So,the chapter in which Shinji meets Rei,defeats Ramiel and is informed of the fourth and fifth child's identities.
Chapter 5-REImeil
This was not supposed be a 6k word long chapter,it just kinda happened.

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NERV Headquarters,experimentation station 02.

Unit-00 activation test.
Playing back footage

Gendo pushed his glasses up his nose,he really had to get them checked to see if they were the right size,they kept sliding off and while it did look intimidating he actually needed those and pushing them every time he wanted to see clearly was getting bothersome.

"Begin activation test." He watched with mild interest as the activation commenced,he'd never enjoyed the monotony that was watching a unit activate,thought he disliked the alternative much more when it came to unit-00 it had a tendency to go berserk. And its doing it again. Gendo took a step back as the giant continued to pound the glass,it bending and cracking under its massive fists.

"Abort the experiment,now!" He ordered with just a little bit more emotion behind his voice than normal. Gendo watched the unit eject Rei and waited with uncharacteristic impatience for the beast to run out of power so he could help the girl. To say he had not gotten attached to Rei would be a lie.

He rushed over to her ejected entry plug and burned his hands in the process of opening it,he cared little,at that moment he cared much more about Rei's well being.

"REI?!Are you alright?"When no response came from inside the entry plug he put his head inside it,relived to find a barely conscious but still very much alive Rei Ayanami,he sighed in relief as he hugged the girl,getting a small grunt of pain from her. don't ever scare me like that again rei.

Gendo watched silently as the medical crew took the young girl away,Gendo sighed,that had not been supposed to happen. He was not supposed to care for Ayanami,he was not suppose to care for his son,his whole scenario had been derailed by a single conversation with a ten year old!Yet even if all of that was not supposed to happen it did happen,he had found himself growing attached to the girl,he had grown to care for his son and he had learned that perhaps it was time he moved on...

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"So,this is what the enemy looks like from up close" Shinji looked up,to be fair he was somewhat intimidated by its sheer size,that intimidation was only worsened by the fact he could still feel some pain from his still bandaged gut. damned bastard,served you right!

And now Shinji Ikari found yet another reason to pilot,these things were fucking assholes. Seriously,they straight up attacked out of fucking no-where and killed people for no reason other than that they were in the way to their final goal,real assholes.

"Everything but the core remains intact,just perfect." Said Ritsuko in a very cheery, un-Ritsuko like voice. Shinji cataloged that voice as another item in the list of things that are annoying about Ritsuko Akagi,right next to the volume of things that are annoying about Misato Katsuragi and just before the volume about his own father. Wow,now that I think about it,a lot of people in my life are pretty annoying...maybe its me?Nah couldn't be right? OK he did admit he was somewhat easily annoyable but not to the point everything annoyed him,he could stand Aida and Suzuhara.now,he added mentally. For fuck's sake me,your undermining my own point!

"So,did we find anything new yet?"Ritsuko simply answered that question by leading them to a computer and analyzing the answer,and as Shinji predicted the code had come back as '601'.Now that interested Shinji,what were angels made out of?Adam's own genetic material?Their own?Had they come from LCL as Lilin had?Was that something that was explained in the Dead-sea scrolls?The scientist in him,something he'd inherited from his mother, was rather pissed at not having an answer to these questions. Perhaps he could use his,or more accurately his father's,throne level access to find out,if there even was an answer to that question .He was probably overthinking something relatively simple.

"But you've at least found out its power source,haven't you?" Misato asked as she leaned In closer to her friend. The S2 Engine,or more correctly the S2 organ was indeed interesting,mostly due to the lack of information on how it worked,even SEELE and his father had at best a basic understanding of it,all that was known is that it could produce infinite energy,whether or not I meant it could create a blast powerful enough to destroy the planet or simply regenerate lost energy without external output was unknown,thought that would be tested soon enough,he had heard this angel's S2 organ would be sent to NERV-nevada for testing in Evangelion unit 4.

