Disclaimer: If you recognize it, I do not own it. I hope you enjoy. Sorry for the lack of updates. I will try to do better but I will not make promises. Also, I apologize for the first posting of this being one big block. I had fixed it twice and it was not corroporating. I hope this is better.
Harry woke up and instantly panicked, it took a minute for Sirius to calm her down and for her to remember where she was. Andromeda came in half an hour later and did some scans and gave her some potions She, however, would not take them without explanation. In the last weeks, she had many bad experiences with potions. She needed to know everything she was being given. Especially as most were not for the hospital but when she was allowed to leave. She was taking no chances. "Okay Harry, I got nutrient potions I want taken before every meal. Stomach soothing potions because it will be hard to eat right away," Andromeda said though they both knew it was also for expectant morning sickness. Harry was grateful she said nothing since they weren't alone. "I have a mild pain potion. I have a bruise balm, it cannot be used until tomorrow at the earliest because of some of the spells I cast. May I mention one of your injuries?" She nodded unsure if she should agree but choose to trust the healer wasn't going to be something she regretted. Andromeda continued once she was given approval, "Burn cream, for the burn on your shoulder needs to be put on three times a day but I cannot be there to do it and you cannot reach. Right now there is nothing else that can be done."
She nodded as Sirius took the potions, "You got these from a safe spot?" Sirius was worried since one death eater attack, the last war potions had been affected to target certain individuals. He was not risking that for his goddaughter.
"Mass potion supplies, randomly selected," She said understanding the paranoia, "Floo home,
do not apparate. Travelling will aggravate your injuries Harry so I am going to give you a pain reliever to take the edge off okay?"
She nodded taking the potion gratefully, she was so tired of being in pain but even more than that, she was tired of being in the hospital. She wanted to leave. "Can I go now?"
"Not yet. Sirius, she doesn't need to be interrogated and questioned, pressured in any way, she needs rest and understanding not to be overwhelmed, if I find out that you did otherwise or allowed your little group to do otherwise I will hex you until you can't move cousin," Andromeda stated. "She is a 15-year-old girl. I don't think your group fully understands that. She does not need the added stress."
Harry found herself liking the healer even more. If only she had faith in people taking the orders. "I promise," Sirius stated. "Tonks will have to get a statement but anytime Harry says done then it will be a very clear done."
"My w-wand," Harry asked. She had been so long without it, she felt naked and vulnerable. A feeling she despised now more then ever. Magic rule or not. She wanted her wand. "Where is my wand?"
Remus handed it over, "we kept it safe for you."
She held it tightly gripped in her hand as Andromeda went to leave the room only to see cameras and journalists. Sirius stepped out the door angrily, his goddaughter was hurt and they wanted a new story. "IF YOU ARE ALL NOT GONE IN FIVE SECONDS I WILL SHOW YOU EVER SPELL I LEARNT AS A BLACK," Sirius promised his voice echoing through the halls. "GET AWAY FROM HERE YOU VULTURES."
Tonks pushed her way through with Kingsley and a couple more Aurors getting everyone gone to allow Harry to slip through the floo system making sure there was no beetle following them just in case.
Harry nearly backed herself into a corner seeing the entire order present excluding the two still at Saint Mungos. She glared slightly looking to Sirius. "I did not tell them," Sirius stated annoyed, he wanted her relaxed and this was not relaxing. "Why don't I take you up to your room, I got you your own room this time is that okay?"
She nodded relieved as Sirius had to help her up the steps and to her room. "There is a bathroom attached to this room but you have to share with some others. Breakfast will be soon..." There was Remus shouting down the steps that could be heard from her room causing her eyes to widen and Sirius's speech to falter. "And Remus is telling them off for all surrounding you."
"Okay," Harry said nodding. She never heard the mild-mannered professor so angry before. "I think I'll get changed though. I'm kind of cold."
"Okay come down whenever you are ready and there will be no one asking you anything then," Sirius said not sure what to do with himself.
Harry tried to give him a smile but it turned into more of a grimace. He left a few minutes later and she locked the door giving herself a breather. She quickly got changed into a sweater and jeans not having the energy to do much more.
