The Rosette awoke in an unfamiliar bed, and found she was sore, groggy and tired. She had nearly forgotten about what it was she had just done, or more correctly whom she had just done. Emeralds eyes opened not only to meet the small light leaking in the window from the rising sun but the Face of her Hokage, her former Sensei . As every vivid detail from the night ran through her memory a blush found its way creeping across her face.
She was grateful that he was still asleep. She found herself admiring how innocent he looked while he was dreaming, she found herself admiring how handsome he was with his mask off but she quickly shook the thought from her head. How could she have allowed herself to do this? It was amazing but it was wrong on so many levels. She rose from the bed and quickly gathered her things. She needed to leave before anyone realized she was she there. She dressed as quickly as humanly possible, then left without so much as a goodbye or even a little note. Sakura was certain that at the very least the Hatake would understand or not be hurt by it all. It was just a one night stand wasn't it?
She felt so stupid as she made her way home, she couldn't believe what she had just done. She felt anxious, what would Sasuke do when he found out? He couldn't ever find out, it would just have to be the pair's own little secret. At least she knew Kakashi wouldn't go blabbing about the events that transpired to everyone he knew so at the very least she was grateful that it had been him to take her innocence away.
"Forehead!" The familiar voice of her best friend broke through the thoughts that were running rampant in her mind.
"Oh Good morning Ino." The rosette greeted her with a smile, one to hide the disaster of feelings and thoughts she was dealing with.
"What are you you doing up and out so early?" Ino was right to question her, it was her day off and she swore she was going to sleep in today, yet here she was waltzing around the town.
"I just needed to clear my head, that's all. " The blonde raised her brow, she could now see that something was going on.
"Come on lets go! I have a little before I have to open the shop up anyway!" Ino marched over and grab hold of the Rosette's arm before she could even begin to protest, however it was only a couple feet before she stopped dragging her along and turned to face her.
"Sakura...You smell like Sex... and I know Sasuke isn't in town currently. What did you do."
Sakura was frozen, was there really a smell to this? If anyone was to know it, it would be Ino. She would have never guessed, but now she was really wishing she had taken a shower at least before she left his place. How she could tell anyone what she did? Ino would only pester her till she gave her the truth. Sakura was grateful that it was too early for anyone else to be out and about yet at least, the pair were alone on the road.
"Sakura... did someone hurt you??"
"What- no, no. " It was a hundred percent consensual, while he implanted the thought in her had she was the one that took it to action on him. It was her, he allowed it to happened, it made her wonder if part of him wanted this too.
"I... went for advice..."
"Advice doesn't end in sex Sakura!"
"I know that.. it wasn't my intention... it just happened..."
"Sakura, it was your first time! I know you and Sasuke haven't done anything yet! Something like that shouldn't just happen."
" I know! I don't know what I was thinking! It's just I'm getting cold feet... and I let this happen..." Nothing would excuse what it was she had done, yet Ino didn't seem as mad as she had sounded. In fact the blonde was conflicted on how to feel, her best friend had finally gotten laid but it wasn't with her future husband and now she was telling her she wasn't even sure she wanted to get married?! Her head was surely spinning.
"Sakura.. who was it? Who took away your innocence!"
Sakura blushed at the question, she knew it was coming and that there was no way she could avoid it, but she knew that Ino would never betray her trust, in fact she would help guide the Pinkie down the path that would make her happiest.
"Kakashi..."
Ino's mouth dropped and her eyes grew wide, she was in shock. Out of all the people for her best friend to sleep with it of course it had to be their Hokage! A laugh came next, and Sakura was officially confused.
"You did your Sensei! Sakura! If you weren't engaged I would tell you I was proud. We have a lot to catch up on! Lets go back to your place!"
Emerald orbs blinked back at the blue ones, who was she to protest, so she nodded her head and lead the way down the familiar path.
It wasn't too long after Sakura left that the Hatake himself woke from his bed, it was one day off today but his body was already used to waking early for his duties. He found himself rather disappointed in the morning when he woke, and the only trace left of her was the smell lingering on him and on his bed. He groaned, it was a one night stand and he let himself slip into her. Kakashi was a man made for keeping distances, he hadn't really bothered to have sex before her, making her his first as well. Was that really a good idea for either of them?
The only thing left for him to do was to clean up any evidence that she was here, starting with a shower. It was quick one, no longer than five minutes. It was saddening to know that five minutes was all it took to erase her scent. The next task was even easier, he threw his bed spread all in the washer, blankets pillow cases, sheets.
