A/U: thanks for reading guys! This is my first story! reviews are appreciated. also, and anything thats in bold text will be text messages between characters
To Jay, from Livi
Merry Christmas mr. grinch! Enjoy the day with everyone! Give them my best.
To Livi, from Jay
Merry Christmas Cindy Lou Who! Aren't you coming to Will's?
To Jay, from Livi
I'm not feeling up to it, have fun tho.
Bummed, Jay still went to Will's, with a smile on his face and tons of presents for Owen. Jay put all the presents by the tree and Owen came running out of his room.
"Hi Uncle Jay!"
"Hi buddy. I think you're dressed up for the wrong holiday."
The little boy laughed.
"Santa brought me this! I told him I want to be a police officer just like my uncle."
"I'm sure mom and dad loved hearing that."
"Where's Aunt Olivia?"
Owen had recently started calling her that. He had just said it out of the blue one day, catching them all off guard. Olivia wrapped the little boy in a hug and covered his face with kisses.
"She wasn't feeling good."
Owen pouted.
"I wanted to show her my police stuff. She said she loves police officers, they're her favorite."
"Did she now?"
"Mhm, police officers are her favorite thing in the world."
"I don't know about that. she does love Starbucks and Sephora." Jay laughed.
The afternoon and evening went nicely. Owen loved all his presents. Especially his police lego set. Jay was sitting next to him on the floor after all the presents had been opened and the mess or wrapping paper cleaned up, playing with the legos.
"Can you and Aunt Olivia have a baby?"
Everyone looked at Owen.
"Not really buddy. Her and I are just good friends."
"I just want someone to play legos with."
"Then you should ask mom and dad for a baby brother or sister."
"I didn't say i wanted them to stay with me," he said in a 'duh' tone, "Just someone to play legos with."
"Well you'll always have me."
"Yeah, I guess you're alright."
Jay ruffled his hair before standing to go make a cup of coffee.
"Kid has a point." Will said.
Jay rolled his eyes.
"Don't start Will"
"I'm just saying." He said with his hands up.
"Well don't."
"I mean, come on, that girl adores you."
Jay put his coffee down.
"And I adore her just as much. We're just friends. Why does everyone question that?"
"Because everyone can see how you look at each other Jay! No friends act the way you do. Friends don't hold hands or cuddle in bed or half the other things you do."
"We're comfortable with one another."
"One day, one day the two of you will finally realize how much you love each other, and I can't wait to say I told you so."
It was the middle of the night and all Jay could think about was Olivia
To Olivia from Jay
Did you eat?
To Jay from Olivia
It's 2am Jay, go to sleep
To Olivia from Jay
I can't
To Jay from Olivia
Nightmares or anxiety
She'd witnessed a few of his episodes or meltdowns or whatever you want to call them. The first time it happened, she quickly learned what worked and what didn't and how to calm him down.
To Olivia from Jay
Little bit of both I guess
To Jay from Olivia
I'll unlock the front door.
Jay sighed before getting out of bed. he knew if he didn't got to Olivia's, he wouldn't make it to work on time or at all. He tossed on a pair of joggers and a CPD hoodie . He grabbed his clothes and everything he would need for shift and went to Olivia's house.
Jay walked in and locked the door behind him. The house smelt like her favorite candle, toasted almond macaroon, which she had also made a permanent fixture at Jay's place. Jay kicked off his shoes and went upstairs to her bedroom. She was curled up under the covers on one side of the California king bed. Jay took off his sweatshirt and gently climbed into bed. Feeling the bed dip, Olivia rolled over and opened her eyes. She kissed his forehead before resting her forehead against his, taking his hand in hers and closing her eyes.
"You're hearts beating so fast, you need to calm down."
Her voice was warm, soft, comforting.
"Remember where you are Jay. Laying in bed, with your best friend, safe and warm, all cozy."
Jay held her a little tighter.
"You gotta push past this. What happened over seas or here in Chicago, it's done. You're moving forward, you're stronger now."
It took longer than usual, but he got past it, whatever had been bothering him. He'd fallen asleep around 3:30 in the morning, but Olivia laid awake next to him, just watching, just in case something happened. He trusted her to see his vulnerable side, and that made her feel good. He'd been handling it pretty well the last couple years but every now and then a bad case, or bad memory with trigger something for him.
"Do you have to work today?"
He asked the next morning when the were sitting in the kitchen having coffee.
"No, I have the next two days off. What about you?"
Jay shot her a look and she laughed.
"How could I forget, there are no holidays when fighting crime."
"Very funny, smart ass. I've got to go. See you later?"
"Eh, maybe." She smirked.