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My hair whipped around my face as I flew through the night. I was only flying in circles, but that didn't matter to me. I saw the stars blurring by as I flew as fast as I knew how. I had forgotten everything in those moments other than flying, and the focus I had to give to staying in the air. Then, in an instant, I decided to stop and hover, almost throwing myself off the broom from stopping so fast. I looked around at the stars all around me and felt almost safe, almost. There was still a nagging in the back of my mind, but for once I was able to ignore it.

I glided back down to my crutches and laid back down in the grass, looking up at the stars. I was thinking about getting up, but decided against it. I felt too calm, too peaceful, and I didn't want to.

'Up for the sunrise?"

I jumped at the sound of a voice.I looked around and spotted someone walking up to me. As they got closer I noticed it was James. He walked up and sat down in the grass next to me.

I shook my head no to answer his question and laid back down. James sat in the grass next to me.

"So how're ya holding up?" he asked.

I just shrugged my shoulders in response.

"You know my favorite constellation Leo. Wanna know why?"

I shrugged again.

"Cause its name, Leo, stands for the lion, and, well, you know being from Gryffindor House and all. It's stupid really," he said chuckling and rubbing the back of his neck.

"I don't think it's stupid," I said quietly, "My favorite is probably Cassiopeia. It represents a queen, but looks like a w. It's really weird, but it's nice a the same time."

"She speaks, but really you broke after three questions? I thought you were stronger than that."

"Oh shut up James," I said laughing, "You started talking about constellations! By the way, how did you know talking about stars would get me to talk."

"I didn't, just saw you staring, so I thought it might help. So why are you out here?"

"I had a bad dream," I started, "I couldn't shake it by writing or anything so I decided to try flying. Stars have always helped me calm down too. So it was a double whammy of happiness. I was about to go back in when you got here."

"So by talking about stars I helped you?" he asked, with a smirk.

"No, you idiot," I replied, "I helped myself and then you showed up acting like you're saving me."

We were both laughing at this point.

"So you're doing okay?" he asked me

"Yeah, I'm good."

James stood and offered me his hand and helped me up. He leaned down to pick up my broom and crutches, and then picked me up into his arms.

"Go to sleep now little sis, I'll get you back safe."

"I'm not your sister."

"Yeah, yeah you are. Now sleep, you need the rest."

"Okay James, I will," I said, yawning, "Thanks for everything, by the way. You and your family have done a lot for me, and I just wanted to say thanks."

"You're welcome."

I laid my head down on his chest and fell asleep.

"Iz, c'mon, wake up."

I felt Rose shaking me awake.

"Whatimeisit?" I mumbled out

"Time for breakfast," Rose said, pulling off my covers,"By the way, mum said you should be good to walk now. Just try not to run or fall down stairs or anything like that. And don't forget we get to go to Aunt GInny's Holyhead Harpies match, so dress warm because it's stormy out."

"Well that was quite a mouthful," I said sitting up, gingerly testing out my leg, "Your mom is sure about my leg?"

"Yeah," Rose said, smiling at me, "She checked it about half an hour ago while you were asleep."

"I must have been out," I said, in shock, "Normally I sleep pretty light."

"You were," Rose said, laughing at me, "I even tried tickling you."

"At least I'm well rested," I said finally climbing out of bed.

My leg felt good as new. I was still amazed at the wonders of wizarding world. Somehow I could have a badly broken and injured leg, but within a couple of days it could be completely healed. I was so happy that I had gotten well enough to walk around today. I still was wondering how I had been so out of it this morning.

"Hey Rose?"

"Yeah Iz?"

"You'll always be there for me right?"

"Yeah, why?"

"Just wondering."

"You're sure you're okay this morning?"

"Of course!" I said excitedly, "I mean I get to go see the Holyhead Harpies match. in person with my best friends!"

"Yeah, that is pretty awesome," Rose replied.

"You don't sound to excited."

