Each time I opened my eyes to the morning light and realized I'd lived through another night was a surprise to me. After the surprise wore off, my heart would start to race and my palms would sweat; I couldn't really breathe again until I'd gotten up and ascertained that Charlie had survived as well.

I could tell he was worried—watching me jump at any loud sound, or my face suddenly go white for no reason that he could see. From the questions he asked now and then, he seemed to blame the change on Julie's continued absence.

The terror that was always foremost in my thoughts usually distracted me from the fact that another week had passed, and Julie still hadn't called me. But when I was able to concentrate on my normal life—if my life was ever really normal—this upset me.

I missed her horribly.

Now, more than ever, I yearned for her carefree laugh and her infectious grin. I needed the safe sanity of her homemade garage and her warm hand around my cold fingers. I needed Julie to keep me from feeling so afraid.

I'd have expected her to call on Monday. If there had been some progress with Embry, wouldn't she want to report it? I wanted to believe that it was worry for her friend that was occupying all her time, not that she was just giving up on me.

I called her on Tuesday, but no one answered. Were the phone lines still having problems? Or had Billy invested in caller I.D.?

On Wednesday I was so desperate to hear the warmth of Julie's voice that I called three times over the course of the evening.

Thursday I sat in my truck in front of my house—with the locks pushed down—keys in hand, for a solid hour. I was arguing with myself, trying to justify a quick trip to La Push, but I couldn't do it.

I knew that Laurent had gone back to Victoria by now. If I went to La Push, I took the chance of leading one of them there. What if they caught up to me when Julie was nearby? As much as it hurt me, I knew it was better for Julie that she was avoiding me. Safer for her.

It was bad enough that I couldn't figure out a way to keep Charlie safe. Nighttime was the most likely time that they would come looking for me, and what could I say to get Charlie out of the house? If I told him the truth, he'd have me locked up somewhere. I would have endured that—welcomed it, even—if it could have kept him safe. But Victoria would still come to Charlie's house first, looking for me. Maybe, if she found me there, that would be enough for her. Maybe she would just leave when she was done with me.

So I couldn't run away. Even if I could, where would I go? To Renée? I shuddered at the thought of dragging my lethal shadows to my sweet mother's safe, sunny world. I would never endanger her that way.

The worry was eating a hole in my stomach. Soon I would have matching punctures.

That night, Charlie did me another favor and called Harry again to see if the Blacks were out of town. Harry reported that Billy had attended the council meeting Wednesday night, and never mentioned anything about leaving. Charlie warned me not to make a nuisance of myself—Julie would call when she got around to it.

Friday afternoon, as I drove home from school, it hit me out of the blue.

I wasn't paying attention to the familiar road, letting the sound of the engine deaden my brain and silence the worries, when my subconscious delivered a verdict it must have been working on for some time without my knowledge.

As soon as I thought of it, I felt really stupid for not seeing it sooner. Sure, I'd had a lot on my mind—revenged-obsessed vampires, giant mutant wolves, my fractured heart—but when I laid the evidence out, it was embarrassingly obvious.

Julie avoiding me. Charlie saying she looked strange, upset…. Billy's vague, unhelpful answers.

Holy crow, I knew exactly what was going on with Julie.

It was Sam Uley. Even my nightmares had been trying to tell me that. Sam had gotten to Julie. Whatever was happening to the other Kids on the reservation had reached out and stolen my friend. She'd been sucked into Sam's cult.

She hadn't given up on me at all, I realized with a rush of emotion.

I let my truck idle in front of my house. What should I do? I weighed the dangers against each other.

If I went looking for Julie, I risked the chance of Victoria or Laurent finding me with her.

If I didn't go after her, Sam would pull her deeper into his frightening, compulsory gang. Maybe it would be too late if I didn't act soon.

It had been a week, and no vampires had come for me yet. A week was more than enough time for them to have returned, so I must not be a priority. Most likely, as I'd decided before, they would come for me at night. The chances of them following me to La Push were much lower than the chance of losing Julie to Sam.

It was worth the danger of the secluded forest road. This was no idle visit to see what was going on. I knew what was going on. This was a rescue mission. I was going to talk to Julie—kidnap her if I had to. I'd once seen a television show on deprogramming victims of brainwashing. There had to be some kind of cure.

