"Go back to sleep."

"I can't."

"Swan."

She flipped, hair flying everywhere and almost getting in his mouth, and Killian winced when her knee collided with his shin. "Ah, shit," Emma mumbled, untwisting the blanket that had, somehow, moved in between them. "I wasn't trying to do that."

"You mean to tell me you weren't actively attempting to incapacitate me?" Killian asked, and he knew the joke didn't land before he'd even finished making it.

Emma laughed, but it was more an exhale and a sigh, and she licked her lips quickly, like she was being timed and that was kind of true because it was Saturday, but she still had meetings with Zelena and Aurora and something with Sam and Joe about MC'ing an event they'd done for the last thirty years.

And Phillip's memorial or whatever.

That wasn't the right word at all, but it was some kind of celebration because, it seemed, setting a of rookie scoring record was a pretty good starting point for a career and Phillip had reached three-hundred points before anyone expected him too and, apparently, that meant there had to be some sort of ceremony.

That was the word for it.

It also meant Emma had to plan it and he knew there were, at least, fifty-six post-it notes detailing the breakdown of the whole goddamn thing on every inch of her desk.

She'd run out of floor space two days before. And Merida had to get her a new chair the day before that because Emma kept piling paperwork in her own seat.

Killian wanted to go back to sleep.

"We've got time," he muttered, ignoring whatever the air was doing around them. Filling with tension and bad jokes and he was so goddamn tired of being worried and, generically, tired.

It was a miracle their bedroom door hadn't been knocked over yet.

Or at least slightly checked against.

Matt liked to try and check the door.

"I have no time," Emma argued. "I have, like, negative amounts of time. I should be in the shower already."

Killian grinned, tongue against the inside of his cheek and eyes a bit wider than usual, and Emma's laugh sounded genuine that time. He swore he could feel it, fixing the air and probably all of the greenhouse issues on the entire planet and she closed her eyes when he pulled her against his chest.

"That could be very easily fixed, you know," he muttered, mostly into her hair. Her whole body shook against him, which wasn't really helping their cause or his desire to go back to sleep because it was Saturday and there wasn't a game, and they should be able to linger in each other's space for awhile.

"I don't think that's true at all."

"How do you figure?"

"Are you kidding me?" Emma asked, propping her head on one hand and her hair fell over her arm. "I'm counting the actual seconds until someone throws something at that door."

"I really doubt Peggy's got that kind of upper-body strength yet. Maybe if we add some weights to her workout."

"Really confident in your own sense of humor, huh?"

Killian hummed, smirk back on his face and something that might have actually been butterflies in his stomach, which didn't make any sense at all because he was flirting with his own wife and talking about their thirteen-month-old attacking the half-closed door on the other side of the room, but it was nice in a way that home was nice and comforting and safeand maybe he could hide Emma's phone.

That seemed kind of immature.

"Occasionally," Killian said, dropping his hand to trace over the curve of Emma's hip. Her eyes fluttered again, teeth finding her lower lip and the butterflies disappeared almost immediately.

"Sometimes," Emma amended, and her voice was just a bit breathless. He was going to count that as several different victories. "You know she almost kept her balance without holding onto anything for, like, a solid two seconds yesterday afternoon."

"What?"

Emma nodded, smile wide despite her obvious efforts to stay cool and Killian was only slightly worried that his heart was going to do permanent damage to his chest cavity. Ariel would be pissed about that.

He'd walked too quickly on the treadmill yesterday, so she was out for blood.

"Yeah," Emma continued. "You were making jokes about upper-body strength, but that kid is ridiculously strong. Like He-Woman or something."

"Is that a compliment?"

"It is when I'm saying it."

"Ah, of course," Killian chuckled, kissing between Emma's eyebrows before he could stop himself. Maybe they didn't have to go back to sleep. Maybe they could just evolve into some kind of picture-perfect family of his fluff-type dreams and he wouldn't miss Peggy's displays of upper-body strength because he was trying to keep his heart rate at a medically approved level.

It wasn't at the moment.

He was sure.

"So, we were in my office and Zelena was waxing poetic about food choices, which is absurd because we've done this before and the food is always the same and Gotham has, like, one catering option and-"

"-Focus, Swan."

She stuck her tongue out. He kissed her jaw. He kind of wanted to kiss everywhere else.

"You are impatient," Emma accused, and Killian couldn't really argue with that. "Anyway, we were in my office and I was ignoring Zelena and Pegs totally pulled herself up, waddled around for approximately two and a half seconds and then promptly fell over. But it was a very impressive two and a half seconds."

"Two and a half, huh?"

"Eh, maybe closer to three. We'll round up for the kid, you know?"

"Naturally," Killian muttered, but he wasn't entirely sure what was happening to his entire body and it felt like a mix of happiness and disappointment and a little frustration and he wished he could just pick one emotion and stick with it.

He wished he hadn't missed that.

He wished he didn't have more PT that afternoon.

