D'joks P.O.V.

We just got back from the shadows planet after our win. Yes that's right, we're going to genesis stadium. However Alex hasn't come back yet. So after taking my things to my room i swung by her room to see if she had come back. I opened the door but saw nothing but one picture and two envelopes on her bed. I walked in and immediately went to her closest and saw her clothes were gone. I then went back to the bed. One envelope had 'To Arch' written on the front. The other had 'To D'jok' on it. The picture in between them was of me and Alex. it was taken a couple of years ago at her birthday. I was stood behind her with my arms around her neck. She was holding my hands and our heads were pressed against each other. I picked up the picture and the two letters before heading straight to Archs office.

"Come in" after Arch said that i walked in. When Arch saw it was me he said

"D'jok what can i do for you?"

"Her stuff is gone"

"Whos?"

"Alex. her room is empty. And she left this" i handed him the letter with his name of it. He took it, and said

"Did she leave anything else"

"She left something for me but i haven't opened it"

"Okay, i'm going to read this and then call a meeting. You don't have to be there" i nodded before leaving the room.

I went back to Alex's room and sat on the bed. I took a deep breath before opening the letter.

Dear D'jok,

We have known each other 12 years and i hope that you understand why I'm writing this.

Lately our relationship has felt like walking on eggshells. Once upon a time we were a safe space where it mattered zero you liked a girl, if i changed my perspective of the world, or if we were obsessing over football. There was mutual trust, respect, and authenticity. We were there for each other.

For as long as i can remember you have been my confidant, my shoulder to cry on, the person I scream songs with in the car. You have been there through all the first dates, first kisses and heartbreaks. You reassure me when I get too anxious, that everything will be OK. You have been there for me no matter what. You have been by my side when no one else would, through the good and bad.

You are the person who doesn't judge me for being myself. You are the person who turns every situation into a memorable, important moment in my life. You are selfless, kind and so inspiring. I don't know how to tell you how much you mean to are the person I want to tell everything but somethings i just can't.

Ever since the mistake i made all those years ago, i constantly feel judged by just about everyone on Akillian. You, Micro-ice Thran and Ahito saved me all those ago, not from Uma, but from myself. Since then i've been different. I've had to be. I've smiled my way through it and it was believable. My smile says, "I'm fine, thank you" I was no longer the little girl that lost her parents. I wanted to start fresh, be someone new.

But I was wrong. I thought that I could smile and nod my way through it, pretend like it would all be okay. I had a plan, I wanted to change who I was, create a life with someone new. Without the past, without the pain. Someone alive. But it's not that easy. The bad things stay with you. They follow you. You can't escape them, as much as you want to. All you can do is be ready for the good, so when it comes, you invite it in. Because you need it. I need it.

When we first met, you asked me why i chose the name Swan And i said i didn't know. I lied. The name Swan means purity or excellence. At the time that was me but now it's now. I'm sorry D'jok but i need time to find out who I am, not who people want me to be. I don't think ive ever truly known who Alexandria Swan is.

It has come time to say goodbye for now. After being inseparable for 12 years, we will have to live our lives miles from each other's doorsteps - spending everyday living different lives, with different friends. This goodbye is short. But this is a different kind of goodbye. It isn't a goodbye in the sense of until next time. It's more than that. This is the hardest goodbye.

This won't be forever, i'll come back, one day. It may be a few weeks, months, years. It depends on what i find, what i learn.

Look after Micro-ice for me, keep him out of trouble.

I love you Brother but for now, you need to let me go

With regrets,

Alex

When i finished reading the letter i had tears rolling down my face. I laid back on the bed and just cried. Shes gone, shes really gone...