Author's note: I'm going to be pushing forward some so I hope it doesn't throw the story off. If you are reading the story please review all criticism is appreciated. Thanks for the reviews I have gotten I'm glad you are enjoying the story.

Spencer spent the better part of a month after the stabbing in the hospital bed she grew to hate. She was trying hard at getting her mobility back but was still weak on her left side due to the stabbing damaging some nerves to her leg, and arm. She couldn't lift her arms so far but could use it, and her leg wouldn't hold weight very well. Doctors said she would get it back in time they weren't severed just damaged so she had a chance at a full recovery with help, and therapy. Since she was being released today the doctors left her go with a crutches. John picked her up, and headed to the arena. They were going to his parents in a few days he just had to get some shows in before they left because both of them and his parents agreed she needed time to really focus on getting better and her staying at his parents would be the best place for that. John was flying with her there and then coming back to work in a couple days.

They pulled up and parked, John helped her out and they walked in together. Everyone was happy to have her back, and that she was making a good recovery. John took her to the locker room, and sat her down.

"Ok I'll be back I have to go do some promos. Are you ok?" He wasn't sure how she would feel being left alone right now.

"I'll be ok. I might go to catering, and see who's there." There was one person on Spencer's mind that she needed to see since he never came to see her in the hospital.

John kissed her bye "Please be careful and if you need anything come get me or find someone to get me ok."

"Ok."

John left and after a few minutes Spencer went to find Paul. She was crutching down the hall when she ran into Zack.

"Hey beautiful, welcome back."

"Hey. Have you seen Paul?"

Zack looked down. "Yea he's in the training room. He hurt his knee last night."

Spencer must have had a look on her face. Zack put a hand on her shoulder. "Are you ok?"

Spencer nodded then crutched down to the training room. She wasn't sure if she was ready for this but here goes nothing.

Spencer saw Clint taking notes while Paul sat on the table. She tapped on the door, and they both noticed her at the same time.

"Spencer?" Clint put his note book down, and she came into the room looking around and seeing where her life could have ended she stopped. Everything came flooding back at one time, and she wasn't sure if she could handle her emotions but she didn't want to break in front of them right now. She closed her eyes then went over to Paul as he got off the table.

"Spencer, I'm so glad you're ok." Paul already had tears in his eyes.

She tried to talk but no words came as she wrapped her arms around the giant and cried.

"Thank...you so...much." She pulled back and kissed his cheek. "If it weren't for you,...Randy, and ...Punk...I might not...be here." She sobbed then he wrapped his arms around her again and just held her.

"I thought you were gone when we came in. You weren't there at all. It never should have happened. I had never been so scared in all my life. I wanted to come see you in the hospital but I was afraid that if I did then I wouldn't be able to hold it together. I'm sorry I should have come anyway."

Spencer sniffed as she pulled pulled back. She looked around again and couldn't help the thoughts going through her mind. She had been having so many different thoughts and emotions about what happened she just wanted a break from it all. It drained her every time she thought about it.

"Are you ok?" Clint asked seeing the look on her face.

Spencer brought her attention back to the "Yea I'm ok." She wiped her eyes "I better get back to the locker room. Thank you again for everything you did."

Paul smiled as she left. He felt better seeing her around, He didn't want the image of her hooked up to machines or in a hospital bed stuck in his mind. The image of her bleeding on the floor was enough.

John finished up, and they headed back to the hotel. Spencer was quiet the whole ride and she just went bed when they got back so John didn't get to say to much to her or ask her how she felt about going back to the arena. He should have thought about how she would feel before taking her there.

The next morning Spencer didn't say much either as they got ready to go, and headed out to the airport. She slept on the plane ride and then they were greeted by John's parents and rode with them to the house. Carol helped Spencer get situated and then they headed down to the living room where John, and his Dad, and Brothers were sitting. Spencer sat by John and they started catching up, asking about her therapy, and how John felt being back to work.

"Well Spencer went with me yesterday to the arena, but I think it was too soon."

"No it was fine."

The conversation kept up but Spencer was really quiet. Not participating much and she looked so far off.

Carol noticed and was a little worried as was John. "Spencer dear are you ok?"

Spencer seemed to snap out of it. "I'm fine."

"Your quiet dear."

Spencer grabbed her crutches and got up to walk out of the living room.

John got up after her "Where are you going babe?"

Spencer turned to face him everything she had been thinking coming out, not being able to keep it down anymore. "I should have known. I'm so stupid. I felt something bad would happen when I saw him, and it did. My dad did the same thing to my mom, and I almost ended up just like her! How could I be so blind?"

"Spencer this isn't your fault."

"Why not? He acted like my father I should have known where it would end up. "

John grabbed her arms "It didn't end up the same way though. You alive, you fought, and made it."

Spencer started crying. "Why do I still feel beaten down then?"

John wrapped his arms around her "Because it's going to take a while for you to see he's gone. You beat the cycle. You got away, and even though it could have ended badly, it didn't. You lived."

Spencer nodded. John was right she just needed to figure out a way to get the control she lost back.

Everyone decided that it would be good to have dinner now so they all went out to eat. Maybe a lighter, happy setting would help Spencer, and to know she had a great support system who wanted her as family would help even more. John had something up his sleeve that evening. They got changed and headed for the restaurant.

"I'm so sorry for the blow up earlier. I feel embarrassed to lash out like that."

John SR patted her hand as she was sitting next to him. "You needed to let it out. Bottling up your emotions isn't good. You needed to hear that it wasn't your fault because I think you blamed yourself for what happened when you had no control over it at all."

They ate, and chatted John even signed some autographs for kids. Right before they ordered desert John turned his chair towards Spencer, and then turned hers towards him.

Spencer looked at him.

"Spencer I love you more than anything, and the feeling that I might have lost you was too much to take. I realized at that moment when I was holding you, and thinking this is it that I can't be without you. You have a part of me that no one has even come close to. I never want to have that feeling again. I felt empty, and in pieces. With you I feel whole, happy...at peace."

"John?"

John pulled a box out of his pocket and looked inside before turning it towards her. Spencer was shocked because she never would have expected this in a million years, not so soon.

"I know we haven't been together long but every day I love you a little more than I did the day before. Without you I know there would be a piece of my heart, and soul missing. I want my life to be with you now and forever, I want to wake up every day feeling the way I feel with you every moment to never end. Will you marry me?"

Spencer felt her heart swell with happiness, and love at that moment she knew where she was going. God made sure she would have this chance because one only finds a soul mate once in a lifetime.

Spencer looked deep in his eye, and she realized that the restaurant got very quiet as she nodded her head. "Yes, I will."

John breathed a relief breath out as he slide the ring her on finger, and kissed her with so much longing. They were both the better half of each other, and now they would be whole. Carol squealed with delight as the restaurant clapped, and cheered for the happy couple. John SR gave her a hug as his son released her and so did everyone else around the table.

They got home that evening and after coming down from the excitement they all went to bed John had an early flight, and Spencer would be spending time with her soon to be in laws. Carol was already anxious to start planning.

Before John left the next morning they had come to conclusion about the date, and he left with a smile on his face. 9 months from today they would say 'I Do'. September 16th would be the best day he ever had, and would always remember.