"Hey," Emma said, and he wasn't wearing a shirt she could tug on. She settled for brushing her fingers over his forehead instead and, that time, it was Killian's turn for his eyes to flutter shut, a ragged breath falling out of him and he wished he had the answers for several dozen questions he couldn't bring himself to ask. "You ok?"

"You keep asking me that, love," he muttered. He hadn't opened his eyes.

"It's because I'm consistently curious. And worried. Probably more than curious."

"I know, Swan. I don't want you to worry though. You've got enough to think about already. Zelena shouldn't be talking about the food. It's the same every year."

"That's true," Emma agreed. "But, strange as it may seem, I'm almost ok with worrying about you. It's part of the deal."

Killian opened his eyes, arching an eyebrow and he wasn't entirely prepared for the slightly nervous look on Emma's face. "The deal, huh?"

"Yeah, you know, indefinitely or whatever. For concussions or worse."

"I don't think that's exactly what we said."

She couldn't shrug when she was on her side, but she certainly made an effort and Killian briefly wondered if maybe that was where their daughter got her distinct lack of balance from. Emma wobbled a bit, eyes widening a fraction of an inch and it was all green and emotional and for concussions or worse didn't really sound that bad.

"Semantics," Emma mumbled. "Worrying about you isn't...it's not a job. It's instinct or something that sounds way less lame than that."

"That doesn't sound lame," Killian said, and he probably shouldn't have responded that quickly or that enthusiastically, but he'd kind of lost control of everything and the world consistently felt as if it were spinning out of orbit, even when he was walking as slowly as possible. So, really, shouting emotions in Emma's face was kind of a return to the usual.

She laughed softly, a sound he would have been more than willing to hear for the rest of forever if that weren't even more lame than what Emma had just said.

"When's the last time you had a headache?"

Killian clicked his tongue, trying to think back through the last week and they'd played in Vegas the night before, a loss that was dangerously close to a blowout and Jeff had broken his stick after the final whistle and Arthur had, undoubtedly, broken several whiteboards, but Husinger had gotten another point and it was a good assist.

They were going to be back on Garden ice that afternoon.

Will had texted him when they landed.

Robin complained about Husinger talking loudly on the flight.

"Not in awhile," Killian said when Emma made an impatient sound at his silence.

"That's not a date."

"I'm not writing it down, Swan."

"Shouldn't you be?"

"Those weren't part of the instructions. I was told to stay off the ice and not walk too quickly and take medicine. I'm doing that. I was not told to document symptoms."

She didn't say anything immediately, eyes tracing over his face as soon as his jaw snapped closed and the whole thing had been kind of ridiculous. This wasn't the doctor's fault. Well, not completely. It wasn't even that kid's fault – even if he'd led with his shoulder and he probably should have gotten fined. It wasn't anyone's fault.

It had happened.

And he hadn't done anything about it because he was…

It was fine.

That Husinger guy couldn't get a point in every game. That was impossible. And he talked too loudly on the team plane. Arthur wouldn't let that happen on another road trip.

He wouldn't be first line very long.

And Killian couldn't get playoffs, at the earliest, maybe out of the back corners of his brain.

It was fine.

"You know I bet we could get Pegs to weeble around the apartment for a little while," Emma said. Killian grinned. And kissed her. Again.

"Weeble?"

"Yeah, you know, weebles wobble, but they don't fall down. She kind of looks like a weeble in a ridiculous amount of Jones-branded merchandise."

"Jones-branded?"

"Please," Emma scoffed, sliding across the bed and slinging one arm over his middle. It was difficult to keep up with what she said next when her fingers started tracing over his spine, drawing patterns that weren't much more than straight lines, but felt a bit like vaguely emotional brands and it was way too early for those kind of pointed thoughts.

"Neither one of them realize there's another person on this team," she added. She'd moved again at some point, legs tangled with Killian's and head tucked against the curve of his neck. He could feel her breathing, not entirely sure if the brush of her lips against his skin was wishful thinking or actually happening, and it didn't really matter because Matt had thrust a piece of paper into Killian's stomach when he picked him up at school the day before.

Of the New York Rangers winning a Stanley Cup.

And Killian in the middle.

Next to Matt.

They were stick figures and not quite an exact likeness, but there was some dark hair and a few shakily-drawn twenties drawn in open space and he'd folded it up and put it in his wallet.

He didn't think he'd ever take it out.

Maybe he was just thinking pointed thoughts at all times now.

"He told me about the picture," Emma whispered. Her lips were definitely touching his skin. "He was super proud of it. Wanted to make sure I knew it was him and you and Uncle Will. Robin will probably be very disappointed he wasn't included."

Killian laughed, but it turned into a bit of a grunt as he snuck his arm around Emma and she mumbled a quiet apology when she landed on his chest. "I'm totally going to brag about it to Locksley."

"I mean, he's your kid, and your his hero, so I think you're getting a bit of an unfair advantage."

Killian didn't say anything, wasn't entirely sure he could over the rather large lump of emotion that had landed in the middle of his throat, and Emma's fingers had moved to his stomach, dancing over skin and muscle and an appendectomy scar that she always liked to linger on when they had a few moments to breathe.

