Tsunade stepped out of the shower with her hair soaking wet and her naked body covered with a warm, white towel. She walked over to the mirror to take in her appearance and sighed deeply as she remembered the reason why she was getting ready. It was almost time to go out to dinner with her old friend Jiraiya and she couldn't help but feel nervous and unsure of herself. She hasn't seen the man in four years so she knew that conversation would not flow freely between them. Four years is a long time and within that time span, people change, sometimes for the better and other times for the worse. She wasn't sure if she had changed for the better or the worse. She spent those four years trying to survive with limited funds and that alone made her stronger but she had yet to apologize to Jiraiya so she still felt like the same person she was four years ago. Maybe Jiraiya changed. Maybe he was more mature and truly wasn't interested in reestablishing their friendship. Perhaps he just wanted to take her out to dinner to say thank you and nothing more. Whatever his reasons were, she couldn't refuse him. She refused him enough in her lifetime and she sure as hell wasn't going to refuse him again. He wanted them to sit down to a simple dinner and she didn't see the harm in that. The major reason for her anxiety was the fact that after all these years she still felt guilty for using him.
She retrieved an extra towel from the towel rack beside the mirror and ran it through her tangled blonde hair. She ran it through her hair in a continuous motion until her hair was no longer soaking wet but semi-dry. She walked out of the bathroom and went over to her wardrobe to choose her clothes for the evening. She took out her usual gray kimono style top, navy blue three quarter pants, navy blue obi, and green jacket. She put her clothes on and then ran a brush through her hair to untangle all the knots in order to leave her hair smooth and knot free. Her hair was then tied into her usual loose ponytails. She applied her everyday light pink lipstick and some light eye makeup. Afterwards she put her black heels on her feet and walked into the living room to wait on Jiraiya to show up. Once in the living room she saw Shizune at the dining table sitting in front of a coloring book. She was coloring a drawing of the exterior of a rather large house. Her coloring was perfect as she stayed within the lines and it looked absolutely beautiful.
"That looks great Shizune." Tsunade complimented her while eyeing the drawing.
"Thank you Lady Tsunade." Shizune said before looking up at her mentor. She looked so beautiful and Shizune couldn't help but compliment her, "Lady Tsunade, you look so pretty."
"Really?" Tsunade asked as she looked down at what she was wearing, "I don't feel very pretty." She said softly, "Thanks anyway."
The truth was that Tsunade was beyond nervous about this dinner arrangement. What were they supposed to talk about? How was she going look him straight in the eye and not feel guilty? Oh why did she agree to this?
"Why don't you feel pretty?" Shizune wondered out loud.
"I don't know Shizune." Tsunade sighed and took a seat beside the ten year old, "Maybe agreeing to go out to dinner with Jiraiya was a mistake. Maybe I should cancel."
"Don't do that." Shizune said. Shizune wanted nothing more than for everything to go well on this outing. If Tsunade and Jiraiya could become friends again, that would mean that she didn't have to leave the village again. She just wanted to stay here and live a life that both her and Tsunade could enjoy without working down to the bone to get everything they need. They both deserved a better life than that.
"What am I supposed to talk about with the guy? It's going to be so awkward!"
"Talk about your genin days or something. Don't just cancel on him at the last minute. Just pretend as if nothing happened between you two."
Tsunade thought about it and realized that it would be unfair to him to cancel in such a short notice. Despite her anxiety and uncertainty, she knew she had to go to dinner with him. It was the right thing to do considering all the times she treated him like dirt and when she ruthlessly used him for his body without giving a thought to how it would affect him.
"Okay, okay. I won't cancel." Tsunade sighed.
"Great!" Shizune smiled.
"By the way." Tsunade started, "I didn't appreciate you running off like that earlier today. Where did you go anyway?"
Shizune was hoping that she could get away with it but she should have known better. She could never get away with anything under Tsunade's care, "I'm sorry for running away but I was so upset. I only want to stay here and you wouldn't listen but I know now that what I did was wrong and that I should follow anywhere you lead because you took me in out of the kindness of your heart. Please forgive me." She apologized, "I was with Lord Hokage. He took me to eat sweet dumplings."
"You were with Sarutobi sensei?"
Shizune nodded her head, "He explained to me that what I did was wrong."
"Well you're forgiven then. Just don't make it happen again. Understood?"
"Yes Lady Tsunade."
