Im so sorry, I would never normally do this but I...i am on the edge. I want to die and I see very few reasons why I shouldnt. I hate myself. I hate it. I hate this and I want it to stop. I dont even feel real. Hurting myself isnt good enough this is a last resort. You guys have actually made me feeel like im worth something, like maybe im actually good at something but I just cant. Im so sorry. I might try to sleep, I dont know whats going to happen, just..your messages mean everything to me and its so so selfish of me to ask and I hate it but please..i just need something.