"Yes,however we've not found out how it operates at all." Ritsuko Shinji's own thoughts about the mystery that was the S2 engine."And although they are made out of an entirely different matter. Their actual composition mirrors that of humans at 99.89%"

"99.89%..."Misato said with no small amount of shock,Shinji expected that,angels were human after all,simply not Lilin,what 'humanity' was normally thought of as. Which was indeed an odd thought,could they even be considered a different species?They looked nothing alike and yet the similarities on a physical level were of 99.89%.

Shinji then noticed his father walk by and piece of the core being lowered down from a crane,he considered going there and talking to him but decided he was probably far too busy for that. He did however notice some pretty nasty looking burns in his father's hands,those certainly had to have been new,he would noticed them before if they weren't. Then again Shinji had only seen his father 4 years ago,it was not unlikely he could have gotten that wound in such a large time-frame.

"What's up Shinji-kun?" Misato asked,She must have noticed him get stuck in his own thoughts.

"Nothing." Was his stupid reply,now he knew she would push it,he should have said something like 'just thinking about school' or 'wondering what we're eating tonight' but he had gone with the answer that most obviously said,there's clearly something going on.

"You do know saying nothing like that only makes people pay more attention to you right?"He did know that,he'd just forgotten.

"Ugh,you got me,i was just curious about how my father got his burns." He replied honestly,not like there was a point in lying about such unimportant things.

"Burns?" Misato asked with a confused expression before remembering about the burns on the commander's hands. She was also quite curious about what had injured the high and mighty commander of NERV,perhaps an oven?That was a hilarious thought,the commander of NERV,one of the most influential men in the world,burning his hand while cooking. "Do you know what happened Rits?"

"oh...that,it was before you came to NERV,Unit 00 had a berserker accident. The pilot was trapped inside."

"Ayanami correct?" He asked,poor girl,he'd read the gist of the reports,multiple fractures,broken ribs and the plug had overheated. The girl had probably been in immense pain,thought it was highly unlikely she'd shown any. But if he'd read the reports right,which he had. Then there must have been a mistake because he remembered nothing about him in the report.

"yes,the commander rescued her,burned his hands opening the super heated hatch"Now THAT surprised Shinji,His father risking his guts to save Ayanami,interesting. Perhaps your not such a heartless bastard after all.

"Really?"The disbelief in his voice was quite real,his father probably wouldn't do that for him,to think he'd risk his hide for Ayanami,have you of all people grown attached father?ironic.

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Shinji disliked physical education,why?It was an ineffective method of growing muscle and losing weight,that's why,he'd grown up with the best possible teachers putting him through hell so he could be the best EVA pilot ever and as such he had always had an easy time with these types of ball games which of course made them un-competitive due to their ease and seeing as they couldn't build muscle either he found them both boring and pointless.

"Man,they've all got incredible breasts."He heard Toji say happily beside him,he himself had no interest in them,not that he had no interest in women in general,just not in his classmates, he found none truly attractive,not even Ayanami,which was just too odd looking to be considered attractive per was also partially his sister,so no.

"Hey,bro"Toji's voice brought Shinji out of his internal monologue about his lack of interest in any of his classmates. "What are you looking at so intently?" He asked in a rather suggestive tone.

"Nothing" Shinji's tone was cold,not an excuse merely the reality of the situation. "Just thinking."

"You were looking at Ayanami right?" Kensuke said as he wiggled his eyebrows.

"No." Was his simple,short reply, he hoped that would put the whole matter to rest,but of course it didn't,things just couldn't go right for him now could they?So instead Kensuke continued pushing.

"Come on,you think I'm stupid?"Kensuke said.

"Ayanami's boobs."Toji started. Were not actually that impressive,they were, all things considered,normally sized,not that it was bad or anything it simply a fact.

"Ayanami's thighs"Toji contined much to Shinji's displeasure,he never understood his 2 friends attraction to thighs and even so that was not their Weirdest fetish,that would probably be...

"AYANAMI'S CALVES?!"They both shouted in unison. That,that would be their weirdest fetish,their weird thing with calves .Seriously what in the fuck was so great about a woman's calves?they talked about them all the time. It was sorta creepy to Shinji and he piloted a cybernetic God made out of the mother of all mankind with his dead mother's soul inside it.

