Letters Unsent

by Knichols12

I regret my past and all of its horrors, yet dread the future the most. My time in the Navy is ending: I must decide what's next. These unsent letters are a record for you, Gil. I want there to be answers for you to find when you return, just in case I'm not here. An illegal weapons trade wreaks havoc in town. His mother's memory still fades. Dietfried's heart is burdened.

5. Chapter 5

Violet Evergarden,

Bless whatever hand of fate that put you on the train to Gardarik. The mission was only a success because you were on it. I am sorry...for everything. Your eyes reflected only what you saw in me, and I hated it. All along, I was the tool of the military that cost you so much…. I hope you can forgive me, in time.

I heard you, on that train. It was the first time the echos of the past didn't deafen me to your truth. Our essence vibrated with the same ricochet of violence seen, blood shed, grief, love, love lost…. The same determination to protect what humanity we have left in our hearts. The desire to be something more than the tools we'd been.

Thank you for protecting Gil.

Thank you for being kind to our mother… and to me. You never held my grief against me. You refused to respond to the raging pain that I showered on you. I should have done better by you: you deserve that much. I will not abandon you again. Gilbert took you into this family, and since he is not around to ensure your care himself, I shall see to you personally. Should you need me, you only need to say so.

In the event of my death, please know that my lawyer will be in contact with you as the sole inheritor of the Bougainvillea estates and fortune. I make only one request of you: that you look after Gil's grave.

Dietfried