This is Chapter 3. This is where the New Directions meet to remember Finn and then get some shocking news.

Chapter 3: Remembrance.

Kurt's POV.

I get up the next morning and get my stuff ready for the trip home. It is a trip that I don't want to make but at least I'm not making it alone.

Today, Santana and I head on our way back to Lima. Rachel decided not to head back because she feels that she isn't ready. She wants to come back for the funeral which is on Monday. It just feels that it is just a really bad dream but yet it is clearly real. Why did he have to die so young? I'm going to spend my entire life missing him. People need to remember that he was my brother and that he is my hero ever since he saved me back in sophomore in Mickingly.

At least Santana is here with me. She didn't need to do this with me yet she did. And I am grateful for her for doing it. Sometimes, when you are down, you know who your friends are.

Kurt: "Thank you Santana. You truly are a great friend."

Santana: "I know. It is about him. He was so much better than me, than the rest of us. He helped me accept who I am and got me to come out about it. It just doesn't seem real that he is gone. What is the lesson here?"

Kurt: "Is there any? There is just nothing and he has gone well before his time. I just worry for Rachel though. What if she does something whilst we are away?"

Santana: "Berry wouldn't be that stupid. She won't do anything Kurt. Stop worrying."

Kurt: "I just fear that she might do something which could be drastic. After all grief does bring out the irrational in people."

Santana: "That is true."

We both rest and then we arrive in Ohio. We get off the plane and see Dad and Carole. I just run up to them and give them a hug.

Kurt: "Thank God that you are okay."

Carole: "Thank God that you are fine as well. It has been difficult the last few days."

Kurt: "It has been too for us."

Carole all of a sudden pulls Santana into a hug, I couldn't hear what they were saying but it must be something sweet and heartfelt because even Santana is crying. And one thing about Santana is that it takes a lot to make her cry.

Santana: "He was much a better person than I am."

Burt: "I just wish I spent more time with him you know."

Kurt: "We all have regrets that we wish we could have avoided but we need to remember the fact that we knew him."

Santana: "Lets head out of here."

We do and head back home. I see that Carole and Dad have already started making boxes of clothes in order to send to the donation shops. After all most of these things that are here, we don't need. Santana comes with us in order to help out after all her family aren't here at the moment.

Kurt: "Hey that is the ball that we had at our first game. (Reprises the dance of the Single Ladies routine in the game.)"

Burt: "That was the weirdest game I've ever been too."

Kurt: "This is his letterman jacket. I want to keep it if you are okay with it. I remember him coming wearing this in the hallway. (Sniffing) He was like Superman had arrived when he wore this. Oh and that is the Faggy lamp."

Carole: "That thing is hideous. We need to get rid of it."

Burt: "If you may I would like to keep it. I need a lamp in my office for late hours."

Carole: "Okay. (Starts to cry.)"

Santana: "Carole, are you alright?"

Carole: "I've tried to remain strong. But hearing things on the news about young children dying always made me thought, how can parents go on after losing a child? How do they wake up everyday? The thing is that you have to keep on being a parent even though you don't have to have a child anymore? (Crying uncontrollably.)"

We all sit down next to her as we try to comfort her through her grief.

(Time skip.)

When Santana and I arrive at the school, we see that there is a memorial placed outside his old locker. It almost feels like it is a message that it was his locker and that no one will never know its meaning.

We head into the choir room where we see Mr Schue sitting on a chair at the front of the class and on the whiteboard it just says one word. Finn.

I see that Mercedes, Puck, Mike and Quinn are sitting there alongside the current New Directions members. It is weird thinking that a year ago we were all here as a group and competing to win Nationals and won it. I see the trophy sitting there in the cabinet. This makes me remember everything about that competition. It was the happiest day in my life.

Mr Schue: "I know we all don't want to be here. But we are here to remember Finn by the only way that we know how. By singing."

Puck: "Singing isn't going to bring him back."

Mr Schue: "No. No its not. Nothing is. Not ever."

Mercedes says that she wants to go first. She says that one of the most powerful songs that Finn ever sung was this song from was when we had that Ballad assignment. He sung I'll Stand By You when he thought that he was becoming a father but wasn't. She sings the song beautifully and at the end, she looks up to the ceiling and whispers 'We miss you Finn.' We give her a small round of applause.

Artie and Sam decide to perform a performance of Fire and Rain which is incredibly moving. Their voices blend together so well and I felt that they knew what Finn meant to them through that song. I go up and give them a hug after the performance.

Santana decides that she wants to perform next.

Santana: "I know that Finn had his problems with God and all. But I'm convinced that Squishy teeths is up in heaven right now. Planted next to his new friend fat Elvis watching us eating some nice food. But this is for you Finn."

She sings If I Die Young which is right because Finn was only 19 when he died. He was too young to go. But she breaks down halfway through and runs out. I go and see her and she admits a load of things to me after I say that shame is a wasted emotion. She sits on the auditorium stage and I just leave the jacket on her.

I head back inside and see that Puck is getting out his guitar and begins playing a song of his own. He sings No Surrender and throughout the performance, he looks at an empty chair which maybe Finn would be sitting in. After he performed, I decide to get up with one song that I want to sing.

Kurt: "I have one song that I wish to sing. Finn was not only my brother but he was my hero. He fought to keep us safe and he helped me when I was bullied here. So this is for him."

I sing the song Hero. At the end of the performance however, Mrs Schuester as she now is, comes rushing in.

Mr Schue: "What happened?"

Emma: "I had a call from police in New York. Rachel has killed herself."

What? She had just got the role that she always wanted. Why would she just throw all that talent out of the window? Then I realise. She has a broken heart and she feels she has nothing left to love.

Puck: "How?"

Emma: "Apparently she had a gun in her bedroom. Police say that she shot herself."

We are all crying again and using each other as comfort over the loss of another bright star.

Reviews are welcome as normal. Poor Rachel, the fact that she didn't feel that she could carry on with Finn. Her guilt overwhelmed her so she killed herself.