Here is the 2nd chapter. This is how Rachel attempts to try to function after Finn's death but knows that she has lost her soulmate.

Chapter 2: Denial and Acceptance.

Rachel's POV.

As I wake up the next morning, I can tell that I was crying in my sleep because my eyes are stinging with tears and feel extremely puffy. I look down and realise that I am still in my clothes from yesterday and I am holding my picture of Finn from when we at my house in Senior Year where i took a photo of him in order to keep with me when he was away. I just don't want to accept that he is gone but I know that he is.

The worst thing is that I am supposed to start rehearsals today. I have to go because if I don't, they will fire me and I would become a laughing stock to the rest of New York that I probably won't get another job. Why did he have to go? Did I really act that I thought so little of him that he felt that he had to go into the army to make himself feel worthy of his life? All I know is that I feel half the girl I was two days ago before this all happened.

I make breakfast for myself and then I see Kurt come in. He looks just as broken as I do.

Kurt: "You don't have to do this you know."

Rachel: "I know but I have to be in rehearsals today because if I don't I'll get fired and be humiliated."

Kurt: "Rachel. I realise that I was too harsh when we were here in junior year about love and career. You don't have to be this strong. Let me try and comfort you."

Rachel: "No. I have to be. You have just lost your brother Kurt. He is part of your family. I'm just his girlfriend."

Kurt: "(Starts to get angry) Will you stop denying it Rachel! You are more than that to him. He told me that you were the first person that made him feel accepted. Do you know what he told me when I told him that I had learnt of your engagement?"

Rachel: "No."

Kurt: "He said that Rachel was the only thing good going on with in his life. He loved you more than anyone."

Rachel: "Why are you telling me this now?"

Kurt: "Because you need to know. Me and Santana spoke with the other members of the New Directions and we are going to head back to Lima to grieve together for him if you want to come."

Rachel: "I'll think about it."

I just walk out of there because being in the apartment makes me feeling that I'm trapped and all of the memories are threating to pile over and bury me inside. But once I head to Funny Girl rehearsals, I realise that there are too many memories that could be triggered here about Finn as well. The ones where we sang at Sectionals come to mind where he told me that I could be the star that I want to be. But right now I don't seem that motivated to rehearsal or wanting to be a star. After all what is life when there isn't any love within?

I begin the rehearsals and meet my co-performers in the production. They seem to be very nice and supportive of me about my talent but I just feel empty. I'm singing the first song of the show which is I'm The Greatest Star yet I just feel like I'm an imposter or a ghost when I am singing the song because I feel no emotion other than pain. I think that I am starting to become depressed.

After rehearsals, I head back to NYADA for my afternoon lessons but again I just feel that I'm nothing but a ghost. The memory that keeps coming back was when Finn told me that we weren't getting married and that he was setting me free to come here. I made a pathetic attempt to try and bring him along because I just knew that it would be hopeless. Now that he is gone, I just feel guilt and shame that I didn't take him here.

I walk into dance class and see Cassandra July at the front of the room. She doesn't look very happy.

Cassandra: "Late again Berry. No words get into line."

Whatever. I know that she doesn't like me. She told me such. I get into line and begin learning the dance for our Winter Showcase but again, it is just going through the motions. Cassandra spots as much.

Cassandra: "Berry, why aren't you trying hard enough? You aren't even sweating."

Well maybe it is because of the fact that the news of your boyfriend's death in war just yesterday happened when you are just 18. I think with a hint of sarcasm. She would find different ways to mock me even if I was on the ball anyway so it doesn't really matter.

At the end of the day, I just head home. I need to get back to my apartment so if I do break down, I have people who can look after me and it won't be in public.

As I reach home, I see Kurt and Santana both there. They both seem to have been crying but they are cooking and telling stories about their days. When they see me, I just collapse.

Kurt: "Rachel. Are you okay?"

Rachel: "(Inconsolable) Why did he have to go? Why him? What did I do to deserve this? It was all planned out. He would come back from the army after a couple of years. I would make it on Broadway then we would get married and spend the rest of our years together and now it is gone. Because of what? People can't get along so we resort to violence to get our point across. Why did he decide to go in the first place? Why? Why? Why?"

Santana: "Rachel, calm down."

Rachel: "(Screams) No. I will not calm down. I've not only lost my love. I've lost my heart, my motivation to get up in the morning. I was supposed to go into rehearsal for the show that I always wanted to be in and I felt nothing but sorrow and pittance. Just leave me alone."

Kurt: "Rachel please just let us help."

Rachel: "No. Just leave me alone."

I just run into my bedroom and just throw myself into bed. I feel like there is nothing in this world for me anymore. I fall asleep and fall into a dream.

(Rachel's dream.)

I am in a dressing room where I am looking down and seeing that I am in a wedding dress. I see that Tina and Mercedes are helping me with my make-up. Then my dream warps into a church and then I see Finn at the other end of the aisle waiting for me. Then it warps again into us sitting on a sofa with a couple of children on the floor in front of us. Then he kisses me and I respond.

(End of dream)

I just wake up in floods of tears. My dreams are taunting me with the stuff that I can't have. It seems it knows that Finn is gone forever. It makes me realise one thing.

You can't live with a broken heart.

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