"No...its just,she seems alone I suppose?"She looked like she lived in her own self-contained bubble,separate from the outside world as if reality didn't exist for her outside that bubble,she simply went trough the motions of living. No,not living,surviving,she ate she slept she went to the bathroom,she did tests at NERV she checked in with the commander for orders,yes she did anything BUT live. He decided he would help her live a little. As such he got up and headed towards the boy's locker room. There he looked through his phone's contacts until he saw the one that read 'Bastard.' and called it.

"This better be important Third,i am currently occupied." His father was currently in business bad for him that Shinji was not in 'be a bitch and obey' mode.

"Go fuck yourself." That little code phrase he'd made up would likely always piss off his father and that was enough to make him smile.

"What do you want Shinji?" His father had drooped the act and now showed his full annoyance at having been interrupted in the middle of work,not that Shinji cared much if his father was annoyed, He enjoyed it actually.

"Can I borrow your favorite toy,she's totally miserable." wha?why would he want anything to do with Ritsu-Oh,he was probably talking about Rei. Gendo thought as he went through his share of the paperwork

"Do anything stupid and I castrate you"Was Gendo's reply before hanging up the phone. The fact his father would probably actually do something like that if he hurt Rei kinda scarred him,Good for him then that he had no such intentions. Well,i suppose that's one more goal to add to my list,Make Ayanami happy,after all what kind of 'brother' would i be if i didn't. He smiled,perhaps he wouldn't be so friendless after all...

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Shinji disliked the smell of blood,that was a pretty normal thing for someone to dislike,after all smelling blood did not normally mean good things had happened,however when one's job is being submerged in a titan's blood it was rather inconvenient to dislike the taste and smell of blood. And his mind was wondering off again during a test,that was usual for him,he'd often loose focus which would drop his points a little but he could gain them back easily so he didn't bother to always keep his focus. Thankfully Unit-00 hadn't gone berserk again which meant he didn't have to fight,even if temporarily,another Eva.

He watched with mild interest as Rei hopped off her entry plug and in front of the commander where she almost seemed like a normal girl,she laughed she smiled she even spoke back in what he at least assumed were not overly formal one-liners,he hoped on day he could reach that level with the girl,they were after all related which meant it should be easy to approach her,or it would be if she wasn't so...well Rei.

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Shinji was pretty sure he had just walked into a god damned ghetto,seriously this place looked like it had been nuked,N2 mined and then stomped by an angel, it was a dump. He had not expected Rei to be well at y'know living but this was ridiculous!He was pretty much steeping in trash as he walked inside. Fucking hell on earth that place felt like.

He walked Inside what he assumed at least was Rei's room. Why are those bandages still here?She should have thrown them out ages ago. He had to control himself to make sure he didn't start sub-consciously cleaning the entire dammed neighborhood.

A piece of glass catches his view. some glasses?Wait aren't these?

"Father's?" He finished out loud. He puts them on,they do help his vision somewhat,perhaps he needed some?He would look into that later with . Not like he minded wearing glasses,and father did have some good sense of style when it came to eyesight he would buy the same brand if he did need them?How much would that cost?He did get a pretty good wage.

He turned around and there she was,Rei Ayanami herself,perhaps he should be flustered by the fact she was naked?He didn't really care thought,weird. She took a few hurried steps towards him,she was pissed,he knew that look,it was his mother's look when she was pissed but didn't want to show it .She'd died when he was 5,how did he remember this again?Questions for when Ayanami is not trying to murder me and SHIT I FELL. And am now right on top of her,and groping her,wait am I in a Mecha harem anime or something,cause this shit doesn't happen in real life!

"will you get off?"There was a slight tone of annoyance beneath her clam demeanor.

"Noooo,i was planning on staying here for the day."Shinji replied sarcastically as he got up and looked away.

"I do not believe you have come here to make sarcastic remarks pilot Ikari,what is it you want?"Right now he'd say for the last 5 minutes to be a dream.

