Hey guys, this is a very important Author's note so please read it all if you would. I've got some pressing issues with this story, and not just that but Clare as well. For a long while now I've been struggling with a lot of things, both in real life and pertaining to this story. I'll just stick to the story and spare you a sob story that I don't feel like imparting and I know you don't want to hear. Maybe I should start at the beginning with Clare's creation? When I created Clare it was during a dark time in my life, that's still persisting to this day, yet I can't seem to shake. But, when I made her it was with the intention of having something to make me laugh, smile, and clear up the pain that seems to cling to me no matter what I do. And she's done a good job of that, until the last few months when it seemed as if something about her has changed. I stopped laughing when she did something funny, or said something that was so like her, then from there I slowly looked forward to writing her less and less, and now that desire is all but nonexistent. It feels like she's… nothing special, like she's a burden to me because I can't seem to love her the way I used to. She's stopped serving her purpose, but for some reason I keep clinging to her and I can't seem to let her go. For people who don't get attached to their OC's I imagine it's very difficult to understand, but for me she's a part of me. She represents my hope, as cliché as that may sound to some of you, and I just want to stop this endless cycle that I've fallen into with her. I want to laugh about an idea I've had for her, or even just come up with something altogether. That'd be great! But I can't seem to, and as the story continues now I don't know if I will. I like the story line, but to be honest it was a way for me to try saving some love for her, and to try making her as unique as she once was. That's sadly, something that I haven't felt she is in a long time. So, I really need your guys' help! I need an opinion on what I should do! Should I continue SO? Keep it as it is now and go with the story line I had planned? If that's what you guys want I'll do it, as hard as it is. Or would you guys like to see something different? Maybe a little more conventional, but still unique in its' own way? I've been brainstorming ideas, though I'm not sure Clare will ever be as loved as she once was, I still want to try. For everyone who actually like her and enjoys what, and who she is. So what do you all think? I have some ideas and I want to list them below, along with some changes that I want you all to give me honest opinions on ok? Please guys, help me because this is really important to me. T.T
(Possible list of changes)
*Show a bit of Clare/Ascella's early life on Cybertron? Maybe give some insight into her background and her carrier?
*Have her meet her adoptive creators earlier on in her life and actually receive formal training in time to be useful during the course of the story?
*Change her adoptive creators? Or keep them Jazz and Prowl?
*Actually show her going on missions? Do you want to see her doing things of actual importance?
*Change her function to Saboteur/Infiltration/Possible assassin?
*Change her frame type? Make her taller? More imposing somehow? Do you guys like her as a grounder? Or would you like to see her as a flier?
*Keep her shipped with the twins? Or change it up? Possibly Bee, Dreadwing/Skyquake, etc…
*Do you want to see her still be close to Sam and Mikeala? Or cut them out and just make them acquaintances that she knows through the course of the movies?
*Do you guys want her Sire to stay the same? Or do you want me to make Stealthraid her actual Sire?
*Keep the healing ability? Or give her more conventional ones for Cybertronians? I have a few ideas!
*Change her personality at all? (I don't really want to change her much, but I think I may have to in order to make her a better OC) Maybe make her more confident in her abilities and who she is? Or do you like that air of uncertainty that she has to her?
*Keep Bob or give her a new pet?
*Would you perhaps like to see a blood relative from her past that actually serves as a positive influence?
*Would you still like to see her become a Prime? Or do you feel that is too cliché? I do have some ideas that would make it unique.
*What size range would you like her to be at?
-10-12 feet
-12-16 feet
-16-18 feet
If you guys can give me honest opinions on what you would like to see that would really help me a lot. I'm completely lost and I feel like no matter what I do I'm failing with Ascella. I feel like she's lost, and I really need help finding a way to make her the amazing character she used to be. Please message me and let me know what you guys think! Any advice will help!