Thank you to those of you reading and commenting on my story! I hope you enjoy it! I plan on updating several times a week as my crazy life allows! Thanks itsmereading for your support in being my beta. Lord knows I am not good with my grammar! Please let me know who you think Bella should have as her Prince Charming. Emmett, Paul, and Mike N are top contenders. Not sure if I want Alice and Jasper together. She's kind of a villain in my book this time! I don't own the Song of The Day or the characters. Enjoy! -brier
Chapter 2
Song of the Day:
Bebo Norman : Born To Die
Bella Point Of View
Another day. Another bruise I have to hide. Sadly, I am getting too good at this. Between Alice and I there is usually no evidence of Edward's angry side. Unless you count the pictures I secretly take. He has plans of being a doctor someday. I don't have any plans for my life. I will be lucky if I can leave my house after graduation. If I make it out alive.
Today, I was yelled at and pushed into the wall at school. In front of everyone. For answering a question Mr. Banner had for me. I hit my head pretty good on the wall. I can't press charges. If I do, Edward won't be able to be a doctor. I am not smart enough to do anything in my life. Nobody else wants to deal with my sorry ass. As evidence that nobody comes near me when Edward and I are on breaks. Unless they are afraid of me getting hurt. I am tired of feeling useless. Like I don't matter. Normally, I deal with this by myself. Or with Alice. If it's bad enough Carlisle looks over my injuries. He thinks I am a klutz. Which I am. But I am not as bad as he thinks I am. I only have issues around ice, gym class or Edward. I am not good with rackets or balls of any kind. Ice is self explanatory. Edward. Well. He has a temper. When we friends since we were like two years old when he moved here with his Uncle Carlisle, Aunt Esme and cousin Alice after his parents died. We had a lot of fun together and were rarely appart. Our parents became best friends. Were were boyfriend and girlfriend in kindergarten. Always together. I guess Edward got comfortable with me and jealous when other guys would talk to me. At first it wasn't bad. Just him being mad. Then he got angry. Pushing me around started in middle school. By 8th grade he was hitting me and using me as a punching bag. And both of our parents let him. Which takes a toll on one's self esteem. Let's be real. I have none left.
My parents got married when they found out Renee was pregnant. And they stayed together for my sake. There is questions of how many kids Charlie has other than me. Any kid with a single Mom I have to avoid. They could be my brother. God knows if my Mom has had other kids. She likes to disappear for months on end. Faithfulness has never been apart of the Swan Marriage. Which didn't make sense with Charlie's job as Police Chief. Until I realized that they were saying that Mom was going to Phoenix to stay with ailing Parents or Grandparents. How noble.
I am popular but I am not. Everyone knows me but tries to stay away from me. The few that are allowed near me are my parents if you can call them that and his family. Only because I have to talk to my family until I am 18. Which is in a few days. If Edward allows me to stay there after is a sight to be seen. Who knows. He may tire of me by then. Which I pray he does. I am tired of my life. Maybe I should go to La Push and stay with the Black's. I need to do this carefully. There are plenty of places around Forks Edward or Charlie could hide my body. Who knows. Maybe I was born to die.