It's just them in the girls bathroom, no one else is there, Caroline made sure of it. The pregnant girl shakes her head slowly as she walks over to the sinks before looking at her reflection in the mirror. Caroline is standing by one of the stalls a few feet away, walking over slowly to her friend. "Alexis, What's going on...?" She asks softly, no judgement in her voice which is a little strange for her but not strange as this is her best friend though thick and thin they stay side by side, keeping each others darkest secrets. The brunette lets out a breath, dropping her eyes down before turning to look at her friend.
"I slept with Matt." Alexis admits softly and the blonde's eyes widen slightly in surprise. Caroline takes in a deep breath, waiting a moment to process those words and thinking of a careful response because of how much it means.
"So are you two..?"
"We aren't together." Alexis admits and Caroline is looking at her, face so soft and sympathy for her stained onto it. Caroline knows just how much Alexis loves that boy and how much it hurts her to do so, especially when he was with Elena but now, maybe, they could have a chance. The look on Alexis face tells her she isn't too sure about that, that it'd be too hard yet in the same way she looks hopeful for it to.
"When did this even happen?"
"Two weeks after Elena and he ended it." She admits, she just wanted him so much in that moment she didn't care but now reality has hit. She just hopes when Elena finds out she won't take it too hard, she never once meant to hurt her sister with what she did.
"Wow, that...Elena is not going to be happy." Caroline breaths out not really knowing what to say but saying the wrong thing. Alexis lets out a sharp huff, arms dropping to her sides as she look up at her with in incredulous look on her face as she seriously brought up Elena right now.
"Don't you think I know that?" Alexis snaps out, a little harsher than needed causing the blonde to recoil, eyes widening in surprise at the girls sudden harshness. Alexis eyes softens after a moment before she deflates, letting out a sigh and reaching a hand to rest on her forehead. "Sorry Care-"
"It's okay..I know but was Matt your first?" She questions, walking over closer to Alexis, placing a hand on her lower arm. The pregnant teen presses her lips together, frowning letting out a hurt breath before looking back up to meet Caroline's blue eyes.
"Yeah, he was, and we aren't even together." Alexis confesses, hurt in her voice and Caroline presses her lips together pulling her friend into a hug, knowing she needs it. Alexis melts into the hug.
"I'm sorry, 'Lexis, I know how much he means to you." Caroline mumbles in the hug and Alexis hugs her tightly, taking comfort in her best friend. After a while Caroline pulls back slowly, but not stepping back, her hands now resting on Alexis upper arms. "And now...?" She's asking the lingering question of 'are you pregnant' and Alexis wants to tell her but the words won't leave her lips it's like her tongue is tied as she thinks that Matt is entitled to know before her.
"Don't ask that please. I can't tell you yet." Alexis pleads and Caroline's lips twitch up slowly because she knows, of course Caroline would love if Alexis told her now she understands why she isn't.
"Okay..well talk about it when your ready. I'll be here no matter what you choose." The blonde agrees, nodding her head softly.
"Thank you Caroline... but we should probably get back to class now."
"Come on." Caroline gives her a small chuckle before pulling her out of the bathroom. As they walk through the hall Caroline looks to Alexis with a playful grin. "So was it at least good..."
"Caroline!" She scolds at her friend with no real heat in it, Caroline simply laughs and Alexis just shakes her head, laughing but mostly in relief, feeling lighter even if she didn't exactly tell Caroline everything, she didn't need get back to class and Tanner is annoyed at them but a remark from another student has him giving that student detention, forgetting about the two girls. Alexis settles back in her chair feeling a little lighter, she smiles at the new guy when she catches his eye before she looks to her other side over to Matt and he's already looking at her. The bell rings, class is over. Students start to leave the room to get to next class, Caroline drags her to the next class without a moments hesitation.
The cool wind gently blows on her skin, sending a cold shiver through her as she walks into the almost eerily silent cemetery accompanied by her sister, who is quite and lost in thought as they move to sit by their parents grave stone but she stays standing for a moment. It always hurts when she comes here and it will probably always hurt.
