Hey guys, sorry for being absent. I actually couldn't upload for a while as I wasn't home and I still do not have a beta which sucks. Also before you start reading this I wanted to give a trigger warning in anything relating to: miscarriages and blood. This chapter isn't as happy/fluffy as the other ones and is set between Lily and the twins. I do hope you still enjoy it, as this story hits quite close to home for me.
"Kate, please, you don't have to do this..." Castle begged.
Kate shook her head, wiped a tear away with her sleeve and continued to separate the sheets from the duvet "I'm just making the bed," she murmured "maybe we can salvage the sheets... I love these sheets." She lovingly let the soft fabric slip through their fingers before roughly tugging the blanket from the bed and throwing it on the ground.
Castle was taken aback at the sight of the crimson red that had stained their bed. He heard his wife let out a sob "Oh, Kate." He sighed and gathered her in his arms. He could feel her tears seep through his shirt and her shoulders shake.
"I really wanted this." Kate whispered looking up at him. Castle slowly nodded, wiping some of her tears away with his thumb "Me too," Not noticing how his cheeks had become wet with tears as well "we can still have this, it's not over..."
Kate shook her head and clenched her fingers at the lapel of his shirt "I'm not sure if I can. Don't get me wrong; I love Lily, our family, so much. But I always imagined another baby. A boy, with your eyes, your spirit and smile..." she turned her head to the bed "But this, this I can't do again, Castle. We were in bliss yesterday and now..." she shook her head "now my favorite sheets are ruined."
"Kate," Castle repeated as he cupped her face in his hands, lovingly stroking her wet from tears cheeks, "we don't have to make a decision right now, let me take care of the sheets, okay? I'll buy us new ones if these can't be salvaged but you've just gone back from the hospital, you really need to rest."
"Lily?" Kate muttered.
"She's with Alexis having a girls day. They won't be back here until after dinner, okay?"
Kate slowly nodded, "I'm going to take a shower." She whispered.
Castle gently let go of her, "I'll change the sheets and have a painkiller waiting for you."
Kate looked back at the bed and shook her head "I'd rather sleep on the couch, anywhere but in the bed right now."
"Of course, I'll make the bed in the guest bedroom okay?"
"Castle,"
"Yeah."
"I love you."
"I love you too, we'll get through this okay?"
"Together."
"Together, always."
Quite heavy, I know. This is the only more angsty one i've got. Thanks for reading.