Over the next few days Sansa is sick more than not, and at least a half dozen times Jon must kneel beside her and gather back her thick red hair as she empties her stomach into her chamber pot. More often though she simply sits shivering as though with fever, skin pale and damp, a blanket drawn about her shoulders. "I'm sorry," she tells him on the third day with a weary twitch of a smile. "Lady's in songs never look this dreadful when the knight comes for them."

Jon shakes his head and kneels before her chair, hands her a cup of watered wine. "Dreadful or no you need to drink."

Sansa rolls her eyes, but accepts the cup. Watered wine is all she can keep down, though she makes a face as she sips at it, and Jon feel for a moment uncannily like old Nan at one of their bedsides. Sansa makes another face. "The last time I was this ill that vale knight stayed at Winterful on his way to the Wall. My nose was runny and eyes puffy and I wailed into my pillow that I'd never be as beautiful as the ladies in songs."

A smile tugs at Jon's lips and he shakes his head. "You've always been beautiful, Sansa. It used to annoy Arya so when we were children."

A tired smile teases Sansa's lips. "And you, Jon? Did it annoy you?"

Would fucking me keep you true? Sansa blinks and looks down at her cup, smile slowly dying on her lips. Neither of them have spoken of that night since, but the words still hang unspoken between them, an ugly bruise neither will touch, and Jon does not know how to answer what he knows Sansa meant as a jest. The truth is that even with hair lank and unwashed, face sunken and thin, Sansa is still as heart achingly lovely as she's always been and the knowledge an uneasy stone in the pit of Jon's stomach. He looks out to the window of her chamber. "What you said of Jamie and Cersei," he says, "was it true?"

"I didn't believe her when she first told me. I thought she was only drunk. But…" Sansa's rubs her thumb along the lip of the cup. "It's there plain as day, Jon. The way they look at each other, the way they used to slip away together when Robert would go hunting or hawking or whoring. Do you remember how hard Cersei fought when Tywin tried to send her back to Casterly Rock after Robert's death? How strange that was? It's always been there."

It's grotesque to think, even for Jaime and Cersei, but once Jon has it's impossible not to see it just as Sansa said. He shakes his head. "Little wonder Joffrey is such a monster, then. It's what they deserve."

Sansa's smile drops, face suddenly pale and young. "This is what I deserve too, Jon," she whispers. "I know it is. They're punishing me for what I've done. Maid, Mother, Crone. This is their punishment for what- for drinking- for stifling-"

"It isn't." Jon takes her hand, fingers cold beneath his, very aware in that moment of just how young Sansa truly is despite how poised she always is, that she is barely more than a girl in truth. She should be with a tall handsome lord, laughing and happy and with blue roses in her hair in a field somewhere, not here shivering in a lonely tower with you. He rubs her fingers. "And if it is their punishment, then fuck the seven. They aren't our gods, Sansa. Our gods are the old gods of the first men and children of the forest, of tree and stone and weirwood, of the north."

Sansa looks down at their hands. She takes a deep breath, squeezes his fingers tight, and nods.

On the fourth day Sansa's shivering eases, and on the fifth she can keep down more than just watered wine and bread. On the sixth Jon enters her chamber to find her being attended by her handmaids, and she flashes him a smile as they fit her in a new gown of silk and samite that turns the blue of her eyes piercing.

On the seventh she rejoins the court.

None of the lords or ladies speak of her absence when they greet her, but quickly Jon realizes just how sorely Sansa has been missed. While she's sat trapped in her chambers rumors have reached Kinsglanding of a dragon queen in the east gathering her armies to march for westeros: the last Targaryen they say she styles herself, Daenerys first of her name, rightful queen of the First Men and the Andals and the Rhoynar, intent to reclaim her throne with fire and blood. Each utterance of her name only worsens Joffrey's temper, and with Sansa's return both lords and ladies seem relieved to have someone other than the king to bring their pleas and concerns to. Sansa is courteous to one and all, a gracious queen with always a kind word for lords and servants alike. Slowly she eases back into court life.

It is not long before Joffrey strikes her again.

It is an almost pretty thing, a splotch of purple and red broken veins mottling the corner of her jaw like a splattered overripe fruit. But this time Sansa refuses to wait in her chambers for it to heal. Her handmaids dust it with white, and the next day she joins Joffrey as he sits as justice on the Iron Throne. He stiffens when he sees her, but even he isn't foolish enough to order her away before the gathered lords and ladies. She graces him with a smile and inquires after his health as she takes her seat. He scowls in answer and turns away to bark for the next supplicant to step forward.

Even under the white dust the bruise on Sansa's jaw is still plain to the eye, the edges ragged and yellow veined, but it is as though the whole court is suddenly blind. Not one of the lords or ladies note it when they seek Sansa out, not one asks her what's happened or acknowledges what is before them, their eyes careful to slide away should they glance at it. Jon cannot understand it, how she can remain so courteous and gracious when all he wishes he could do is snarl his fury at each new foppish lord and preening lady.

Sansa only smiles when Jon voices his anger one night when it is the two of them in her chamber, lamps newly lit by one of her maids. "A lady's courtesies are her armor, Jon. I told you something like that once."

