I didn't know what to say to that as I got into Vince's car. I don't think he did either. As we drove off, I glanced into the rearview mirror. He was still staring at Vince's car, he looked almost troubled. What had I done?
I looked down at my hands as I replayed the entire day over in my head. Jace was leaving tomorrow and I wasn't sure where things stood between us. He seemed to almost sense that I loved someone else and he was almost heartbroken by it. I really managed to hurt a man that I genuinely loved. Then I walk into Dom's house and flip my shit because Letty was there, even though I was wrong with that, in a way I was still right. He always chose her over me whenever there was a choice. So why would this time be any different? that brings me to my current situation. Was Dom confessing his love for me? Or was I reading into something too closely? Why do I feel as though I crushed his feelings? I highly doubted I had but for some odd reason it felt like I had broken up with him.
I let out a loud sigh asI looked down at my feet. A smile broke across my face when I seen the grocery bag by my feet. He really had stopped for ice cream on the way. Vince is the best! I poked around the bag and seen two pints of Ben & Jerry's, one chunky monkey and one new York super chunk...aka mine and Vince's favorite ice cream.
"Vince,if Mia doesn't wise up and see what a catch you are I'm going to marry you myself." He let out a deep chuckle.
"So I can constantly feel like I'm being compared to Dom and boy wonder? No way!" That caused me to laugh. I never quite understood why Dom and Vince called Jace boy wonder but I imagine if I told him, he would laugh his ass off.
"You're a catch V, that's all I'm saying."
We pulled into his driveway and I took my time getting out of the car. As much as I needed to talk this out with Vince, I really didn't want too. I wanted things just to be over. If Dom cared about me, I need to know. Im tired of the ups and downs . I just wanted all the sadness and embarrassment over.
"Come on short stuff, let's get this over with." I sighed and realized he was right. I sure wasn't handling things sitting out in his car. I needed to get my head right and the only way I was going to do that was by pigging out on ice cream and baring my soul to my best friend. Okay, maybe not that extreme but I had a lot to get off of my chest.
I walked into his house, eager to get this over with, and plopped down on V's couch. I reached into the bag and pulled out my ice cream and started to pull off the wrapper while I waited for Vince to come back with spoons. When he got back he would pick up the remote and turn on a music choice. It was our routine and I loved it. True to my word, Vince came in, sat down and handed me my spoon. He picked up the remote and changed the channel to music choice :alternative hits. He started to head bang along with the song, causing me to giggle.
"You know we could switch it up every now and then and listen to country." Vince scoffed then took a bite of his ice cream.
"You're the only person who wants to listen to that shit." I rolled my eyes.
"Whatever! Lots of people like country music." He held his spoon up in defense. Yeah because if I was going to hit him, a spoon would so scare me off. No Vince please don't attack me with your spoon! I rolled my eyes. He's an idiot sometimes.
" All I'm saying is that you can take the girl out of the country..." I swirled my ice cream around my spoon. Man I really don't want to talk. I needed too. I valued Vince's opinion as much as I valued my mom's. I know that's kind of wrong but Vince was my best friend. He would never stir me in the wrong direction and would keep me from being hurt if he could. That's why I love this guy. He's the brother I never had but always wanted. I know hands down I could call him any time over anything and he'd be there. I was serious earlier when I told him he was a catch. The woman he ended up with was going to be a lucky girl.
"V,I don't know what to do. i think I'm missing something." He lifted his eyebrow and shoved a spoon full of ice cream in his mouth. Okay that was very unattractive.
"Well then spill so we can get this shit figured out."
I let out a big sigh then I began. I started with last night, with all of the things Dom said about me changing and how much my feelings were hurt. I felt like I wasn't good enough for him, or at least that's how I felt he seen me. No matter what I did I didn't see things changing and that's why I ran off to Jace's last night. I needed to feel loved, I needed to feel wanted. I realize now that it was wrong of me to use Jace's emotions but it wasn't on purpose. I do love Jace, maybe not as much as I love Dom but still. I could see us having a nice life together if things with Dom don't work out. i went on about how heartbroken he seemed when I got out of his truck and how bad I felt.
I didn't give him time to speak I had to finish. I unloaded the rest of my day on him and when I was finished I realized that.I had been crying. Vince's silence, which a few minutes ago was comforting, was now suffocating me. Why isn't he saying anything? He got up and threw his ice cream carton in the garbage. Instead of walking back into the room he leaned against the door frame and stared at me. My chest was so tight that I could barely breathe.
"So you ready?" I looked up from my feet and stared at him confused.
"For what?" He gave me a big smile and I could breathe again.
"To go talk to Dom. So we can figure shit out. We need to know what he's gotta say so we know if you're riding off in the sunset with boy wonder or not."