Quinn found TJ and Loki in the kitchen, both with a mug in their hands. She walked in. "Hey, you Ok?" TJ looked at her with red eyes "no, I'm fucking far from ok. We just lost a family member." She walked closer. "He isn't gone forever. Right now our focus is on the murderbot we accidentally made. Once that's over and the world is still here we're gonna focus on bringing him back. Like you said, he's a computer. It may not be easy but it can be done." TJ shook his head as he took a sip of his coffee. "It's just...just not what I needed tonight." Quinn sat down. Loki stayed silent, letting them talk.

"Did something else happen? Did you and Loki have a fight?" He shook his head. "No. I think I just caught up with you and Dad in the anxiety department." Her eyebrows rose in worry. "You had an anxiety attack? I've never seen you with anxiety a day in your life. You always bounced back pretty well." He shook his head. "Well not from this. I killed hundreds of children and no one seems to care." Quinn swallowed, not wanting to think of that time but knowing it's obvious that's the cause of his anxiety. "You haven't talked to anyone about it? Not even Clint? Of all people I would think he would understand."

"Our situations weren't the same. He may have attempted to kill a few shield agents but I killed hundreds of innocent children. I wasn't going to go to Clint or you or Dad. You all have your own problems." Quinn frowned. "What about Gage? He's been through something similar." TJ shrugged, wiping tears away. "Once again, I'm not gonna burden him with this." "Maybe you should. It's obviously affecting you. Have you been having nightmares?" "Nearly every night since then but I can manage them, have them quietly." "You shouldn't. You should talk to Gage, really. He can relate with you about it. He's had to kill innocents too, children and adults alike."

TJ sniffled. "Shit. That's awful." "Yeah well having an abusive, dickbag of a father will do that. But you see he didn't want to, he was very nearly forced to, ordered to by his father. Doesn't that sound familiar?" TJ felt his eyes well up. "Then why did the hammer chose me?" Quinn was confused. "What? What do you mean?"

Loki spoke. "Thors hammer deemed him worthy. He was able to pick up the hammer but he managed to catch himself, choosing not to, not wanting others to know." Quinn was in shock. "But you didn't pick it up, I saw you. We all did." TJ sighed. "You know when you go to pick up something, you just already know you can? I felt that. When I held it I felt this static go through my hand. It didn't hurt, it was in ripples, like water. I may have moved it an inch when I moved away but yeah. I'm worthy." He finished bitterly. Quinn shook her head. "This is unbelievable. But why would you run from that? That's a huge honor, like the biggest honor a persons character you can get."

TJ stood. "Didn't you listen to a word I said? I killed people! I killed hundreds of innocent children and it thinks I'm worthy?" "Because that wasn't you. Your mind wasn't yours." He paced. "Don't give me that bullshit, Loki said the same thing. I just need some time alone, I'm gonna be in the training room." Before Quinn could talk he had ran off. Loki sighed. "I am truly sorry about this. I never even wanted to rule earth. I was merely a messenger for Thanos." Quinn went to Loki. "And it wasn't your fault either." Loki nodded. "I am aware of that fact, now. I am getting better but it takes time and the right people. I believe in time he will be just fine. He just needs the right person to talk to. "

They were both quiet before Loki gave a small amused sound. "Typical, both muscle headed lugs I love the most both are worthy of the hammer. Such is my life." Quinn smiled, hearing the tiny bit of jealousy in his voice. "Why don't you try it?" Loki chuckled weakly. "I do not think the world is ready for that. If you'll excuse me I have a boyfriend to check on. I don't want him alone right now and Jarvis is offline to keep an eye on him." She smiled. "Go keep an eye on him. I'm gonna get this to the rest of them, see if Gage can help him." Loki nodded as he walked away.

While the rest of the nerd squad was cleaning the lab and trying to figure a way out of this. Gage and Kim were upstairs, helping clean up some of the debris the fight caused. Clint watching over Tony. Quinn went to them. "So TJ talked to me." Kim turned, looking worried. "What's wrong? Is he ok?" Quinn shrugged. "He won't be the way he's going. Ever since Loki put him under mind control and had him take down a school, he's been having nightmares. He's been hiding it from everyone. Even Loki, until tonight that is." Gage frowned. "Probably because of the holiday. He's probably thinking of all the families of those kids he killed. But that wasn't his fault, he was under the spell of the tesseract."

Quinn shook her head. "Try telling him that. He won't believe Loki or me. He's eating himself away with guilt. And this doesn't help things either and please do not tell anyone else this, not yet, ok?" Kim nodded. "Of course." Quinn sighed. "TJ is able to pick up Thor's hammer." Gage looked confused. "But he didn't-" "I thought that too but Loki confirmed it and I'm sure Thor will say the same. He sensed he could pick it up when he held it but he let it go, obviously freaking him out, I don't blame him."

Kim couldn't help but smile a watery smile. "My Son is worthy?" Quinn smiled. "Yeah Mom. He is." She turned to Gage. "Do you think you could talk to him? Not about the hammer, do not mention that to him unless he brings it up but about his guilt. I know you had to kill innocents when you were under your fathers orders, make you can help him?" Gage nodded. "Yeah. I'll do what I can. Where is he now?" "Blowing off some steam in the training room. Loki is keeping a watch on him." Gage nodded. "I'll go talk to him. " he said as he jogged off.