"Card,i was asked to deliver your card,its just been renewed." He sated as he attempted to put his eyes anywhere but his naked sister's back. "Ritsuko forgot to deliver it so she gave it me,lazy on her part if I do say so my sel-" And she'd left. He chased after but didn't try to start conversation,that would simply make things more awkward than they already were. They were both headed in the same direction,which didn't help.

They arrived at NERV-Headquarters,Rei attempted to swipe her card through the checkpoint entrance only for it to be rejected. Shinji swiped her new card through the checkpoint himself.

"Your new card,if you had listened to me in the apartment this wouldn't have happened."He was in a particular bad mood because of not only her reaction early but also Misato's Shit cooking,she did not help when she ripped the card of his hand. He sighed,why was she attempting to escape him,they were both headed the same way.

"Aren't you afraid of piloting?" He knew the answer to the question yet he still wanted to hear her piloting philosophy,his was 'Not for myself but for others'.

"Why?" The way she structured the question made it seem as if it was something natural to pilot,as if it something everyone did and that there was no reason to be afraid.

"Weren't you the one who was badly injured in the last test?"It was a rhetorical question,to make her see why it would be normal for her to be afraid.

"Aren't you commander Ikari's son?"She asked,he wondered where her reasoning was headed. He nodded in response.

"Don't you have faith in your father's work?" He did,he had faith in his father's work but he had no faith in the Evangelions themselves,well except for his own unit.

"Of course I do,i just don't have faith in the Evangelion's themselves"He answered,Rei choose to stay silent for the rest of the trip towards their changing rooms.

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Gendo looked at the now activate unit-00 and thought of deploying it against the incoming angel. No,Rei had a lower Synch ratio than the third and a much more unreliable unit,they would be stuck with Shinji and unit-01 once again.

"Rei,your test was a success,you may return now."Gendo was nervous about the battle,sending Unit-01 out alone was always a risk to his scenario and he hated taking risks almost as much as he hated hospitals. The thought of the accursed buildings did nothing but deepen his unease about the coming battle.

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Shinji was actually kind of pumped for the battle,he was pretty pissed off today and shooting something at that moment would feel fucking did see Ayanami watch him prepare for battle In one the catwalks,he gave her a thumbs up,thought she couldn't see it.

"Primary lock release confirmed,Unit-01 is ready for launch on my part." He said as he checked over everything one last time,Synchro started,check. Cable,check. Primary restraints off,check. All that was missing were the secondary and launch restraints and he was good to battle whatever he found up there.

"Launch!"He heard Misato say a few minutes after he finished his own mental checklist. All he felt from that moment onward was nausea at being sent upwards at stupidly high speeds.

"Dodge!"Was the last thing he could hear before he failed to do exactly that and a lance of pure unadulterated unrefined pain hit his chest. All he heard from that moment onward were his own screams and the blaring of alarms as the Eva's chest piece was melted into goo.

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The 1/1 Scaled Fake Eva-01 balloon moved forward slowly yet steadily and raised its equally fake pistol up. Only to be blasted with the angel's beam.

"Enemy accelerated beam cannon has hit the balloon,Decoy vaporized."Informed one of the bridge bunnies. That balloon had actually taken quite a bit of time to make and if they ever needed it again it would be a pain in the ass to arrange.

"Send out the automatic cannon."Misato ordered as she watched the screen intently. The cannon let off a powerful shoot but was blocked by the Angel's AT field and then pulverized.

"Type-12-B Mortar-cannon destroyed."The poor cannon had gotten way over killed,the explosion being some 5 or 6 times the cannon's own size. While the cannon had failed at killing the enemy it had given them important data to work with.

"From the dare we've collected we can assume the target can destroy anything within a certain radius,its shown capability of melting even through the strongest of metals."That proved to be a problem,if the angel could engage any enemy in such a large range that left them with little options but to try and breach its AT field form afar and that was an incredibly difficult affair to pull off.

"At field status?" Misato same bridge bunny as before continued "Strong enough to repel any attack,its making visible spatial changes in 've attempted everything from artillery,bombs,aircraf,guided missiles, .nothing is breaching its field ma'am"

"What about the drill?"Misato asked in a concerned tone,that thing was proving more powerful than anything they had faced before and Shinji was still in the hospital. Damn,this is a real issue!