She lets herself fall to her knees gently, a small breath of air falling from her lips as she looks at the names of her parents etched into grey stone before her. It's a dull ache in her heart, in her soul, inside of her, a void of where something should be but was torn away all to soon and it hurts. It still hurts and she's not sure that pain will ever stop but with time it will dull. Her parents may be dead but now she's bringing a life into this world, maybe it's a way of nature trying to apologize and it's just really horrible timing but in reality she knows it's more than that, that's why she is scared.
She's about to be a parent herself and her own parents are dead, she has to do this without them. She knows she'll have people there for her, hell, she knows if she picked up the phone John would be here as soon as he could, for some reason he always rushes over when Alexis call. She knows she won't be alone but she also knows people will be disappointed in her and that she will lose people because of this but in the end if they leave, they weren't really a friend.
She thinks about Matt, how she will have to tell him in probably within the next hour or two. She had told Matt to meet her at her house after she visits her parents grave and she'd text him when she was there. She lets out a sharp breath trying not to think about that until she's there and fores her eyes away from the stone and toward her younger twin.
"Hey 'Lena.." Alexis starts carefully, capturing her sisters attention, causing the older to look up at her but Alexis continues before Elena speaks up. "Do you think that you could go to Care's or Bonnie's after this? I kind of have to talk with Jen about a few things..." She speak quietly, carefully and nervously, purposely not mentioning Matt is going to come over so they can talk before she talks to Jenna. Elena looks up to her sister with concern on her face.
"What is going on, 'Lexis?" Elena breaths out, looking at her sister with such a soft broken look on her face.
"'Lena..." The younger twin sighs, looking away from her twin but Elena isn't having it, she has no idea what is going on with Alexis and she hates it. Elena doesn't understand why her sister is pushing her away so far when they are always better, always stronger, side by side.
"And what was that with Matt today? Why did Caroline pull you out of Class? What is going on?, I don't even know if you're okay and I'm actually scared, Alexis." Her sister sounds so hurt, it pulls at Alexis heart strings making her frown as her sister stares at her, wanting answers. Alexis eyes flick up to her sisters face, feeling guilty keeping this from her.
"I know, I'm so sorry Elena and I swear I will tell you but I can't today." She stresses desperately and quietly, eyes pleading. Elena sighs, face softening at her younger twin, pressing her lips together and waiting a moment before nodding.
"I'll head to Bonnie's and we can meet at the grill later.." Elena agrees quietly.
"Thank you, 'Lena." She breaths out in relief.
"But, 'Lexis, you need to know whatever this is I am here for you and nothing you could ever do would change that." Elena assures her and Alexis wants to believe her but she doesn't really know if Elena will still think that once she learns the complete truth of what is going on. Alexis just gives her something similar to a smile before Elena turns back, pulling a pen and dairy from her school bag that she's had forever but would never trade. A dairy, they both have one, Elena tends to take hers places with hers, writing whenever she needs while Alexis keeps hers at home, writing only in the morning after she wakes or when she's about to sleep though she wants to start writing in it more now, like a pregnancy journal to one day show her child.
She gets lost in thought for a while as Elena write in her diary, she somehow finds it in her to relax, letting the cool wind blow against her and taking even breaths. She's snapped out of it, eyes flicking back to her sister at the sound of fluttering wings only to see a crow on their parent grave stone and the sound of Elena gasping, jolting at the sight of the crow. Alexis jolts back a little, finding it strange that a crow would come so close to them when crows try to stay away from larger predators, or at least she thinks that.
"Okay, that's not creepy at all." Alexis huffs knowing some kinds of birds can be an omen of sorts, usually one of death, making it very unsettling, hand instinctively going to her stomach for a moment, a movement Elena doesn't catch. Elena just nods in agreement for a moment before she sets her diary to the side as she learns forward batting at the bird, scolding it and shooing it away.
"That's what I thought." Elena huffs turning to her sister wearing a smile of victory but it soon falls from the older twins face when the crow girls share a questioning look as the air around them becomes thick as fog starts to slowly ascend around the cemetery. Alexis pushes herself up to her feet, spinning as she captures sight of a silhouette in the corner her vision. She takes a step back and apparently her sister has seen it as well. She has a bad feeling about this, she shoots her sister a look before she just runs.
