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Chapter 2: Engaged?
Santana's POV
Saturday 21st July 2018
Brittany and I have been living together for four weeks now and everything seems to be going well. The only problem is that I feel like I haven't seen her all that much recently, she always seems to be working or have the day off when I'm working. Don't get me wrong, I don't mind her working all the time if that's what she wants but a part of me wonders is she is doing it because she feels she needs to make more money now that she's living with me. I mean I have no problems paying the bulk of our bills just now because I know she's studying so she can't work as much but I think Brittany is too proud to say anything sometimes and feels bad that she can't contribute as much as I can.
"Hey" Brittany seductively smiles as she walks over to me from the bathroom.
"Mm someone looks sexy" I say while moving to kneel on the bed.
"I've got to look good for my girlfriend" Brittany tells me while coming closer to the bed where I wrap my arms around her neck.
"Trust me you look good no matter what you wear" I say and she leans in to kiss me gently on the lips while gripping my hips.
"I can totally see right down your top" she smirks.
"Oh you can, can you?" I smile.
"Yup" she nods before kissing me again.
"So I was thinking since it's such a nice day today then maybe we could go for a romantic picnic in the park or something, I mean it'll be our first day off together in a while?" I suggest.
"I'm sorry babe but I can't, I'm working again this afternoon" she replies.
"Again?" I question. "This must be the third weekend in a row where you've worked both Saturday and Sunday."
"I know but they offered me some extra shifts again and I thought I might as well take them when I can" Brittany replies.
"I don't mind you working extra shifts but I feel like we haven't had a day off together in almost a month" I state.
"I know and I promise we'll have a full day to spend together soon" she reassures me.
"Ok but just make sure you're not working too hard and you're getting yourself stressed" I tell her.
"I'm not, I just feel I could use some extra money so if I have free time then I'm going to try and work" she replies.
"Britt I hope you're not doing this because I paid for most of the bills this month because I don't mind doing it. I've told you before I'm happy keeping things in order just now and once you've graduated and got a full time job then we can split it or whatever" I say.
"I promise you, I'm not doing this because of that" she smiles before leaning in to kiss me. "You just have to relax ok" she says.
"Ok, I'm sorry" I say. "I just feel I'm ten steps ahead of you sometimes and I don't want to rush you with anything."
"Santana it was my idea to officially move in so you're not rushing me into anything so you just have to trust me ok?" she says and I nod.
"Good, now I need to go and shower before work" she says while walking towards the bathroom. "You know, I do have some time if you want to join me" she says turning around to look at me.
"I'm hardly going to say no to that" I smile while following her to the bathroom.
Brittany's POV
Wednesday 25th July 2018
Santana is working today and I've finally got the day off so I thought I might as well catch up with Emma for a while. We're just hanging out at my parent's house since Emma still lives with them.
"Mom says you've been crazy busy with work lately, what's going on?" Emma asks me as she sits down next to me and hands me a cup of coffee.
"Nothing is going on, they just offered me some extra shifts and I thought I should just take them because they're not always going to have extra shifts for me and I only work part time as it is" I reply.
"Do you know what I think?" Emma says.
"I don't actually but I'm guessing you're going to tell me anyway" I reply.
"I think you're just doing this because you feel like you're depending on Santana and you don't want to do that. You want to have your own money and be able to use it when you need to" Emma says.
"Ok I admit I am taking on extra shifts for money but I'm not doing all these extra shifts because I want to help around the house" I say.
"You're not?" Emma asks.
"Well yeah I am sort of because I do want to contribute to paying the bills and stuff but I mean my main reason for doing all these shifts is I want to buy Santana an engagement ring" I say and Emma looks shocked.
"Wow…ok…I did not see that coming" she says.
"I think I'm finally ready now to be officially engaged" I smile.
"That's great but what is the difference between now and when Santana asked you a year ago?" Emma asks.
"Because I've had time to think and I mean Santana said we could wait as long as I wanted for us to get married so why not at least just wear the ring properly now instead of around my neck" I say.
"I'm confused as to how you two left things once Santana proposed" she states.
"Well…"
Flashback (Saturday 24thJune 2017)
"We've been together a while now, almost a year and a half right?" Santana says.
