Quick note: It's spring break here which unfortunately makes me a lot busier so I will likely not be posting updates as often but they will be coming

Juvia lay in bed staring at the ceiling, as much as she wanted everything to be a dream the queasy feeling in her stomach cemented her condition into reality. Even after talking to Laxus she felt lost and unsure of everything, he seemed to be handling the changes better than her and after a night in her own bed she was once again unsure of what she should do.

Nothing about the current situation was what she wanted and she desperately wanted to know how it was all going to turn out. Pulling herself out of bed she went to the bathroom and found herself unable to do anything but stare at her reflection in the mirror, still looking pale and unrested she blinked back tears.

My life is a spectacle, everyone knows how poorly I am handling my own life.

A jolt of nausea hit causing her to heave, barely making it to the bin to empty her stomach. Sliding to the floor she sat feeling numb.

Having a family is not supposed to feel like this.

A knock brought her attention to the door, she made her way to the small entryway and peered out the window, slowly opening the door she reluctantly greeted Laxus.

"Morning," he walked in, "I know technically I am not supposed to be in the girls dorms but I wanted to check in before I went on my job."

Juvia walked to the kitchen and began mixing the thick green drink she had been given to ease her sickness. Of course he was going on a mission she frowned, he could still do as he pleased.

"What's the deal, are you going to talk to me?" he asked looking perturbed.

"Be safe," her voice sounded raspy.

"Juvia," he moved closer to her, "what is going on?"

She gave a meek smile that failed to mask her unhappy feelings, "it's fine, we can talk more when you get back."

"I can't walk out of here with you in this mood," he said, his voice growing angry. "so talk to me now."

"I don't want to talk now," she slammed her cup on the counter, "I am not in the mood for any of this."

"Any of what? You're just shutting down on me all of a sudden?" he snapped.

She stammered and threw her hands into the air before pacing the floor of the kitchen, sickness hit again, and she dashed back to the bathroom leaving Laxus listening to her heaving from the kitchen. The sound of her weak and exasperated cries made their way down the hall, Laxus entered the room to find her curled on the floor looking defeated.

Kneeling down he tried to use a comforting tone despite his current frustration, "I have to go soon but I don't want to leave you like this."

"Just go," she cried, still avoiding his eyes.

"I can't do that." He waited for her to speak but she in silence, "just let me help, tell me what is wrong."

"Everything. Can't you see that? I am still sick despite these horrible drinks, I can't work or use my magic and I am useless…even after all of my efforts to be stronger I am weak and useless."

"I am right here, I am with you, what do you want me to do?" he asked, his voice was steady.

"Go." There was a long pause, "I want you to go, because you still can. Just leave me to deal with this and you won't have to give up anything."

"I-" he began, but she instantly interrupted.

"GO!" she screamed.

Standing, he was left not knowing what to do, she was angry and didn't want him there and he was going to be late if he stuck around much longer, but nothing seemed like the right decision at that moment. Reluctantly he walked back down the hallway and opened the front door, he glanced back down the hallway before stepping out and closing the door behind him.

Juvia's emotions broke loose and she curled up tighter on the floor, she regretted making him leave but she had let her frustration get the better of her, he would be back in a few days and she hoped she could fix the storm in her head by then.

Laxus arrived at the guild to meet his team to leave for the job but before he got inside, he encountered Alzack outside. "Morning Laxus," he greeted, "I haven't gotten to say it yet, congrats."

Laxus huffed, "yea, thanks."

"What's wrong?" Alzack asked, "that didn't seem very much like the man I saw leave here the other day, where's that Laxus?"

"Dunno," he admitted, "starting to wonder that myself."

"Wanna talk about it?"

"Not really, but what the hell," Laxus sighed, "I just got into it with Juvia, she was so sick, and I just stopped to say I was leaving and she damn near refused to speak to me before she finally yelled at me and told me to leave."

Alzack nodded, "sounds about right."

"What?"

"This is a big change for you right?" Alzack waited while Laxus nodded in response, "well, it's about a hundred times bigger for her, and add in hormones and sickness and everything else and she's probably feeling buried alive. You guys weren't even expecting this so as freaked out as you might be, I guarantee she is much more worried and scared."

"Damn." Laxus looked toward the guild door and back down the street, "so how do you know what to do?"

"That's tough, I messed up quite a bit when Bisca was pregnant, but you weren't here to see that. Trust me though, I said and did so much stuff that caused her to cry or scream and even throw things at my head." He laughed, "but I eventually saw that she didn't always say what she meant, and I had to figure out what would help in that moment. It's definitely not easy."

"I can see that. Thanks, man. I gotta go though," Laxus said, pushing open the door to the guild.

A minute later Laxus walked back out and Alzack asked, "Where's your team?"

"They'll be leaving shortly, without me, I have somewhere I need to be," he looked at Alzack, "you knew that though, didn't you?"

Giving a shrug he smiled at Laxus, "I think you made the right decision."

Juvia managed to move herself to the sofa despite how weak she felt, all the crying had left her feeling even more drained than before, she laid her head on a pillow and started to drift off when her front door opened with a heavy bang against the wall. She looked over to see Laxus walking in, swinging the door shut behind him.

"What are you doing here? Aren't you late? You'll miss your train."

"I'm not going, we need to talk," he sat beside her, "but that is going to require both of us actually talking." Looking at her face he stood and headed toward the kitchen, "but first I think we're gonna need to find something you can keep down."

"Why are you doing this, don't you want to go?" she asked.

"I want you to hear this, all of it, before you say anything." He took a breath before speaking, "I've got zero idea of what I am doing, I get that you're completely overwhelmed and sick but don't assume because we didn't plan this that I am going to just walk away. It might be easy in theory, but it's not happening. We are going to figure all of this out somehow, and apparently, we are going to fight too, but don't push me away. You don't want me to leave, do you?"

Tears welled in her eyes, "well, no. I just, I just panicked. I can't deal with all of this and it's already changing."

Opening cabinets Laxus began searching for crackers, taking a package out he dropped the box on the counter and noticed the paper laying on the counter partially covered by a towel. "What's this?" Picking it up he read the letter from the Fairy Hills house mother. "They're making you leave?"

Juvia nodded, "the dorms are for unwed female mages and apparently they do not allow families, so I have to find another place to live with the baby."

"That's crap." He read the paper over and over, "how can they do this? No wonder you were irritated when I got here."

"Irritated?" she paused and pushed her frustrations aside, "okay, I guess, but I had a lot on my mind."

"So, I guess we can move you to my building, those apartments don't have any crazy rules or regulations."

"How am I going to afford that, Laxus? I already have to get all of the things for a baby, how can I afford to move and pay for a more expensive apartment on part-time work in the guild. If I can't go on jobs, I will never be able to afford everything."

He thought for a moment, walking over and handing Juvia the crackers and some tea, "Then you will have to stay with me, we never really talked about our relationship once the pregnancy came up, but we can do this together."

"I don't know if we are ready for that," she said.

"I know we aren't ready for a lot of things that are happening, but we'll manage." He pressed a kiss to her temple, "now try to eat something, we can talk more once you tackle that."

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