Morgan

Shawn came into the kitchen.

"hey," he said looking at me.

"um hi," I said.

"what do you have to drink?"

"we have juice and..."

"no I meant alcohol cause I could use a drink right now."

"oh," I said.

"where's jennifer?" shawn asked.

"upstairs talking to topanga. I don't know that she wants to see me."

"well she'll never want to."

"shawn you're her father. She should at least...i don't know do you the courtesy of seeing you."

"i can go get her or...?"

"no let me get topanga and. We'll see."

"ok. So that drink?"

"oh right. We have whiskey."

"yeah i'll have some."

"ok."

"dad you're drinking again?" ariel asked.

I noticed a fading bruise on her right eye.

"yeah I could use it."

"you already had 4."

"shawn. Honey," lily said coming into the kitchen.

He looked at her: "yes?"

"please be careful w/ how much you drink. I don't want this to end up like . I know the war hurts and the memories do but please not tonight. Not too much tonight, here..."

shawn had ptsd from being in the iraq war which had ended in 2011.

"ok."

"and i'm hurting too. Even though my brother...thank you for being there btw," lily said looking at me.

"of course. Hey you helped me out too," I reminded her.

When we were growing up lily's brother had abused her.

"do you have any wine?" lily asked coming closer to me.

"yeah we do actually. How's jasmine?" I asked lowly.

Awhile ago jasmine had been hurt sexually. She hadn't been the same since.

"she's. Still the same she was since it happened. I try and talk to her but...and you know angela's living in germany. Which is another reason they want to be here. When i'm there I don't let shawn around jasmine cause he scares her. I'll tell you more about this later."

"ok."

"shawn and I...we dinno about our situation. W/ rosalie and tom it's hard. I still don't know that we're ready. Well I am. Um anyway," lily said as my daughters cecilia and raven came into the kitchen.

"hey I smell brownies so they're probably done i'ma check," cecilia said opening the oven: "ooh they are done. ok."

"ooh wow," raven said going and helping cecilia take them out.

"hey is um sierra coming?" cecila asked about my best friend.

"i don't know," I said.

"and samantha?"

"we like samantha," raven said.

"i know sweetie but you need to be careful w/ her we all do you know that."

"yeah mom iknow you only remind me like every-"

"raven. Your mom's right. So just," leo cut in.

"ok."

"no she is careful w/ her," charlotte said.

"ok then let's keep it that way."

"hey where were you?" I asked leo.

"upstairs talking w/ cory," he answered.

"oh. ok."

"i know jen will come down for brownies," raven said.

I smiled. All my daughters liked chocolate.

The reason we all needed to be careful w/ samantha was bc she was smaller than my daughters and she had memory problems. My friend sierra was her mother but shawn's dad was her father. Yeah. I knew shawn wished he could take it back but we both knew that was never going to happen.

"um they might come," he said from his seat at the kitchen table where he was sitting drinking whiskey.

"oh ok," cecilia said.

"better?" I asked looking at shawn.

"yes," he said.