Suddenly there was a knock on the door and before Tsunade could get up to answer it, Shizune sprung into action and rushed to the door, "I'll get it!" She declared and looked through the peep hole of the door before opening it. On the other side stood Jiraiya. He looked extremely handsome and like Tsunade, he was wearing an expression of uncertainty on his face. Shizune smiled to herself and opened the door for him.
"Hi Master Jiraiya." She said and then embraced the rather large man, "It's so good to see you."
"Why hello Shizune. You've grown a lot since I last saw you." Jiraiya said noticing the obvious difference in her height. Before she was a little pip squeak but now she was growing into a tall, slender young lady.
"Yup, I'm ten years old now." Shizune boasted.
"Ten already? Wow time flies doesn't it." Jiraiya gasped finding it hard to believe that the little six year old orphan he met so long ago was now ten years old. He reached into his coat and pulled out a whole bar of chocolate and handed it to the raven haired girl, "This is for you."
Shizune accepted the chocolate and hugged him again, "Thank you Master Jiraiya!"
"You're welcome." He said and she pulled away from their hug, "Is Tsunade around?" He asked.
"Yes she is." Shizune smiled and took hold of his large hand, "Come on, I'll lead you to her."
The pair walked into the dining room where Tsunade was still seated at the table. When they walked in Tsunade immediately rose to her feet and nervously tucked a lock of her hair behind her ear, "Hello Jiraiya..."
"Hello Tsunade." He replied and nervously looked around the room, trying his best to avoid looking her straight in the eyes, "I like what you did to the place." He said, unsure of what else to say.
"I didn't do anything to the house." She said.
"Oh..." Jiraiya said, feeling like a complete idiot, "We'll it looks nice."
"Thanks..."
Tsunade wasn't sure if she should have invited him to sit down or offer him a beverage of some sort so she just stood there with her eyes focusing on the ground. Shizune could sense the awkwardness between the two and just wanted to cover her face with her palm.
"Perhaps we should get going then." Jiraiya finally said, unable to stand the awkwardness for another moment.
"Yes, we should." Tsunade agreed and turned to Shizune, "While I'm gone don't open the door for anybody, keep the windows and door closed at all times. Stay in your room and go to bed early okay."
"Okay." Shizune said while making a mental note of everything that Tsunade told her to do, "I'll be fine."
"Okay."
"Ready to go?" Jiraiya asked.
"Yes." Tsunade said and walked towards the door with Jiraiya following behind her.
"Have fun you two!" Shizune called after them. She silently hoped that everything would go well between them so that they could hopefully rekindle their relationship because she wanted nothing more than to remain in the Leaf Village.
Jiraiya and Tsunade walked to their destination side by side but it was as if they were a million miles away from each other. Tsunade's arms were wrapped around her body and Jiraiya's hands were buried deep in his pockets and they remained that way as they continued to walk in absolute silence. Both were lost in their own thoughts and uncertain about what to say to each other. Jiraiya was the one who suggested that they have this dinner because he wanted to patch up their broken bond but so far, he wasn't doing a good job. She wasn't helping the situation either because she still felt like a horrible person. Oh how awkward everything was.
They finally arrived at the restaurant of Jiraiya's choice and much to their dismay, the place was empty with the exception of a couple sitting in the back and a family of four sitting up front. Without the noise from a busy restaurant, the silence between them would only become even more awkward than before. They were quickly seated and handed menus then given a few moments to look over the food options and decide on their meal for the evening. Tsunade immediately looked down on her menu and scanned each and every page slowly in an attempt to avoid conversation with him and he did the same. They stayed like that until Jiraiya looked up at her and broke the deafening silence.
"So have you decided on what you would like to eat?" He questioned.
She still didn't look up at him but answered him nevertheless, "I'll just have the Caesar Salad and a glass of water."
"That's it?"
She didn't say anything but simply nodded her head to indicate that a salad and a glass of water was indeed all she wanted to consume that evening. For some reason she didn't have much of an appetite. There were so many things that she wanted to tell him. She wanted to tell him about the hard life that she struggled through when she left the village and share the excitement she felt over getting a new job. She even wanted to tell him about Shizune's progress as a medical ninja. She didn't know why but she felt the desire to share all of this with him but for some reason, she couldn't allow herself to utter even a single word to him. Did her guilt overpower her and force her into silence?
Jiraiya waved his hand in the air and the waitress who seated them earlier arrived at their table to take their order.
