Now I'm faced with the biggest decisions of my entire life. I can either renew my contract with WWE and continue to feel like creative is writing me into an ass clown and giving me some fake ass shit that was never me and totally isolate my entire fan base to the point of where they don't even recognize who I am. I can continue to main event and make money for the big machine and keep my family in their lavish lifestyle they are all used to. But, I'd be unhappy and worn out as fuck in the long run and have to retire before I am 40 for some useless physical injury.

I could leave WWE and not renew my contract and tell all those creative ass clowns to go fuck themselves side ways and feel like a brand new person. Take a couple of months off to relax and reinvent myself as a human. Tell them to shove Dean Ambrose up their ass because I never wanted him to begin with and reinvent myself as someone new.

I'm feeling the second one a lot. They won't let me wrestle as Dean Ambrose outside of WWE because they own the Dean Ambrose brand. It has WWE attached to it. They basically want to black ball me and make it so I can't have a career outside of them. Well, I don't care how much money they offer me. I'm not going to be someone's ass clown or slave. You're not going to force me to do anything I don't want to do. It's just going to push me further away and this was never about money or contracts or all the perks that went along with them. I could give a fuck less about all of it. I'd wrestle for free if I could. This was about pride and integrity and they were trying to take that all away by making me look like some fake ass moron out there.

Don't get me wrong. I'm not putting down the past 6 years I've had. They were awesome to me for a long time, but as soon as the political game started behind the curtain, they slowly started to disrespect me. I went out with my injury and almost died from a Staph infection and all they were worried about was my face not being on their posters or in their ring making them money. They started the Rollins Verses Ambrose story line and had me burn my SHIELD gear and attack Seth right after Roman's announcement. That doesn't just fade away.

Now suddenly Roman is back and in remission again and we're supposed to forget that I basically said The Shield made me weak and believe that we can get the band back together again? That to me was rushed and should've took more time to make it look real. Maybe have Seth and Roman go after me as a tag team and create some more tension. I get it. The heads of whatever are trying to make me look good because I was honest and told them I can't do this fake ass shit any more. I need to be real and what they were giving me wasn't real to me.

How can a reward also feel like a slap in the face? I am happy that Roman is back in the ring again. Don't get it twisted. I'm happy as fuck that he's healthy again and back on the road to being himself again. I just feel like they were dangling a carrot in front of me. "Ohhh Roman is back. You can travel with your road wife again." Ummm, are we forgetting the whole reason I don't want to renew my contract already? I'm not taking any of that back. Nothing has changed and I still don't want your money or contracts or empty promises. I'm not some horse you can take out back and shoot. I'm tired and I am tired of all the politics that go along with WWE and their creative ass clowns.

Now I have other lucrative contracts on the table and none of them have anything to do with selling my soul to the devil in order to work. I can be 100 and keep my integrity and pride intact. Dean Ambrose is dead and no longer a part of the WWE Universe. But, that doesn't mean Jonathan Good is anywhere near finished with wrestling. Keep that in mind next time you see my likeness in a wrestling promo somewhere under the name Jon Moxly. I still love my fans and I still want to give you the best wrestling match ever.