"We have and I've got to say it's been a pretty good year and a half" I smile. Even though this is probably my first proper relationship, I know we have something so special together and I don't think I could feel this way about anyone but Santana. .
"Exactly, which is why I think it's clear we're meant to be together and why I feel so confident we will be together forever" she says and I smile again because it's so true. "You're the only person I feel I can be myself around and who loves me no matter what. I don't think I could picture myself with anyone but you."
"I feel the same" I agree.
"I love you so much Britt and I'll never stop loving you" she tells me.
"I love you too" I reply.
"I feel like we're at a time in our lives and our relationship where we could take the next step so I want to ask you something Britt" she says.
"Um…ok" I reply looking a little confused at what she means. Before I can even say anything else, I notice Santana drop to the floor on one knee. "What's going on?" I gasp as she opens a small jewellery box and holds it out to me.
"Brittany Pierce, will you marry me?" she asks. I'm in complete shock, I don't know what to say because I never expected her to propose to me.
"Um…I don't know…I mean…words…I'm lost" ok I'm not making any sense. "I don't know what to say" I whisper to her.
"Just say yes or no" Santana says nervously.
"It's not that simple" I reply.
"Well what are you thinking then?" she asks.
"I'm definitely not saying no but at the same time I'm not saying yes either" I say.
"I don't understand" Santana says confused.
"It's not that I don't see marriage in our future because I do, I just don't know if I'm ready yet" I admit.
"I'm not saying we need to get married any time soon" she says hopefully.
"Ok but still I just feel even being engaged is a big step too and I don't know if I'm ready for that yet either. I mean I'm only 19 and to be honest the thought of being engaged really scares me right now" I tell her honestly.
"Um…could you maybe pretend you've said yes just for two seconds" Santana says looking around. "Everyone is staring at me and I'm extremely embarrassed right now. I look like a fool kneeling down here only to be rejected" she says and I immediately feel bad.
"Let's just get the check and talk back at your house ok" I suggest and Santana quickly stands up. We grab our things and head over to one of the waiters and Santana hands him some money and then we make our way over to the door.
"Wait, what about your change?" the waiter asks.
"Keep it" Santana says and we walk out. "Ok that was so fucking embarrassing in there, did you see them all staring at me like I was an idiot?"
"Babe you're not an idiot" I tell her.
"I must be to think proposing was a good idea" she says shaking her head while walking quickly to the car. "Seriously what the hell was I thinking" she states before getting into her car and slamming the door shut. I then get into the car as well.
"Honey stop beating yourself up, I'm honoured you asked me so it's not like…"
"Do you want me to just take you home?" she asks completely cutting me off.
"No we're going back to your place and we're going to talk about this" I state. "I know you're embarrassed but I'm not going to let you hide away, we should talk about it" I tell her.
"Fine" Santana sighs before driving off. The entire car journey back to her house is filled with the most awkward silence ever. I would probably make her feel worse if I said anything so I decided just to sit quietly until we arrived. "Ok let's talk then" Santana says as we take a seat in the living room.
"Look I feel really bad for making you feel humiliated in the restaurant but I couldn't just say yes when I don't know" I tell her.
"I don't understand Brittany, you've always said you wanted to get married and stuff" she sighs.
"I do want to get married but…"
"But just not to me?" she shrugs.
"Santana you need to calm down, you're taking everything to heart and overreacting" I say.
"I'm sorry but I feel so stupid right now. I had the whole night planned out and never once did I imagine it going like this. Everyone in that restaurant will be laughing at me, I'll never be able to go there again because all the staff will think I'm a pathetic idiot" she says.
"Santana you're not an idiot" I tell her while taking her hand in mine. "Listen to me, I want to marry you ok but right now I don't think I'm there yet. It feels too much for me right now" I say honestly.
"I wasn't going to whisk you off to Vegas tonight or anything. I didn't mean we needed to get married right away, it could have been whenever you wanted" Santana replies. "I wasn't going to pressure you into a wedding soon or anything, I just thought we could have got engaged for the moment and we could have figured out when we could get married when the time was right" she says.