"I'll have the sirloin steak and some wine and my fri- umm, the lady here will have the Caesar salad and a glass of water." He ordered and the waitress went to place their order after taking back the menus that she distributed to them when they walked in. Tsunade no longer had her reading material so she was reduced to allowing her eyes to wander all around the room. Jiraiya wasn't sure if he should call Tsunade his friend. What were they? He didn't know anymore.
Jiraiya nervously played with his fingers while Tsunade continued to look around the room. It was silent, so silent that one could hear a pin drop to the floor. So this is what their relationship has come to. Silence and nothing more. Jiraiya was the one who invited her out so he should have initiated conversation and yet he just sat there like a mute, playing with his fingers as if he had nothing better to do. He was the man and should act like one so he pushed his nervousness aside and engaged her in conversation, "Thanks for saving my life again."
Tsunade stopped looking around the room and finally looked up at him. She felt horrible. He shouldn't be thanking her. She saved him because it was the right thing to do and nothing more but why did she feel as if her world would come crashing down on her if he died? Oh why did he have to thank her?
"Don't thank me." She said softly, "I saved you because it was the humane thing to do. Plus, Sarutobi sensei didn't want his favorite student to die so he sent for me."
"He sent for you?" He questioned her. He had no idea that Sarutobi asked Tsunade to come to the village to save his life.
"That's what I just said. I had no way of knowing that you were on death's door so if Sarutobi sensei didn't inform me I would have never known."
It filled his heart with joy to know that Sarutobi cared about him so much that he took a long shot and decided to call for Tsunade. There was no guarantee that she would come and yet she did. But why? Why did she go out of her way to run to his rescue after all that they've been through. This question boggled his mind and left him hungry for an answer, "You could have ignored him and yet you decided to come. Why? Why did you come here to save my life?"
Tsunade's heart pounded in her chest when she heard his question. He asked her this before. Why did he want to hear her answer again?, "I told you why already."
"You did?"
She nodded her head.
"I forgot." He said with all honesty in his voice, "Tell me again."
She looked up at him with pleading eyes that silently told him not to force her to answer him. He looked deep into her honey eyes and got the message. He didn't say another word and neither did she but thankfully their meal came and they occupied themselves by eating their food.
Jiraiya devoured his meat as if he hasn't eaten in days while Tsunade ate her salad slowly. She was happy that she didn't have to tell Jiraiya that she cared about him again because as much as she wanted to deny it, it was the truth and with that truth came intense feelings that she so wished to ignore. She didn't want to analyze those feelings because she was afraid of the answer hidden among them. What if she found out that she loved him? That would only result in disaster because she knew in her heart that she wouldn't be able to leave him. If she fell in love with him and they started a relationship, it would only leave both of them hurt. They were just two people who weren't meant to be together.
She tried to prolong the eating of her meal but hunger got the best of her and she ended up eating the entire salad a lot faster than she expected. It was all gone now and Jiraiya was finished with his meal as well. She had nothing to do now but talk to him again.
"So... I wonder where Orochimaru is now." She said, knowing that it was probably a bad idea to bring up their now evil teammate but she was desperate and had nothing else to talk about.
"Who knows." He said sadly. Obviously he was still upset over losing his friend to the darkness but he understood that really and truly there was nothing he could have done to prevent it, "Who knew that our childhood friend would turn out to be so evil?"
"I sure as hell didn't." Tsunade stated, "We were always the overachievers while you were the underdog so we hung out when you had to stay behind to train more. We even went on missions together while you were off in Mount Myoboku training. He was always quiet and unattached but he was like a brother to me. I may not show it but it hurts to know that he's now our enemy. We knew him the best, he was our teammate and he went and betrayed us all."
"He was my best friend, the brother I never had and to think that he almost killed me..." He said before trailing off to get lost in the memories of his friendship with Orochimaru up to the moment when he drew his blade and stabbed him mercilessly.
Tsunade could see the hurt in his eyes so against her better judgement and the voice inside her head telling her to keep her distance from him, she extended her arm and placed her hand over his hand that was squeezed into a fist, "At least we have happy memories of him." She said in order to reassure him, "He may be bad now but we will always hold those happy memories in our hearts and that's what matters. Who knows how our relationship with him will change from now on but our memories of him, nothing can change that."
Somehow Tsunade's words made him feel better. He placed his free hand over her hand that was covering his fist. He gently stroked her hand with his thumb and said, "Thank you Tsunade."