"It's just what I've grown up around. For once I would like to have a family that wasn't recognized everywhere."

"I get what you mean, but at least you have everything you could ever hope for."

"Yeah, I guess."

"Hey, I didn't mean anything by it," I said looking at her sympathetically.

"I know," Rose replied getting quiet, "Well let's head down, and eat so we're ready to go with Aunt Ginny."

"You know I'm here for you too Rose. You know that right?"

Rose nodded her head, and walked out the door. I was gonna let everything lie because I thought for sure that everything was okay, but I knew I would be there for my friend when she needed me. Not when, if. I just felt bad for not understanding how she felt. I didn't mean to offend her or make her feel bad or anything. I shouldn't have even opened my big mouth. I felt so stupid.

I walked over to my trunk and opened it up. I dug through all of my school clothes books down to my stuff from home. I pulled out my blanket and a box of things I hid in the back corner of my trunk.

I walked to the bathroom and turned on the shower. I sat down, grabbed my blanket and cried into it. I felt horrible. I felt like I was one of the worst people in t world. I was so insensitive. I was such an idiot. I should have kept my mouth shut about everything that had happened. I shouldn't have told them about what my brother did or anything else. I didn't deserve to be their friend.

I searched through old pictures, good memories, bad memories, and grabbed out my old pocket knife. I took off my shirt, and put the knife to my skin in the usual places.

"I don't deserve this good treatment," I thought to myself, "I don't deserve these friends, I don't deserve to be taken care of, and I definitely to deserve the love they give me."

With every thought, the knife moved across my skin. The thoughts and tears just kept coming, and when I felt I had punished myself enough, I put the knife bad in the box. I finished undressing, hopped in the shower, and washed my guilt and tears away.

I got out of the shower and started to dry off. I tried to be careful, but scraped across my cuts, wincing every time I did. I finished getting ready by putting on my jeans and my long sleeved Holyhead Harpies jersey; then I threw my hair up into a ponytail. I went back to my trunk and shoved my box back into its corner, throwing my blanket on top. I dug around for my first aid kit and bandaged my cuts before heading downstairs.

"She walks!" I heard James exclaim as I came down the stairs.

"More like she lives," Rose said joking around. "It's time to go, and you missed breakfast. What happened?"

"I needed to take a shower," I replied, "What you guys don't care if I keep up proper hygiene?"

"Oh no, we just didn't want to tell you you needed it,"Albus said laughing as he chimed in on the subject .

"Oh haha you guys," I said sarcastically, "You guys are sooooo funny."

"We know we are," James replied.

We had all busted up laughing and were joking around with each other when Ginny walked up to us all decked out in her uniform.

"Oh Isabella there you are," She said, "Are you all ready to go? Did you get some breakfast Isabella?"

"Not yet, but other than that I think we're ready to go," I replied.

"Well I don't have time for you to eat now, but Rose, here's the money for the day. There is enough there for meals and some souvenirs," Ginny began, handing Rose a money purse full of galleons and knuts, " When we get to the stadium, take Isabella to go get some food, and I hope you guys have fun. We'll floo into the stadium, outside of the locker room. Keep an eye on each other, and I want everyone in one piece when I see you all after the match."

"Yes ma'am," James said saluting his mother.

"Well I think that's everything," Ginny said, heading to the fireplace," I'll make sure you all get there safe."

After saying this Ginny went into the fireplace and said loudly, "Holyhead Harpies Stadium."

We all followed suit, and appeared outside the locker room in the stadium.

"Have fun kids!" Ginny called out as she entered the locker room.

"Let's go find our seats," Rose said, "Then we will get you something to eat, Iz."

"Thanks Rose," I said, smiling at her, pulling at the sleeves of my jersey to keep it down.

We all started walking to our seats, and I saw Rose and Albus share a small look with each other like they had the first day they met me. They knew something was wrong, and I didn't know how, but I would have to throw them off.