I decided I better call Charlie first. Maybe whatever was going on down in La Push was something the police should be involved in. I pulled out my phone and quickly dialed the number of the station, in a hurry to be on my way.

Charlie answered the phone at the station himself.

"Chief Swan."

"Dad, it's Bella."

"What's wrong?"

I couldn't argue with his doomsday assumption this time. My voice was shaking.

"I'm worried about Julie."

"Why?" he asked, surprised by the unexpected topic.

"I think… I think something weird is going on down at the reservation. Julie told me about some strange stuff happening with the otherKids her age. Now she's acting the same way and I'm scared."

"What kind of stuff?" He used his professional, police business voice. That was good; he was taking me seriously.

"First she was scared, and then she was avoiding me, and now… I'm afraid she's part of Sam's gang. Sam Uley's gang."

"Sam Uley?" Charlie repeated, surprised again.

"Yes."

Charlie's voice was more relaxed when he answered. "I think you've got it wrong, Bella. Sam Uley is a great kid. Well, he's a man now. A good son. You should hear Billy talk about him. He's really doing wonders with the youth on the reservation. He's the one who—" Charlie broke off mid-sentence, and I guessed that he had been about to make a reference to the night I'd gotten lost in the woods. I moved on quickly.

"Dad, it's not like that. Julie was scared of him."

"Did you talk to Billy about this?" He was trying to soothe me now. I'd lost him as soon as I'd mentioned Sam.

"Billy's not concerned."

"Well, Bella, then I'm sure it's okay. Julie's a kid; she was probably just messing around. I'm sure she's fine. She can't spend every waking minute with you, after all."

"This isn't about me," I insisted, but the battle was lost.

"I don't think you need to worry about this. Let Billy take care of Julie."

"Charlie…" My voice was starting to sound whiney.

"Bella, I got a lot on my plate right now. Two tourists have gone missing off a trail outside crescent lake." There was an anxious edge to his voice. "This wolf problem is getting out of hand."

I was momentarily distracted—stunned, really—by his news. There was no way the wolves could have survived a match-up with Laurent….

"Are you sure that's what happened to them?" I asked.

"Afraid so, kiddo. There was—" He hesitated. "There were tracks again, and… some blood this time."

"Oh, god…" It must not have come to a confrontation, then. Laurent must have simply outrun the wolves, but why? What I'd seen in the meadow just got stranger and stranger—more impossible to understand.

"Look, I really have to go. Don't worry about Julie, Bella. I'm sure it's nothing."

"Fine," I said curtly, frustrated as his words reminded me of the more urgent crisis at hand. "Bye." I hung up.

I stared at my phone for a long time the hell, I decided.

Billy answered after two rings.

"Hello?"

"Hey, Billy," I almost growled. I tried to sound more friendly as I continued. "Can I talk to Julie, please?"

"Julie's not here."

What a shock. "Do you know where she is?"

"She's out with her friends." Billy's voice was careful.

"Oh yeah? Anyone I know? Quil?" I could tell the words didn't come across as casually as I'd meant them to.

"No," Billy said slowly. "I don't think she's with Quil today."

I knew better than to mention Sam's name.

"Embry?" I asked.

Billy seemed happier to answer this one. "Yeah, she's with Embry"

That was enough for me. Embry was one of them.

"Well, have her call me when she gets in, all right?"

"Sure, sure. No problem."Click.

"See you soon, Billy," I muttered into the dead phone.

I drove to La Push determined to wait. I'd sit out front of her house all night if I had to. I'd miss school. The girl was going to have to come home sometime, and when she did, she was going to have to talk to me.

My mind was so preoccupied that the trip I'd been terrified of making seemed to only take only a few seconds. Before I was expecting it, the forest began to thin, and I knew I would soon be able to see the first little houses of the reservation.

Walking away, along the left side of the road, was a tall person with a baseball cap.

My breath caught for just a moment in my throat, hopeful that luck was with me for once, and I'd stumbled across Julie without hardly trying. But this was a boy and he was too wide, and the hair was short under the hat. Even from behind, I was sure it was Quil, though he looked bigger than the last time I'd seen him. What was with these Quileute kids? Were they feeding them experimental growth hormones?