A knight has his battlefield, a lady hers. Years, it feels as though have passed since Sansa told him that, but Jon has never forgotten it, can still hear the lilt of her voice if he closes his eyes. It was the day she'd called him Stark. He tightens his fingers around the hilt of his sword. "They cannot be blind to what is happening."

"They aren't." Sansa slips her needle through the length of silk she's embroidering. "But he is the king. What can they do?"

Their duty. But Jon bites back the words. He knows he is no better. If you were you would have run Joffrey through the first time he struck Sansa whether she willed you to or no. "You shouldn't forgive them."

"I don't." Sansa's eyes flash, fingers pinching the needle between them hard enough to turn them white. "Don't ever think I do, Jon. I'll never forget that all their oaths and honor meant less than nothing. But we need them."

"For what?"

"No king can rule alone, not since the Targaryens lost their dragons." Sansa lays aside her sewing. "Joffrey may be Baratheon and Lannister, but Stannis has no love for him and Tywin no patience. Without them he needs the lords at court whether he likes them or no, needs their purses and swords and voices. Without them he is only a child on a throne. While he sits it they obey him, but if his grasp weakens..."

Jon cocks his head to the side. "That's all then? We wait?"

"We do. And we listen. To what they want, what they need, what positions they hope for their sons and what marriages they wish for their daughters. And when I can I murmur a word to a lord here and a lady there and sometimes their son squires for who they like and the marriage they want for their daughter comes to pass."

Jon digests the words as Sansa takes up her sewing again and silence fills her chamber. The lamps lighting the chamber flicker lower and lower until eventually through the window the bells of the Great Sept of Baelor toll midnight.

Sansa draws a thread tight. "Joffrey will be here soon," she says without looking up from her sewing, only the faintest wobble to her voice. "You should go."

Jon clenches his jaw, but nods despite how it feels like shoving a knife in his chest knowing what will come when he does. He moves for the door, but lingers for a moment as his fingers brush the handle, looking back at Sansa seated by the window, hair in the lamplight the deep red of weirwood leaves.

She looks up curiously as her crosses to her seat, brow scrunching. "Jon?"

Would fucking me keep you true? The words ring in Jon's ears as he presses his lips to her forehead in a swift kiss. "We wait," he says, and turns for the door before he can see her face.

"I visited Chataya's," Tyrion announces to Jon a few weeks later as he and Jaime wait idly in their white cloaks outside the door of the small hall for Joffrey.

Jon raises an uninterested eyebrow. "How is Marei?"

"Lovely as always, but she told me a funny kind of tale. She told me she glimpsed a man of the kingsguard not more than a month ago in Chataya's, a young comely knight with a sullen expression." The little man adopts an injured expression. "You might have invited me, Jon. I thought you had no taste for whores."

This is the path you chose. Jon grits his teeth as on the far side of the door a slow smile curves Jaime's lips. "Why, your whore must be mistaken, brother." Jaime says to Tyrion. "Jon holds his vows too dear to ever break them for some whore. A son of Ned Stark would never breach his honor so."

"Perhaps it was a flight of fancy on Marei's part, though she is rarely fanciful out of bed." Tyrion shrugs, mismatched eyes studying Jon. "But that is not where her tale ended. She said despite how Alayaya has been telling all that the knight rode her long and hard and well that he was in her chambers only a few short minutes."

Jon stiffens, silently cursing the little man and his japes as on the other side of the door Jaime leans forward, a lion at the scent. Jon forces himself to shrug carelessly. "Marei is wrong."

"Not in this." Tyrion tilts his head to the side, continues to study him, eyes shrewd, the moment stretching endlessly. Suddenly he grins. "You should just admit to it, Jon. There is no shame in only lasting only a few minutes, not with a maid as lovely as Alayaya. Perhaps I'll visit her instead of Marei next time." He jumps down from his chair. "I shall think on it as I grace the privy."

Jon watches with teeth gritted as Tyrion waddles away. He can feel the weight of Jaime's gaze on him, but refuses to look. Silence fills the space between them, the only sound the faint voice of Varys inside the small hall tittering of how the dragon queen in slaver's bay is said to ride a dragon.

"How fares your lady sister?" Jaime's voice is soft. "I heard she was ill only a month ago."

Jon doesn't answer. His fingers twitch, but he forces himself not to rest his hand on the pommel of his sword. We wait. He gives Jaime a flat, cool look. "A fever. She's well now."

"A fever? Not something she ate or... drank?" Jaime's eyes glitter. "Come, you can tell me, bastard. I know you love your sister well."

"Not half as well as you love yours."

Jaime blinks and a slow, pleased smile curves his lips. "Oh, I do. A strange thing to love your sister, is it not? Love and cherish them, septons and maesters and all the world tell us, but not too close. Not like you would a woman, no never. Not like your would your lady wife. But protect them as though they were. Serve them faithfully, ride to their rescue, treat them courteously: but never ask for their favor, never ask for what the maiden in the tower offers up between her legs for the knight to save her. Well, you know what I say to that, bastard?" Jaime spits to the side. "I say fuck them and all they say."