Having survived torture worse then she had ever imagined she knew she could do this but she didn't want to. Going down and having them all watch her with pity, pitying her before they even knew what had happened was not something she thought she could deal with.
She made it half-way down when she almost literally ran into the twins. "Hey Harry," they said both giving her a small hug. "Ready to face the masses,"
She tried to smile but just couldn't. "Yeah."
'So no," Fred said. "Want to hear about our prank shop?"
"It is set to open in August."
'We needed something to keep us busy."
"And being in Diagon Alley allowed us to spy on people."
"Not that the order knew our reasonings for that," They said both grinning.
"Mom would have a coronary."
"It is going to be in Diagon Alley and it is going to be bloody brilliant."
They both walked down with her and she couldn't help but calm slightly hearing the twins talk randomly about inane details describing the shop and pranks as if nothing had changed.
The random worried looks showed that it had or the fact that when she nearly lost her balance when she was hit with a tremor they caught her before she even had a chance to fall. Still, she appreciated the effort and it made going down to the table easier.
She nearly turned around seeing everyone look up when she entered but the twins just popped into a story about pranking Sirius or rather THE PADFOOT OF THE MARAUDERS. She took a seat across from them beside Sirius as everyone else was silent but the twins who kept talking.
"Boys she doesn't want to hear that right now," Molly growled them.
"Did you get Moony too," She asked deciding that for now they had it right and she was going to act as if nothing had happened. She knew it did. The screaming pain of her entire body made her aware of that but for now, to stay sane she was taking the twins approach.
Fred gave her a grin, "got him with a rubber chicken wand," Fred said proudly.
"It was brilliant baby sister."
"Got a few more planned too."
"Got to finish testing before we open shop."
Harry's hair shifted revealing the scar over her face. Molly gasped dropping the platter she was carrying in. Harry instantly fixed her hair in front of the scars. "Oh deary," Molly said going to give her a hug but Sirius stopped her.
"Andys orders, no hugs unless she okays it and they have to be very careful," Sirius stated giving everyone a clear warning look.
Harry wrapped her arms around herself, "I'm fine," she lied and everyone knew she was lying but they said nothing to it. It was very clear that she was not okay. "But no hugs right now. My arm hurts."
"Okay so did we tell you we got Snape," Fred asked as Molly brought out food. His voice had begun as hesitant but he quickly returned to the carefree Fred as he asked. She gave him a grateful look. As did Sirius.
Harry took her potions Sirius handed her before getting some eggs. The stomach soother however clearly did not have time to work since as she smelled the food, her stomach began turning., Still, she took a bite of scrambled eggs only for her stomach to flip over completely. She immediately rushed from the table and Sirius ran after her and found her gagging in the bathroom. He grabbed her hair as she threw up the potions she just drank.
He rubbed her back as she spat in the toilet. "What happened," He asked worriedly.
"Stomachs not good, " She said not adding that she had horrid morning sickness for the last week or so. She decided to let him draw his own conclusions. Anything was better than the truth.
She rinsed out her mouth in the sink and took a breather. "Maybe just toast," She offered. She really couldn't stomach anything but she had been so hungry for so long she knew she needed to eat rather she wanted to or not.
He nodded as she went back down to the dining room ignoring everyone's looks as she pushed away from her plate and picked up a piece of plain toast hoping to keep it down. When she did, she wished that she had not eaten it since Dumbledore, Tonks and Kingsley arrived. They'd want answers and she wasn't sure she could stomach giving them.
"Ooh breakfast," Tonks said stumbling but Remus caught her. "Scaring off hoards of reporters is an easy way to work up an appetite. We will get to furthering your trauma by a big scary interview after I eat. Those were words straight from my mums mouth. She likes you by the way. Promised to tan my hide like I was a little girl again if I upset you enough to cause a set back in healing or even just make you cry so there will be no set-backs and no tears because I am a grown woman and I think she will do it."
Harry couldn't help but smile slightly, "I like your mom. She's pretty awesome," Harry decided. "For someone who looks a bit like B-Bellatrix. I don't think she'd take orders from anyone."
