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Chapter 4
Rey POV
All these eyes, all these people. The enemy is my friend.. The enemy is my friend. Ben, why would you do this. I take a gulp, trying to force the lump in my throat to go down. I can't do crowds, a lot of people make me nervous. This is to much. Strong, be strong.
I smile to everyone and nod, trying to seem hospitable and show I am on their side. Ren makes me take his arm, and we walk to where he eats, which must be with the other higher ups. Suddenly, this dress seems like the worst choice of attire to wear.
"I.. I didn't realize there would be so many people.." I trail off in almost a whisper.
"I wanted everyone to see you, meet you, as my honored guest.. I won't let anyone hurt you. You are with me." My sweet Ben's face, so proud and possessive.
"I just.. I feel silly. Many of them know me as the 'enemy Jedi Rey', now I am their ally? I don't see this going well is all.." I sit and look out, watching everyone converse and laugh. It reminds me of being with my friends. They look just like us, they are like us in a way.
"Rey, we are all fighting for the same thing, I just wish you would see it. The force, the galaxy, the universe, it all needs balance. There is always going to be light and dark. That's why we fit together. We are one, in a way." Ben takes my hand, and kisses it, making a show of the power. I am yours Ben, please don't break me.
He nods out at everyone, and we start to eat. The food is, well, food. Meat, vegetation from the nearby farm on the outskirts of the city as well as fruits and weird nuts. I have never seen so much food before.
"It is a lot to take in, huh?" I barely hear him as I keep my eyes low on the food, not knowing where to start.
Ben chuckles at me and hands me some something and starts to eat himself. I forget my manners and start using my fingers for what I need. I never dreamed of food this amazing back on Jakku.
Dinner goes on, I am asked questions and told stories of some of the crew and where they come from. I even find myself laughing at one of the jokes. These are just normal people, why do they fight with the First Order?
"They have families to feed, or something to fight for, just as your friends. Don't you see? We are all fighting for the same thing. Order. Peace. Balance." I feel myself being torn between what I know and what I am being told. Are we on the same side?
We finish dinner slowly, even Ben smiling at some of my jokes and even some tales back on Jakku. The woman next to me, Marylyn, had lost her grandfather in the clone wars, fighting with the Jedi, but when her son was taken to train with the stormtroopers she signed up herself to be a engineer on board to watch over him. I smile as she tells me of the flower gardens near by, and a wonderful ocean not 10 kilometers away.
"You made a friend?" I hear my sweet Ben purr into my ear. He seems happy.
"Maybe," I say back turning towards him and smile. Yet, the smile doesn't last long. I miss you guys. I hope everyone is okay, especially you Chewie.
"You miss them?" I want to say no, but he knows me well.
"Come, I have an idea." I follow in suit, saying goodbye to my new friend.
We walk fast back to our quarters, making me hitch my dress to keep up with Ben's long strides. We finally arrive and he hands me a special comm.
"Are you sure?" I ask, looking him in the eyes.
"Yes, it can not be traced and if it makes your life here easier, then I would do anything for you." I can feel the love in our bond.
"You love me.." I say out loud, not really meaning to. I take Ben by surprise.
"Yes.. I do. I can't leave you, or lose you. Like I said you are my balance. Now, make your call, I will leave you in peace. I will be back in a while." Before I can say thank you, he trails off, leaving me alone.
I turn to the comm, an ancient technology but should work to reach the Falcon. I hope Chewie is awake. I send a signal out, hoping and listen for anything and almost immediately I hear Poe's voice.
"Hello? Can you hear me?" I want to scream!
"Poe? Poe can you hear me? It's Rey! Oh Poe I miss you guys!" I hear BB-8 in the background beeping away in excitement. Calm down I'm not coming home, not yet.
"Rey? Rey! How I have missed you! Are you okay? Tell me where you are! I will come for you. Oh Rey, has he harmed you? I will kill him if he even put a finger on you." I chuckle at his worry and smile before i can respond.
"I'm fine tell the others I am just fine. I have a plan, but I need you to trust me. Can you do that?" I ask, I knew Poe would listen.
"For you Rey, anything. What can I do?" I can sense the worry, the pain in his voice. Poe please don't worry.
"I need you to give me a month. I should be back in a month. I know it seems strange, but trust me. Miss you Poe, and everyone else. Take care of my Falcon for me. Talk soon." I disconnect before he can talk back. A tear falls from my face. Be strong Rey. Ben needs you. My Ben needs me.
