I don't own Daniel Howell and/or Philip Lester. Still hope that's obvious.
Phil hadn't expected Dan to start asking about soulmates one morning before Phil had even poured any of Dan's cereal into his own bowl.
"I think I should look for my soulmate." Dan had said, sleepily tumbling into the kitchen.
"You... what?" Did Dan not have his name?
"My soulmate! I should look for them."
"Are you... are you okay? You have never cared the slightest about who your soulmate is before." Phil tries to mask his panic as worry for Dan's mental state.
"I'm splendid."
Splendid? Who was this man and what did he do to Dan?
"Dan... why don't you back up a little? Why do you suddenly want to find your soulmate?" Phil hopes Dan can't hear how tight Phil's throat is.
"Well I know their name right? I just gotta find them on Facebook or something. I'm tired of being alone."
Alone. He's alone.
"Oh... okay. Well why don't you eat something first and then you can look?" Phil feels several emotions building up in his head and he has to escape before something shows.
Dan goes about getting coffee and cereal as Phil slips away to his room. Tired of being alone, look for my soulmate.
Phil's head just repeats the scene over and over. Dan isn't his soulmate after all. At least not like that. As much as Phil wants Dan to find his soulmate... what about him? Why isn't Phil good enough to have his name permanently in Dan's skin? Are him and Dan really only destined to be platonic soulmates?
If only Phil knew where Dan had his soulmate's name written... or maybe Phil should just let Dan be? Why bother digging into Dan's privacy like that if all it uncover sits what Phil already fears?