"Especially not my dad," Tonks said with a laugh and she barely faltered even once catching sight of the new scars on her face. "No my mother didn't even listen to her parents, a good thing too, because they tried to marry her off to Lestrange but she ran away and married a muggleborn Hufflepuff. Seeing what her sisters turned into, I say she made the right choice."
Harry nodded, "Yeah, she's really nothing like Trixie."
Fred choked on his bacon as did Tonks and they had to be patted on the back while George did a near perfect spit take getting juice all over Sirius. "Trixie," Sirius choked casting a banishing charm.
"Drove her nuts," Harry offered. "She absolutely loathed being called t-trixie. Always made her lose control."
"So of course you called her it," George said knowingly. "Damn it Harry really?"
"R-Rudolph the r-red nosed reindeer, R-rabbi, Trixie, Tom, Shakespeare, you get amusement when you can," Harry pointed out. "Pissing them off brought me buckets full of amusement."
Tonks looked at her in horror which was matched by nearly everyone in the room,, "While you were there, didn't pissing them off make them worse?"
Harry shrugged, "Usually but it was still fun while it happened. The Lestrange brothers were especially amusing to piss off. Rabi took it well, R-Rudolph not so much. Rabi even joined me mocking his brother some times."
Everyone looked at her in horror but she was there and she couldn't hide that as much as she liked to. She had not expected them to take her statement so badly. Before long breakfast was cleared away and the more necessary members of the order were present. What pissed her off, even more, they started in on her immediately with a patronizing tone.
"My dear, I'm afraid you need to tell us what happened, I know this is a difficult subject but we need to know how much you told them so the order can prepare."
Molly tried to usher out Ron, Hermione, Ginny, and the twins but they were fighting with her.
"Stop," Harry said loud enough to make her stop. "You r-r-realise they w-would hear everything from me right," Harry stuttered. "Its none of the orders b-b-b-business w-what happened. Order d-d-d-d-d-d-...Fuck," She yelled annoyed with herself for the stutter she couldn't control. Talking should not be this difficult.
"Take a breath," Sirius said realizing exactly how she got the stutter. severe cruciatus exposure. To have enough that she had a stutter was horrifying. How many times could they have put her under it to cause that damage?
She took a breath realizing that being emotional made it so much worse. She hadn't spoken much during the last week as she had decided to keep her trap shut for escape purposes so she never realized how hard it was with the stutter she may have for the rest of her life, "The order d-d-doesn't have anything to d-do with me. It is none of there b-b-business what happened to me. I am not a member and w-w-want nothing to do with them," Harry stated.
"My dear," Dumbledore said.
"Not your anything. I st-still haven't forgiven you f-f-for last term. You had no right Dumbledore."
"It seems I was right to now he has the full prophecy," Dumbledore stated. "I regret informing you now."
Harry laughed bitterly, it was her life on the line not his but all he cared about was his precious plans, "D-d-d-do you think I'd h-have a f-f-fucking cruciatus s-stutter if I talked," Harry demanded angrily. "When he asked I told him to fuck off because he was a red-eyed, noseless ugly son of a muggle and not even a nose job could make him less fu-fucking ugly. I asked him if he v-v-visited daddy's grave again or if he was too ashamed to be the son of a muggle."
"And his response," Fred asked hesitantly. He really didn't want to know but if she said he got no answer than he got no answer. That implied he had changed course at that which would never be good.
"Perhaps I shell allow Bellatrix to change your mind," Harry said coldly remembering the words and then the pain that followed. This got flinches throughout the order who remembered what Bellatrix and the Lestrange brothers had done to get information out of people in the past.
"If you had talked it is understandable but we need to know," Dumbledore stated.
"Albus," Sirius warned.
