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Warning; Plausible triggers.

Chapter Fourteen

Decisions

Remus woke to the feel of arms going around his waist and lips kissing his back, neck and shoulders. It was just after midnight, Remus amuses Severus a little, by pretending to still be asleep, allowing him to have this moment of bliss and affection. Until, he felt a hand sliding toward the top of his pants, attempting to slide in.

"Severus?" Remus quietly says, stopping the hand from going further. "Are you sure you want to go there?"

Silence.

Remus rolled over to face Severus. The look of uncertainty was looking at him.

"I don't know, Moony. I know that I want you, but I don't want to be in this position either where I feel ashamed, and knowing that there is a chance that I may not be carrying your children, if something does take hold."

Exhaling a little too heavily than he intended, Remus pulls Severus into him.

"You have nothing to be ashamed of, Severus. None of this is your fault! None!" he says.

"I'm scared Remus."

"Of?"

"That you may hate me for not wanting to see this pregnancy through, if it forms into one... unless I know for sure that they're yours, which I doubt in this case, I don't want to be someone else's incubator."

Remus thought of his next words. "Severus, even if we did go have sex right now, there is still no guarantee that any embryos to start forming would be mine; and whatever you decide to do in all of this, in case you do wind up officially pregnant, I will be here to support you. Surely I don't need to remind you of that. I am not the one with the ability to carry children, so I don't know what it is like to make those sorts of decisions, Sev. But I will remind you that regardless of what's happened and why... you are mine! You are my mate, and that, once again, hasn't changed, nor will it ever. I could never, ever hate you! Not now, not ever."

"Really?"

"I don't think I ever had the reason to, not even during our time at Hogwarts. Okay, I was a coward in not speaking up back then, I guess I've been doing my best to try to make up for it as best I can now that I know you and grown to really care and love you. You're my other half, maternal father to my children, heck if you choose to go through with this," placing a hand on Severus's abdomen, "regardless of the result, I will raise them as though they're mine. Blood or not. I only want you, Mon Cheri Severus, and whatever hurdles that come with it."

Real gratitude and love was written through Severus's face and body, knowing that every word spoken was reeked with nothing but authentic, genuine honesty.

"Oh, you've more than made up for the past, Remus John Lupin," he says to Remus, moving to kiss his partner, which was accepted.

Remus felt the sneaky hand once more, and stopped it.

"Please, Remus?" Severus pleads in whisper. "Please let me feel you."

Hearing this need, and weighing things up, Remus lowered his shorts just enough to allow his partner access.

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"Daddy!"

Severus felt little hands tapping him on the head. The tapping feeling more like open handed face plants landing right on his eyes, his nose, wherever they decided to land. He bought a hand up and took hold of one of the hands before it could get him, and bought the other hand around and with curled fingers dug into the soft belly of a now giggling and squealing daughter.

"Good morning, Miss Freya," he says when his eyes were open and dragging her into him and nuzzling kisses into her, causing her to squeal with delight even more.

Remus came in carrying Athena.

"Wondered where she got to," he says, with a light chuckle. "Miss Cheeky Freya Angelfish wandered off when I was sorting Miss Athena Butterfly out."

"I think she went on a hunt and found what she was looking for," said Severus, with a small smile.

He was now sitting up, still holding Freya close, enjoying the fact after so long away, she still knew him as 'Daddy' and she was still this cheeky little Munchkin he loved so much; along with his little loving Sweetheart, Athena, who wanted to near launch herself out of her paternal father's arms and into Severus's.

"They had been both been searching for you since your abduction, Severus," said Remus, placing Athena into Severus's other arm, and sitting down. "Seeming to just know when you were either in danger and once sensing you were safe, they finally settled, having a much acquired sleep in."

Severus held the girls close. "Well, I'm here now," he says to them, feeling a twang of sadness learning that some of his senses weren't deceiving him whilst in that hellhole of a place. He knew Remus was worried sick and searching, he sensed his daughters' restfulness and distress upon their missing their father. Heck, when he was working at Hogwarts during the year, when he knew his daughters needed him, even though he would have come home that very Friday, he was there as soon as the final class of the day was done, just so he could relieve Remus and take over in comforting them.

He could always tell when they wanted him, or when they wanted Remus, so while he was still struggling to come to terms with what he went through, and what he might go through, he could take comfort in knowing his little girls were now at ease, because they had their Daddy back.

"I promise to never let something like that happen again," he mutters to them.

"We promise to never let something like that happen again," Remus corrects.

Severus nods firmly.

"What exactly had they found out about them, or the tests they were put through?" Severus then asks after a moment's silence.

"They simply tested reflexes, hearing and whatever the basics are for a child to be checked over with. While there has been some blood tests done, that was perhaps the only distressing thing they had to endure. I didn't leave the entire time they were being examined by Serket and the others. They also released information about you and me, stuff they believed that we had every right to know. Of our mutations, the reasons and backgrounds, the plans they had for our children when they discovered your ability to become pregnant. Now been added on with the knowledge that there are two successful and healthy children somewhere in the world that are from our genetic codes.

