I can't help but notice and feel Mitchell, a boy about my age staring at me. His eyes are so green a part of me thinks they aren't real.

"My names James." He's quiet, unlike his pals.
"I'm Rae!"

I shoot a short wave and sit down next to the quiet one. Mitchell's emerald eyes still on me. I wish he would stop.

"Rae, could drink you guys under the fucking table!"
That's not true. I'm a lightweight. Ask anyone.
"Oh yeah?" Mitchell finally speaks up, not breaking his stare.
I wish Lip or Ian were here.
Speaking of Ian, where the fuck is he?

I excuse myself from the group to give Ian a call to see if he's coming. I walk outside to see more drunk teenagers all over the front yard. I walk a couple houses away to get some quiet, while I listening to the phone ring and ring and ring. Finally Fiona answers.

"Hello?"
"Hey, Fi, it's Rae! Is Ian home?"
"Hey! Um no. I think he went out with Mandy! Is it important?"
"Oh no! I can just talk to him tomorrow! Thanks anyways Fiona!"
"No problem, sweetie!"

I guess he forgot. Or maybe he's bringing Mandy with him. I guess that's not bad. I'm still not all that happy with her telling her brothers Ian raped her but if she's Ian's over it, I should get over it too.
I head back into the party and to Amy and her boy's, Mitchel is gone and I'm slightly relieved. Theres no one else who's made me more uncomfortable, since like Terry Milkovich.
Amy's shot gunning a beer with Ronnie while the other two chant. Amy finishes her beer first and falls over into my arms cheering.
"RAE! BABY! WHERE'D YOU GO!?"
"I had to make a call."
With that Amy looks mad at me. Again, such an asshole sometimes.
"Can I speak to you alone?" Amy storms off dragging me behind her.
Why am I here again?
Amy pulls me into a small room, I think this might be a pantry now that I look around but it's too dark to tell.
"Lighten the fuck up already! I can't babysit you all night to make sure you're comfortable! Have a drink! Talk to the Mitchell guy. He's totally into you! Just lighten the fuck up! LIGHTEN THE FUCK UP" Amy's shaking me, holding me by my shoulders and yelling in my face I give her a smile and tell her I'll be better and take her drink from her,but I can't help but feel really anxious about being here. I wish I didn't come to this stupid fucking party.

*IANS POV*

I walk back into the house after being at Mandy's. I needed to see Mickey, now that Kash is busy trying to help Linda get pregnant. I can't be with him anymore, especially since going to his house. It's too weird, I mean, not that it isn't weird with Mickey, someone who I always thought would of killed me if he found out I was gay. But here we are. Fuck-buddies, I guess.
"Hey Ian, Rae called looking for you. She said it wasn't important but she didn't sound too happy!" Fiona says coming down the wooden hill as I'm still taking off my jacket.
"Oh fuck!" I sit on the couch with my head down. I totally forgot about that party, I know she really wanted me to go.
"What?!" Fiona jumps
"Fiona, I'm going to be home late tonight! I promised Rae something!"
"DON'T BE TOO LATE!" Fiona bellows through the kitchen
I grab my coat and run towards Warren's house, He's a southside kid too, Lip writes book reports for him from time to time but other than that I don't really know him. I hope Rae isn't mad.
I'm almost at the party when I see Lip walking by himself
"Yo, Lip! Change your mind about the party?"
"Nah, man. I'm not into it tonight"
"C'mon man! It'll be fun!"

I really want Lip there, We barely hang out the two of us anymore.
I give him a pleading look.

"Honestly if this party is a bust we can leave! I promised Rae, man!"
"Alright fine!"