He wasn't sure he'd really, truly breathed in the last two weeks.

"I love you," he whispered, finding his voice and Emma's fingers froze. "Just...more than anything. You know that, right?"

Emma tilted her head up, lips brushing across his collarbones and the scruff he'd been far too lazy to shave. His hand shifted again, flat against her back like he was trying to keep her there or next to him and it was decidedly possessive and a little absurd because he knew neither one of those things were in danger of changing. There were several different and meaningful things to prove that, least of all the name he could feel on her back and the Stanley Cup ring currently pressing into his sternum, but the world was still out of orbit and not skating felt a bit like not breathing and, well, he was kind of a selfish asshole.

He wanted to win.

Again.

Indefinitely.

God, he hated that word.

"I know," Emma said, voice a little shaky and eyes a little glossy and he wished he could stop making her cry. They were both going to be late. And something was probably wrong because no one had attacked their door yet.

Killian nodded, clenching his jaw and the question had been lingering on the tip of his tongue since Wednesday, but Emma hadn't wanted to talk and didn't have time and he hadn't really forgotten, but then their kid started drawing Stanley Cup stick figures and he'd missed their other kid weebling and it kind of felt like something short circuited.

Her breath caught when he moved, flipping on her onto her back and moving into the cradle of her hips and her fanned across several different pillows at once.

"And here you were advocating the benefits of going back to sleep," Emma muttered, and he didn't have to look at her tohear her smile. It was another absurd thought, but that seemed to be par for whatever course Killian's life had become, and he nipped against her neck when her fingers found his hair.

She rocked up at the same time he moved down and it was all friction and heat and something that might have been desperation, but that sounded decidedly negative and that wasn't what this was. At least not entirely.

This was how much everything had been out of control and out of their control, a slim difference that seemed to make all the difference and Killian was more than willing to suffer through an entire PT of Ariel cursing him to a variety of different hells if it meant Emma made that noise as her right leg wrapped around his calf.

The bruise on her thigh had long since disappeared, but his hand drifted toward the spot anyway, some type of feelings-based magnet and how much he wanted her to be ok, and Emma inhaled sharply when his fingers grazed over the jut of her hip.

"It's fine," Emma muttered, the words sounding bigger than that and they weren't talking about some ridiculous mechanical bull anymore.

She probably knew he kept the picture in his wallet.

She definitely knew he kept the picture in his wallet.

"That's true," Killian agreed, chuckling when Emma tried to swat at his shoulder. He caught her hand mid-air, brushing his lips over her knuckles and lingering under her ring She pulled her lips behind her teeth, tension almost visibly disappearing and back arching slightly and he was only ever going to be able to think about whatever the hell her leg was doing for, like, the rest of his waking days and possibly several lifetimes after that.

So, really, it didn't matter where Ariel cursed him because he'd have this to remember and think about and he probably shouldn't have been thinking about PT while trying to actively undress Emma.

"That wasn't even clever," she accused, nails scraping lightly on the back of his neck. Killian hissed, gaze meeting hers and she looked almost triumphant, smile wide and eyes unfairly bright. "And I really don't think this is part of the post-concussion-"

"-Fine, Swan," he interrupted.

She stared at him, like she was waiting for a different brand of honest or the actual reason he'd never told her about the headaches and the terror that seemed to rise up his spine and linger in the forefront of his brain every single night, like some kind of twisted hockey-future clockwork, but she either didn't find it or wasn't willing to wait any longer and Killian exhaled when she tugged him down and kissed him.

Hard.

And, really, that should have been it. It should have been kissing and getting rid of t-shirts with his name and number on it, but they were both kind of worried about the inevitable four-year-old attack and looming schedules and budgets that were probably changed, again, and the question seemed to fall out of Killian before he'd really decided he was going to ask it.

He'd been thinking it.

And Emma had been avoiding it.

"What exactly was the job?" he asked, leaning back to meet her slightly stunned and clearly frustrated gaze.

"What? Why aren't you kissing me still?"

"You've got to shower."

"And you made some terrible joke about showering with me before trying to take your shirt off. I thought we'd moved passed the shower thing."

"My shirt?" Killian asked, and Emma squeezed her eyes closed.

"It is kind of weird that you own t-shirt jerseys, but I was changing last night and you and Matt were watching film and it was the first thing I grabbed. You really couldn't tell? It's way bigger than usual."

"I wasn't really concerned with the size, honestly," Killian admitted. "My mind tends to go blank when I realize the name on the back."

Emma opened her eyes, gaze a bit softer and eyes just as green. "Seems kind of clingy, Cap."

"Yeah, a little."

"A very quick agreement."

"No point in arguing that when I was making veiled allusions to showering together, right?"

"Were they veiled?"

Killian shook his head, nosing at the bit of skin just behind Emma's ear. "You're avoiding the question, love."

"That's because you're a really bad interviewer. Maybe you should get Rubes to give you some pointers or something."

"I don't think Red would appreciate her interrupting PT like."