"Its drilling directly above us and will breach all 21 of NERV's armor layers in less then 10 hours."That meant that they had at least Some time.

"what about the evangelion units?"

"Unit 00 is still not cleared for combat,unit 1 suffered damage in all armor plates before being retrieved. Replacement should take a maximum of 3 hours and minimum of 2."Ritsuko explained as she watched a melted off armor plate of Unit-01 pass by.

"What about its pilot?"Misato asked nervously.

"He has suffered minor burns but is otherwise stable,he'll live." The question was if he would pilot after that. The last time he had felt extreme pain he'd nearly left NERV,and by his screams at least this seemed much worse,and if Shinji didn't pilot. we're all doomed. Misato thought.

"Perhaps its time we surrender." While Misato did indeed think they had very small odds of survival she was not ready to surrender quite yet,she had a plan. now to have the commander approve it.

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Am I dead?is this the afterlife? why does it look so much like a NERV hospital?Is there bread in heaven?Shinji noticed someone had entered his hospital room,he shifted his eyes in their general direction.

"Ayanami?" He was curious as to why the girl had come to visit him,as far as he knew she didn't really like him after what had happened at her department. Perhaps she'd come to apologize?That was highly unlikely but a nice thought none the less.

Now he just needed his head to stop feeling like it had been hit repeatedly by a train.

"I'm here to inform you on the operation Yashima timetable,it shall begin at midnigth,00:00 hours." thanks Ayanami,just one question,WHAT IN THE FUCK IS OPERATION YASHIMA?! "Pilots Ikari and Ayanami are to arrive by the cage at 17:30" I was also under the impression your unit was not cleared for combat,the fuck is going on!? "At 18:00 ,both units shall activate." was I in a months long coma only to wake up to a battle or something?!Explain anything please. "The 2 units will then arrive at the temporary base at mount Futago at 18:30,there the 2 units are to await further orders"She then threw a plastic bag with a plugsuit inside it at his bed. "Your new suit."

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"This thing wasn't exactly built for field operation,are you sure it'll work?"Shinji was indeed somewhat skeptical of the giant rifle in front of him.

"There is no other choice if it fails then so be it, we must try nonetheless" Ritsuko responded,So she and all of NERV were putting the fate of the entire world on something that might not even work?wonderful,just fucking perfect.

"Great..."He turned towards Misato hoping that she would say anything to ease his worry over the fact that they were about to use an untested weapon as their last resort.

"Shinji.." Misato turned to look at Shinji,he simply lifted his head to meet her eyes,the light behind them illuminating her body. "Your unit will be in gunner position." at least I get to shoot it. And while that did ease Shinji's worries somewhat,he was quite proud of his accuracy after all,he was still worried about the probability of success,8.7% the magi predicted.

"I'll try not to disappoint." And while Shinji had meant that in a more comedic way his worry had come across in his voice. Suppose training can't really stop you from worrying when the chips are down.

"Rei you will cover on unit-00" The fact that unit-00 was also out on the battlefield was a really bad sign too,it meant they were desperate enough to use a unit that had not been cleared for combat yet. Shinji hoped they wouldn't need unit 00. And he did have on more worry..

"What happens if I miss?"Shinji wasn't planning on missing,but if he did he wanted to now the consequences.

"Don't think like that,you must kill it in the first shoot" The fact she refused to answer most likely meant he would die if he missed the shoot,that only worsened Shinji's anxiety about the coming battle.

"Its time,get geared up"Misato ordered,and both the pilots went to do so.

A few Minutes later Shinji was already on his own plugsuit and looking down at the ground. Ayanami had seemed completely calm about the entire situation,it was odd to say the least if he of all people was worried he expected Ayanami to at least show some emotion,but she didn't care about death,not like he did. I don't know if that's a good or a bad thing...

"You know,this could be your last die alive."Shinji Threw the comment into the air,if he kept his mask up he wouldn't break under the stress.

"Why do you say that?Would it not be likely for you to perish as well?" Rei found that to be out of character for the boy,he would often make witty and arrogant comments yes but never to the point of being insulting to anyone and much less in this kind of situation.