I crossed over to the wrong side of the road to stop next to him. He looked up when the roar of my truck approached.

Quil's expression frightened me more than it surprised me. His face was bleak, brooding, his forehead creased with worry.

"Oh, hey, Bella," he greeted me dully.

"Hi, Quil…. Are you okay?"

He stared at me morosely. "Fine."

"Can I give you a ride somewhere?" I offered.

"Sure, I guess," he mumbled. He shuffled around the front of the truck and opened the passenger door to climb in.

"Where to?"

"My house is on the north side, back behind the store," he told me.

"Have you seen Julie today?" The question burst from me almost before he'd finished speaking.

I looked at Quil eagerly, waiting for his answer. He stared out the windshield for a second before he spoke. "From a distance," he finally said.

"A distance?" I echoed.

"I tried to follow them—she was with Embry." His voice was low, hard to hear over the engine. I leaned closer. "I know they saw me. But they turned and just disappeared into the trees. I don't think they were alone—I think Sam and his crew might have been with them. I've been stumbling around in the forest for an hour, yelling for them. I just barely found the road again when you drove up."

"So Sam did get to her." The words were a little distorted—my teeth were gritted together.

Quil stared at me. "You know about that?"

I nodded. "Julie told me… before."

"Before," Quil repeated, and sighed.

"Julie's just as bad as the others now?"

"Never leaves Sam's side." Quil turned his head and spit out the open window.

"And before that—did she avoid everyone? Was she acting upset?"

His voice was low and rough. "Not for as long as the others. Maybe one day. Then Sam caught up with her."

"What do you think it is? Drugs or something?"

"I can't see Julie or Embry getting into anything like that… but what do I know? What else could it be? And why aren't the old people worried?" He shook his head, and the fear showed in his eyes now. "Julie didn't want to be a part of this… cult. I don't understand what could change her." He stared at me, his face frightened. "I don't want to be next."

My eyes mirrored his fear. That was the second time I'd heard it described as a cult. I shivered. "Are your parents any help?"

He grimaced. "Right. My grandfather's on the council with Julie's dad. Sam Uley is the best thing that ever happened to this place, as far as he's concerned."

We stared at each other for a prolonged moment. We were in La Push now, and my truck was barely crawling along the empty road. I could see the village's only store not too far ahead.

"I'll get out now," Quil said. "My house is right over there." He gestured toward the small wooden rectangle behind the store. I pulled over to the shoulder, and he jumped out.

"I'm going to go wait for Julie," I told him in a hard voice.

"Good luck." He slammed the door and shuffled forward along the road, his head bent forward, his shoulders slumped.

Quil's face haunted me as I made a wide U-turn and headed back toward the Blacks'. He was terrified of being next. What was happening here?

I stopped in front of Julie's house, killing the motor and rolling down the windows. It was stuffy today, no breeze. I put my feet up on the dashboard and settled in to wait.

A movement flashed in my peripheral vision—I turned and spotted Billy looking at me through the front window with a confused expression. I waved once and smiled a tight smile, but stayed where I was.

His eyes narrowed; he let the curtain fall across the glass.

I was prepared to stay as long as it took, but I wished I had something to do. I dug a pen out of the bottom of my backpack, and an old test. I started to doodle on the back of the scrap.

I'd only had time to scrawl one row of diamonds when there was a sharp tap against my door.

I jumped, looking up, expecting Billy.

"What are you doing here, Bella?" Julie growled.

I stared at her in blank astonishment.

Julie had changed radically in the last weeks since I'd seen her. The first thing I noticed was her hair—her beautiful hair was all gone, cropped quite short, covering her head with an inky gloss like brown satin. The planes of her face seemed to have hardened subtly, tightened… aged. Her neck and her shoulders were different, too, thicker somehow. Her hands, where they gripped the window frame, looked enormous, with the tendons and veins more prominent under the russet skin. But the physical changes were insignificant.

It was her expression that made her almost completely unrecognizable. The open, friendly smile was gone like the hair, the warmth in her dark eyes altered to a brooding resentment that was instantly disturbing. There was a darkness in Julie now. Like my sun had imploded.