"You're missing my point Santana, I'm not ready to be engaged. It wouldn't matter if you wanted to get married tomorrow or in five years, right now it feels too soon to even be engaged" I reply.
"Oh" she says understanding.
"I promise you I want a future like that with you but not right now. I'm happy with the way things are at the moment so I don't want them to change" I tell her.
"Ok well I'm sorry, I thought we were on the same page but perhaps not" she says sadly.
"You have nothing to feel humiliated about Santana, it should be me because we have been together a while so there was nothing wrong with you proposing. It's my fault for not being ready yet" I say.
"Look how about I just take the ring back and we can just forget I ever asked you tonight" Santana says.
"Babe I can't just forget something like this" I say. We can't just brush it off that she asked me to marry her because that's a big thing. I know she feels embarrassed and I don't feel ready yet but it doesn't mean it's going to be easy to forget.
"Then what do you propose we do…sorry what do you suggest we do" Santana says realising what she said.
"I don't think you should take it back, I think you should keep it and maybe ask me again sometime when I feel more ready" I say.
"I don't know if that's a good idea because every time I see it, I'm always going to remember how you weren't ready and I was. It just feels weird and awkward so I'd rather just move past it all and not have to be reminded of tonight" she replies.
"But babe this doesn't have to be a bad thing, I mean I am going to wear that ring at some point so it shouldn't remind you of anything bad, it should be a good thing" I tell her.
"So let me just clarify this, it's not wearing the ring that's the issue, it's what being engaged means that scares you right now?" Santana asks.
"Yeah I mean I would feel pressured into getting married if we were engaged right now but I don't have any issues with you keeping the ring until I am ready" I reply.
"Ok how about you keep it and wear it on a necklace or something for the time being and when you feel ready then you can wear it properly?" she suggests. "There's no pressure at all, I just figured you'd know better than me when the right time to wear it is so you'd be better holding on to it" she says.
"I could do that" I smile.
"Actually I have a necklace you could put the ring on" Santana says while leaving the room. She comes back a minute later with a necklace in her hand. "I lost the pendant on this necklace a while ago so it's just a chain so maybe you could just wear the ring on it" she suggests.
"Thanks" I smile while unclasping the necklace and Santana puts the ring on it.
"We're not engaged right now but whenever you feel ready then I'll be ready ok" she tells me and I nod.
"Come here" I say while pulling her into a hug. "You know I love you so much so there's no way I wouldn't marry you ok, it's just too much pressure from everyone else right now if we were to get engaged" I say.
"I know you love me and I love you too" she smiles.
End of flashback.
"So you two are just girlfriends just now except you wear the ring like a necklace?" Emma asks.
"Yes exactly but hopefully after this weekend she'll be my fiancée" I say excited at the thought of us getting engaged.
"Hold on you've already got a ring for Santana?" she asks.
"I do and I'm planning to give her it on Saturday night so you need to keep it quiet" I say.
"Yeah I'm hardly going to call Santana up and tell her you're going to propose. I mean Santana and I are besties aren't we" Emma rolls her eyes.
"Just make sure you don't tell anyone then because Santana has to be the first to know, well she's the second now that I've told you but you know what I mean" I say.
"I won't tell anyone" Emma promises.
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Saturday 28th July 2018
"Babe are you home?" Santana shouts as she walks through the front door after visiting her parents.
"I'm in the living room, can you come through so we can talk" I reply.
"Ok" she replies before walking into the living room. "There's nothing more nerve wracking than your girlfriend saying we have to talk" she laughs nervously.
"What?" I ask confused.
"You've been saying we need to talk for a while now, I'm just saying whenever someone says that it's not always good news" she says sceptically.
"You worry too much" I smile. "Anyway come and sit down" I say patting the empty space next to me on the couch.
"Ok" she says sitting down. "Shit you're breaking up with me aren't you and you're returning the ring" she blurts out.
"What? Of course not" I laugh.
"But you're not wearing the necklace that the ring is on and you're holding a ring box so I'm assuming you're giving me it back therefore you don't want to marry me so now you want to break up" she states. "Plus like I say you keep telling me we need to talk.