"Yeah, that's probably true," Emma mumbled. "And I'm not avoiding. Technically. I'm trying to deflect and distract with your own name."

"Yours too."

He kind of shouted those words too, but it kind of felt necessary and another instinct because he wanted everything with Emma, including hockey and whatever promotion she could get with the league and maybe if he just followed Peggy around with his phone all day, she'd wobble or wobble on camera and he'd be able to see it.

"Ah, that was stupid romantic," Emma said. Her fingers carded through his hair again, moving across his shoulders and another scar, courtesy of a particularly hard check when he was fifteen and some kid from at the Team USA camp didn't appreciate how good Killian was at scoring.

"Charming," he corrected softly. "We've been over that so many times, Swan."

"True. You're not going to let the job thing drop, are you?"

"I don't know why you want me to."

Emma sighed, but she didn't try to push him off her and he was more than content to linger on top of her while discussing some nebulous future that was only sort of overwhelming. He really wanted to shoot at something.

"It's not so much that," Emma started. "It's just...there's so much here and so much to do and I really think Mer is sleeping in her office again."

"I doubt that."

"Have you met Merida?"

"Strangely enough, I have," Killian nodded. "And I know she's not sleeping in her office because she told me that she was going to Gristedes last night to make sure there were bags of dried cranberries in your office for the next week."

"Did you ask her to do that?"

Killian glanced up at the sound of the question, Emma's voice shaking slightly and cracking a bit and his mouth dropped when he realized what she was doing to her lower lip. He moved his thumb over it, doing his best to pry it away from her teeth without causing any more damage and it wasn't that big of a deal.

He'd been telling Merida to make sure Emma ate since he got hurt, and even before then – when playoffs got crazy or she ordered the same salad from Pret the entire time she was pregnant with Matt and that was just part of the deal, slightly different versions of vows he'd promised twice.

And she still looked kind of stunned.

He needed to get back on the ice.

He needed things to be normal again.

"You're deflecting again, Swan," he muttered, and not kissing her was a very specific type of challenge. "What did Tink say?"

"C'mon answer, the question. And please don't talk about an attempted set-up while you're also being charming. It's a lot of mixed signals."

He chuckled against her hair, fingers working back under her shirt and maybe he was the one deflecting. "What was it you said? I wanted to have kids with you, so I think you won, Swan."

"Ah, it sounds crazy when you say it like that."

"Maybe a little clingy."

"Oh my God."

"The job, love," Killian said, pulling back and he wasn't sure if he appreciated Emma's laugh.

"You went all dad face on me. I couldn't take it seriously."

"That doesn't bode well for the future."

Her expression changed again, a blink and a twitch of her lips and it would have been great if the Earth's atmosphere stopped abruptly shifting like that. It wasn't helping his lungs at all. Or his head. Tuesday. That was the last headache he'd had.

"That's not true at all," Emma said softly. "And, uh...the job is basically what I'm doing now, just...everywhere."

"Everywhere?"

"This would probably be easier if you didn't just repeat everything I was saying." Killian rolled his eyes, but Emma was smiling again and her fingers were incredibly distracting. "So, the idea is to kind of grow the fanbase I guess. Especially the youth fanbase. Which apparently, rumor has it, I'm great at."

"But," Killian prompted.

"How do you know there's a but?"

"Swan."

She stuck her tongue out and rolled her eyes and it looked a bit like Peggy when she didn't appreciate that they were were feeding her cut up sweet potatoes again. Emma Swan and Peggy Jones both hated sweet potatoes.

Killian didn't say that out loud.

"It's just a lot," Emma said, probably waving her hands through the air over his back. "There's a lot of kids and a lot of would-be fans and...I don't have time to think about that now. I can't think about that now. Not when everything is so…"

She gritted her teeth, the rest of that sentence practically flashing on a neon sign above her head. It was a pretty good imitation of what her desk phone usually liked.

"Emma," Killian said, and she groaned loudly, an arm draped over her face and a pillow falling on the floor and they were on borrowed time already.

The door swung open, slamming into the wall hard enough that it probably left a mark and Killian winced when a four-year-old threw himself at his left leg.

"Dad, Dad," Matt yelled, somehow getting the sound to move directly into Killian's ear at the same time he dug his feet into his calf. "Are you awake?"

Emma laughed, turning her head into a pillow so it wasn't incredibly obvious, but Killian was still half on top of her with his hand under her shirt and they were going to have to come up with a better way to avoid ruining their kid's psyche.

Maybe after they dealt with everything else.

He still needed to get a tux for Casino Night.

"We're very awake, Mattie," Emma promised, twisting around to tug him further up the bed and Killian was sure one his kidneys suffered for the effort. "The real question is why are you awake? And what are we going to make for breakfast?"

"I'm hungry!"

"Yeah, I kind of figured that's what this was about."

Emma glanced at him, lips ticking up and whatever they'd been treading towards with the job discussion had been appropriately deflected. He wasn't sure if he was supposed to regret that as much as he did.

