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Chapter 6: Ready for Children
Santana's POV
Saturday 22nd September 2018
Myself, Brittany, Rachel, Mercedes, Quinn, Kitty, Tina, Eva and Emma are all having lunch together today to discuss things about the wedding and discuss their roles as bridesmaids. We've decided that both Brittany and I will each have a maid of honour who we've decided will be our sisters. Hopefully after lunch we can go and look at some dresses for them. We've not really made much progress on the wedding front today apart from deciding on maid of honours because Eva can't stop talking about Quinn and Jason's baby.
"I can't wait to be an aunt, I'm going to spoil this kid so much" Eva says excitedly.
"No I think Santana is going to be the worse at spoiling this child, she's always had a soft spot for children" Tina states.
"Who doesn't like children?" I say with a shrug. "Anyway are we all ready to order?" I ask.
"Yeah I know I am" Brittany smiles.
"Speaking of food, I was just wondering the other day how old is a baby before it can be given solid foods?" Eva asks but before anyone can answer, I call the waitress over so we can all order our food.
"I was thinking that maybe the dresses could be…" I try to get the conversation back to the wedding when the waitress leaves but it seems Eva has other ideas.
"Has the baby started kicking yet?" Eva asks completely disregarding anything I have to say.
"Not yet but my doctor said because it's my first then I might not feel it kicking until a little later" Quinn replies. "And before you ask, I don't know if it's a girl or a boy" she chuckles.
"Did you know I was going to ask that?" Eva laughs.
"I did" Quinn nods. "Jason warned me that you might ask lots of questions though so I'm well prepared."
"Oh do you talk to Jason a lot?" Kitty smirks.
"It's not like we have daily catch ups or anything, we just talk about the baby" Quinn shrugs. "Jason did say however that he's going to come over and help me build some furniture for when the baby arrives" she says.
"So the dresses?" I say louder to get everyone's attention.
"Yeah sorry what were you going to say babe?" Brittany asks.
"I was thinking that maybe they could be different styles but all in the same colour, we can just see whichever style suits whichever person best" I say.
"I agree" Brittany says. "What do you have in mind about colours for the dresses, there was a nice deep pink I saw in one of the bridal magazines I was reading" she says.
"It really depends how it looks because I'm not always a fan of pink" I say.
"Oh pink!" Eva exclaims. "If you have a girl Quinn then you have to paint the nursery pink" she states.
"I wanted something different for the nursery" Quinn says. "I mean no disrespect to anyone wanting a pink nursery but I wanted a different colour, something not as popular because I feel baby girls always have pink nurseries" she says.
"That's true, what way to celebrate a Lopez baby than doing something unoriginal. We Lopez's have never been original, we like to mix things up" Eva says.
"The baby will be part Fabray though, it's not just a Lopez" Tina says.
"Sorry we're boring you three aren't we?" Quinn says apologetically to Rachel, Mercedes and Emma.
"No don't be silly, it's nice to see everyone get so excited about the baby" Emma says. "I'm actually surprised Santana hasn't made a few jokes yet or stated more of an opinion on the subject" she says.
"People don't always need to express themselves with words Emma" I say while glaring at her. "My opinion isn't actually your business anyway" I add.
"Well we can definitely see that" Rachel says. "From your expression alone, you could just kill someone."
"Just be quiet Blueberry" I snap.
"For the tenth time this week, my last name is Berry not blueberry" Rachel sighs.
"A blueberry is still of the berry variety so I'm not exactly wrong" I shrug.
"Oh speaking of berries, to think that little thing inside you Quinn started off the size of a blueberry" Eva smiles.
"It's amazing how fast they grow, I mean I know nine months might seem like a long time but to get from such a small thing to a baby in nine months is impressive" Quinn replies.
"I know I can't wait to have children and experience pregnancy" Eva says.
"Does Scott know that you're ready for children?" Brittany asks.
"He knows I want them soon but we've not made any concrete plans on when we'll have them specifically" Eva replies.
"So what about names Quinn, have you and Jason discussed what you might call the baby?" Tina asks.
"No not yet, we're just taking one step at a time. We're still trying to sort out how we're going to work things" Quinn replies. "I've got my own apartment but Jason still lives with his parents so we're not sure how to work out the living arrangements" she says.
"Yeah I suppose you can't really upset the baby's routine all the time so it wouldn't be wise to have it stay in two different places" Tina says. I've got to say this baby talk is really starting to annoy me now. We're not making any progress about the wedding and all everyone wants to talk about is Quinn and her pregnancy.