"Julie?" I whispered.

She just stared at me, her eyes tense and angry.

I realized we weren't alone. Behind her stood four others; all tall and russet-skinned, black hair chopped short just like Julie's. They could have been siblings—I couldn't even pick Embry out of the group. The resemblance was only intensified by the strikingly similar hostility in every pair of eyes.

Every pair but one. The oldest by several years, Sam stood in the very back, his face serene and sure. I had to swallow back the bile that rose in my throat. I wanted to take a swing at him. No, I wanted to do more than that. More than anything, I wanted to be fierce and deadly, someone no one would dare mess with. Someone who would scare Sam Uley silly.

I wanted to be a vampire.

The violent desire caught me off guard and knocked the wind out of me. It was the most forbidden of all wishes—even when I only wished it for a malicious reason like this, to gain an advantage over an enemy—because it was the most painful. That future was gone, not even a possibility. I scrambled to gain control of my thoughts.

"What do you want?" Julie demanded, her expression growing more resentful as she watched the play of emotion across my face.

"I want to talk to you," I said in a weak voice. I tried to focus, but I was still reeling from all my rampaging emotions and thoughts.

"Go ahead," she hissed through her teeth. Her glare was vicious. I'd never seen her look at anyone like that, least of all me. It hurt with a surprising intensity—a physical pain, a stabbing in my head.

"Alone!" I hissed, and my voice was stronger.

She looked behind her, and I knew where her eyes would go. Every one of them was turned for Sam's reaction.

Sam nodded once, his face unperturbed. He made a brief comment in an unfamiliar, liquid language— I could only be positive that it wasn't French or Spanish, but I guessed that it was Quileute. He turned and walked into Julie's house. The others, Paul, Jared, and Embry, I assumed, followed him in.

"Okay." Julie seemed a bit less furious when the others were gone. Her face was a little calmer, but also more hopeless. Her mouth seemed permanently pulled down at the corners.

I took a deep breath. "You know what I want to know."

She didn't answer. She just stared at me bitterly.

I stared back and the silence stretched on. The pain in her face unnerved me. I felt a lump beginning to build in my throat.

"Can we walk?" I asked while I could still speak.

She didn't respond in any way; her face didn't change.

I got out of the car, feeling unseen eyes behind the windows on me, and started walking toward the trees to the north. My feet squished in the damp grass and mud beside the road, and, as that was the only sound, at first I thought she wasn't following me. But when I glanced around, she was right beside me, her feet having somehow found a less noisy path than mine.

I felt better in the fringe of the trees, where Sam couldn't possibly be watching. As we walked, I struggled for the right thing to say, but nothing came. I just got more and more angry that Julie had gotten sucked in… That Billy had allowed this… That Sam was able to stand there so assured and calm….

Julie suddenly picked up the pace, striding ahead of me easily with her long legs, and then swinging around to face me, planting herself in my path so I would have to stop too.

I was distracted by the overt grace of her movement. Julie had been nearly as klutzy as me with her never-ending growth spurt. When did that change?

But Julie didn't give me time to think about it.

"Let's get this over with," she said in a hard, husky voice.

I waited. She knew what I wanted.

"It's not what you think." Her voice was abruptly weary. "It's not what I thought—I was way off."

"So what is it then?"

She studied my face for a long moment, speculating. The anger never completely left her eyes. "I can't tell you," she finally said.

My jaw tightened, and I swallowed hard. "I thought we were friends."

"We were." There was a slight emphasis on the past tense.

"But you don't need me anymore," I said coldly. "You have Sam now. What about everything you said?"

"I didn't understand him before."

"And now you do?"

"It wasn't like I thought it was. This isn't Sam's fault. He's helping me as much as he can." Her voice turned brittle and she looked over my head, past me, rage burning from her eyes.

"He's helping you?" My voice was shaking now.

But Julie didn't seem to be listening. She was taking deep, deliberate breaths, trying to calm herself. She was so mad that her hands were shaking.

"Julie, please," I whispered. "Won't you tell me what happened? Maybe I can help."

"No one can help me now." The words were a low moan; her voice broke.