"What do you say we make breakfast today, Mattie?" Killian asked, sitting back on his heels and it was a precarious position, but that felt like a metaphor and he ignored it completely.

Matt jumped up, just barely missing both of Emma's knees in the process, and Killian could hear Peggy yelling a few feet away and they were going to have to buy a real bed eventually because that kid really did have an absurd amount of upper-body strength.

"Yeah," Matt yelled, but it came out a bit like a question and Killian was almost ready when a head collided with his shoulder.

"Mattie, be careful," Emma chastised. Her hand moved, hovering over Matt's back and another Jones-branded t-shirt, but Killian shook his head deftly.

Another deflection.

Another slightly selfish move because that seemed destined to end with him half choking to death, but he hadn't had a headache in days and maybe indefinite could end a little earlier than scheduled.

Probably after they ate their weight in chocolate-chip waffles.

"It's fine, Swan," Killian said, pleasantly surprised when he absolutely meant it and none of his joints cracked when he stood up.

Emma stared at him incredulously. "He's gone full koala on you. I really don't think that can be healthy. Physical activity was, like, at the absolute bottom of the list." She groaned when he grinned, eyebrows twisting and there were so many pillows on their bed. He barely heard when she fell back against them. "You know what I meant," she mumbled.

"I did. But I'm not all that concerned with the list at the moment." He took a step forward, Matt still clinging to his side, and pressing a kiss to the crown of her head. She smiled. "Go shower, love. We're going to eat way too much chocolate."

They did, in fact, eat way too much chocolate, Matt's lips covered and, somehow, his chin had gotten into the mix, perched on the counter next to a bowl of batter with even more chips in it.

"Dad, can Mar have some too?" Matt asked, trying to yank the spoon out of the bowl and Killian wasn't sure what his plan was, but he assumed it was flinging waffle batter at his sister. It's probably what he would have done.

"Hey," he said sharply. Matt's shoulders slumped. "What did we say about sitting up here?"

"Not to touch."

"Yuh huh."

"And not to swing."

Killian nodded, eyeing Matt's swinging feet intently. They sounded incredibly loud when they collided with the front of the cabinet and he thought he was being very impressive when he snuck his hand into the bowl, grabbing a few chocolate chips that hadn't mixed in yet.

"You're not nearly as sneaky as you think you are," Killian muttered, and Matt widened his eyes in a way that was equal parts familiar and entirely uncharted territory. And it probably counted as physical activity, but his kid was laughing and smiling and happy and it didn't really take much to sling Matt over his shoulder, socked feet bumping against his chest and fingers gripping at the back of the shirt he'd finally put on.

He hoped they didn't burn the waffles.

Matt kept laughing and Killian, somehow, managed to get Peggy to eat a handful of bananas, some of which inexplicably ended up on his elbow, but it was good and healthy and-

"Dad," Matt asked, moving to hang off Killian's back and he'd gotten surprisingly good at that in the last few months. Maybe all their kids were just ridiculously strong.

"Yeah, kid."

"Did you like your picture?"

He wished he didn't have banana on his elbow for this conversation.

"Of course," Killian said, hoping his voice stayed even and confident and Matt wasn't done. It was, he assumed, because they'd lost last night and Matt probably had the Rangers practice schedule memorized at that point and the prospect of hanging out with Leo Nolan that afternoon wasn't nearly as fun as taking slap shots on Garden ice with Roland.

"Do you...do you think you'll win?"

Killian had to take a deep breath before he answered, closing his eyes and trying to remember all the good things and the confidence he'd been flushed with that morning.

No headache since Tuesday. Good heart rate on the treadmill. Minimal glares from both Ariel and Regina in the last week.

Husinger's pass had been ridiculous.

"Dad," Matt whined, tightening his hold.

Killian flinched when someone knocked on the door, biting his tongue in the process and he never actually answered Matt's question, peering through the peephole to find it covered with what looked like a handmade sign.

He knew who it was when she kicked at the door.

"Oh my God," Killian muttered. "Mattie, don't try and climb over me when I open this door, ok?"

It was a pointless request – Matt was four and had no control over his limbs ever and he probably should have been more concerned about Anna anyway because she practically leapt at Killian as soon as there wasn't a door in between them.

Killian groaned when her body collided with his, arms around his middle and more hair in his face. He stumbled backwards, wincing when Matt likely did permanent damage to his right eardrum.

The shower turned off down the hallway.

"KJ, is that banana on your elbow?" Anna asked.

"Did you bring a sign?" he countered. "This is not JFK. A sign seems unnecessary."

"Ok, this is super cute and you know it. So don't try and tell me that you're not charmed. I can see it in your face and your banana elbow." Killian rolled his eyes, but Anna was, well, Anna and she was already talking to Matt. "My guy," she grinned, trying and failing to pry him away from Killian's back and that was only because she didn't have the kind of upper body strength either of the Jones kids seemed to possess. "You trying to choke your dad?"

"Anna, Anna, Anna," Matt chanted. She beamed at Killian. And let go of him so she could crouch to Matt's level and hug him tightly, peppering his head with kisses until he found that decidedly unpleasant.