"While we won't really know why Kali and Brigid didn't make it as far as Freya and Athena have, there was a strong reason as to why they did make it, and will continue to grow up into women in their own right. We were created, or rather you were created, as your body was the one to accept and adapt to the will of producing children as me, to bring back what was believed to be magic of the gods. EWA, it seemed, were only after specific types of people, regardless of their blood status, because at one point we were all connected in varying levels, due to a lot of mixed breeding and so on. Naturally, due to many changes over the dozens of centuries, it was near on lost and forgotten, yet some had the bloodlines that were deeply enriched with the true gods of once upon a time."

"Are you saying that we're carriers of this particular bloodline?" Severus was understandably unsure whether to believe what he was hearing.

"More than carriers, Severus," said Remus. "Not really sure how put it all into words, though."

"Try."

A slight chuckle from Remus; "Oh, Sev, you're still the same as ever with this stuff."

Severus looked pleased to hear that.

"We're descendents of the old pure ones, before changes had to be made to protect themselves and anyone connected to them, no matter how slim of the connection. Some of the descendents lost their abilities, resulting in what we call Muggles today, though now and again, a dormant gene will awaken and it is where, in theory, Muggleborns have come to be from Muggle parentage. Others, didn't lose their abilities, but they were weakened significantly over the years, some had made it their mission to try and bring that back, much to the point where they simply lost why they were doing it in the first place, but we can guess were Purebloods within the witches and wizards come along, not in full, it's theory, like that of the Muggleborns."

"Then explain the Squibs?"

"The 'god gene' lost its spark to carry on down the line. Again, theory based."

"God gene?"

"I did not come up with it! Someone way, way before Dr Leroy Orson came up with that name."

"What does that have to do with mutating us?"

"Because the gods of the old magic weren't always what they appeared to be, they could transform to look exactly like a human, or whatever they deemed suitable. Think of Zeus for example changing into a bull or a shower of gold."

"You just bought a whole new meaning to golden shower!" Severus made a face.

"Probably where people got the inspiration from."

"Yes, because being pissed on is so liberating, as opposed to having actual gold water coming down from the sky."

Remus was doing his best to contain himself.

"I am guessing that the mutation wasn't so much a mutation, more of an awakening to dormant gene codes or whatever they are?" Severus goes to say, to try and spare his partner from losing it all together in a fit of laughter.

"In certain ways, yes, in other ways, it's still a mystery at the moment. What we did find out, though, is that it is believed there is some prophecy about powerful magic of the gods is to return and... the some will wish to come and exploit the one who has survived every single one of their trials, including the survival of childbirth... and the one who helped conceive the offspring to ensure the security of building an army to control."

"Army? You mean... these two are seen as some army?" Severus looks down at Athena and Freya, who were moving about, playing with his hair, or going over to Remus to get hugs from him, or just lazing against Severus's chest.

"I don't know how much of the so called prophecy is true. I only know that regardless of what others are wanting us to do, or force you to do, given the recent events that have happened, our children are not going to become some experimental army for whatever scheme they want them for."

"Like bloody hell they will," Severus's eyes darkened a little at the thought of Freya and Athena being used and abused for another person's gain.

Remus nods with agreement and says; "That is why, after speaking to Minerva of our options, and only after discussing this with you, first, is that there is a possibility of delaying our daughters' exposure for as long as we're able. Meaning, we can delay their entry into Hogwarts, keep them away from any eyes that would be looking for them."

"For how long?" Severus asks, peaking at this with interest.

"We can go for until they have turned thirteen, fourteen or fifteen, the choice is up to us. According to Minerva the reason for this is because of some registry ruling or whatever she explained. I have a feeling it maybe to do with OWLs or other importance attached. Before that, they can be taught whatever we deem fit to teach them, with naturally some of the subjects they would like to receive within Hogwarts, obviously. Secure wands on their eleventh birthday, as it's a given they're going to receive them, so may as well keep to that rite of passage."

"What of the letters they're likely to receive?"

"Minerva told us to not worry about it, we can discuss it with our girls, obviously, as this is their future and they ought to have some say, should they choose to attend right at the very start like many others do, or hold off until the age we set for them, where we would have nearly to no choice but to let them go and attend."

Severus thought this over, rubbing Athena's little back with his hand, and gently getting Freya to stop playing with his hair, as she was starting to get a little too hard with her grabbing.

"I believe that regardless of when they do attend, I will be there to keep an eye on them for when they do," he says carefully.

Remus was a little surprised by this. "Are you sure?"

Severus nods. "I am sure."

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Finally, Severus was relieved to see that his colours had faded, but he saw that they hadn't faded completely. His heart skipped a beat when he knew then and there that conception had well and truly taken place.

"Remember," Remus tells him firmly, when he was given the news. "Whatever you decide, I am backing you, one hundred percent."