She runs, sticks and leaves crushing under her feet as she runs. Her boot clips on a stray branch on the ground sending her staggering off balance. Her eyes squeeze shut as she looses balance completely, falling to the ground but before she can hit the ground, hands wrap around her, this time on her upper arms, preventing her from falling.
She groans, opening her eyes to look at the person before her only to relax seeing it's the new guy from school, she actually lets out a laugh as he drops his hands from her. He looks at her gently as she tilts her head, grinning. "Thanks..again." She chuckles at the situation.
"It's no problem, I promise." He assures her, smile on his own on his face but playful tone in his voice. She tilts her head at him, fond look on her face,
"Always going to be there to catch me when I fall?" She jokes, smile on her lips as she looks at him. He tilt his head thoughtfully.
"Always...Only if you want me to." He promises her and she quirks a brow, not noticing his eyes flick down to her stomach, not knowing he can hear her child's heartbeat. She's taken back a little by his words yet before she can even think of saying something in response her phone buzzes in her pocket. She shots Stefan a quick apologetic look before pulling her phone out, seeing Matt has sent her a message if she's home and she curses under her breath.
"Matt." She breaths out before typing a response saying to give her ten more minutes.
"Your boyfriend?" Stefan questions, making her tears her eyes from the phone screen up to meet his and she makes a look at that description.
"He's...It's complicated but I have to go." She sighs, not really finding the words, finding it too much of a mess to explain.
"Have a nice day, Alexis."
"See you around, Stef." She tells him before walking past him and heading off, texting her sister asking if she's okay and that she's going home now. As she walks home, every step she gets closer the more nervous she gets, her stomach doing flips and her heart beating like a jackhammer but she knows she needs to do this.
Matt isn't there when she gets home, not surprising but she texts him as she comes back downstairs, having just taken another test. She's pacing around the living room as she waits for him to get here, she just can not stay still. It's not long before there's a knock at the door. She pauses in her pacing, looking over to the source of the noise. She nervously runs a hand through her long hair, having taken it out of the high pony tail minutes before. Her heart is so loud as it pounds in her chest but she pushes herself, walking to the door and forcing herself to open it,, reveling an on edge looking Matt Donovan.
"Hey." He breaths out as he looks down at her and she gives him a tight lipped forced smile as she opens the door further stepping back.
"Hey..Come in." She tells him, her voice soft and he walks in, she shuts the door behind him.
"What's going on, Alexis?" He questions, obviously worried as she turns to look at him. She looks so nervous, so scared and he doesn't understand it at all as he doesn't know yet he feels those emotions for himself because of her. She looks around, a she takes in a deep breath before looking back to him and meeting his eyes.
"I'd feel more comfortable speaking about this upstairs." She admits, wanting to be in the comfort of her room when she tells him or maybe she's just stalling for as long as possible. He looks confused for a moment but she's already moving to the stairs, heading to her room not waiting for him
"Okay.." He agrees, but she doesn't hear him, having already gone upstairs, he frowns, shaking his head standing still for a moment as he thinks about what could be happening. After a moment he takes in a deep breath and heads upstairs to talk to her.
She's sitting on the edge of her bed, pregnancy test in hand, she toke another one before he came like she needed physical proof aside from her bump to show him. She hasn't checked looked at the results because she already knows what it see, as she looks down seeing that those two little lines it's the same as every other test she has taken. Positive.
He walks into her room, he can't see what's in her hands as he stops a few feet from the door. Her eyes flick up to his and she motions, by looking down to the spot on the edge of the bed beside her, for him to sit next to her. He walks slowly, each step heavy as he moves to sit next to her on her bed. She looks back at what is in her hands, before passing it to him, not even looking at him as she does.
He takes it, furrow his brow, looking at it in his hand. It takes him a moment to realize what it is, she's pressing her lips together, her eyes are soft and she has to swallow back her fear. She turns her head, her hair falling over her shoulder to her front as she looks at him just in time to his reaction as he sees the positive result. His eyebrows hitch up, he has a look of shock on his face as he lets out a breath of air feeling as if he has just been punched in the face. His heart is beating so fast.
She looks at him presses her lips together, knowing his life is never going to be the same again and neither will hers. He's not saying anything, a hand coming up to rest on the side of his face, elbow resting on his thigh. Her eyes are watering but she swallows back her tears, after what feels like an eternity of silence he looks at her, holding the test in hand.