"What are you doing here, Banana?"

She laughed, tilting her head up to him and he was, somehow, holding her sign. "It's almost like you planned the food shenanigans to match up with even more absurd nicknames."

"Several habits make it a difficult habit to break."

"That's kind of my excuse too, honestly."

"What?"

"Anna?"

Emma was standing on the edge of the kitchen, hair still in a towel and bare feet and it took less than a full second for even more hugging and questions and Zelena's meeting schedule was going to be completely pointless after this.

Killian looked at the sign in his hand, biting back a smile and a laugh when he processed the words: HERE TO FIX YOUR LIFE, KJ.

They didn't burn all the waffles, cleaning Matt's face and Anna kept Peggy on her knee the entire time they ate, updates on several different mountains and a spread in Condé Nast, because that was the kind of person she was and she hadn't been to New York in months.

She'd come to New York to fix his life.

The sign wouldn't have lied.

Anna wouldn't have lied.

"Alright," Emma said, nearly an hour and two slightly dramatic baths for both kids later. "Let's move out, team."

"Where are you going?" Anna asked, and Killian knew he didn't imagine the disappointment in her voice. He smiled.

"I've got forty-two Casino Night meetings and I'm sure Aurora has opinions about Phillip's ceremony she hasn't actually voiced yet and-"

"-God, there's more?"

Emma made a face. "So I'm going to bring Mattie and Pegs to Reese's and David's because he's got a day off for the first time in forever and-"

"-Why can't KJ and I watch 'em?"

"I've got PT in an hour, Banana," Killian explained, but Emma's shoulders sagged a bit. "So you better explain yourself pretty quickly or Red will throw a treadmill at you too."

"Yeah, I'd like to see her try."

"Wily."

"Don't be a jerk, KJ."

He flashed her a grin, turning back to Emma when she grabbed her keys and two different phones, one of them already lighting up in her hand. "Hot chocolate later?" she asked, a note of something in her voice that didn't sound like confidence and he was nodding before she closed her mouth.

"Wouldn't miss it, Swan."

"Good," she said, kissing him quick and leaning towards him so he could make a face at Peggy and Anna might have awedwhen he worked a rather loud da out of her. "See you later, Anna."

Anna hummed, waving and settling herself into the corner of the couch. She dug her heels into Killian's thighs. And, to her credit, waited for the door to close before she started talking.

"I brought chocolate," Anna said, and that might have been the last thing he expected her to say. She smiled when Killian blinked. "Yeah, not what you were thinking, right? Teach you to assume you know my conversational tendencies. I figured it was about time I repaid the favor or something."

"It wasn't a favor Banana. It was a very vocal demand of yours for fifteen years."

"Not that long."

"You're right, longer."

"Don't be like that. I made you a sign."

"A rather opinionated sign."

"Liam yelled at you over the phone!"

"Not really," Killian argued. "He advocated for making out and dates and getting away from practice."

"You follow through on any of that?"

"At least the first two." Anna clicked her tongue, another heel press and expressive look and he kind of expected her phone to ring earlier, honestly. "Is this why you came here?" Killian asked, swatting at her leg when her feet started masquerading as fifty-pound weights. "God, move your legs, Banana. I am on IR."

"Because of your actual brain, KJ," she countered. Elsa sighed on the phone screen.

"Are we fighting already? That was not part of the plan."

"The plan was unnecessary," Killian growled. "I'm serious about your feet, Banana. Did you come here just for this? That's worse than the sign."

"The sign was nice!"

"The sign was kind of judgmental. And kind of backed you into a corner. Here to fix my life?"

"Aw, Anna," Elsa groaned. Anna blushed. "That's not what we agreed on KJ. Although it's nice to see visual proof that you're alive. How's your head?"

"No headaches in awhile," Killian said, and Anna was never going to move her feet. Like, ever again. "So as good as can be expected."

"You snuck on the ice yet?"

"Who do you think I am, El?"

"I know exactly who you are, KJ," Elsa answered evenly. She was in her office. There was snow on the mountains behind her. "Which is why I'm asking that question."

"Rude,"

"Honest," Anna corrected. "And I'm not totally here because of you. It's been a while since I'd seen Kris and we've been talking about…"

Killian snapped his head around so quickly, he was sure he'd need PT for that too and Anna's cheeks were red enough that it was difficult to differentiate between her face and her hair. "Talking about?"

"Not that."

"You haven't actually said anything, Banana."

She groaned, slumping in the couch and he should have made her get the chocolate first. He couldn't eat more chocolate. "I've just been thinking about home, and missing home and Mattie's a cute kid and," she rolled her eyes, "shut up, KJ."

"I didn't say anything."

"Nah, you're really bad at lying KJ," Elsa muttered, and he jerked back when Anna thrust the phone in his face. "And Anna's even more sentimental than you are and totally homesick. It just helps that you're part of home so now we can tag-team you."

"Ah, c'mon," Anna groaned.

Elsa shrugged. "You weren't supposed to make a sign."

