Act 61

Authors Chat: Yes, I'm cruel. *grin* get a toothbrush for the cavities and enjoy.

That being said... -thoughts- "speech" *sounds*

Disclaimer: all the usual applies. Characters etc. the work of Nakamura Yoshiki.

Ren held her in his arms thinking hard about their spat. He had never felt so strongly in an argument as Ren than he had just now. He was starting to understand what people meant when they said a relationship takes work.

His past relationships had been so easy. The woman confessed, they dated, he went along with it when the woman seemed ready for a physical relationship, he gave them what they wanted, and when they wanted to leave him, he let them have that too.

This newfound greed for love and her attention was a whole nother animal.

"Would you like to know a secret?"

Kyoko nodded, her head still burried in his chest.

"I've never been in love before. You're my first. It's such an overwhelming feeling, I'm excited, and scared at the same time. I'm scared I'll do something to scare you off, or you'll find you don't like who I really am and leave. I'm excited to see you each time we meet, and it fills my heart to hear your voice." He lifted her chin. "I really do love you Kyoko. And I want to experience so much with you. Much more than ever before."

Kyokos eyes grew wet as tears pooled against her lower lids. "I'm so sorry Ren. I feel silly for being mad, but I can't help it. I have only known Sho and a silly young girls feelings of love. We both know how that ended. Maybe I'm too idealistic. Maybe a pure Japanese maiden isn't the way to view love."

Ren shook his head. "Don't ever think that. You are good, and pure, no matter how much you do or do not know of love. It's your heart, Kyoko, that is pure. No amount of physical intimacy can change that. It is only what you allow it to be."

"No. My heart IS tainted by that Baka, Sho. It's all turned black!" She wailed as the tears spilled down her eyes.

"You're wrong! As much as I dislike that guy, I need you to hear me." He picked her up princess style and brought her into the living room, depositing her gently on the sofa, and sat beside her, facing her.

"Your heart is not black. Your love for him was pure," the L word left distaste in his mouth given the context. "HE was the one who couldn't see it."

"But when I swore revenge on him, all the light faded!"

"The light didn't fade, it just got covered up. Revenge is something that can change you, but it depends how you choose to go about it. You remember way way back when we met at LME and you told me about your goal and I got mad? Saying revenge isn't some reason to pursue the entertainment industry?"

She nodded tearily.

"Well there are other ways you could have gone about revenge. Much more evil ways. You never once tried to tarnish his reputation or image, at least I think you didn't. You never hired a hit-man right? You never revealed any of his personal life. You chose your revenge to be better than him, and decided then to rebuild yourself. Make yourself better. I wish you would forget that guy but I know your history is an important part of you. You never quashed that light Kyoko. You simply kept it locked away. I only wish you could see what I see... you're amazing Kyoko."

She didn't know what to say. She simply looked up at him, with glistening eyes and tear stained cheeks. How did this man understand so much about her heart?

Ren leaned down and kissed her lips softly. His gentle kiss easily conveying his thoughts on her purity.

Her emotions were overwhelming her, and a whimper of resignation left her lips, causing Ren to kiss her again, a little longer, a little more firmly though still chaste.

She melted against his chest and he let her relax into him.

"I love you." He whispered into her hair.

She looked up into his eyes, searching for any hint of resistance , trying to convey her unsaid love for him, then leaned in and kissed him.

He wrapped his arms around her and leaned back on the sofa, pulling her with him as they kissed. This moment wasn't about lust, though it was definitely there. This moment was about making her feel her worth to him. Conveying all things unsaid between them. His heart and body yearning for her.

Her heart yearning for all the love and acceptance he freely offered.

He rolled her over then, moving them from sitting to fully laying the length of the sofa as he cradled her in his arms, his warmth enveloping her like a soft blanket.

His lips kissed the corner of her mouth, playing there as she turned her mouth to meet his. Her body wiggled as she turned into him, her legs entwined with his own.

Passion then sparked as his desire for her grew. His hands moved from her back, one hand reaching into her hair, the other moving down to pull her closer against him as he pressed his arousal into her.

Their breathing became heavy as the once-innocent kiss became anything but. His mouth forcing hers open, granting him entrance as she tangled her hand in his hair. Her other hand, reaching up around his neck as she pulled herself closer, her chest heaving in deep breaths, as her body gently rocked against him.

"Mmph" he grunted as he gently forced her body away from his and released his hold on her.

She searched his eyes for an answer to her unsaid question of Why.

"Too much," he leaned away and closed his eyes.

She didn't understand. Why was he pushing her away?

"What?" She asked confused.

He shook his head. "I'm loosing control" he said with tense words as he tried to calm down.

"Is that bad?" Kyoko asked, her breaths still heavy, but genuinely asking.

-ugh. It's too easy to forget how innocent she is.-

"It's only bad if you aren't ready for a reprise of Natsu and Katsuki." He growled velvet as he sat up.

The natural flush from their activity darkened in her cheeks as realization dawned on her. She had felt him pushing against her as she moved against him. She knew he was silently begging for release.

She sat up, her legs still laid over his own. She reached her hand up and into his hair to make him look at her.

"No. But... isn't there something I can do? M...maybe another 'Lesson'?"

He laughed for a moment, "do you realize what you're asking?"

She nodded slowly. "M-masturbation" she whispered.