"We do need to talk but I'm not breaking up with you" I state. "And the reason I'm not wearing the necklace is because I've found another place for the ring" I say while holding up my left hand where I'm wearing the engagement ring she got me.
"Wow ok, but you're holding a ring box" she says, a mix between shocked and confused.
"That's because this is for you" I say while opening the box. "Santana Lopez will you marry me?" I ask while getting down on one knee. I can't help the smile that appears across my face because I'm so excited.
"Um…I don't think I'm ready either anymore" she replies.
"What…but…" my smile quickly changes to a frown. I don't know what to say, that completely threw me off. "You proposed to me first though" I state sadly.
"Babe I'm joking, I'm sorry" she says while quickly hugging. She obviously noticed how humiliated I looked.
"You're joking?" I question angrily.
"I'm sorry" she states. "I get it, it's too early for jokes."
"That is not even remotely funny Santana. I was genuinely so scared and not ready when you asked me and you think it's ok to joke around right now. Marriage is a big deal and you of all people should know that considering how hesitant I was when you asked me. What makes you even think I would find something like that funny, I thought…"
"My answer is yes so can I have my ring please" she smiles completely cutting me off from my rant.
"What…oh right yeah" I say when I realise I'm still holding the ring.
"I thought you would get I was trying to be light-hearted and funny but it probably is too soon so I'm sorry" she says. "I do realise it was a sensitive subject for you" she adds as she places the ring on her finger.
"It's ok, I was just taken aback. I think because I felt like that when you asked me then it was easy for me to believe you could feel like that too you know" I say.
"Yeah I realise now I shouldn't have joked but anyway let's move on because you've just gave me what looks like a really expensive engagement ring and asked me to marry you so I'm guessing we're engaged now" she smiles.
"Do you know I think you're right, we are engaged now" I smile.
"So is this why you have been working so much lately, you wanted to buy me a ring?" Santana asks admiring the ring.
"Yeah" I smile. "So what happens now?" I ask.
"Whatever you want happens now" Santana smiles. "We can tell everyone or we can wait a while and just enjoy the moment ourselves" she tells me.
"I think I want to just keep it between us for tonight and maybe tomorrow we can tell everyone" I suggest and Santana nods before leaning in to kiss me.
Santana's POV
Monday 30th July 2018
After I finished work today, I decided to go and see Quinn to see how she's doing. She booked an appointment with her doctor a few days after she told me she might be pregnant and it turns out that she was indeed pregnant. She's still acting very vague about it all so I have no idea who the father is but I just hope she has at least told him by now.
"How are you feeling today?" I ask when we sit down.
"Oh you know, I still feel like crap because I have no idea what I want to do" she replies. "I did always want children but I never thought I would get pregnant when I wasn't even with someone. It was a stupid drunken thing that meant nothing so now I'm going to end up being a single mom."
"Quinn, have you told the father yet" I say seriously because I know if it was me then I would want to know the truth if someone was having my baby.
"No, I just don't know how to tell them. What if I ruin their life?" she says.
"Can you at least tell me if I know this person, like are they a friend of ours?" I ask.
"You know this person really well" Quinn sighs.
"I do?" I say surprised. "So it must be a single friend of ours then" I say trying to think which friends of ours are single right now.
"Um…they're not actually single" she replies nervously.
"Oh Quinn" I say shaking my head.
"I know I've fucked everything up, no one's more disappointed in me than me" she says.
"You're my best friend Quinn so whatever you need I'm going to be here for you ok" I say trying to reassure her.
"It's not that simple though Santana" she says.
"How is it not?" I ask confused.
"Because it affects you more than you think" Quinn replies.
"What affects me?" I ask still confused about what she's talking about.
"Me being pregnant actually affects you more than you know" she says. "You're not going to like it when I tell you whose baby this is" she sighs.
"You're talking in riddles Quinn, none of this is making any sense. What have I got to do with your baby?" I ask.
"Just don't go crazy when I tell you who's baby it is, promise me you'll be calm and hear me out ok" she says.
"Ok" I nod.
That's it for chapter 2, let me know what you think. I like to think the first few chapters will be the calm before the storm so a little bit of drama will be coming up in later chapters.