Dear Fanfiction Writers,
I guess what you really want to know is where I am with Dave, since you guys seem to write about rewriting our history so much. Truth be told, the show stressed me out, like a lot. Even if I had broken up with Keith, I would still have no time for a relationship. Especially not with the competition.
After the show was finished...well, I watched the whole thing. My highs as a team leader made me realize I had something to be proud of. But I really did keep sending Dave mixed messages, and I felt ashamed when I saw that. I wish I'd been firmer with him. I guess it was just the fact that I was crushing on him but didn't want to feel that way that caused it. When I look back, those conflicting feelings are all I remember, and then I watch the show and see how much I was unintentionally encouraging him. Needless to say, I understand why so many of you don't like me.
There's been a few stories where I go back in time and do things differently. I remember one where I allied myself with Jasmine properly and we got to the finale together. And in that one, I was able to insist on telling Dave straight, and gave myself enough time to tell him that I had a boyfriend that I was going to dump, and we could date after that, but we'd have to settle for being friends for the moment. And maybe, just maybe, if I'd actually done that, Dave would've taken it well and I wouldn't have had to break his heart.
As for now? Well, those of you who think it's totally over, you're right. We don't keep in contact. Ella does, though, and she tells me Dave's getting over the show and has stopped talking about how much he hates/loves me, so that has to be a good sign. I don't mind the redemption stories, though, so keep them coming.
Also, I just want to bring up one more thing. I've seen several stories where I'm close to Jo or Eva. I just wanted to say, I respect them as fellow athletes, but I don't know...I get the feeling Jo would think I'm too goody-goody just because she is very harsh, and I don't know about Eva, but her temper makes me too nervous. So write about us being friends if you want, but I just don't think you should expect it to happen in real life...oh, and okay, one last thing. You guys who are pairing me with Lightning, he'd probably be a good workout partner, but I'd need to get to know him off camera if a romantic relationship was ever going to start between us.
Happy writing and reading,
Sky