Jon wishes he could hate Jaime for the words. Wishes he could call him sisterfucker and think nothing more of it. And maybe once he could have, once when all he knew of sisters was Arya who never needed to be saved, once when they were children and all he thought of Sansa was a slip of a girl in a fine dress who always looked down her nose at him. But now, in place of hate or disgust, a strange kind of pity fills Jon as he looks at Jaime standing tall and golden in his gleaming armor. "That's all Cersei is to you?" He asks softly. "A maiden in a tower? Something to be won?"

The smile falls from Jaime's lips, eyes hardening into flints of blue. "And what would you know of it, bastard? You're a creature born of lust and can never understand what it is to have a trueborn sister. I am never more whole than when I am with Cersei. Together we came into this world, two parts of one whole, and neither gods or men can unmake us."

Jaime spits to the side and pushes away from the door, stalks away with his white cloak streaming behind him as Tyrion passes him in the hall returning from the privy. The little man watches his retreating back a moment before turning an arched brow to Jon. "A quarrel among brothers of the kingsguard?" He clucks his tongue and shakes his head. "It is good your order does not accept women. Brothers are easier than sisters."

Despite Joffrey's loathing for any kind of ruling that day marks the first of many visits to the small hall in the following months. Whispers boil out from it until the Red Keep is abuzz with half heard rumors: that the dragon queen in Slaver's Bay is on the march, that she beds with sellswords and barbarians and eunuchs alike, that she's raised krakens from the depths, that three dragons soar above legions of freed slaves. Most scoff at that last, Joffrey sneers, Varys titters, but when she hears Sansa's eyes turn thoughtful.

"Would it be so strange if there were dragons left in the world?" She muses to Jon. "Direwolves too we thought lost before you stumbled on ours."

Ours. The wolf dreams still fill Jon's sleep: loping beside his grey sister through glade and glen, the scent of pine and deer filling his nostrils, the fierce freedom. They've not spoken of the dreams since that night, but Jon knows Sansa has them still, sees it in the flash of her eyes, in the clenched angle of her jaw when her handmaids dust her bruises with white.

Instead of fading as most rumors do, the whispers of the dragon queen only grow louder in the weeks that follow, each new day bringing fresh news off Volantene galleys and Braavosi cogs: that she's set free the slaves of New Ghis, scoured the pirates from the Basilisk isles, set sail for Volantis. With each new rumor Joffrey's sneers turn less dismissive and more cruel. Day after day Jon stands guarding the foot of the Iron Throne as above him Joffrey sits alone and golden haired and brooding.

His temper blooms in new bruises across Sansa's skin. Each night Jon kneels before her, tends her bruises with a warm cloth. She is no less silent than she used to be, but she no longer trembles, and even once in a long while offers Jon a wan smile that tugs at an ache deep within him.

He is tending a purple, mottled bruises on her collarbone when Sansa reaches up and wraps her fingers around his hand, gently lowers it. Jon glances up, an apology on the tip of his tongue for being too rough, but something in her face makes him pause. Her lip is caught between her teeth, eyes watching apprehensively. He turns his hand and catches her fingers in his, squeezes them gently. "What is it?"

Sansa blinks and looks down. She takes a deep, steadying breath. "I need something of you, Jon."

"Anything."

"You won't like it."

"Tell me."

She does.

He doesn't.

It is hours later, the sun fallen and their voices hoarse, when silence fills her chamber again. Sansa has not risen from her seat, but Jon has paced the length of her chamber half a hundred times and now stands before her window, all Kingslanding glittering out before him in a sea of flickering lamps. All the fight has left him, protests and arguments wrung out like a wet rag, and he closes his eyes as he looks out at the city, lets the cool night whisper across his face.

Sansa's chair creaks and a moment later he feels the soft weight of her laying her head against his back. "Jon…"

Silently Jon turns and gathers her in his arms, pulls her to him. For a long time they stand like that, silent and still, her frame achingly slender against him, so fragile he might think she'd shatter if he didn't by now know the strength within. "I won't leave you," he says eventually, voice hoarse. "Not here. Not with him."

"It has to be this way. I won't see the realm bleed. Not for me. The dragon queen- I do not know if she is a better ruler than Joffrey, but she cannot be worse. She's broken the slave trade of Essos, and if she truly has dragons… she will come for Joffrey whether we will it or not, Jon. And with you the war could be quick. Clean."

"Come with me then. We could both seek her out."

Sansa shakes her head. "A knight might reach her, but a fleeing queen? Joffrey would scour every ship from here to Volantis to find me. It must be you, Jon, you and only you."

"And after?" Jon forces the words past the weight crushing his chest. Because despite the oaths he swore, despite all he's ever dreamed of and wanted, despite how it will break a part of him to leave her behind, in that moment he knows more truly than he's known anything that whatever Sansa asks he will do, that he has never had a choice, not in this, not in her. You are my heart. "Once it's done?"

"Come back." Sansa tilts her face back, eyes shining as she gazes at him a long moment before rising to the tips of her toes, breathe tickling his ear. "Once it's done come back to me, Jon."