The Hatake wondered as he was cleaning up traces of the night before how she would react to even being in the same room as him now, would their friendship change for the worst? Sasuke was due to be back soon, would she be able to handle being in the same room as him knowing what she done, or would the guilt eat her alive?
Kakashi shook the thought of her from his mind, now that he was up and awake the next thing on his agenda was food, but he knew very well that his fridge was way past empty. So with an internal groan he made his way to the store.
Sakura was stuck answering to every pestering question that Ino had, normally she would shrug most of them off but this was a kind of intervention she needed, for Christ sakes she just slept with a man that helped shape her! Inner Sakura was cheering on, because the pleasure she felt was nothing like anything she's ever experienced.
"Ino... I know that it's wrong, but it just felt so good!" She groaned as she watched the blonde suck on a single cube of ice. She had been working so much that she had forgot to go to the store. It seems that would be her destination when the blonde left.
They two chatted for just a little longer before Ino had to returned to the shop, and Sakura made her way to the market, truthfully she was exhausted and sore and didn't want to move at all, her own bed beckoned to her but stomach cried for food. However, she didn't think that she would bump into her late night partner so early. He was sound asleep when she left but now here he stood with his orange covered book barely even giving her a second glance.
She swallowed the lump in her throat, and headed towards him. She would have to act as if everything is normal one way or another. "Good morning Sensei." She plastered her face with a smile despite the butterflies churning in his stomach. How is it that he was making her this nervous?
"Kakashi is fine." He replied, not even bothering to look up from his book. It put her at ease just a little, feeling as if everything was just fine, as if last night they didn't do each other.
"I'm surprised to see you up so early."
"Hmm." He murmured practically ignoring her as he flipped the next page in his book. He was so focused on his book that he barely had any food in his cart. Perhaps he didn't really need much, she did see him eating out a lot. It looked like he mostly had light Snack items. Sakura on the other hand had already gathered a few meal items.
"When's the last time you've eaten an actual home cooked meal?" This question warranted her a look from the older male. He could cook himself, he had to learn at a very young age but now that he was Hokage he hardly found the time to do much of anything, he couldn't even remember if he cooked since the war.
"I'm not sure." He answered truthfully curious as to why the rosette even bothered to ask. It seemed as if she was grasping for straws for a conversation, but part of her really just wanted an excuse to spend more time with him, and to make sure that nothing was awkward between them now. Everything seemed normal but yet she felt as if things were far different than she wanted them to be.
" I'll come over and cook for you then." She demanded, not offered, even though it was probably best to keep her distance from him.
"Hmm..." He raises a brow, who was he to say no to free food? He stayed quiet keeping her on edge for his response even though he decided already that he would let her.
"Well-?"
"When?"
"Um... How about right now! I can make us some breakfast. " The Hatake raises a brow, the pair were thinking the same thing, she had only just left his house this morning and now was coming back? Seemed silly.
"Sure." He replied as he turned back to his book, and the walked around together a little longer in silence before leaving to his place. That short walk was also done in silence. It was kind of un nerving to the rosette, but she toughed it out at least until they were finally inside his apartment.
She showed herself to the kitchen and began to cook, Tamago Kake Gohan. It was the easiest meal she could prepare, steamed rice, topped with a raw egg and soy sauce to go with. It was done in only a matter of minutes. However she noticed as they finally sat down to eat his famed mask was still covering his face.
"I've already seen your face, you can take it off..." That might be one if the hardest parts of their secret to keep, she would just want to brag to everyone that she saw his face first! They would only ask her how she got him to show him and she couldn't tell them she fucked him.
She was right of course, but still he kept the mask on mostly just playing with his food. He wasn't planning to make a habit out of this after all.
"Are you okay?" He asked finally after not having said anything for awhile. Sakura wasn't not really, she was irritated that his mask was still on when she just wanted to see his face again. He was beautiful underneath that mask, and thinking about it made her realize that she just might be attracted to him, which would be a very bad thing. However she couldn't stop herself from imagining it and imaging them together again like last night.
"Sakura..." He spoke lowly this time as his nose twitched. His voice was a dangerous kind of low and Sakura found herself being driven crazy by it.
"I'm Fine.." She choked out, it was simply a lie because now she was growing increasingly horny as she started at him and continued letting her imagination grow. She had to stop this and herself but her body was calling for him to touch her again.