She pulled her hand away and tried to conceal the blush that rose to her cheeks. What was this that she was feeling? She never blushed around Jiraiya and yet here she was blushing like a love sick teenager. Furthermore, she thought that he looked so handsome and smelled amazing. It was a masculine smell that made her become weak at the knees. Why was she feeling so attracted to him? What was going on with her?
"So are you done eating?" He asked.
She looked down at her plate and saw that it was empty. It was pretty obvious that she was done but she figured that he just asked in order to keep their conversation flowing, "Yeah I'm done."
"Great." He replied and called the waitress over to their table again. She took the empty plates away from the table and shortly after came back with the bill. Tsunade's eyes wandered over to the piece of paper and scanned it until she saw how much her meal came up to. She dug around in her purse until she came across her wallet and took out the money that needed to be paid. She put the money on the table and when Jiraiya saw it he shook his head, "Tsunade you don't have to pay." He said, taking up the money and handing it to her.
"This isn't a date Jiraiya, it's only fair that I pay my fair share." She refused to take the money from him but he decided to be stubborn. He wasn't going to allow her to pay.
"I know but I'm the one who invited you out. I'm paying and that's it."
Tsunade sighed, knowing that she wasn't going to win this argument so she reluctantly took the money from him and stuffed if back into her wallet. He took his wallet out of his pocket and put the exact money on the table as well as a generous tip for their waitress. When everything was paid, they rose to their feet and left the restaurant. As soon as they stepped out, the chilly air hit them and Tsunade immediately wrapped her arms around her slender body. Jiraiya was going to offer her his coat but she interrupted him before he could say anything.
"Thanks for dinner. I should be getting back to Shizune now." She said and started to walk off in the opposite direction.
"You know..." He started and she turned around. He had her attention now and as much as he wanted to take back what he said, he knew that he couldn't and therefore had to continue, "It's quite cold out. Perhaps you could come over to my house and I'll make us some tea."
"Jiraiya, I don't think that's a good idea." She said.
"Please?" He asked, "Just tea and nothing more." He didn't want his night with her to end so soon. He hasn't seen her in so long and while they were on speaking terms, he wanted to get to the point where the awkwardness between them was completely eradicated. He wanted to be friends again and by inviting her over for tea, he felt as if it would bring them closer together.
The longing for her company was beaming through his eyes and sunk into her heart. She could refuse him so she could do nothing or say anything but yes, "Okay Jiraiya, I'll come over for some tea but I can't stay long."
He didn't care how long she stayed as long as he could be in her company for a few more moments. She walked up beside him with her hands still around her body. She was cold, that was evident so without thinking he took off his jacket. Tsunade saw this and was about to refuse but before she knew it, his jacket was draped over her body. It was so big for her that it provided her with not only warmth, but comfort as well. It smelled of him and surrounded her with his familiar masculine scent. If she could, she would wear his jacket for the rest of her life but that was impossible since it did not belong to her and they were not a couple.
They continued to walk until they arrived at Jiraiya's home. His house was all too familiar to Tsunade and held both happy and terrible memories for her. She didn't know why but her heart started to beat quickly within her chest as she walked through his door. Like a true gentleman, he took her coat off of her shoulders and placed it on his coat rack at his door.
"You really didn't have to give me your coat Jiraiya." Tsunade said after he hung up his coat, "You must have been freezing."
"You were freezing." He reminded her, "I wasn't about to let you freeze to death while I remained warm in my jacket. I am a gentleman you know."
"Right." She said sarcastically and rolled her eyes.
"You can sit down you know." He said while pointing to his couch, the same couch that they made love on.
"Ummm, how about I sit at the table." Tsunade said, not wanting to sit on the couch. It held too many memories for her, memories that she was afraid to think about in that moment.
"Sure." He said while rubbing the back of his neck, "You can sit wherever you want."
Tsunade sat at the table and Jiraiya stood awkwardly in the middle of the room, unsure of what to do or what to say.
"Jiraiya?" Tsunade said, pulling him out of his thoughts.
"Yes."
"The tea..."
"Oh right!" He said while scrambling to the kitchen to prepare the tea. He chose his favorite blend of tea, knowing that Tsunade would love it and put a generous scoop in each cup then poured steaming hot water in both cups. He let them set for a few minutes and then sweetened them with cream and sugar. He brought the cups out and handed one to Tsunade. She gladly accepted it and drank the liquid, allowing to it to warm her insides. He did the same and soon, they were both finished.
The sat in silence for a few more moments until Tsunade rose to her feet, "I better be going now, it's late and Shizune must be wondering where I am."