"I must admit Quinn, you do look rather big already" Eva points out. "I don't know if Jason said but twins run in my family so who knows, you might be pregnant with two babies" she says.
"Oh don't say that, that'll be too much to handle" Quinn laughs. "Also I'm really glad you think I look huge already, it's nice to hear that" she teases.
"I didn't mean it like that because you look great for being pregnant" Eva states. "But I'm just saying, you never know it could be twins."
"Can we just stop talking about the damn baby" I shout causing everyone to look at me. I don't know where it came from or why I did it but I just snapped. I don't want to hear any more about the baby right now.
"Babe…calm down" Brittany states.
"I'm sorry but we're supposed to be here to talk about the wedding and so far all we've talked about is babies" I state.
"I'm sorry if the talk about your future niece or nephew offends you. I didn't realise it was such a big deal" Quinn says glaring at me.
"I just think it's damn right rude that Brittany and I invite you all to lunch to discuss our wedding and all you can talk about is the baby. If I wanted to hear about babies and not make wedding arrangements then I would have hung out at a kindergarten for the day, not offered you all a free lunch" I state angrily.
"Honey there's still plenty of time to discuss the wedding so there's no harm in getting a little excited about Quinn and Jason's baby" Brittany says.
"That's a little bit rich Brittany, you were the one who told me to stop getting involved in the baby situation and now you want to talk about it" I state.
"That's different and you know it" Brittany glares. "You were angry about the whole thing and wouldn't let it go whereas I'm just taking an interest in your niece or nephew because I'm happy for Quinn and excited for her unlike you" she states.
"I am happy for my brother because he's going to be a dad but I'm not…"
"You're not happy for me I assume?" Quinn interjects.
"That's not what I was going to say" I sigh.
"You can forgive Jason because he's your brother but you can't forgive me, your best friend" Quinn says shaking her head.
"Wait a second, forgive you?" Mercedes questions. "Why would Santana need to forgive you or Jason?" she asks confused.
"Because Santana has a major problem with Jason and I sleeping together" Quinn answers.
"I couldn't care less who either of you slept with so I don't need to forgive anyone for anything. I have no problem with you two doing it, I have a problem with an innocent baby getting caught in the middle" I say.
"Santana, Jason and I are on good terms so I don't see why there needs to be an issue. We're still working through some stuff but I can assure you we're both very much on the same page with regards loving and caring for this baby. There won't be anyone caught in the middle" Quinn says.
"I'm going to the bathroom right now but when I get back, let's hope the baby conversation will have subsided" I say while getting up from the table.
"Santana you can't just leave it like that" Brittany says.
"I can leave it however I want so when I get back I want the conversation changed or I'm out of here" I state before walking away. After giving myself a few minutes in the bathroom to calm down, I go back to the table.
"I'm sorry Santana if you thought I was making everything about me and the baby but…"
"I don't want to hear it, can we just move on please and talk about what we came here to talk about" I say cutting Quinn off.
"Ok fine" Quinn sighs. For the next ten minutes, we all sit in an awkward silence and no one says a word as we all eat our food.
"Perhaps we should just do this another day" Brittany suggests. "I'm sure we've got lots of time before the wedding so we don't need to make these decisions right now" she says.
"I thought you were worried about the timing of everything?" I say confused. Brittany has been panicking lately about getting everything done on time.
"I was but I'm probably just overreacting plus I don't think anyone is in the mood to go dress shopping right now so we should probably call it a day after we're finished lunch" she replies.
"If that's what you want" I say.
"It probably is wise after your little performance moments ago" Eva states.
"Do you know what, I'm not doing this again" I say while standing up. "I'm going to wait in the car Brittany but I'll pay for the food on the way out so don't worry about it" I tell her.
"But we were going to split it" Brittany says.
"Well you can pay me back later then but I'm not sitting here any longer. I'll see you in the car ok" I say while kissing Brittany's cheek before leaving.
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"You were acting very weird today at lunch" Brittany points out as we sit and watch TV together. Once we got home, Brittany said she had some studying to do so she spent most of the afternoon in the study. I actually think she was only saying that because she wanted to give me some space to calm down.
"I know and I'm sorry. I guess I'm just feeling the pressure a bit and getting stressed about the wedding" I lie. "I'll be fine though" I tell her trying my best to smile.