Loki kept a small distance away, staying inside the bulletproof doors to the training area while TJ shot magazine after magazine, slicing many a poor dummy as well. Gage was suddenly next to him. Loki greeted him. "Hello Gage, hear to speak with TJ?" Gage nodded. "Something like that. How's he doing?" Loki frowned, staring at his boyfriend, feeling the pain and guilt coming off of him in waves. It took all he not to crumble too but he was getting better with his emphatic tendencies. "As well as expected. Refuses to believe it wasn't him no matter what Quinn and I say. Did Quinn tell you he's worthy of Thor's hammer?" Gage smiled, feeling proud for someone who is basically a nephew to him. "Yeah. I can understand why it freaked him out, Hell that would have freaked the hell out of me if I was worthy. Don't worry, I won't mention I know that to him."

Loki nodded, continuing to watch his boyfriend until he got a message in his head, Thor. "Brother you must come to Asguard at once. Father wants to talk to you." Loki growled, looking away. "What the hell would he want?" Gage looked at him weird. Loki blushed. "Sorry, Thor sent me a telepathic message. I have to leave for a few moments, please make sure he doesn't do anything stupid." Gage nodded. "Will do."

Loki walked outside where he suddenly was engulfed in rainbow light, Heimdals doing no doubt, just waiting for the right moment.

He righted himself, feeling the familiar action once again, stepping into the room, Heimdal there and waiting. "It is nice to see you again Prince Loki." Loki glared. "What does my father want?" Heimdal walked toward him. "It is about your lover and the hammer." All the anger left him. "Is he alright?" "It will be explained. Come, your brother and father wait in the throne room."

When Loki saw Odin he felt a boiling rage he never thought he'd feel. Before the Starks when he thought of his father all he thought of pain and dread and fear. But now it is replaced with anger and wanting justice for the abuse he put him through.

Odin spoke as he got closer. "My son, you look well." Loki glared. "No thanks to you. What is it you want?" Odin stood, walking closer to him, slowly. "It is apparent that your lover is worthy of Mjölnir." "He has no interest in ruling Asguard." "And I didn't expect he did. But do you know why he is worthy?"

Loki stayed quiet. Odin continued. "Because of you. I've seen the way he calmed your nightmares, comforted you, took care of you. If not for you he may not have been worthy, he may not have learned the compassion, patience and unconditional love needed for a life partner. He was quite the womanizer before you but I can see he is willing to lay his life on the line to protect you."

Loki felt his eyes water. "Why are you telling me this? So you can feel justified for the abuse you gave out? I was four years old when you forced me to vomit up cake and other foods I wasn't allowed for 45 minuets! Or maybe when I just wanted to go to the library, I'm sure that was deserving of 30 lashes! If you're telling me this because you're trying to apologize or feel justified well you can just go fuck yourself!" Thor ran to him, worried Odin may lash out.

His brother looking distraught and shaking. "Brother!" Odin gave an amused sound. "You certainly have been around the Starks. No, I didn't tell you this because of some failed sense of justification. I'm telling you this because I am allowing you to have your powers back." Loki was confused. "But...but I thought that was the deal of my banishment on earth." "It was but times have changed, you have changed and you have changed your love in the greatest way. Because of this you may have your powers and immortality back." Loki spoke before he could gain his powers from Odin back. "If it's all the same to you, I don't want the immortality. I want to grow old with him. By the time I go gray he will be six feet under of old age."

Odin nodded. "Fair enough. Loki, Of Asguard, I grant you your powers." He brought his large scepter down on the floor, Loki then being hit with so many feelings and power. It hurt but felt good and it was everywhere. He felt the exact opposite of when he was drained of his powers, for a moment. He collapsed when Odin was done,Thor helping him up. Thor helped him up. "How do you feel Brother?" Loki groaned. "Like I'm going to be sick. It may take a bit to become accustomed." "Let's get you to your room. You may rest there."

When TJ looked like he took a break Gage walked in. "Hey." TJ rolled his eyes. "Quinn sent you didn't she?" "Guilty as charged but she's just worried about you, we all are." "Gonna tell me the same bull? That it wasn't my fault I killed those kids?" Gage sighed. "Not if you won't listen to it but I understand how you feel. I've been forced to kill innocents too but the difference is my mind was my own, I was just too chicken to say no to my father. I knew what I was doing. I knew the people whose lives I took were innocents. Civilians. The unit my father forced me into, he found a village and he wanted to make a camp there, have more stations but it had families there. Innocent woman, men and children. I and the rest of my unit had to slaughter because my dad said so because if you didn't listen to him he'd torture you to death."

TJ just stared at the ground. Gage continued. "You were under the tesseract. Your mind wasn't your own. I know it's a damn hard pill to swallow but it truly wasn't you that killed that school. It took me almost losing Quinn to finally open up and talk to her and I know you think you shouldn't go to Loki because he's the one that put you under that spell and he'd feel guilty but he loves you. Trust me when I say he wants you to open up to him like he does for you. "

TJ sighed. "I don't know how to feel right now. Where is he anyway?" "Actually, Asguard. He got a call from Thor, I'm not sure what it was about." TJ tensed, wondering if being worthy of the hammer made Odin want to talk to him. "I hope he's ok. I have no idea how I could even go there to check on him." Gage nodded. "I'm sure Thor is watching over him." TJ nodded in agreement, still worrying as he put his weapons away.

After Loki rested and let his stomach settle a bit, he brought a few belongings, mostly clothes. Shield had taken his green and black leathers and he doubted they would be willing to give them back along with a few asguardian fruits. Thor saw him as he finished packing a bag. "are you ready brother?" Loki nodded, holding the bag. "Yes, lets go. I'm sure TJ is worried."