Harry glared at the headmaster, "They br-broke b-both my legs, every toe, and finger, both arms and n-nearly every r-rib then healed them good as new and when that didn't work they crucio'd me for hours until they said they could do no more without sending me over the edge s-s-s-o I couldn't t-t-talk. Then when that again didn't work, Bellatrix brought out her kn-n-n-nives." She shifted her hair revealing the recently acquired scars on her face. seeing them fully had many members gasp in shock. "If I had f-f-f-fucken t-t-told th-the pr-prophecy w-w-would I be alive," Harry demanded as they all looked at her with complete horror. "Af-after a-about t-t-two weeks they decided to just torture me f-f-for fun and t-t-to keep m-me complacent because I refused to talk. D-d-don't fucking patronize me."
No one told her to watch her attitude or respect the headmaster, they were too busy looking at her in complete horror about what she revealed. "Look this is done," Sirius said. "You are not interrogating her. She has been through enough. Back off and leave her be."
"Sirius, I just need to ask a few questions," Tonks stated. "Not for the order, for the Auror force. Harry everyone else can go."
"Just ask, I'm t-t-tired," she stated.
"Do you know where you were?"
"Not a clue."
"Can you name everyone you saw while there?"
"R-R-Rodolphus Lestrange, R-Rabasten Lestrange, Bellatrix Lestrange, T-t-tom Marvolo R-riddle, Augustus R-R-Rookwood," she closed her eyes trying to think. "Peter Pettigrew. Also a werewolf, I saw him quite a few times. I think they c-c-called him Fenrir. Those are the only names I know. I thought I heard Malfoy Sr there but I'm n-n-not sure. Everyone else wore masks. Mostly they k-k-kept it to the Lestrange's, R-Rookwood, R-Riddle, and Pettigrew. I guess to keep the chance of anyone betraying them and helping me escape. The only time I saw any others they were all in masks and it was more t-t-to make it a show."
"How did you escape," Tonks asked.
Harry closed her eyes. She didn't like being reminded of there. The taunting. The ridicule they had put at her. In the end, it was the taunting and mockery that got her free but it still hurt to remember and each time she closed her eyes, it was as if she was back there., "Bellatrix left her knife just slightly out of my reach," Harry explained. "Sort of as a taunt. I managed to get it and cut what was binding me. I waited until she came in because she left the door open. I think That she did it so people could hear me scream." There were flinches from everyone but Harry kept her eyes closed so as not to see their expressions. "I stabbed her in the shoulder catching her off guard. I stabbed her again in the chest and stole her wand. It worked okay for me. Not as good as my own but I could use it. I sent a hex, it should have killed them but it wasn't my wand and it only sent the Lestrange bothers flying. I ran through the manner, meeting a few others but I managed to get outside to where the brooms were stored and got on one. I got away, I could out-fly them even injured. I ended up getting really lost...I flew until I found a village and summoned the day bus, I think I had flown all night and a good chunk of the day, it was evening I think. They drove me to Mungos. I passed out shortly after getting there."
"I am going to take a guess and say you don't want to describe what happened, seeing how everyone mentioned already has an order for the dementor kiss, it won't really matter for your case," Tonks stated. "I'll guess that's all you want to say."
"Very much so," Harry returned.
"All right then," Tonks agreed, she refused to argue with her on that. She was a child who had just faced something most grown adults wouldn't be able to get past. The least they could do is not harass her on it. "Then we are done because my mother is a terrifying person. Do you need anything, calming drought maybe,"
"No but I think S-Sirius does," Harry said seeing how shaken both remaining Marauders were over what she had revealed which was truly the bare minimum of her experiences. "Or R-Remus because he's going to break the table."
Sirius had his hands clenched tightly, it was easy to see he wanted to kill someone but they weren't there. Remus was in no better shape as were the majority of her friends., "I'd like to go upstairs now. I'm really tired," She said not wanting to be near the order any longer.
Sirius nodded fussing over her as she went. The others were near immediately dismissed but as soon as they were out, they found Harry waiting. "Extendable ears," She asked in a whisper."
"We have something better," Fred said leading her to their room. "They wouldn't tell us anything. I mean we were all your friends but they kept us completely in the dark so we had to find out some way," he said pulling out a mirror, the image was blurry but the sound was clear. "To mix what we knew with what they knew. We figured out quickly you weren't at the usual spots so we had to get creative."