"It really was out of character though" she says.
"I know but I just couldn't help it, I just got really annoyed at everyone that I just snapped" I say honestly.
"You can talk to me babe if there's anything worrying you. I mean I know I tend to hide away sometimes when I've got problems but usually you tell me if something troubles you" she says.
"I know but I'd rather just move on now and forget about what happened" I say.
"Ok that's cool, I'll stop talking about it" Brittany says. "Although I do know a way where you could relieve some of that stress" she smiles.
"I don't know if I really want to go a run right now" I reply.
"I'm not talking about a run; I'm talking about something much better" she smirks before slowly caressing my thigh.
"Oh" I say just catching onto what she means.
"Instead of going over plans for the actual wedding ceremony today then why don't we practice for the honeymoon?" she suggests.
"I could do that" I smirk.
"Good" she smiles while changing position on the couch to lie down. She then pulls me on top of her and buries her hands in my hair as she kisses me.
"Are we just going to do it here?" I ask pulling away slightly.
"It's our house so why not, it's not like we'll be disturbed or anything" she smiles and I nod before leaning down to kiss her. She slides her hands down to my butt and gently squeezes it before wrapping her legs around my waist.
"I can't get the zipper on your jeans down" I say between kisses.
"Just tug on it if it's stuck" Brittany replies before kissing me again.
"No I mean from this angle" I reply while pulling away.
"Why don't I just quickly take them off first then?" she suggests.
"I think the reason we never have sex in here is because it never works out right, how about we just go upstairs?" I state.
"Fine" she replies while getting off the couch. "You know we should buy a bigger couch at some point" she says as we make our way upstairs.
"I do have to agree actually" I reply.
"Anyway we have more pressing things to attend to right now" Brittany smiles while wrapping her arms around me.
"That we do" I smile back.
Before I know it, we're kissing passionately against the door while stripping one another out of our clothes. The minute we get to the bed, Brittany straddles me and begins leaving a trail of kisses all down my body. I must have been lost in my thoughts for a minute because the next thing I know, Brittany is wrapping her lips around my member.
"Uh…" I moan out as I feel Brittany begin sucking on my member.
For some reason as I'm lying there, my mind drifts off to what happened at lunch today. I still fine that it was really rude of Quinn turning up for a free lunch and doing nothing but talk about her pregnancy. I invited everyone there to talk about my wedding and I thought since I was putting them through it then I would buy them lunch as well but Quinn has went a step too far. She not only got a free lunch but she also got the chance to talk about her life and how great that is. I didn't think it was very nice that she…
"Hello, earth to Santana!" Brittany says loudly which quickly brings me out of my thoughts.
"Sorry what?" I ask.
"Aren't you enjoying this?" she asks and for a minute I'm confused before I quickly remember what we're doing…or rather what she's doing.
"Of course I'm enjoying it" I state.
"Look you can just tell me and I'll stop, I'd rather not humiliate myself so if it is uncomfortable then just say" she says.
"It's not uncomfortable" I reply. "I'm sorry but my mind was just elsewhere for a moment but that doesn't mean I don't like what you're doing" I say honestly.
"Ok" she nods. Just as she leans down to kiss me, she pulls away again.
"What's wrong?" I ask.
"I'm just going to stop because this isn't working anymore, my head is now elsewhere because I keep thinking I'm not pleasing you but you're not saying anything because you don't want to hurt my feelings" she says while grabbing her bathrobe and putting it on.
"Babe I'm sorry" I say sitting up.
"I know but when the mood is gone, it's gone" she sighs while sitting back down on the bed.
"Ok" I nod. I wait a minute before I straddle Brittany's hips and then slowly move my hands to the tie of her robe and untie it before pushing the material to the side.
"What are you doing?" Brittany asks.
"Just relax" I smile at her. "I promise you did make me feel good a minute ago" I say while kissing down her body.
"Santana you've been hot and cold with me all day so I can't just switch on and off whenever your moods change" she tells me.
"I didn't mean to be hot and cold, I'm just so pissed off at Quinn" I sigh while sitting upwards.
"Talk to me then, don't bottle it up" Brittany says grabbing my hands.
"Can you just let me make things up to you right now…please?" I ask with a hopeful smile.
"I think we should…" she stops talking suddenly when I place my hands on her breasts and caress them, "talk" she finishes after taking in a large gulp of air and swallowing.
"Are you sure it's talking you really want?" I ask as I gently run my hands up and down her body.