"I can smell you.." Her arousal was calling to him, he wanted to answer it but knew that one of them had to have restrain unless she decided it was him that she wanted and not Sasuke.
The rosette blushed at his words and cursed her own body for betraying her. She really couldn't deny that she wanted more from him, her body was dying for it; but how could she be sure that she wanted to continue doing this with him. She didn't even know how many people he had slept with prior to her. In fact the more she thought about it, the less she really knew about him.
"Kakashi sensei...how many sexual partners have you had?"
"Kakashi is fine.." He replied outright ignoring her question, that wasn't going to stop the Haruno however.
"Kakashi.." She practically growled at him slightly frustrated by his words. She felt she had a right to know after she had let him fuck her.
"I think you should leave. "
She was making his way over to him, determined to get an answer but perhaps it wasn't a good idea, she shouldn't even be in the same room as him right now. She was increasingly aware of him, and began noticing the little things like how he smelled and it was a wonderful smell, and part of her was merely running on her hormones.
"Not until I get a response. "
"Your fiancé should be home soon." Change of subject, he had no way of actually knowing that he wasn't expecting a mission update report till tomorrow, or even just his return in general, but he was doing everything he could to avoid this conversation. Mentioning him was the perfect way to ruin the mood.
"Seriously? Is that all you have to say? Was it over triple digits why are you scared to tell me but you're not scared to fuck me?" He was beginning to regret allowing her over. They were now a few inches apart, she was standing directly in front of him. If he stood up they would be face to face so he scooted his chair back a little and put more space between them.
"It doesn't matter, it was one time thing, just a fuck. You knew what you signed up for. If you want to make love to someone you better seduce your husband. "
She stayed quiet for moment, because he was right but her emotions were getting in the way. This must be the attachment that Ino was warning her about. Why did she let her desires to be touched and kissed and held by another man get the best of her.
"That changes nothing! I deserve to know. You never even get checked up since you hate the hospital." She was implying about the dangers of sexual diseases which granted her a look from the other, a very annoyed looked.
"I have no reason to.." Unlike her he was able to keep himself distant and unattached after a steamy night of sex, however the slight scent of her arousal was driving him mad, part of him wanted to yank down his mask so he could get a better smell but the stronger part of her commanded him not to, reminded him that it was simply a one time thing.
"Sakura, your heart belong to Sasuke, you love him not me. What happened last night should have never happened and if it's alright with you I'd like to go on like it never did. " He spoke casually and calm but his words made her head spin. If she truly loved Sasuke would she experience cold feet and would she have truly given herself away to another man? A man that had been there for her through everything, even when Sasuke had tried to kill her it was Kakashi who was there for her. Sakura was certainly more confused now than anything, and the things she was feeling and thinking now about Kakashi was it just because he was her first or was it something more. She had to know.
"It's not alright with me.."
A sigh came from the lips hidden beneath his mask, of course. It was seeming more and more like she wouldn't go without some sort of actual answer to her question at least that's what he thought. He had no idea of the chaos going on inside her mind.
"Sakura, I have things to do today. If I give you a straight answer will you please leave me alone for the day?" Things to so meant literally just finding a nice spot somewhere to read his books and hope to be left alone.
She stared at him blankly, she didn't want to leave him alone for the day she wanted to explore the things she was now feeling. The attraction and the desire.
"Sakura..."
"I don't know.."
Another sigh. "What do you mean?"
"I... I think..." she paused her face flushing as bright as her hair, she took a deep breath in before continuing.
"I think I like you..."
"Sakura... you don't even really know me. " To say he was shocked by her sudden declaration was an understatement but he didn't show her that much. Truth was he's always cared for her, but he never imagine their relationship going down this path.
"But I want to.. so please give me an answer, I need to know. "
"Sakura, we fucked. There was no emotional connection or anything. I think you need to go home and think about your feelings, unless... Do you still love Sasuke?"
He was right to ask that of her, how could she claim to even think she could possibly like him not when she was certain she was in love with Sasuke. It was all she ever knew was love for him.
"You're right... I think I should go home. " Kakashi simply nodded as if he hadn't been telling her to leave the whole tone. She had gone to him for help but now she was even more confused that she had been in a long time. So she left without another sound or another fight. Sasuke needed to come home so she could figure herself out better and her heart. Kakashi needed her too as well or the path they would end up would be very forbidden and full of pain and secrets because he wasn't sure if he could deny her forever.
