(Hey guys it's been a while! Sorry I've been so busy working, among other things! Hope you like it! Rated M because this chapter has some mature themes.

Recap:Alaric refuses to have anything to do with saving the town. He leaves Bonnie, Abby and Declan in his home. They discuss Matt, and ask why Damon played a part in his drastic transformation.

Enjoy Chapter 15 Happy Reading!)

"What?" Declan asked.

"He feels as if Damon was at the epicenter."

"How. I could never see him doing that. Any of you."

"Listen you may have read about him but you've never met him. Your father wasn't always a good man."

"I understand that miss Bennet but why? Why would he risk my mother's life, my life?Matt was his friend."

Bonnie chuckles a bit. "Those two were never friends. Cordial maybe, just for the sake of everyone else but never friends."

"Where'd my dad go wrong? Why is he to blame?"

"It was after your father and mother took the cure. Matt had met the new nurse in town 'Lisa', and they quickly fell madly in love with each other. She was all the things he could have asked for, loving, kind, caring and selfless. He was a cop and she was a wanted nothing more than to help this town. For a second there it seemed like Mystic Falls would be okay."

"Until.." Abby finishes.

"Declan your father had a lot of enemies. Like I said, he wasn't always this great guy. He was evil, heartless, and numbingly cold," She smiles, "That is until he met the beautiful Elena."

Declan smiles too, "My mom."

"Then again he was still a troubled man at that point."

She nods. "Anyway Just because Damon reverted back into a human didn't mean his enemies did, unfortunately they didn't just go away. One in particular. James O'Toole."

She says the name slowly, momentarily closing her eyes, utterly disgusted at the way the name rolled off her tongue.

She sighs, " An old war buddy. Just so happened to be looking for Damon at the time and unfortunately he found him."

"Yeah, I'd read about it, eighteen sixty four, the civil war. My father was a lieutenant. What does have to do with Lisa?"

Abby hushes him, waiting for her mom to tell the rest of the story.

"In Mystic Falls they were happy. Matt and Damon had their differences but they had one thing in common to be excited about, both their wives were pregnant. Both were blissfully happy men. If only it stayed that way."

She takes a moment to breathe.

"When James came back, he was looking for Damon and anyway he could hurt him.

Getting to you and your mom seemed like the best way."

Disgust quickly covers Declan's expression.

"You were still in the womb. Elena had an emergency. A problem with her pregnancy. So her nurse, Lisa 'had to check on her and naturally she called for Damon.

When O'Toole saw Damon and Lisa, he assumed….."

"That Lisa was his pregnant wife. Driving him to kill Lisa and Matt to hate you all. Did I get it right?"

She nods. "She went missing, He tortured her, sending Damon body parts piece by piece. He started with the ring finger. Said if he didn't show up, Lisa and the baby would die."

"Did he show up?"

"Of course but it was too late. Damon tried to stop Matt from running on to the crime scene but he refused to stay behind the yellow tape."

"Thats…" Abby couldn't find the words.

"What Matt found stayed embedded in his mind forever."

"What?"

" Lisa was dismembered, the parts left were covered in blood. Next to her were ashes with a daylight ring in the center."

Abby tries to hide the rogue tear stirring up in her eye.

"It can't get much worse than that. I understan-"

"No Declan it can, two feet away was a trash can. …...the fetus was inside."

"Oh ….my ….gosh". Abby says in between her sobs, her tears now freely flowing.

"Matt grew sad, angry, depressed. He secretly grown to hate your parents for the mix up. He was envious. He got to watch you grow up with both your parents, together, a beautiful family. Everything Elena could ever ask for. Everything Matt almost had, and devastatingly lost."

"Where do you come in?"

" I don't. I was off living life, Paris. All while my best friend had to plan a funeral for his wife and unborn daughter on his own."

"It's not your fault Ms Bennett! You can't carry that burden around with you forever."

"I can and I will….forever….Lisa was my friend too. Then to find my mate and consume a child.." She looks toward Abby. "it was too much for Matt to see. Everyone had family but him."

"You were his family, couldn't he see that?"

"Not with grief and hate clouding his vision."

"You were in a different country. None of this is on you."

"That's what I told myself at first but it didn't help me feel any better. Matt was always there for me. When Enzo died, he was there. When Lisa died I was halfway around the world. Didn't even make it back in time for the funeral. So no matter what you say, do or try to make me feel. I'll NEVER forgive myself, not as long as I live."

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