"Oh who am I kidding" she sighs before pulling me closer and kissing me.
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Saturday 29th September 2018
Brittany is spending the day with her family today so I thought I might as well hang out with Eva or something since it's my day off. For some unknown reason Eva wants to bring up what happened last Saturday with my little outburst. I was hoping to move on from it since it was over a week ago but I'm guessing since I haven't talked to Eva since Saturday then she wants to know why I reacted like that.
"Why did you react like that last week at lunch?" Eva asks.
"Because it was annoying me that I asked everyone to lunch to talk about the wedding and you all thought it was nice to get a free lunch and talk about something completely different. If I wanted everyone to discuss Quinn's baby then I would have arranged lunch for everyone but me and made you all pay your own" I state.
"I don't think that is why you reacted like that" Eva says.
"That's up to you then but it is the truth" I state.
"No it's not, there's something else wrong I think and that's just a cover up. You'd be able to look me in the eye when you talk if you weren't lying" she says.
"Eva I'm not lying" I say.
"Tell me the truth, what really is wrong with you?" Eva asks.
"Nothing" I state.
"Don't lie to me Santana, I know something is going on" she says.
"There is nothing going on Eva so just stop, ok" I say getting frustrated.
"Santana I'm your sister so I've grown up with you for years so I know when something is bothering you" she says. "I'm not going to tell anyone so you can talk to me you know, it stays between you and I."
"There's nothing to talk about so for the last time, stop" I say.
"Please just talk to me Santana" she says. "It might help so just tell me."
"I'm jealous of Quinn ok, are you happy now" I say almost shouting.
"What do you mean you're jealous of her?" Eva asks confused.
"I want a baby" I sigh.
"Oh" Eva says understanding.
"I'm never ever going to rush Brittany into anything but I can't help but feel jealous of Quinn" I state. "I just figured I would be the one to have kids first out of all of us or at least have them by now, I mean I'm 28."
"Have you told Brittany about this?" Eva asks me.
"No because you know how much she got scared when I proposed so how is she going to feel if I suddenly blurt out that I want children?" I say.
"That was over a year ago Santana and she's just proposed to you now so if I were you I would talk to her about it" she says.
"I don't know if I can just now" I say. Of course I don't want to lie to Brittany but I also don't want to freak her out either. She did say the other day that she doesn't know how Jason would cope and he's a year older than her so I worry that she feels the same, perhaps she doesn't think she could cope with a baby right now.
"If it affects you how it did the other day then perhaps not telling her isn't helping matters either" Eva points out.
"I don't know what to do anymore because I'll be 29 in a four months but at the same time Brittany isn't even 21 yet" I state.
"Would waiting a few years for children be so bad, I mean it's not like you're old or anything" she says.
"I know 28 is still young but if I want a few children then I don't want to be really old when the youngest goes to college or something. Brittany and I always said we'd want at least three or four kids since we've both got three siblings and we like a big family but what if we wait too long and I'm already old when the fourth comes along" I say.
"You need to discuss this with Brittany I think" Eva says.
"Brittany doesn't want to have child after child so say we did space them out a bit then what if I'm forty or something when one of them comes, that means I'll be in my late fifties when they go off to college. Look at my parents right now, they're only fifty-two and about to be grandparents but at fifty-one I could have an eleven year old or something" I say. "I mean Brittany will only be thirty-two when I'm forty so it'll be ok for her" I state.
"I don't know what to say Santana because Brittany doesn't finish college until two years away so I really don't think she's going to want children until after then. I know personally I wouldn't want children when I was in the middle of a degree because it'd be too stressful not to mention affect your finances significantly if there was only one full time wage coming in" Eva says.
"Basically I'm screwed then?" I sigh.
"Not necessarily, I mean there is plenty of people having children in their forties plus it's not like Brittany is going to make you wait another twelve years, it just might mean your youngest child won't be born until then if you know what I mean" she says.
"Ok that's true but it doesn't help the fact that I think I might scare Brittany if I talked about children already. Plus seeing my brother with a child is going to make me want a child more and sooner" I state.
"Different people are ready at different times so I think the only way to know for sure is to talk to Brittany. Just let her know you don't want to rush her into anything but you do want to know what she thinks about kids and how far off it might be" Eva says.
"I guess I could maybe talk to her" I say still unsure of what to do.
Uh-oh, is Santana moving quicker than Brittany in the relationship? Anyway let me know what you think of the chapter.