Severus was glad he had that assurance, but in truth, he didn't know what to do. For two whole weeks his colours had been showing, and there were a number of times Remus was allowed to 'follow his instinct' and dominate Severus, going in without a condom. At least, (from Severus's point of view), he was being penetrated by someone he knew. Someone who knew how to allow him to enjoy it... unlike the person who forced their way and caused him to bleed as a result, and the White Coats not particularly worrying or caring about this, so it was with this slight pain he still had within the area that had Remus be extra gentle with Severus, not wanting him to be in pain.

"How am I to keep this from Albus and the Ministry?" Severus whispers.

"We will find a way, Mon Cheri," Remus assures. "If you want to go through with this pregnancy."

Severus held the hand that was against his cheek. His body wanted him to keep this going, but his heart was telling him otherwise. He was torn in what he wanted to do, until he started shaking his head, going over everything in his head, not looking right in his partner's eyes, as he started to feel tears rolling.

Remus cocks his head to see this, and he knew then that, even if there was a chance that if there was any chance of any of him being successful in conceiving anything against the massive sperm cluster that was already inside of Severus lying in wait, Severus didn't want to go through with it. Severus, as much as he really wouldn't have minded the idea of another child or two, siblings for the daughters they already had, he just didn't know how he was going to be able to cope and he didn't want to have a living reminder of someone else being inside him, or being injected with other sperm.

"I'll let Serket, Porthos and Madam Pomfrey know, so they can put everything in place," Remus gently says, managing to meet Severus's eyes.

Weakly, Severus just nods.

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"Are you sure that this is what you wish to do, Severus?" Madam Pomfrey asks. Not an ounce of judgment to be heard from her voice, nor seen on her face. But she had to be sure that the decision was correct before proceeding.

Severus did go silent for a moment, as though to really think and know what his gut and heart truly wanted, as to what his developing womb wanted.

"I know it is the right decision, Poppy," he then says, his voice did tremble a little.

He was in his own home, on his own bed. He wanted to be where he was most comfortable for this to happen. Remus was standing by. Their daughters were still back in New York with Splinter, Morrigan, Moscow and Minerva McGonagall.

Extra reinforced powers and such had been put in place well before they reset foot back on their massive property, making it now impossible for any helicopters or any persons who, even if they did know the location of the property, wouldn't be able to enter, because of a simple parchment with names of those who are allowed to enter past the barrier, and strongly connected to the said barrier. Not even the Minister of Magic may enter for example. This was discovered when they had been able to tap a little more into their abilities after learning what they had and the extent these powers can actually go... within reason of course.

Serket steps forward with the vials of potions she had been holding.

"You will be taking these one at a time," she instructs, picking up the first of them and unsealing it. "This will start the process, it may take up to an hour to two hours to take effect." She gives it to Severus, who for a split second hesitated, before downing it, it had a sweet and sour taste to it. Once this was all gone, Serket uncorks the next one. "To ensure when you start to bleed, and you will, you won't suffer any extremely heavy blood loss. This one may need to be taken again a few times, depending on the flow." Again, this time without wavering, Severus took it. "This one will help to decrease the pains you're likely to receive during the course of this procedure. Similar to the second one you took, you may be needing to take this more than once." She then showed him two of the very last vials she had. "Whereas this one... this one you will be able to take after you've cleared out."

"What do they do?" Severus was unfamiliar with these potions.

"One will stop you from having more children. It won't stop your phase, or the instinct to reproduce, but you just won't conceive. The other will still allow you to have children, if you so wish to, but only the sperm of the one you want to have the children with will be the one who gets that honour. Anyone else's will just simply be expelled or killed off, rendered useless."

Severus stared at the two vials, one containing a turquoise blue liquid, while the other was more of a minty green. He looks at Serket, mixed with surprise and gratefulness. "Thank you."

Serket places a comforting hand on his shoulder. "You're among trusted friends and family here, Severus. You're not the only one who's done what they believed was the right thing to do."

"Do believe I am doing the right thing?"

A kind smile inches upon Serket's lips. "Do you believe this is the right thing to do?"

Severus nods slowly. "Yes."

"I believe in what you believe is to be correct in this scenario, my friend. I was with you during your first pregnancy, helped make sure that you got through it safely. Just like we are doing the same here."

"How long will this take?"

"Once it truly starts, it can take up to two weeks to be fully cleared of any or all bleeding."

"Don't worry!" Remus pipes up when he saw the sudden worry on his partner's face when he realised how long it would drag over when it came to certain days. "Minerva and Poppy, right here, have your back when it comes to getting back to work at Hogwarts!"

"You've come down with a severe case of the flu," Madam Pomfrey says in this matter-of-factly-don't-question-it tone. "You were ordered bed rest and to be contained away from the students until I deem you well enough to work again."

With that, Severus settled down to wait for the course of ending this pregnancy to begin.

I had been wracking my mind on which way to go with this. I knew from get go Severus was going to end up pregnant. I just wasn't sure which road I wanted him to take, until I knew for certain it was the right one! Not so much by me, though I am writing it, but by Severus himself. I wanted to make sure I was writing him with as much dignity and justice, despite what he gets tossed into. Let's face it, I care very much about this character, as well as Remus and those who are allies, so getting it correct is crucial for me.