"Why did you leave?" Jiraiya blurted out unintentionally while he too rose to his feet and stood before her. He couldn't believe that those words actually came out of his mouth. He never meant to ask her that question but it just came out. It was as if his mouth had a mind of it's own.
"What?" She asked, feeling as if this conversation was headed down a path that she was not prepared to go down.
He couldn't hold back any longer. He asked the question that boggled his mind for four years and even though it was unintentional, he was somewhat happy that it was out in the open. He wanted to know why she left the village so many years ago and now perhaps he would finally get his answer, "Why did you leave the village? Nobody asked you to leave."
"I have my reasons." She snapped, trying so desperately to avoid this conversation.
"And what are those reasons?" He asked. He had no intentions of allowing her to avoid the question.
"Why do you care anyway?"
"I care because when you left, a piece of me left with you. I haven't been my usual self since you left and everyday I wondered why you left the village... Why you left me."
"Jiraiya..." Tsunade said, silently pleading him to stop talking. She didn't want to tell him the reason why she left but he was persistent and determined to know her reason.
"No." He said and stepped closer to her, so close that she could feel his breath upon her face, "Please just tell me why you left me so many years ago."
"It's simple really." She started, "I left because I caused you too much pain, pain that you didn't deserve. I couldn't live with the guilt I felt for hurting and using you so I left thinking that with me gone, you wouldn't have to suffer anymore. I thought that it was for the best."
He placed his hand over her cheek and stared deep into the hazel eyes that he loved so much, "I didn't want you to leave. You never had to leave. The pain that I felt when you walked through those gates was nothing compared to the minor pain that I experienced when you told me that you didn't want to be in a relationship with me. Don't you see Tsunade? When you're not with me, I'm incomplete but when you're here, you complete me."
Tears formed in her eyes as he spoke to her. His tone was so calm and through his eyes she saw nothing but honesty and... Love. He loved her, this was true but did she love him back? She wasn't sure and perhaps she never will be.
"Jiraiya I'm..." She started but stopped herself.
"What?" He asked, "Just say it, you can tell me anything."
"I'm so sorry for using you that night. I was being selfish. I only wanted to feel happiness in a moment where I felt complete sadness and you were there for me and provided me with that happiness but I didn't stop to consider your feelings and how what we did would affect you. You deserved better than that and I was a horrible person for doing that to you. Will you ever forgive me?"
He chuckled lightly and wiped away one of her fallen tears with a gentle thumb, "Oh Tsunade, I have forgiven you four years ago."
"Really?"
"Yeah..."
Their faces moved closer and closer together until they joined by the lips. They don't know how it happened but they were now kissing each other so passionately that after a few moments they had to pull apart to gasp for much needed air. They looked into each other's eyes and saw lust within. Both were silently begging for more and without thinking, they gave into their bodily urges. Before they knew it, they were devouring each other's lips with their own with wet, sloppy kisses. Jiraiya abandoned her lips and sucked the skin of her neck until little red marks were left all over her neck. Her hands wandered all over his muscular chest and when they couldn't bare to stand anymore, Jiraiya scooped her up bridal style in his arms and carried her to his bedroom while never breaking their kiss. He placed her gently on the bed as if she were fine china and started to remove her clothing. First her took off her jacket and placed kisses all over her arms and cleavage before he undid her obi and tore open her top to reveal her breasts covered with the thin fabric of her bra. With skilled hands he unclasped her bra and freed her breasts from their confinement. He kissed her bare chest and took her by surprise when he enclosed his lips over the nipple of her right breast. While he nipped and sucked at it, he teased it's twin with his fingers. She moaned and groaned his name as he pleasured her and when she couldn't take it any more, she pushed him off of her and tore off his shirt, revealing his chest. She kissed each and every muscle available to her and then stuffed her hand into his trousers to grab hold of the member that gave her ultimate satisfaction. She continued to stroke him while he kissed her and when they both felt a yearning in the pit of their stomachs, they discarded the remaining clothes on their body. She laid on the bed with her legs apart and he positioned himself between her legs before he thrust into her with one swift movement. She arched her back as he entered her and their bodies moved together in a steady, yet fast pattern until they reached their climax. They finished at the same time and when it was done, he pulled out of her and gave her one last passionate kiss on her lips before he collapsed next to her. They were panting heavily since they just participated in a physical activity that left them both lost for words. It was by far the best experience of their lives and neither had any regrets.