Could it be that pilot Ikari is worried?

"Hey I'm just being realistic .I am the best ratio pilot after all," Shinji managed to make it sound like his witty,arrogant self. But in reality he was extremely worried about the possibility of death.

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Japan as seen from space at that moment would seem uninhabited,its surface dotted in not a single light as its immense power output was put into a single weapon,a weapon that was in Shinji Ikari's hands.

He sighed as he laid down on the catwalk,his Evangelion's form merely a few meters to his moment of truth would be soon,the rifle was charged and ready to fire and Unit-01 was also prepared for battle.

As he thought back on his life shinji realized he had not lived much until he came to Tokyo-3,sure he had friends before but they never lasted,training had always come first until he arrived on had lived most of his life either in training or school. He thought back to the other day,the day in which he had run away from his and Misato's apartment so he could figure out his reason for piloting. What was Rei's reason he wondered.

"Why do you pilot?" His question was soft unsure as if he didn't really mean to make it, he didn't even take his eyes off the sky as he said it. Rei thought for a moment before lifting her head and answering.

"Because I'm bonded to it." Bonded?Of course Shinji knew of Rei's true nature but he did wonder just what she meant by Bonded.

"Bonded?"He continued to look up as he made the question,he counted the stars in the sky,he had done that since he was a child. One of the only real hobbies he'd picked up.

"Yes,its a bond"

"To father?"

"To all people

" Through Lilith?Shinji found it odd for her to think as such,she did not hold a stronger bond to all of humanity,or more specifically Lilin kind,simply by her blood. She was no more or less human than he was simply because of what she was. He then fell down on his back and started laughing Which gained Ayanami's attention quite quickly and a confused look.

"Your really weird you know that Ayanami?"He said as he got up and stretched his arms out. "Lets go kill this thing and go home shall we?"Shinji now had a smile on his face his worries lessened if only for that moment.

"Goodbye pilot Ikari" Rei said with a fain tone of sadness as she prepared to enter her evangelion.

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Shinji was as ready as he would ever be,and all things considered rather hopeful. He believed in his abilities as a marksman,he'd trained his entire life for moments like these,in which humanity's hope lay on his shoulders. No pressure. Just pull the trigger and fire enough energy to pulverize a city into the damned thing,simple as that.

The countdown begun,his breathing accelerated slightly,his hands twitched,he gripped the controls harder than he ever had in his life.

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7...

He could still recall the pain he'd felt when he was first deployed against this thing,he felt as if his own flesh was melting while being pricked by a thousand needles,but he couldn't think about it,not now.

They believe in me so I should believe in me right? He blinked hard and tried to control his breathing.

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5...

Only a few more seconds and he'd deliver more destructive power than a Nuclear bomb could,all in a neat little blue,at least he assumed it would be blue,beam.

Breathe in,breath out.

….3...

Shinji could hear the Crew speak about something,he didn't know what,all he could hear was his own breathing in the LCL as he prepared to fire. His hand twitched once more,3 more seconds and he would fire,only 3 more seconds.

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1...

He heard shouting from the intercom,perhaps they had told him to hold fire?Too late now,Shinji couldn't hear them even if they had. His mental countdown reaches pulls the trigger. He sees a flash of White and Purple,the Sky is filled with color for but a moment,in the next Shinji can feel the Eva's Entry plug shake violently.

I missed...He saw the explosion in the distance,far off from his target,he had missed. He was dead,he didn't know why that thought was so melancholic,perhaps it was because it would all end soon and he found no will to be terrified any more?Perhaps it was simply because he couldn't process the information correctly,he was going to DIE.And so would Misato and his father and Aynami...

He found it almost funny really,that at that moment he was more worried about the lives of Misato Katsuragi Rei Ayanami and Gendo Ikari than his own,perhaps because he found little worth in it. He sees the lance of light belonging to the angel come for him,he does not close his eyes,no,he would face death with open arms.

Even so he braces for pain,but It never comes,instead he sees the back of unit-00 as it defends him from the massive shoot.