"What did he do to you?" I demanded, tears collecting in my eyes. I reached out to her, as I had once before, stepping forward with my arms wide.

This time she cringed away, holding her hands up defensively. "Don't touch me," she whispered.

"Is Sam watching?" I mumbled. The stupid tears had escaped the corners of my eyes. I wiped them away with the back of my hand, and folded my arms across my chest.

"Stop blaming Sam." The words came out fast, like a reflex. Her hands reached up to twist around the hair that was no longer there, and then fell limply at her sides.

"Then who should I blame?" I retorted.

She halfway smiled; it was a bleak, twisted thing.

"You don't want to hear that."

"The hell I don't!" I snapped. "I want to know, and I want to know now."

"You're wrong," she snapped back.

"Don't you dare tell me I'm wrong—I'm not the one who got brainwashed! Tell me now whose fault this all is, if it's not your precious Sam!"

"You asked for it," she growled at me, eyes glinting hard. "If you want to blame someone, why don't you point your finger at those filthy,reeking bloodsuckers that you love so much?"

My mouth fell open and my breath came out with awhooshing sound. I was frozen in place, stabbed through with her double-edged words. The pain twisted in familiar patterns through my body, the pain ripping me open from the inside out, tracing the fractures in my broken heart, but it was second place, background music to the chaos of my thoughts. I couldn't believe that I'd heard her correctly. There was no trace of indecision in her face. Only fury.

My mouth still hung wide.

"I told you that you didn't want to hear it," she said.

"I don't understand who you mean," I whispered.

She raised one eyebrow in disbelief. "I think you understand exactly who I mean. You're not going to make me say it, are you? I don't like hurting you."

"I don't understand who you mean," I repeated mechanically.

"The Cullens," she said slowly, drawing out the word, scrutinizing my face as she spoke it. "I saw that—I can see in your eyes what it does to you when I say their name."

I shook my head back and forth in denial, trying to clear it at the same time. How did she know this? And how did it have anything to do with Sam's cult? Was it a gang of vampire-haters? What was the point of forming such a society when no vampires lived in Forks anymore? Why would Julie start believing the stories about the Cullens now, when the evidence of them was long gone, never to return?

It took me too long to come up with the correct response. "Don't tell me you're listening to Billy's superstitious nonsense now," I said with a feeble attempt at mockery.

"He knows more than I gave him credit for."

"Be serious, Julie"

She glared at me, her eyes critical.

"Superstitions aside," I said quickly. "I still don't see what you're accusing the… Cullens… of. They left more than half a year ago. How can you blame them for what Sam is doing now?"

"Sam isn't doin ganything, Bella. And I know they're gone. But sometimes… things are set in motion, and then it's too late."

"What's set in motion? What's too late? What are you blaming them for?"

She was suddenly right in my face, her fury glowing in her eyes. "For existing," she hissed.

"You're… you're being ridiculous." I shook my head.

"Fine," Julie answered, breathing deeply again. "I won't argue with you. It doesn't matter anyway, the damage is done."

"What damage?"

She didn't flinch as my emotions bested me and I shouted the words in her face.

"Let's head back. There's nothing more to say."

I gaped. "There's everything more to say! You haven't said anything yet!"

She walked past me, striding back toward the house.

"I ran into Quil today," I yelled after her.

She paused midstep, but didn't turn.

"You remember Quil, don't you? He's terrified."

Julie whirled to face me. Her expression was pained. "Quil" was all she said.

"He's worried about you, too. He's freaked out."

Julie stared past me with desperate eyes.

I goaded her further. "He's frightened that he's next."

Julie clutched at a tree for support, her face turning a strange shade of green. "He won't be next," Julie muttered to herself. "He can't be. It's over now. This shouldn't still be happening. Why? Why?" Her fist slammed against the tree. It wasn't a big tree, slender and only a few feet taller than Julie. But it still surprised me when the trunk gave way and snapped off loudly under her blows.

Julie stared at the sharp, broken point with shock that quickly turned to horror.

"I have to get back." She whirled and stalked away so swiftly that I had to jog to keep up.

"Back to Sam?"

"That's one way of looking at it," it sounded like she said. She was mumbling and facing away.