Killian chuckled, some of his frustration dissipating and it might have been because of the copious amount of chocolate he'd eaten that morning, but he was fairly certain it was also because Elsa and Anna Vankald resolutely refused to let him be anything except happy.

"You guys know you're kind of late to the intervention party, right?" Killian asked. "I really haven't gotten on the ice."

"That's actually pretty impressive," Elsa said, ignoring whatever he did with his face at that. "But, uh...not entirely, no."

Killian tilted his head, eyes flitting from the phone to Anna and her pursed lips and Elsa looked nervous. "What's this actually about?"

"The plan kind of evolved in the last few hours," Anna muttered. "Although there really is an offer to watch your painfully cute kids because Emma sounds super stressed out in the group text and you're not great at dealing and-"

"-How can she sound stressed out in a text?"

"It's a feeling, KJ."

"A feeling?"

"Killian," Elsa snapped, and he nearly jumped off the couch. Anna hissed. "This really isn't about the semantics of the text messages."

"Although you should really be aware of how stressed out Emma is," Anna mumbled.

"I know, Banana," Killian said. The frustration was back. It kind of felt like fury.

And he didn't hear Elsa at first.

There was probably a scientific reason for that.

Complete and utter denial and the desperate desire to deflect this entire conversation.

Probably.

"I said, have you seen The Post today?" Elsa asked softly. Killian shook his head. "You, uh, you might want to look at it."

It took a moment to find it – searching and scrolling and his phone had been off, his quiet fuck when he landed on the Q&A sounding impossibly loud in the now-silent apartment.

He'd seen the feature before, a Saturday spread two pages from the back with a color headshot for the columnist and splashy photos for the subject and he'd answered those questions more than once in the last decade and a half.

It was the headline, really, that got the laugh out of him, slightly manic and a little surprised and he knew Elsa tried to glance at Anna through the phone.

Harping on Husinger: How the Rangers call-up is making this his team

"His team?" Killian asked. He didn't take his eyes away from his phone, grip tightening and the words felt like acid working out of him. He was glad he didn't melt. That'd probably ruin the couch. It'd at least scandalize Anna.

"So he says," Elsa muttered. "Several times."

"He says this shit more than once?"

She made a noise, an agreement and a slight whimper and Killian's lungs had never collapsed before, but this kind of felt like that. Or the world falling into a black hole.

Anna sniffled.

"He's a dick, KJ," she shrugged. "Just...forget the goals and that pass last night. He's...trying to make it sound like you know you won't come back and it's his spot and his playoff run and.."

She didn't finish. Killian wished she finished, but his eyes were scanning sentences and proclamations and promises, swallowing when they landed on my line's been great, it's been so easy to settle into the scheme and Arthur's an incredible coach, and I can only hope I keep finding the back of the net. This is the moment I've been waiting my whole career for, I don't intend to backtrack.

"This is bullshit," Killian said, voice low and he kept shaking his head like that would get rid of the ringing in his ears. "It's not his team."

"We know, KJ," Elsa promised. "He's just trying to get his five minutes."

"Or his minutes until the playoffs."

"What?"

"That's as soon as I can get back. Maybe."

"Maybe?"

"That's what they told me, El," he growled. She widened her eyes. "Sorry, sorry, I just...how did you find this? Were you looking for headlines? And why didn't Lucas tell me?"

"I don't think she knew Husinger was going to say all that. And you're kind of terrifying, KJ."

"And Belle texted me," Anna added. "That's why the plan changed. I think she was trying to talk Scarlet out of killing this guy at practice."

There wasn't much thought after that.

It was just anger and red on the edge of his vision and Killian stuffed his phone in his pocket, mumbling I'll be back laterwhen both Anna and Elsa questioned where he was going.

He left his wallet in the bedroom.

"Hey, uh, you see that story this morning, Cap?" the driver asked, and Killian grunted or nodded and neither one of them said anything else the entire drive down Columbus Ave.

He didn't say anything to the security guard either, just tugged up the collar of his jacket and kept walking, eyes on his shoes and mind nowhere near rational. He could hear pucks hitting the boards already.

The tension was obvious, even through Killian's own cloud of anger and fury and several other words that were equally irrational. Will was standing on the far edge of the ice, helmet off and stick clutched in his hand tight enough that Killian would have bet him several different things his knuckles were white under his gloves.

Robin was taking faceoffs, Husinger just outside the circle and neither of them looked particularly pleased to be sharing the same few feet of space. Phillip kept glaring at them both.

Arthur blew his whistle.

"Again, Locksley," he growled. "And try not to fuck it up this time. You looked like shit last night."

"He won more than half Arthur," Will pointed out. Another whistle blow.

"I'm not paying him to win half. I'm paying him to win seventy-five percent. At least."

"You're not really paying him at all, you know, unless you got a promotion none of us heard about."

Arthur let go of his whistle, the stupid bit of plastic landing on his chest with a soft thump and Husinger chuckled. And, for half a second, Killian was worried the whole goddamn team was going to kill him.