"What did they do to f-find me," Harry asked honestly wondering as they listened in as Sirius completely lost it at the order for making her uncomfortable. She wanted to know whether or not they did anything. The death eaters had taunted her with the fact that they weren't even looking, how much of it was true she did not know.
George scowled clearly not happy with their actions, "well, they claim to be doing everything possible but what we found it was mostly covering their arses about how he now had the prophecy. We knew you were alive, otherwise, they'd have made sure we all knew sort of as a message."
'As crude as that sounds. They were looking, Sirius was willing to torture every Slytherin he found for information but no one seemed to know."
"They k-kept me pr-pretty isolated for most of the time," Harry admitted. "I don't think they let your average death eater near me. It was mostly the inner circle."
"No Snape," Fred said. "Or so he claimed. Apparently, he wasn't trusted enough."
Harry thought about all the voices, "no he was n-n-never there as far as I know."
The order was now arguing, some claimed they needed more information from her whether she was ready or not. This, of course, pissed off Sirius who was yelling that she was a child not a tool for this war and they could shove their opinion up their ass. Clearly, they were going nowhere but it did give Harry a clear idea of who was out for her and who was out for the order.
"Did they show any signs of even getting close," Harry asked. She had been desperate to be saved but eventually gave up hope of it ever happening. Still, it was something she wondered desperately about.
By the look the others gave her, it was clear no one had gotten even close. "We had the DA searching everywhere, for any sign of information," Hermione stated.
"How bad was everyone injured," Harry asked worriedly. "I remember Ne-Nev getting t-t-t-tossed and colin, I remember him getting hexed."
"Some injuries, cruciate damage, cutting curses, blasting hexes. No Hogwarts deaths or permanent injuries," Hermione stated. "Neville was the worst as was that first year you saved. There were a couple of others but nothing needing more than a night or two in Mungo's."
Harry had to ask, "were they really looking or did they expect me to just fall into their laps?"
"Well seeing as you did, it is not such a strange thought now," George stated.
"But do you want our honest opinion."
'No I want you to lie," Harry returned.
"They did everything possible," George lied, that was what she was afraid of. Experience at Hogwarts showed her that the adults were never there when needed and that they weren't able to be depended on. "If you want the lie."
"Truthfully, I think the majority thought you'd fall into their laps or it was already too late," Fred said bluntly.
"Cept Sirius and Remus. They literally against Dumbledores will went to the ward lines of every suspected death eater trying to hear something or find your scent."
"Those he could, he got through. He was also in contact with the Auror's who were searching."
"They spent most of their time in Knockturn and truth be told, I heard of a couple of minor death eaters going missing and I overheard Remus talking about obliviating someone they questioned."
"I highly doubt the questioning was ministry approved."
"Quite a few of them did a half ass job, truthfully Dumbledore included."
"He tried to get Sirius to stop what he was doing and made out that he had everything under control but seeing as you escaped on your own I don't buy it."
"Also when we told him very clearly he wasn't doing shit all we are not welcome in the order but apparently dad says that we were just upset when we told him to fuck off."
"Ron did as well."
"Hermione did the same in a Hermione-ish way."
"I don't think the order has realized that she called him useless and ineffective and lacking any common sense since she said it so diplomatically."
"That's a complete 'Fuck You' from Hermoinee."
Harry stopped them though it was slightly heartwarming to find out Hermione told off the headmaster in any way seeing as she was a very strong supporter of him. Same with Ron. What the twins were saying as the five of them, Ginny included were all backing her over the order. Would that change when they knew what happened? Would it change when they saw her scars or the fact that she was pregnant?, "So Sirius and R-Remus were looking for me and Dumbledore was letting me r-rot. No way only two people could find me even if it was Sirius."
Ron glared at her, "Why two people," He demanded. "Did you think any of us wouldn't fight tooth and nail to get you back Harry. Your practically my sister and have been since the first year. We'd never give up on you. Until we saw a body we weren't going to stop looking."
