"So what you are saying is that once Natsu bites me, I will want nothing more then to be fucked like an animal and impregnated? Nuh uh, no chance"
If Lucy though she felt ill before she now felt positively disgusting.
Her head was throbbing and she was grateful that she had not eaten or the entire meal would be on the floor by now.
"No, it's not like that at all Lucy". Levy mumbled the words looking offended.
"Oh goodness! Levy I didn't mean it like that, I am so sorry. You and Gejeel are clearly perfect for each other. I just don't know how to feel about all this. Within the span of a day I have found out that my choice is to have sex with Natsu, become bound to him for life and have his child or watch him die. It should be an easy choice, I don't want anything to hurt him especially not me... but this is so overwhelming and I don't know if I am okay with it all. I am the most awful person ever for even thinking that there is a choice to make! I should just accept the bond and save him but I don't know if I can. Levy I haven't even had sex before and now I am supposed to become pregnant within six months! I don't know if I can do this".
Tears were streaming down Lucy's face as she spoke. She could feel them pooling in her eyes and was powerless to stop them
"Lucy". Levy said reaching out to give Lucy a hug, truth is she remembered how Lucy was feeling all too well.
"I know I am completely horrible for even needing to think about this, Natsu means the world to me. I wouldn't have the life I do now if it was not for him... but ... I honestly do not know what to do".
"Lucy it is okay to feel the way you do. You haven't even had a day to process any of the information you have been told... But I am going to tell you something that Natsu loves you way to much to tell you himself, it will most likely effect your decision and honestly it will offer you no comfort right now but if you reject him without knowing and find out later it will be so much worse. Is it okay if I tell you?".
Lucy could feel her face was still wet with tears, honestly she had enough to think about so what's one more thing right? At least then she will know everything and be able to think and make an informed decision right?
"Okay, lets hear it" Lucy spoke with her voice still thick from tears.
"When a dragon slayers mate rejects them, they don't just die Lucy. They die from literal heart break. Their heart slowly tears in two. It can take months or days depending on the time of rejection. If you must reject him Lucy please wait as long as possible, the heartbreak last for however long the mating season has left. If you were to reject him now he would slowly and painfully die over the space of six months , if you reject him at the end of the season it will only last days. If you do choose to reject the bond please do him the kindness of doing it as late as possible".
"I need to go home and think about all this, I'm sorry Levy I just can't talk anymore. Thankyou so much for all the support and I wish you and Gajeel all the happiness in the world" Lucy choked out through sobs as she got up and ran out of the guild.
Poor Natsu, his entire life rested on her shoulders. She ran to her apartment but could not stop the tears from pouring down her face.
She ran into her apartment and slammed herself onto her bed to cry some more when she felt a pair of arms around her.
"Shhhhh its okay Lucy, I am here just relax it will be okay"
Again Natsu looked at Lucy as though she was his first sunset and it made her feel so much worse. How could this wonderful person love her? She was horrible! She was considering letting him die and he looked at her like she was something precious.
"Oh Natsu, I'm completely horrible. Why did you have to choose me as mate? I'm selfish and awful and I don't know what to do. I am so sorry"
"Lucy, even if you reject me I am glad you are my mate. You are everything to me and I would rather die loving you than live loving anybody else. I did not get a choice in who my mate would be but before the season came I begged whatever fate there is out there that it would be you."
"How did you even know it was me?".
"I woke up and smelled something, it was the most beautiful smell in the world and I knew that if I followed it that it would lead me where I had to go. Next thing I know I'm sitting in your apartment and I see you walk in. Every single muscle in my body wanted to hold you and I could hear the dragon inside me saying "mine". I knew it was you, but that confirmed it".
"I don't know what to do Natsu, you told me not to say yes unless I was sure but I am not sure of a single thing and I just don't know what to do"
"Then do nothing, spend time with me and let me take care of you while you think about all this. We have time Lucy. Just let me take care of you and relax okay?".
Natsu held Lucy until she stopped sobbing. He held her in his arms and whispered to her how beautiful she was. He played with her hair and ran his fingers down her back.
He made her laugh and kissed her forehead and it made Natsu feel really good that she let him.
She just layed in his arms not really saying anything and Natsu didn't need her to. The fact she was laying in his arms letting him dry her tears and whisper to her was enough.
Eventually they fell asleep.
Natsu, thinking that he wouldn't mind dying if Lucy let him hold her like this and Lucy, thinking about Natsu and that she had no idea how to make the decision that she had no choice but to make.