They laid awake for a few more moments, wrapped in each other's embrace and neither wanted that moment to end. Sleep was about to claim him but before he could fall asleep he whispered, "Don't leave." In her ear and allowed himself to drift off to sleep.
Tsunade felt her constrict as he whispered those words in her ear. Don't leave? How was she simply not going to leave? They made love but this time was different from the last act of passion they shared. She wasn't using him for his body and he wasn't simply performing a service. They did what they did because they wanted to and they were acting on an impulse of want and desire. She didn't regret it but she knew that nothing good would come of it. He would probably want to start a relationship with her and as much as she wanted to give into him and become a couple, she knew in her heart that she couldn't. She didn't trust herself with his fragile heart and knew that if they really did become an item, she would without a doubt hurt him again.
She looked beside her to see his sleeping form and felt nothing but pain. She felt like a terrible person for what she was about to do but knew that it had to be done. She unwrapped herself from his embrace and retrieved her clothes that were scattered all over the floor. She dressed herself and when she did, she searched for a piece of paper and a pen. With a heavy heart, she composed a note for Jiraiya and placed it on the pillow that was supposed to be hers for the night. She gazed down at him and bent down to leave a kiss on his stubble-free cheek. Her heart was in knots as she kissed him for she knew that that would be their last kiss ever.
"I'm sorry that we can never happen." She whispered with tears in her eyes before she slipped out of the house in silence, refusing to look back because she knew that if she did, she would be unable to leave.
She opened the front door to her home with her key and as soon as she was in the house and wiped away her tears and told herself over and over again that she was doing the right thing. This was by far the hardest thing that she ever had to do in her life but it was for the best right? She packed the items that they carried with them and afterwards walked into Shizune's room. She was pleased to see her asleep in bed with TonTon curled up next to her. Tsunade slung their bags on her back and scooped Shizune up in her arms and put TonTon to lay on Shizune's stomach. She carried the girl bridal style out the house and under a moonless sky, they walked out of the village on their journey back to their new home. Tsunade tried to compose herself in a strong manner but she couldn't keep the tears from streaming down her face.
What she shared with Jiraiya was special and only confirmed her feelings for him. She loved him. She loved him so much that it hurt but she was afraid to be with him. She didn't trust herself and neither should he.
The sun rose that morning like it did everyday. As if in sync with the sun, Jiraiya rose as well. He outstretched his arm to the space on the bed beside him, expecting to feel the soft skin of Tsunade's body but he felt nothing but cold, wrinkled sheets. He immediately turned his head to her empty side of the bed and when he did, his heart sank. He was almost certain that this time he would wake up to her beautiful face but he was wrong. He was all alone in his house and she was nowhere to be found. His eyes came across a piece of paper that had his name written on it in handwriting that could only belong to Tsunade. He grabbed it from the pillow and opened it as if he were opening a check that was valued at a million dollars. However, his heart broke when he read what she wrote...
Jiraiya,
I'm sorry that I left without saying goodbye but you have to understand that it was for the best. You don't want to be in a relationship with me. All I ever do is cause you pain and if we became a couple I know without a doubt that I'll only cause you more pain. By leaving you again I know that I hurt you deeply but with time that wound I caused you to have will heal.
What we shared last night was special and I don't regret any of it. But we've been down this road before and we both know that we are better as friends and nothing more.
Please don't try to find me or even contact me. It's better this way, trust me. Good luck with your life. Stay safe and I hope that you can find the love and happiness that you deserve.
-Tsunade.
The letter was tear stained but those tears did not belong to him. Those tears belonged to Tsunade. He cried, oh how he cried when he finished reading the letter. He wasn't angry with her. He missed her terribly. Why did she leave him? How could she possibly think that it was better to leave instead of to stay with him?
"Oh Tsunade, you have no idea how much this hurts." He said to himself.
He wanted nothing more than to be with her and she left him again. That was the most intense pain he has ever felt in his existence. He loved her so and wanted to tell her that but never got the opportunity and probably never will. He didn't know what would happen from here on out and how he will feel in the next few days but he was sure of one thing. Somehow he would find her again. It may take years but he swore to himself that when their paths cross once more, he won't let her go...
So we go from 'Oh my God they made love again' to 'Oh my God she left him again!'.
Remember when I told you guys that everything happens eventually? Well you're just going to have to keep that in mind. I promise you that everything will work out in the end. *hugs*
Thank you so much for reading/reviewing and adding this story to your alerts. Look out for the next chapter guys and don't find me and kill me for separating Tsunade and Jiraiya again.
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