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Chapter 24
Jasper
Linkin Park : One More Light
Nothing can compare to the amount of stupid going on right now. I say that with all the respect I can muster. There are people who think that Bella asked for the hell she has been through. If falling in love with an ass made her ask for it, then I guess they are right. How could she have known when she was two years old Edward would have been the way he is? Even Emmett says that. He never would have guessed Edward would treat her the way he has when they met at 10.
I feel bad for Emmett. The girl he loves doesn't love him. Well, she can't love him. She is so broken that she can't see straight. She wants to feel things, but is scared. I feel that. I feel that she wants to be normal. Whatever normal is, other than a city in Illinois which is on my list of places to go before I die. I need to know what 'Normal' is.
Emmett has been trying to do everything he can to be there for Bella. He's also trying to not kill half of the La Push Reservation. Sadly, it seems she is well loved. Which is a good thing, but not to Emmett. I think he wants her to be his and only his. He gets upset if anyone talks to her by themselves so I try not to, which pisses me off. She is my friend too. She's been my friend for longer than him, not that I am keeping score.
Poor Jacob. Poor kid. He is one person that keeps getting Emmett's rath that does not deserve it. Jake keeps doing what is in Bella's best interest as his older sister, not his wife. Bella doesn't know if she wants to be a Swan anymore. The Blacks gave her an option that makes sense. This way she can be a full member of the Tribe. Honestly had it been me I would have done it already, or at least started the process. Bella is, of course, over analyzing everything like she normally does. She will make her mind up the day before she marries her future husband. Rolls eyes.
The light in her eyes is slowly returning but at times, I see it disappear again. I notice when Emmett is around her the light fades. When Paul is near her it increases. Why you might be asking? Emmett it would seem tries to control her. He is overly protective of who she spends time with. Sadly nothing in life is guaranteed other than death and taxes. But she has the right to make her own choices and mistakes like we all do. Paul, while overly protective also, at least tries to let her do things herself, or at least give her the option of doing them with him. I like his way of doing it better. The incident at his house was tragic. Thankfully the two people killed were both involved from the looks of it. Thankfully this Arnold or Aro guy was not good at covering his tracks. He was linked to Lauren and she was again linked to Edward. Which is adding to his case.
This case is becoming one big cluster fuck, so much so that I don't even know where to start. While I am not involved with it, it is not hard to see that. There are so many things that just don't make sense. I wish that I could make sense of it, but there is not enough alcohol or drugs for that- not that I do any, but still.
But through it all, I just want Bella to have the light back in her eyes. I want to see the smile I know that she has, the one that stops everyone in their tracks. It makes me crazy.
I care if her light goes out. I want it to shine bright to tell her parents and those who didn't let her light shine to fuck off. I want her light to shine, even if it is not for me. She deserved to smile.
And I will do everything I can to make her smile again.