"Hell if we saw a body we would still think somehow you managed to get away because honestly if a basilisk couldn't kill you a group of death eaters sure as hell couldn't," Ginny added.
"We've been searching," Hermione stated needing to get her to say in things as well, "They got Ron Ginny and me on lockdown here but not the twins. We are the base of the DA."
Fred cleared his throat, "if we may continue," He requested as the other three rolled there eyes. "Thank you, as George and I were explaining before we were so rudely interrupted. We've been running our own searches."
"Susan has been questioning her aunt about what the Aurors knew, she couldn't get much but well, she eavesdropped on a lot of floo calls and visits with other Aurors."
"Oliver lived near a death eater manor and made to fly through the wards and cast a tracking charm with a bit of your hair we knicked. Slightly dark but he said he'd cast an unforgivable if it meant getting you back. He's also friends with a Slytherin who likely wears the mark or will eventually be a death eater but not by choice and has been asking questions and he has even been hinting at potentially getting the mark if he thought it would do anything but his friend said he'd do some looking, got nothing because he was a son of a minor death eater, not an inner circle member, he's not really important enough."
"We've been in the alley and Knockturn turning over rocks there legally and illegally."
"While Alberforth Dumbledore is an order member, he's not a very loyal one overall. He doesn't get on with Albus Dumbledore despite being brothers. He has been keeping an ear out and Lee took a summer job there to talk to his less appropriate clientele."
"Alicia also did something similar but it was more...flirty then working to see if she could seduce out any rumors, we didn't get where you were but we did get a better idea of where you were not."
"Which is a serious sacrifice on her part if you've seen some of them."
"Hermione and Ron have been running interference and Ginny's letters to her 'boyfriend' are also more news than not."
"Some of our pureblooded members have been going to extremes. Fay Dunbar is related to the Notts and when visiting her cousins she went down to check the dungeons in the manor on an off chance that you were there. She has also been asking questions but was warned off of it, of course, that won't stop a Gryffindor. Again no takers or even getting close but it was a very valid attempt at locating you."
"Lunas also been passing coded messages to the DA through the quibbler but mostly whether or not there is news."
"We were looking," The twins finished together. "All of us were doing everything possible to find you, most of the DA involved in looking were risking their own necks to do so. Going where they really shouldn't have which meant a lot of Knockturn alley visits to listen in at shops and bars. If anyone had said anything we would have heard but they were keeping it so quiet most of the death eaters didn't know where you were and if they did they weren't even whispering about it."
"It doesn't make the fact that we didn't get you back any better but Harry, we all tried."
Harry looked at them shocked. She couldn't believe what she had just heard. They had really done all that? Even those she was barely acquainted with had risked so much to find her.
"Merlin you...wh-what?"
"It wasn't good enough," Fred stated, "But 6 weeks when most of you were not even of age is difficult. If we had had more time or had set it up before you were taken we would have had a better chance but we tried."
"We haven't had the last year building contacts but if anything were to happen again, we'd have a good going on it," George said.
Harry pulled them both into a hug before doing the same to the other three, "th-thank you,"
Harry said unable to believe what she was hearing. "You all...I can't b-believe everyone...merlin, you all really did that for m-me?"
"Neville was the worse," Ron stated. "I mean he was trying to get everywhere, apparently he snuck out of his house and went to Knockturn a lot, we mostly made sure no one under age went down there looking for answers but...well you try to stop Neville and Luna."
Harry chewed lightly on her lower lip about to say something but the meeting downstairs ended before she could. They quickly scrambled so it wasn't as if they were listening in anymore. "Harry Andy is here," Sirius stated.
Harry went to her room which but stopped by the twins, "no listening c-ch-charms." She did not want them to know. She needed privacy.
"Use our room," Fred stated, "We run sweeps and its protected."
Harry brought Andy to the twin's room as they locked it down and she cast a mofliate barrier before doing some work on the injuries and talking to the 15-year-old. Harry however was barely listening. her mind on what she just found out. So many taking risks for her. She could barely believe it. It wasn't the adults which truly was not a surprise but so many from Hogwarts. It also worried her. Would they stand by her if they knew of the child she carried?