"You're pregnant?" He asks, voice weak because out of everything he thought she was going to tell him, pregnancy crossed his mind but he didn't think she'd actually be pregnant. She nods slowly, tears staining her cheeks.
"Yeah, yeah. I'm pregnant. " She admits quietly and it that's the first time she's said that out loud before."You're the only one I've ever had sex with." She admits and he did not know that, he can't really dwell on that fact with the realization he's having a kid.
"I'm going to be a father." He breaths out, he looks scared about it but his tone is more even and he doesn't look like he's about to run out of the room, or at all. Matt looks back down to the text, he's gotten Alexis Gilbert pregnant, a girl he's considered his best friend pregnant, leaving isn't even a thought in his mind. He never even had a father himself, his left when he was a kid, maybe although this terrifies him as they have nothing planned, they aren't ready, they can do this or at least try.
"Yeah." She breaths out, nodding.
"You want to keep it?" He asks her carefully, not trying to sound like he's suggesting anything, just wanting to know.
"I want to." She admits and he's almost surprised at the small feeling off relief he had. He sits up more straighter, hand falling of the side of his face as he look to her.
"Does anyone else know?" He asks, voice raw wondering if she's told anyone else but she shakes her head.
"I'm pregnant? No, I'm going to tell Jenna after so she can get me a doctor appointment soon but I wanted to tell you first." Alexis tells him, he finds himself nodding at that as he takes in everything. He swallows just asking questions as they come to him.
"Does anyone know about that night?"
"Jenna and Caroline." She nods and he's not too surprised at that, was kind of expecting Caroline to know. "But I haven't told Elena. I mean how would I say it? 'I lost my virginity to your first love two weeks after you broke up.'" She continues in a weak huff, shaking her head.
"Pregnant our first times having sex, it's kinda ridiculous." He agrees, slight chuckle in his voice but his eyes are also wet and she bumps their shoulders together.
"You're telling me, I have a child growing inside of me." She huffs out, mood getting a little lighter and he shakes his head at her, smiling a little. "I mean just look." She scoffs, grabbing his hand and pulling it to his stomach as she leans back a little. He's laughing softly but his laughter trails off as he moves his hand around a little bit, feeling the slight bump of their unborn child.
"You're..." He starts but can't seem to finish, as more of the reality of the situation hits him. He feels like his breath is caught in his throat, a baby, his baby, it sounds weird but it's true. There's so much to do, so much to get ready, prepare before it's here, stress and fear is creeping in.
"I am Eleven weeks." She reminds him and he pulls his hand from her stomach.
"I should go." He speaks suddenly, pushing himself to his feet and she looks up at him, getting up herself quickly.
"What?" She asks thinking she went to far having him feel her bump, he can hear the panic and fear in her voice. He looks to her and realize she must think he means leave her, he puts his hands up loosely in front of her. He cares about her, he really does it's just so complicated. So many mixed mixed emotions and hurt with them.
"No, not like that..I mean this is completely terrifying but like I..." He tries to find the words, moving his hands, grabbing her upper arms gently, trying to reassure her. "I never had a dad, this kid will, I swear but right now I have to go do something...Call me about doctors appointment."
"Oh okay." She breaths out, nodding a little relieved but also wanting to explain more right now but she understands. He looks at her pressing his lips together before stepping forward, wrapping his arms around her. She's taken back little by the action, they haven't talked since the morning after but after the initial take back she relaxes into his grip, holding him tight.
"We'll talk more." He mumbles against her hair, squeezing her tight before pulling back from her.
"See you later." She tells him quietly as he steps back, he gives her a tight lipped smile, trying to be reassuring before heading off. He's scared and so is she but they both want to do right by this child so that must mean something. Her hand goes down to her stomach and maybe, maybe everything is going to be okay. She's feels so much more lighter now someone knows but she still has to tell Jenna today. She knows Jenna will be the last of today, she can't handle telling more, leave that for another day.
Thanks for reading! Hope you enjoyed!So like Matt has a good reason for leaving at the end, her telling Jenna probably won't be a full fledged written convo more an indepth summary of it as I feel it'd get to repetitive. Oh my god though this chapter toke forever to write and I didn't even get to Jenna.
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