I chased her back to the truck. "Wait!" I called as she turned toward the house.

She spun around to face me, and I saw this her hands were shaking again.

"Go home, Bella. I can't hang out with you anymore."

The hurt, which should have been silly, inconsequential, was incredibly potent. The tears welled up again. "Are you… breaking up with me?" The words were... wrong, but they were the best way I could think to phrase what I was asking. After all, what Julie and I had was more than some schoolyard romance. Stronger.

She barked a bitter laugh. "Hardly. If that were the case, I'd say 'Let's stay friends.' I can't even say that."

"Julie… why? Sam won't let you have other friends? Please, Julie. You promised. I need you!" The cold emptiness of my life before—before Julie brought some semblance of reason back into it—reared up and confronted me. Loneliness choked in my throat.

"I'm sorry, Bella," Julie said each word distinctly in a cold voice that didn't seem to belong to her.

I didn't believe that this was really what Julie wanted to say. It seemed like there was something else trying to be said through her angry eyes, but I couldn't understand the message.

Maybe this wasn't about Sam at all. Maybe this had nothing to do with the Cullens. Maybe she was just trying to pull herself out of a hopeless situation. Maybe I should let her do that, if that's what was best for her. I should do that. It would be right.

But I heard my voice escaping in a whisper.

"I'm sorry that I couldn't… before… I wish I could change how I feel about you, Julie." I felt the emotions overtake me, breaking through my inhibitions, the careful walls I had constructed crumbled around me and I spoke too honestly. "Maybe… maybe I would change," I whispered. "Maybe, if you gave me some time… just don't quit on me now, Julie. Please. I can't take it."

Her face went from anger to agony in a second. One shaking hand reached out toward me.

"No. Don't think like that, Bella, please. Don't blame yourself, don't think this is your fault. This one is all me. I swear, it's not about you."

"It's not you, it's me, right?" I whispered. "Julie…"

"I mean it, Bella. I'm not…" she struggled, her voice going even huskier as she fought to control her emotion. Her eyes were tortured. "I'm not good enough to be your friend anymore, or anything else. I'm not what I was before. I'm not good."

"What?" I stared at her, confused and appalled. "What are you saying? You're so much better than anyone I know, Julie. You are good! Who told you that you aren't? Sam? It's a vicious lie, Julie! Don't let him tell you that!" I was shaking I was so upset.

Julie's face went hard and flat. "No one had to tell me anything. I know what I am."

"You're my friend, that's what you are! Julie—don't!"

She was backing away from me.

"I'm sorry, Bella," she said again; this time it was a broken mumble. She turned and almost ran into the house.

I was unable to move from where I stood. I stared at the little house; it was too small to hold four large boys and one girl and two larger men. There was no reaction inside. No flutter at the edge of the curtain, no sound of voices of movement. It faced me vacantly.

The rain started to drizzle, stinging here and there against my skin. I couldn't take my eyes off the house. Julie would come back. She had to.

The rain picked up, and so did the wind. The drops were no longer falling from above; they slanted at an angle from the west. I could smell the brine from the ocean. My hair hung in my face, sticking to the wet places and tangling in my lashes. I waited.

Finally the door opened, and I took a step forward in relief.

Billy rolled his chair into the door frame. I could see no one behind him.

"Charlie just called, Bella. I told him you were on your way home." His eyes were full of pity.

The pity made it final somehow. I didn't comment. I just turned robotically and climbed in my truck. I'd left the windows open and the seats were slick and wet. It didn't matter. I was already soaked.

Not as bad. Not as my mind tried to comfort me. I wanted to believe it was true. That this wasn't as bad. This wasn't the end of the world, not again. This was just the end of the world I had finally managed to rebuild myself. That was all.

Not as bad,I agreed, then added,but bad enough.

I'd thought Julie had been helping me build that new world—helping to mend the fractures, keeping them from hurting me so much. I'd been wrong. I'd just let another girl take too much from me.

Charlie was waiting on the porch. As I rolled to a stop, he walked out to meet me.

"Billy called. He said you got in a fight with Julie—said you were pretty upset," he explained as he opened my door for me.