Phillip's eyes narrowed and Will dropped his stick, Robin standing up to his full height and rolling his shoulders – the same exact way Roland did when he didn't like a call on the ice.

Arthur skated across the circle.

"You want to try that again, Husinger?" Arthur muttered. He laughed. Again.

Killian swallowed. And swung his legs over the boards.

He was always better on ice than he was anywhere else, more confident and more controlled, and, admittedly, more talented, but in the moment, he was simply thankful he kept his balance, a distinct lack of traction that may have been due to the excessive beating of his heart.

"Cap," Will gasped. "What the hell. Get off the ice?"

Killian shook his head, certain he would fall over if he stopped moving and Husinger stopped laughing when he saw him.

He hadn't actually seen him in person yet.

He wasn't that big, no taller than Killian and a little stockier, leaning on his stick with half a smile on his face and a confident attitude that was treading dangerously close to complete and utter dick. He clicked his tongue when Killian was a few inches away, jaw tight and eyes tracing across his street clothes and sneakers.

"Looks like you're still not quite ready to suit up, Jones," Husinger grinned.

Will nearly jumped forward.

Killian shook his head, crossing his arms lightly and he still couldn't really come up with any coherent thoughts. "What the hell is your problem?" he asked, ignoring both Robin and Phillip when they mumbled Cap under their breath.

Arthur looked torn between blowing his whistle and making them all skate blue lines.

"I'm afraid I don't know what you mean."

"Yeah, you do," Killian muttered. "Or you wouldn't look that nervous."

Husinger blinked, smile wavering for half a moment before he schooled his features and pursed his lips. He shook his gloves off. "I've never met you before, man," Husinger continued. "All I know is the legend."

"There's no legend."

"Ah, sure there is or you wouldn't be here to defend it. You worried about your squad? Is that what it is?"

"It's not your team."

"Not yet. You see that pass last night? Rocket right across the ice. That's what they were saying on all the talk shows this morning."

"A spot on SportsCenter's not going to get you a Cup."

"And yet you'll still be on the bench no matter I do, won't you?" Husinger asked. Killian fisted his hands at his side, biting on the inside of his lip and he could hear Will breathing behind him. "It's a talkative team. Not really like that in Hartford, but they do talk about you Hartford and you're out of commission for awhile."

"Seriously, what is your problem, man?" Phillip balked, huffing when Robin pushed his hand into his jersey.

Husinger shrugged. "I'm not going anywhere. I don't care about Jones. I don't care about his fucking brain or his cognitive reasoning or the kids everyone keeps talking about. This is a a hockey team. And it's supposed to win. I'm here to win. I don't care about anything else."

"That's not how this works," Killian muttered, voice barely audible and Arthur stared at him. "You can't win if you're just here for you."

"Did you miss the part where I don't care?"

"Nah, I heard you. Strangely enough the concussion didn't affect my hearing."

Will tried to turn his laugh into a cough, but he was grinning when Killian glanced at him and he'd never picked up his stick. "That was funny, Cap," he said. "You hear that Locksley? Cap's making jokes about concussions."

"Don't tell Emma," Robin yelled.

Killian rolled his eyes, but Husinger was still standing there and, presumably, still a piece of garbage, absolute dick looking for a moment in the spotlight and they all really should have expected it.

It had already been in print.

"This is my spot now, Jones," Husinger said, shrugging like it was obvious and Arthur put the whistle back in between his teeth. "And I'm not going anywhere. You can come back and it won't matter. You're gone. Might as well get used to it now. Make it easier to explain to your kids next season."

It wasn't really red.

It was kind of like...magenta. Burning and searing and so goddamn hot Killian had to glance down at his hands to make sure they hadn't exploded into flames.

And Killian barely heard Will, a quiet "ah, fuck that guy," in the background when he walked forward, lifted his hand and punched.

A right hook, straight to the jaw.

Everything went to shit after that.

Killian landed another two punches before Husinger reacted, a fist in his stomach and the side of his cheek and he swore he heard something crack, the pain rushing straight through him. He was never entirely sure how he kept his balance, slipping and sliding and gripping the front of Husinger's jersey like a goddamn anchor.

He didn't stop.

He felt an arm around him, trying to pull him away and he didn't know if it was Will or Robin, didn't particularly care either way, particularly when another blow landed on the side of his ribs. That made it more difficult to breathe.

And keep fighting.

Arthur blew his whistle.

Phillip cursed when Husinger elbowed him, trying to fight him off as he worked to stay on his skates and there was blood dripping into Killian's mouth.

He could feel the bruise blooming under his eye, and it was a bit like being thrown into ice-cold water. His legs shook under him, suddenly incapable of supporting his weight and Will mumbled something he couldn't understand.

Arthur was shouting, yelling instructions and something that sounded a bit like get this asshole the fuck off my ice and Killian exhaled, desperate to blink away the spots in front of his eyes.

Will kept mumbling ambulance.

"No, no, no," Killian argued, shaking his head. That was a mistake. Weebles wobble and they absolutely fall down.

"Cap."

"No, no, just...just go find Emma."