Poe POV
"Rey?!" I yell back. DAMN! Why didn't she tell me where she was?
"Anything?" Finn was coming to relieve me, to let me sleep, but how could I now?
"No. Silent. I hope she is okay, and if she is she knows what she is doing," I sigh and leave Finn to keep his ear out. I can't risk anyone else involved. Rey wants me to trust her, so I will.
I walk back to my quarters and flop on the bed. I stare at the ceiling. Rey, what is he doing to you? He better not lay a finger on you. I could feel the pull of jealousy in my veins. Calm Poe, she wants you to trust her so do it.
I look out the window and see the sun setting like a fireball being extinguished by the trees and sky. I keep thinking of her smile as I gently fall to a dreamless sleep.
Kylo Ren POV
I can feel her talking to the damn pilot again. He misses her. He loves her. I feel the rage in me start to fill up as I race back to my room. I open the door and rush in, ready to destroy everything as I see a half naked Rey undressing. My eyes widen.
"Uh.. Um.. I am so.. I.. I will be in the washroom." I enter the washroom and take a breath. Her skin, so golden, so beautiful but lined with scars. My Rey, covered in someone's anger, frustration, or greed. I can feel my rage seeping out as I start to punch the walls.
"Ben? Ben stop! Ben, please! Stop!" Rey is pounding on the door, begging me to stop. I look at my hands and the wall. Blood covering them both. I open the door and let Rey in. She is wearing only a shirt. My shirt.
"Ben, oh please, don't be mad. I'm so sorry. I promise I said nothing. Don't be mad. I'll do anything." She grabs my blood stained hands and closes her eyes. She is telling the truth. I want to tell her my rage isn't on the pilot, but her scars. So many scars. Just like me.
"Kiss me," I say staring down at her. She looks up, begging me to say it again. I pull her closer, feeling her panting breath.
"Kiss me, my Rey, my light." I keep looking at her, begging her to do it. I want her, all of her. Please.
"For you Ben, anything." Before I can blink she is kissing me, hard. She wraps her fingers in my hair pulling herself closer. I wrap my trembling arms around her waist. Is this a dream? Is she really doing this?
I deepen the kiss and pull her up, taking no prisoner as I force my tongue in her mouth. You. Are. MINE!
She breaks the hold first, breathing hard and fast. There is a need in her, a want. I want to give it to her, but not tonight. She has had a very rough few weeks and needs her rest.
"Why did you want me to kiss you?" She asks, not letting go. She loves me, too. I can feel it.
"I am exhausted and I know you are too. Neither of us has been getting much sleep," before she can protest I scoop her into my arms and bring her to our bed. I set her down gently and kiss her forehead.
"Would it be okay if we slept in the same bed, I won't try or do anything? I promise." I ask, hoping she will say yes. Always her choice Ren, always her choice.
She smiles at me and pulls the scratchy cover over her legs. I quickly disrobe just enough so I can try and sleep. I look over and there is my girl, almost fast asleep. Is this real?
I quickly follow in, pulling her to me once I am comfortable. Her hands on my bare chest, face breathing slowly. If this is a dream, I never want it to end. For the first time, I feel a peace inside me. I feel complete. It takes no time at all for me to fall into a dream and memory I hold dear.
We sit there, fixing to touch. I take my glove off, I want to feel her soft skin. I want to see into her mind to see why she is so strong. To find out where she may have come from. Tears still line her face, but she trusts me. She trusts me.Soon our hands touch and an explosion in my head comes forth. I'm looking at a Rey so lost and lonely, watching her parents leave her. Cowards. The pain in her grows, there is so much rage and heartbreak. Before she knows it she flings the ugly grey plonk half way across the desert. Not realizing what she has done, she runs to hide.Slowly the memory fades, her parents really were nothing. She comes from no one special, she is just Rey.Before I can pull back, something else shows. It is her, with child, training her son in the ways of the force. She is smiling. Happy. Fear and anger brims to the point of madness. I don't want her to be with anyone else, but then I see what makes me fall for her. Something I will never forget. I am there, holding her close, kissing her neck and rubbing her stomach. It is our child, both our children. This is a glimpse of the future. Our future. Before I know it, I'm kneeling down touching air, as she has vanished. Luke knows, but I don't care. I found my balance in the universe, and it is in a girl that is as strong as I am. Interesting.