Then he looked at my face. A kind of horrified recognition registered in his expression. I tried to feel my face from the inside out, to know what he was seeing. My face felt empty and cold, and I realized what it would remind him of.

"That's not exactly how it happened," I muttered.

Charlie put his arm around me and helped me out of the car. He didn't comment on my sodden clothes.

"Then what did happen?" he asked when we were inside. He pulled the afghan off the back of the sofa as he spoke and wrapped it around my shoulders. I realized I was shivering still.

My voice was lifeless. "Sam Uley says Julie can't be my friend anymore."

Charlie shot me a strange look. "Who told you that?"

"Julie," I stated, though that wasn't exactly what she'd said. It was still true.

Charlie's eyebrow pulled together. "You really think there's something wrong with the Uley kid?"

"I know there is. Julie wouldn't tell me what, though." I could hear the water from my clothes dripping on the linoleum. "I'm going to change."

Charlie was lost in thought. "Okay," he said absently.

I decided to take a shower because I was so cold, but the hot water didn't seem to affect the temperature of my skin. I was still freezing when I gave up and shut the water off. In the sudden quiet, I could hear Charlie talking to someone downstairs. I wrapped a towel around my waist, and cracked the bathroom door.

Charlie's voice was angry. "I'm not buying that. It doesn't make any sense."

It was quiet then, and I realized he was on the phone. A minute passed.

"Don't you put this on Bella!" Charlie suddenly shouted. I jumped. When he spoke again, his voice was careful and lower. "Bella's made it very clear all along that she and Julie were just friends…. Well, if that was it, then why didn't you say so at first? No, Billy, I think she's right about this…. Because I know my daughter, and if she says Julie was scared before—" He was cut off mid-sentence, and when he answered he was almost shouting again.

"What do you mean I don't know my daughter as well as I think I do!" He listened for a brief second, and his response was almost too low for me to hear. "If you think I'm going to remind her about that, then you had better think again. She's only just starting to get over it, and mostly because of Julie, I think. If whatever Julie has going on with this Sam character sends Bella back into that depression, then Julie is going to have to answer to me. You're my friend, Billy, but this is hurting my family."

There was another break for Billy to respond.

"You got that right—those boys set one toe out of line and I'm going to know about it. We'll be keeping an eye on the situation, you can be sure of that." He was no longer Charlie; he was Chief Swan now.

"Fine. Yeah. Goodbye." I heard Charlie slam his phone onto the counter.

I tiptoed quickly across the hall into my room. Charlie was muttering angrily in the kitchen.

So Billy was going to blame me. I was leading Julie on and she'd finally had enough.

It was strange, for I'd feared that myself, but after the last thing Julie had said this afternoon, I didn't believe it anymore. There was much more to this than an overly complicated romance, and it surprised me that Billy would stoop to claiming that. It made me think that whatever secret they were keeping was bigger than I'd been imagining. At least Charlie was on my side now.

I pulled on a pair of underwear and crawled into bed. I didn't bother putting my pajamas on—I just wanted to sleep. To sleep and forget. I didn't know where to go from here. I closed my eyes and waited for the tears to stop escaping from my eyes.

It was a new dream tonight. Rain was falling and Julie was walking soundlessly beside me, though beneathbmy feet the ground crunched like dry gravel. But she wasn't my Julie; she was the new bitter, graceful Julie. The smooth suppleness of her walk reminded me of someone else, and, as I watched, her features started to change. The russet color of her skin leached away, leaving her face pale white like bone. Her eyes turned gold, and then crimson, and then back to gold again. Her shorn hair twisted in the breeze, turning bronze where the wind touched it. And her face became so inhumanly beautiful I felt a sharp stab in the pit of my stomach. She reached for me, but I felt myself step away, raising my hands defensively. And then Edyth vanished.

I wasn't sure, when I woke in the dark, if I'd just begun crying, or if my tears had run while I slept and simply continued now. I stared at my dark ceiling, shivering violently from the piercing cold. I could feel that it was the middle of the night—I was still half-asleep, maybe more than half. I closed my eyes wearily and prayed for a dreamless sleep.

That's when I heard the noise that must have wakened me in the first place. Something sharp scraped along the length of my window with a high-pitched squeal, like fingernails against the glass.