Helloooooo…back with another update…I hope you like it. As always, let me know what you think..
Have you ever had moments that remind you of the calm you feel while watching the leaves change as summer turns to fall? That's what the month with Sam was like following our reformed first date. It was easy and calm. It seemed to be the most natural thing to wake up to a morning delivery of breakfast and a flower of the day. It felt like the most natural thing to walk into the office and pass his door with a walk and fragrance so fierce, it compelled him watch me. It was the most natural thing to slowly shed those shields that guarded my heart.
But like all the leaves falling from the trees, a big gush of wind comes and blows them off course. The moment Sam and I walked into the office after one of our lunch dates, we were met with that wind. Walking towards his office, Sam noticed the door open and immediately went to check it out. He walked into his office and was met with his board members. Seeing the looks on their faces, I decided to back away. When I closed his door and turned, I was met with the smirk of Rachel.
"Oh hello again…you're Samuel's little friend right, I can't remember your name," She said.
"It's Mercedes and you're Rachel."
"Oh, my Sam Bam must have been talking about me, how sweet. Yes I'm Rachel Berry, Broadway extraordinaire and Samuel's girlfriend."
"Oooookkkkkkk on that delusional note, I'm going to walk away."
"It is not so delusional Mercedes, as a matter of fact; we made it official last night after we made love."
When Rachel said that, my demeanor shifted. Sam canceled on me again for a meeting he had and I assumed it was a work thing. Her saying this raised my suspicions and those guards that were slowly descending the stairs of my heart began to climb back up.
"Well, Rachel if that is true, I would like to hear it from Sam myself and I wish you both well. I'm going to be a lady and be respectful to my work place and do what I planned. If you'll excuse me," I said trying to walk away.
"Don't speak too fast Mercedes, this may not be your workplace for very long if those board members have a say in it."
With that, Rachel made her way to the elevators and left the office quickly. With the little time she was there, she was able to stir up some doubt and anger in me. I felt like I was back in the place I was months ago playing games with Sam and feeling like he only wanted me as a play thing. That damn woman drummed up some insecurity that I buried a long time ago.
Quickly moving to my desk, I tried to forget what Rachel told me. I didn't want to panic about my job or about Sam. If it all was true, I wanted it to have as little effect on my psyche as possible. I began to focus on work until I looked through my email and saw a message from the same Rachel who pretended she didn't know who I was. 'I thought you'd like to know what our man has been up to,' it said with a picture of Sam with who I assumed were Santana and Brittany laughing at a bar standing flirtatiously close. I closed the email and I felt that damn cloud coming over me. The one that rains on parades and can cause you to seep into a deep depression.
That is until I felt Sam coming towards me. It seemed that his presence had the ability to chase those thing away, but I didn't want to look up and see those eyes. I didn't want to give in or give him the satisfaction of seeing anything affect me. His scent soon hit me and I knew he was only a few feet away. He called my name and I refused to look up. He tried again and I still didn't move. Next thing I feel is his strong arms wrapped around me pulling me away.
"Sam, what are you doing? Let me go."
"Now you notice me, glad I got your attention," He said pulling me into a closet and closing the door. He turned on the light. "You really know how to piss me off with that silent treatment bull Mercedes." I tried to move around him and he stopped me.
"What Sam? Why do you have me in this closet?"
"What's your problem," He asked ignoring me.
"Nothing, now if you would let me go." I tried moving around him again.
"No Mercy. I need to tell you something and you need to settle your ass down and tell me what's wrong," He said. That was the first time he called me Mercy and it shocked and softened me.
"My ASS don't want to talk about this at work," I said angrily and through clenched teeth. Yes, necks were rolling.
"It's my office. I don't care. Anybody with a problem can kiss my ass," He practically yelled.
Letting go of a sigh, I settled down and sat on a bucket I noticed. "I ran into your girlfriend Rachel," I said.
"The only woman I ever would consider a girlfriend is you Mercedes, so please don't come at me with that sarcastic bs."
"That's funny Sam or shall I say Samuel, I wasn't being sarcastic," I said rolling my eyes, "She said you are in fact her boyfriend and that you confirmed it last night after you made love. Now I do recall you canceling on me last night."
Sam began to laugh, "She is a delusional liar. I wasn't anywhere near Rachel last night. In fact, I haven't spoken to her in a month. I was where I said I was."
"I bet, you were busy entertaining the fun twins."
"What are you talking about? Where is this coming from?"
"Well you little 'girlfriend',"
"Stop calling her that," Sam interrupted. "Your little Rachel sent me an email with you and your threesome buddies looking all chummy enjoying drinks together. No wonder you've been cancelling on me."
Sam sighed and hung his head. He stooped and got really close to me looking me in my eyes. "Mercedes, I promise you that I have not been with any one of those women since the last time I told you. You are the only woman I've been dating and the only one I want to call my girlfriend. I did hang out with Santana and Brittany and I should have told you, but it was just an innocent meeting up to catch up two weeks ago. They were friends before we started sleeping together and when I told them about you, they knew I was serious about changing and being with you. Baby, I promise I would never lie to you or hurt you anymore." He grabbed my hands and continued to look into my eyes, but I needed to concentrate. I stood and let his hands go.
"Drama, I should have known with your past and us trying this out, there would be some kind of drama. Sam she made some old feeling come up that I didn't know were still lingering. Then she tried to tell me my job was in jeopardy. Is that true?"
"No, of course not."
"Then why were your board member here?"
"That's what I had to tell you. They were here because of me. Someone told them I was letting my infatuation with my employee, namely you, influence my business decisions. They were doubting my abilities to run the company and tried to threaten to drop investments, but I shut them and their doubts down quickly. Come to think about it," Sam said standing, "How did they even know I'm dating you?"
We both looked at each other and said, "Rachel."
Sam was furious. The cool temper he had approaching me and this situation was gone. "I can't believe that conniving, selfish…"
"Sam, calm down."
"I can't believe I ever got involved with someone like that. What was I thinking?" He was right back to the question he had months ago.
"Big Sam wasn't thinking, little Sammy was," I laughed trying to cut the tension.
Sam grinned, "Not funny Mercy, besides Sammy isn't so little."
"Really Mr. Evans we're going to go there…right now…in here."
"Hey, you started it," He said. He got quiet and gazed at me. He got closer and pushed me towards the back of the closet. He held our position by playing his arms around my head palms flat on the wall.
"What I really want to know is, do you fully trust me yet? Do you understand that Rachel is crazy? Santana and Brittany are just friends…"
"What about Tina," I asked stubbornly.
"Non existent. And that I want you and only you Ms. Jones to be my girlfriend. This little hitch just tells me that we're on to something. This drama will pass and I will personally see to it that it does and whatever else happens just know I'm going to be honest with you and we'll work through it. What do you say? Do you want to still continue? Will you be my girlfriend?"
His eyes were searing into me and right when I was about to answer…
Oooooh Cliff hanger….see my drama is never really bad, I just can't seem to write it haha anyway until next time…