"Ayanami..." He said in but a whisper,before he could even process the fact a beam was headed directly towards him she had jumped in the line of fire to save him. Even with the light partially blinding him he could see the Heat Shield of the unit melt into goo. The magi would take too long to adjust the aim.

This is so stupid. Shinji manually aimed the rifle,quite arrogant of him to think of his aim as superior to that of a super computer,but at that moment he didn't care. He raised the rifle ever so slightly and pulled the trigger. White light filled the sky and pierced through the angel,a shower of flame coming from both sides of where it was hit,its massive form crashes into the city.

"Ayanami!" He rushes his Eva to that of Ayanami's and rips part of its armor off,the entry plug extending out of Unit-00's back and spraying its LCL out.

Shinji rushes out of his own unit and pulls her hatch open burning his hands rather badly in the process.

Great one more thing to be similar to father about. Was something he would think of later,at that moment he was far too worried to care.

"AYANAMI!ARE YOU ALRIGHT" No response "REI!" she shifted her weight slightly and opened her eyes,Shinji sighed in relief.

"Never do that goodbye before a mission."He cleans his eyes.

I'm crying now great. "It just invites trouble." He started sobbing as tears fell down his face. The whole day had been far too stressful for him,he didn't think he could take it if he had also caused Ayanami's death,he would make her see she wasn't replaceable,even if it cost him his life.

"I apologize pilot ikari,i dont know how to feel or act in a moment like this." In response Shinji let out a small laugh in between sobs and pat her on the head.A gesture which felt oddly comforting and soothing to Rei.

"How about you smile for a start." And so for the first time in her life Rei Ayanami smiled at someone that wasn't the commander.

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Shinji waited silently in the grave-yard,he, unlike most people was not scared of walking through a grave-yard at night,fighting monsters the size of skyscrapers made you much less worried about silly superstitions like ghosts and spirits.

He wondered how many of the Graves were empty like the one directly in front of him.

Ikari Yui

1977-2004

He couldn't read the words in the darkness but he knew them well,he was standing before his mother's grave,why in the middle of the night and on that day in particular?His father had called for a non-official meeting with him,as far as everyone was aware he was still home sleeping his worries away.

"I see you've come." His fathers voice came from behind him.

"I never miss these little bonding times of ours now do I?It insults me you'd think I would."Shinji said with no small amount of sarcasm in his voice.

"This is important." The fact his father had not graced his taunt with a response meant it was indeed rather important. His father passed him a couple of files,none of which he could read in the darkness.

"What do these say?"They were likely nothing about the instrumentality project or about their scenario,if that was the case his father wouldn't have given him paper files.

"Information on the fourth and fifth children."That peeked Shinji's interest, due to the fact that the

Marduk institute was a farce it meant that his father thought they might need spare pilots and/or units in the future.

"You don't think Rei and I can make the cut?" That was a genuine question he had,why his father would choose someone untrained was beyond him,he would have known if there was a third pilot in the Lazarus project,there was meant however he had chosen had 0 training.

"A precaution,their names however might be familiar to you. Third child,Toji Suzuhara and fourth child Kensuke Aida." Shinji's eyes widened,he clenched his fists in anger. If he didn't respect his father as much as he did the man would probably have a black eye right about now.`

"Why th-No..." He Cut himself off from going on a rant. "You know what,i trust you have a reason for this." His father merely nodded,its likely he wouldn't say anything else if pushed.

Great,keeping secrets again. "Can I at least tell them myself?" He Father must have expected that reaction for he grinned.

"You will be not only be informing them yourself,you will train them to the best of your ability,you are free to disclose limited information about the Lazarus project." Shinji Sighed,that made him at least a bit more confident in their chances of survival,he reckoned he had some 3-5 months before their units arrived

,he would make those months painful for the 2,but it would be for their own good.Let's hope we never need to actually send them out to real combat shall we?

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This chapter was wayyyyyy longer than I initially intended it to next chapter will be the first one not to be based on any episode of the series,so it will likely be much more flawed than the rest,however i'll do my ,this chapter's original name was 'the mysterious case of Rei Ayanami' but since i decided to put most of episode 6 in as well i renamed it to REImiel