A/U: hope you guys are all enjoying the story so far! I was so super nervous to post this story and give it a go, but i'm so super grateful you all take the time to read it

She looked like a movie star, sitting in the kitchen with the girls chatting away, all dolled up and in her blue robe that reminded him of last night. Olivia spotted Jay and her face lit up. No one had ever looked at him the way she does. Even before she had lost a part of her memory, she looked at Jay like he was the sun, the moon and the stars in her world, and he had always taken it for granted, but not anymore. He was head over heels for her. She helped the girls pack up their things, and walked them all to the front door.

"Hi." She said wrapping her arms around him.

"Sorry I spilled the beans."

"I'm pretty sure they knew the second I wobbled into the kitchen."

"One of my many talents as a sex god."

She shoved him.

"You were listening?!"

He shrugged.

"Look, about this morning, when we...ya know."

"Yeah?"

"All it takes is one time."

She knew what he meant.

"Jay, It'll be fine."

"Yeah, but what if-"

She stopped him.

"Then we'll figure it out."

He kissed her.

"And for the record, I would have babies with you." She said.

"I don't know." He said, hesitantly.

She stepped back and raised an eyebrow.

"Little halsteads or with me?"

He didn't answer and there was awkward silence.

"Right, got it."

"Liv, wait-"

"We should get dressed, the car will be here soon."

She was standing in her large walk in closet when he found her sometime later. She was nervously adjusting her whole outfit. Hair, jewelry, her dress, turning every which way to look at herself in the full length lit mirror. Her nervous energy radiated off of her like a space heater.

"You look beautiful."

She jumped at the sound of his voice.

"Jesus Jay, would you stop that."

"I didn't mean to scare you."

Her black high neck dress fit her form and came to her mid thigh. There was a piece of fabric on her side that ribboned to the bottom of her dress to accent her curves. Rose gold metallic pumps adorned her feet.

"Ravishing." He said.

"You went with the velvet jacket."

She walked over and straightened his tie.

"You said you like it better than the other one."

"I also like how you went with the dark blue, but you look good in everything."

She turned to the mirror again. He wrapped his arms around her from behind.

"Stop fussing."

"I can't help it. I'm so anxious."

"We don't have to go if you're not comfortable."

She shook her head.

"Come on, lets go have fun."

Olivia was breezing by the table toward the bar with Hailey and Kim. She grabbed Jay's hand, tugging him out of his seat.

"Shots, then dancing."

"Shots yes, dancing no." He said.

"C'mon Jay, have a little fun."

"Oh I will later."

She rolled her eyes and downed the shot and Kim dragged her back to the dance floor, and Hank walked over to the bar.

"She doing alright?" He asked.

"Good days and bad days."

"What about you?"

Jay sighed.

"Sometimes I see the old her in the things she does, or the things she says. And then as quick as I see it, it's gone."

"That a problem for you? Because, son, I'm not sure you can walk away now."

"I don't know what I'm doing sarge."

"No one ever does, there's no rule book." Hank put his hand on Jay's shoulder. "She's not Erin, Jay, she's different. She's good for you."

Jay watched her laugh and dance and sing along to the music. She was having a blast. She had been so nervous because she wanted to fit in, represent him well, to be good enough. But that's the thing, she was already all those and see didn't see it. In fact she was more than good enough. Maybe too good for him. She had filled all the voids that Erin made when she walked away. When Erin first left, Olivia had stepped up to pick up all his broken pieces and put him back together even though they barely knew each other. Came and got him when he was smashed at the bar, stopped many fights when he was about to beat somebody's face in. Took time off of work to help him move back into his place, even did it on her own when he had to work or when he couldn't do it himself without losing it.

Maybe he was really never meant to be with Erin. He was starting to believe that things happen for a reason. Maybe Erin leaving, Olivia losing her memory, it was all meant for him, a sign to appreciate Olivia, realize what was standing in front of him. The one person who really grounded him. Jay put down his drink and made his way to the dance floor.

"Has hell frozen over!" She joked.

"Zip it Livi"

She laughed.

"You're such a grinch sometimes, lighten up, have a good time."

His jaw dropped a little.

"What?" She asked.

"Nothing...actually, wanna get out of here? Go for a ride?"

"A ride?"

"Yeah, let's take the bike out."

She agreed, and they went home and changed. She stood in the driveway and stared at the purple helmet in her hands.

"You good?" He asked, climbing onto the bike.

"I'm kinda scared, I've never been on one before. What if I fall off?"

"You won't fall, I promise. We used to take the bike out all the time. If you don't like it, we'll stop and I'll never make you do it again."

"You promise?"

"I swear it."

"Okay, I'll try."

"Hold tight, you ready?"

Squeezed his middle.

"Let's go."